I was ten years old, my cousin was fourteen. I remember I was sleeping in his younger sisters room when he came in to see me. I remember waking up with his hand on my vagina and his tongue in my mouth. As soon as I woke up he had backed off. He told me he was looking for his DVD. I was in shock and just sat there. I couldn’t believe what had happened so I had no reply. He left the room and his younger sister was there laying beside me sleeping. For some reason I didn’t let it bother me and I went back to sleep. Later that night he came back in. He told me he wanted something from me. He was almost in tears. I knew what he wanted and I was scared. Luckily I told him that if he took a step nearer I’d scream. He left me. I couldn’t sleep that night. I got up the next day for school and I remember telling my best friend. To this day, my cousin still doesn’t know what he had done wrong. It pains me to say that that night ruined me forever. I was never able to look him in the eye again, never able to explain why I wouldn’t talk to him. He lives every day happily while I can’t stop thinking about that one night. I wish I had the courage to make my voice heard.