January 19th, 2017
Afraid of Him
First of all hi, I always felt the need to share my story. when i was 17 i was dating this really nice guy (at least i thought he was nice at the time.) A few months before my 18th birthday we were in my car having a nice conversation...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
December 10th, 2014
First College Party
I was not much of a party girl my freshman year of college. My friends heard of a party off campus and said they would not take no for an answer. We got dressed and even bought our own alcohol as m best friend was worried that the drinks may...
May 25th, 2016
Trapped In a Fantasy World
I grew up with my grandma and visiting my granddad every second weekend. Wasn’t exactly the normal growing up. When I was 13 years old I moved in with my Uncle and Aunty. They had 3 other children. His name was Chris and hers Karen. Chris told me he wanted...
March 5th, 2018
Liberating Moment
I watched your documentary today and it was liberating. I too was a victim of rape. I was molested from age 11 to 17 by my biological father. He also molested my 2 younger sisters. My mother when she found out stayed with him. I have went through so many...
April 11th, 2017
Childhood Trauma
When I was 5 to 7 years old some one I don’t know who touched me hit me and just plain abused me I know it was a guy and now I’m scared of guys and don’t know what to do. — Janae, age 12
August 19th, 2016
I Thought I Knew Him
Hello there, I first want to say it’s difficult for me to still share this because it’s still fresh in my mind but if it helps others to be warned then I feel its important for me to speak up. So it all begin on POF. I had went through...
July 9th, 2014
Something I’ve Never Shared
My story isn’t something I’ve ever talked about, so this feels very strange to me, but I just watched Brave Miss World and I was completely moved. I was 16 when I was raped. I shudder to even say that’s what happened to me. For a very long time I’ve...
April 15th, 2016
This is MY story
My name is Emmalin. My sister Kylie shared her story in here “my coach my rapist”. I am 17 and a junior in high school. My best friends are my sisters Taelyn, Kylie, and Hannah. Hannah is in the grade below me. I remember how much pain our family went...
May 7th, 2015
Multiple Assaults
When I was a child I was assaulted by my mother’s boyfriend for months. I told no one because he beat my mom and told me if I said anything he would kill her, so I kept quite for years. I was an adult when I finally told anyone and...
After seven years and two children together, I broke up with my boyfriend. I had never really loved him and felt that I had stayed with him because I was weak and on some level I knew that getting away wouldn’t be easy. He harassed me and stalked me after...
September 7th, 2018
And It Continues
I’m 22 years old. The first time i was molested I was six years old. Over the years I was molested several more times by different people. Almost as if people could see an invisible target on my back that meant I was easy prey. Each time I vowed that...
February 14th, 2017
The Park
It sounds crazy but in some way it feels kind of good to write this down here. When I was 14 I knew a Muslim boy in school. He was super sweet and we were really good friends with each other. At one point he wanted to have a relationship...
March 17th, 2018
Do I even belong here?
I am not sure if my story belongs here or not. but this was the first place I found to share it. I volunteer at a site that pairs it’s volunteers with people in need for anonymous private conversations. as a rule it is a great site. but I found...
I was 5 years old when I was first molested by my second step dad. My mother use to work at the prison. She left us alone with my step dad we was watching wrestling. I was in my pink and white night gown. I was sitting between my brother...
November 15th, 2014
Just a Child
I am twenty-four, and have the unfortune of stating that I was raped twice. The first time i was thirteen years old, just a child, a virgin, with dreams of becoming a writer. I had my first boyfriend. He too was 13. A lot of the girls & boys at...
April 6th, 2017
A Private College; A Private Rape
It was in October of my freshman year at college. I majored in Psychology/Sociology and wanted a law degree. I was in Criminology class when I met this guy. He was a “bad boy”; didn’t show up to class that often but wrestled. He grew up in Chicago and had...
July 24th, 2014
Repressed Memory
I feel like an impostor, like I might not even deserve this space, but I don’t know. I don’t remember anything but tiny bits from my childhood. Part of that is because the divorce from age 9-11 was so central to my life, partly because I think I have repressed...
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 años. Viví una situación muy confusa cuando era niña casi 9 o 10 años. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentían con golosinas, ver televisión y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
January 26th, 2014
Looking for a lawyer & advocate
My name is Schlomit. I was Raped at 3.5 yrs by an 18 year old who was on some kind of drugs. He tied me up and blindfolded me and after all the pain of what he put me through I was lucky to convince him to let me go...
July 11th, 2016
Date Rape
Right now, I’m on this sight to help me with my victim impact statement. And I suddenly felt the need to share, there are so many brave people on here. November 30th I was raped. I’m 16. And we went to school together. He was 17. And he came from...
December 1st, 2017
Remember as a victim you have done...
