I just watched the Brave Miss World on Netflix. I was raped four times by four different men when I was between the ages of 16 and 22. I am now 44. I thought I was over all of it. The documentary showed me just how NOT over it I am. These situations have wreaked havoc on my entire life without me realizing it. And even though I know in my mind I was raped, in my heart I blame myself.
The sad part is that when I first logged on to this site, I saw the link to the Facebook page. My first thought was, “I’d like to join that page.” Followed immediately by my second thought, “I can’t do that because then everyone will know I was raped.”
I’m terrified to even hit the submit button to share this little bit. I guess if you get this, I will have been successful in submitting it. I have a long way to go to heal.