Raped by a caregiver at 6 years old and then again after he was released from captivity. Second rape was also kidnapping and stabbing to punish me for telling the first time. I almost died. I blocked the trauma from my memory. My mother tried to get me help but when I became a teenager she called me Slut and told me I would one day remember why. I don’t speak to her anymore. Raped again at 19 while at university. Friends didn’t want to help me because they felt it was only date rape and maybe I just wanted attention. I gained weight to look unattractive so men would leave me alone. I hoped to find a man who would love me for me. Instead I was broken and alone for many years. I lost the weight to get healthy and tried to be conservative with my appearance but only found more abuse. Started to feel like rape was common and difficult to prove. Many friends have experienced it in some way. For some time I thought I caused i t because it happened multiple times. Took me over a decade to find a gentleman and now I am married with a beautiful daughter. My husband is our protector. I can’t let me daughter become a young women in the world the way it is.