There are so many opinions. She wore a short skirt. She didn’t say no. She wanted it. Yep… I believe it can be complicated unless you are in the middle of the situation. Then it is very clear. You have said yes or no, or your body has indicated yes...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
January 7th, 2016
Incest & Date Rape
As a young girl, from age 5-11, my stepfather repeatedly molested me when my Mom wasn’t around. I didn’t tell my Mom until I was 15, and she had divorced him. She still denies it ever happened. At 17, on the night I graduated from high school, I went to...
February 25th, 2015
Drugged and Gang Raped
The guy I met, I thought was a nice guy. Very undercover, nice, seemed genuine. I met him, he was walking a baby Pitbull. I have a passion for these dogs, rescued some, and have one myself. I invited him to come to visit me, as I had not been...
September 30th, 2016
Hollywood’s Lost Angels
I was a starving actress in Los Angeles, trying to break into the world of movies and television. Like many other girls I was lured into the glamour and mystery of the Hollywood mansion parties. I was befriended by a famous in the 90s kid celebrity named “Gorey Peldman” who...
September 26th, 2018
We met at the bar
He bought me a drink and we played shuffle board. All the while laughing and flirting. He was very charming. We took an Uber back to his place. We go inside and start making out. The drinks are all hitting me and feeling good. As we start to have sex...
September 25th, 2017
Walk Me?
Saturday, I was out at Karaoke @ Rigby’s Bar with a set of close friends. I had drinks, but wasn’t drunk. I had to work in the morning, so I wasn’t staying late. I was worried about getting raped on the way to my car, so I asked for an...
January 5th, 2017
Out of Control
I’m a 19 y/o freshman in college, and this was the first New Years Eve that I haven’t spent with my parents. I went with two of my friends to a frat party at our state college. I told my parents I was staying at a girl friends dorm afterwards,...
September 6th, 2018
Never thought I could be a victim
Victim. As I live through this new vocabulary, which I had somehow managed to never befriend in all these years of pain, trouble, disappointment, heartbreak, disenchantment, depression even… I struggle to accept, this truth, this world view, this reality which has smacked me right across my face, my soul, my...
August 19th, 2010
innocent
i was only 12 years old when the rape had begun. I finally put an end to the rape around the age of 21 years old. I had never told anybody about the rape and the raper, I was so afraid that someone, and worse of all my parents and...
August 12th, 2016
Young and Unaware
I’m 19 now and it took 4 years for me to process what had happened. I really only became aware of it 1 year ago. But when I was 14, I was dating a boy who was 17. I had lied about my age and he thought I was 15,...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
November 30th, 2016
My Side
Only three weeks ago, I had my first kiss. About 3 minutes later, I had my first sexual experience, against my will. It was the Friday before Halloween, and I was spending it with kids from my school, all of whom I felt comfortable around and felt safe with. All...
October 9th, 2017
New Years Eve
We had gone to the big gathering to drink, party, and watch fireworks as 12 passed. There was about 12 or so in our group, but a lot got separated in the crowds, which got more solid as the moment approached, meanwhile everyone got more liquids as well. Midnight rang...
March 15th, 2016
Ashamed Afraid Angry Grey
When I was 19 years old, I got my first job working in a fast food restaurant. I was so happy to have gotten the job. I was so proud to surprise my father with this news as he’d helped me in the past with work and this time I’d...
March 8th, 2018
Victimization
I went to San Francisco to help a friend move. Afterwards we grabbed a beer. I didn’t even finish half of my beer and I don’t remember much of what happened. A man named Oleg started chatting with my friend and I. I told him I was married and had...
May 2nd, 2017
Be Careful Who You Trust
Be careful who you trust, they could end up betraying you. At least that is what happened to me. My mother had been dating this guy for almost 7 years. They had 2 kids together. I had trusted him life he was my father. I guess I shouldn’t have. When...
January 25th, 2018
Was it rape?
I used to never understand the word rape. I used to never think it could happen to me. Too be honest, I still don’t understand it all I know is what happened was wrong. It was six years ago. It was a warm night in may I was at my...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
February 4th, 2014
He Was My Hero
Hi, I am 15 years old from Netanya, Israel. From age 5 to age 7 I sexual abuse by my neighbor ,who was 17. I was a child, I did not understand, he was my hero … He knew what he wanted and what he is doing .. Every word...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
May 28th, 2018
Rape Survivor
August 14th, 2017 August 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with friends and laughter, then ended with fear, pain, and loneliness. I never had guessed it would be a day that I would never forget. The 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with laughter and friends,...
I have been raped multiple times. For the longest time I just acted like it wasn’t a big deal. I didn’t think about it and tried to forget about it all together. However, in reality, I was terrified. The time that scared me the most was when I was at...
