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Date Rape

It happened about a month ago now. This guy, whose name I will not state, added me on my Facebook and messaged me. We started talking for about 2 weeks and I was really into him, he invited me to his friends house for a few drinks one night and I went, I trusted him. I had a few drinks, as expected, and he was really distant with me. I don’t remember much of the night after my third drink. Yet, I remember asking to go to lie down for a while.

I woke up later that night with him kissing my neck, I was so confused, looking around me wondering what had happened, how my jeans had got off, why I didn’t remember getting to this stage. He said my name, ‘Leah, look into my eyes.’ I really liked this guy and because I trusted him he got me focused and simply asked, ‘Are you on the pill?’ I replied and he then asked, ‘Are you sure you want me to do this?’ I didn’t know what was going on but because he made me feel like I was doing this with him I said ‘Just go’. Those words still haunt me. I remember trying to stay awake but now I know I just couldn’t. I will always remember the look on his face, the last thing I had saw as I passed out again, the look in his eyes as if he knew I was going to pass out and as if he was just thinking in his mind of what he was going to do to me.

The next morning I woke up, confused and more or less forgetting about what had happened. He didn’t write to me after that. I sent him about 4 text messages willing him to reply, I hadn’t realized what had happened. I passed the forgetfulness off as drink and the bruises off as falling. About 4 days later my mum knew something was up with me, she googled date rape drugs and I then realized I had had all the symptoms that night. Then it hit me, what he had done to me. I looked at the bruises on my body and realized how they were shaped like finger marks, on funny places in my body, that I couldn’t have received from falling alone. I felt so stupid for not realizing what had happened.

Of course, I went to the police as soon as possible but all my clothes had been washed and it was too late to check my system for drugs. I don’t think my case will go to court, due to the text messages in evidence against me and the fact I hadn’t realized it soon enough. I will never forgive myself, and anyone else this has happened to I’m so sorry. I’ve read online for cases where people haven’t realized what had happened and didn’t succeed in finding any, causing me to feel even more stupidity. That’s why I’m writing this here, so if this has happened to you, you know you’re not alone.

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  • Alissa Ackerman
  • katrine

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