Some people think that when two little kids around the same age engage in sexual activities, neither of them know any better.
Maybe with some cases, but this is not one of those cases.
I was around 6 years old, a very innocent child, and didn’t even know what sex was. My cousin Peter who was around the same age as me, grew up in a very different house from me. He knew exactly what sex was from friends, from the things he watched, etc.
He and I were over at our Grandma’s house for Christmas one year in a separate room from our parents watching TV. Suddenly Peter leaned over and asked if I wanted to do something with him. I said sure, and he pulled down his pants and told me to put my mouth on his penis. Like I said, I didn’t know anything about sex but I felt that this was wrong so I said no. Peter kept begging me to and I felt so uncomfortable but finally I gave in and did so.
I remember feeling pain and saying “ow stop it” but he wouldn’t until we heard my Grandma coming down the hall and he quickly stopped. He kept asking me to do other things but luckily I had to leave.
It haunts me to this day, because I had no idea what I was doing but he did!
A few years later his younger sister told me that Peter came into her room one night and forced her to have sex with him and then said that she would get in trouble if she told anyone.
Those memories make me so upset and writing this actually does make me feel better.
But I don’t know what to do now.