January 27th, 2017
A Guy With Crooked Teeth
I was molested and almost raped at seven or eight years old. My dad made me take judo classes when I was six because he wanted me to be able to protect myself. It’s a bit ironic that this happened in the judo-cabin, just weeks before I was going to...
April 16th, 2018
He doesn’t even know he raped me
I was very drunk one night at a party and as I swiped through my tinder I matched with this boy. He messaged me really quickly and told me he was a senior and that he thought I was pretty and that we should hang out. I was really drunk...
Born A Girl When I was 10, I noticed men looking at me differently When I was 10 to 12 men and boys of all ages honked their horns, whistled and yelled profanities at me When I was 13 my friend and I were walking home in the daylight, when...
November 22nd, 2014
I Thought He Loved Me
I don’t know how to start this… Well, I had a horrible teenage life getting bullied…and all I ever wanted was love and to be wanted. I would try to fit in, but I would attract the people that would see me as an easy target. I got raped by...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
July 19th, 2018
‘Were you drinking?’
Why is it every question people start with when you say you were raped is ‘Were you drinking?’? Yes. I was drinking. Does that make me any less of a human being? Does that make me a willing participant to such an act? I shared my story with one person,...
February 15th, 2016
My Brother, My Rapist
I was 3 years old when my brother raped me, he had 14 years old. Many times I asking myself why I had to remember all the details: my feels, my pain, his smell, the sounds.. all. Could be more easy if I just grow up without this memories, unfortunately...
April 24th, 2018
14 year old raped at school
I was a freshman girl. I was 14. I stayed after school to retake a test and pay my art fee. As I was walking towards the art building, a guy that I’ve only talked to a few times appeared. He told me he had something awesome to show me...
March 8th, 2017
I Repressed Everything… Until Now
I was fourteen and had already lost my virginity to a guy I barely knew, liked, or cared about. I was never one of those girls who saw themselves saving it until marriage. Knowing what I know now, I believe my first sexual assault happened much earlier in my life...
December 4th, 2017
I’m so sorry
I’ve never told anyone my story- I brushed it to the side, hoping I’d find strength in myself to forget. I have a little sister, she needs someone to look up to- It can’t be me when I’m suffering. This exact day a year ago, my life changed forever- I...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
June 2nd, 2015
My Army Fiance
I was 18. He was 21. He had been back from a deployment over in the middle east for 2 and a half. We started dating after spending time on the phone and in person. We were great, no problems at all. Except I refused to have sex. I am...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
September 5th, 2018
Raped in Foster care
My name is Tobi, and I’m a rape victim. That being the said, I will only discuss how child protection services failed to keep me or my daughter safe in the care of child services in Stone County, Wiggins Mississippi. The address at the time was 718 Newton Street Wiggins...
April 7th, 2016
Knowledge is Power
Summer of 2015 my cousin brought his best friend to our family’s 4th of July celebration. His friend had always been flirty with me, but I had a boyfriend before this summer and he had a girlfriend. After he found out I was single on 4th of July, he started...
February 18th, 2015
Survivor of Rape
After my rape, I tried to pretend like everything was okay and stuffed the pain away somewhere deep inside. I finally wrote my story almost a year ago to a friend of mine. At the time I thought I was strong and “over things”, but the truth was, I wasn’t....
February 26th, 2016
Stupid Coward
It began when my mother re-married and I suddenly got an older step brother. At first, I was delighted to have a new family member since I’ve always been a single child. We got along pretty well and we were pretty close, he would take me to shopping or to...
June 16th, 2015
I Hate My Father
I want to start by saying; it was not my father who raped me. It was New Years Eve, 08/09, I had just turned 16 and was on Holiday visiting my father. We were at the beach celebrating, until my father got really drunk. He is an alcoholic, which I...
June 26th, 2014
Raped at 16
I was sixteen taken to a party by a girlfriend that I trusted. When we showed up there were on 2 men there that I never met. We drank and got drunk, I fell asleep and woke up in the middle of the night and one of the guys were...
November 13th, 2017
Not friends
I was drinking pretty hard for a couple weeks straight, and drugs on and off, this is before I started treatment for bipolar disorder. I was very hypersexual. I came on to a longtime friend of mine, who habitually used me for money, etc anyway. Later I told him, we...
April 21st, 2017
A Year After
My journal entry on April 18, 2017 -About a year after submitting my “first story” on this site I just made a beautiful, clean cut, with a blade I took from my Mom’s drawer, right below the most prominent, bulging stretch mark on my right hip. I did it to...
June 9th, 2015
It’s A Long Story
The first time I was raped I was 7, it was my next door neighbor. I trusted him naively. I trusted him like I trusted everyone I met. I didn’t know what some people were capable of, I didn’t understand. I went next door, I wanted to see his sister,...
