I was assaulted almost a year ago to this date, and no one believes me.
My partner at the time, a girl that had been my friend for four years before asking me to be in a relationship with her, was extremely manipulative.
She made me hate myself, made me believe I was nothing without her and that if I wasn’t pleasing her I was doing nothing of worth.
She wanted sex- I hated it. I’d been sexually abused before, as a child, and it makes me sick to entertain the idea of having sex with anyone.
But regardless, she wanted sex. She groomed me to please her, demanded that I either had sex with her or she’d leave me. She was the only person I had. I couldn’t survive if she left me.
There was no violent force. I was not restrained. I didn’t cry.
But the entire time I told myself I didn’t want it, I told her I was uncomfortable, it didn’t feel good, I wanted to stop.
She didn’t listen, she didn’t have to. She knew I’d keep going no matter what.
I wish I could stop myself, but I needed her.
— Survivor, age 15