I need to share this on here so someone just anyone can tell me what to do. Yes, I was raped. I was at the park. I was laying down by a lake looking at the sky and it was about time to go home. I had closed my eyes just for a second and there he was…my rapist.
He started to undress me and I was pleading. I was scared and I was a virgin. He tied my arms. I started crying, then he entered me. I screamed and he covered my mouth. He cut me and I kept my eyes closed because I didn’t want to see any of it.
I was young, and I never told my parents or any of my friends. I’d crying, cut, panic attacks, anxiety attacks, depression, and lack of sleep. I still haven’t told them. I’ve told some internet friends and one of them said “I think you do it for attention.” I started to cry when I saw that. It hurt to know that, that’s what they thought. It didn’t help that a few days before that I’d tried to commit suicide. I never told my parents in the fear that they wouldn’t believe me or just treat me differently. That comment has only made me more scared. I’ve planned on killing myself. I can’t handle the pain or pressure much longer. I’ve had nightmares about this. I need help. I just can’t take it anymore, someone just anyone, can you help me please?
— Taylor, age 19