May 8th, 2017
A Nightmare
I had just broken up with my boyfriend who I found was cheating on me so I went out to a local bar to meet up with someone I considered a close friend who was the bar promoter. Hoping a night of fun drinks,dancing,a cute dress on would be simple...
This is very hard story for me to tell but after finding this site and reading the other stories I’ve built up the courage to tell my story. I didn’t start dating until I was 17 and this was my first boyfriend, he seemed sweet at first always able to...
April 23rd, 2015
My Boyfriend Raped Me
This all began when I met a guy at the age of 15. I met him through friends and all was great. He was so nice, attractive, wealthy, he really put on a good show for the first month. I was a virgin when we got together (obviously.) We had...
In October 2012, a guy added me on Facebook. At the time i was only 16 and living in Sydney, Australia. This guy told me he was 17. We were talking for a week. He sounded nice and we agreed to meet up. He said he could drive and pick...
February 27th, 2018
Sexual Assault??
I don’t know what to call this. I am 18 year old male. I was at a mates house and it was a massive gathering of people. I ended up passing out three hours in and spending the rest of the night on the mattress in the spare bedroom. My...
July 5th, 2016
I Am Finally FREE
What a trick. To beat and humiliate your baby throughout her formative years and then, after she is literally crippled by your hands, not just emotionally, but also with a brutal physical injury, you tell her she is too broken. To remind me I am other, to remind me I...
January 18th, 2016
I Am a Survivor…
I had taken the purity ring promise when I was 13. I was first assaulted when I was 7. Then had a bad experience with a guy when I was 12. Now at 16, I was raped by my now ex boyfriend in my own basement at home… Just days...
July 28th, 2014
הטרידו אותי
היי לינור קודם כל אני חייבת להגיד שראיתי את הסרט שלך אולי מאות פעמים וכל פעם אני מתרגשת מחדש. אני בת 13 ולפני כמה ימים הטרידו אותי וזה לא יוצא לי מהראש זה הלך ככה הלכתי עם חברה שלי לקניון ואז איש מבוגר פנה אלי ואמר לי שיש לי יופי...
September 28th, 2016
An Unknown Face & Hands
I was almost killed. I never thought I would utter those words let alone write them on a public website like this. I’ve written here before but that was a while ago, about a rape that happened almost 3 years ago. It’s happened countless times in my life already, I’ve...
April 12th, 2017
Lost Trust In Men For The Longest...
I was 8 years old when me, my mom, brother and sister went to visit my dad and his family in Arizona. My siblings and I wanted to stay the night with our cousins. My mom and dad left. When we were all asleep my uncle came into the room...
March 23rd, 2016
An Abnormal Reaction
So this entire story starts at the beginning of this summer. Before the summer started I had been dating around and seeing a few guys casually but there was no one I liked. All of these endeavors were super innocent as we would do things like go to the movies...
October 22nd, 2017
Denial
On October 29 2016 I was raped after a Halloween party. I had gone back a dorm with my friend and the guy she had been seeing, I was very intoxicated at the time. I stupidly had a threesome with my friend and the guy. After a little while my...
June 13th, 2016
Violent Rape
am 20 years old. This year, 8 February 2016, I walked out my back door to check on my washing. An African male smashed a beer bottle over my head and another one caught me as I lost my balance and ushered me inside. They shuffled me through to the...
October 23rd, 2017
Emotional Abuse
1) He was sexually aroused by fat women and weight gain 2) He asked me to gain weight, and when I declined, he accused me of suppressing/demonizing his sexuality, and damaging his psychosocial wellbeing 3) I regressed into eating disorder behavior, to justify my refusal 4) I lost so much...
October 9th, 2018
Sexually Assaulted as a Child
Im a 39 year old woman from India. I was sexually abused at 8 years old by my 15 year old cousin for a period of 6 months. My cousin lived with his mother in the same apartment building as my family. We used to visit each other’s homes quite...
June 30th, 2014
Catfished
I was raped when I was 16 and again when I was 17 but now I am in my 20s. When I was 16 I started looking for companion ship online. I was always a socially anxious person so it was a way, for me, to meet new people. I...
July 25th, 2018
I was sexually assaulted
Two years ago when I moved to LA, I never thought that my life would change forever in one second. One night i got home to find my roommate with a couple of friends drinking and partying. Just wanting to finally connect with my roommate I drank, I honestly don’t...
My best friend invited me to Las Vegas with her for her cousins 21st birthday. They had rented a house out there and because both of us were underage, we decided to just stay at the house and drink. Both of us got really drunk and I can’t remember some...
March 23rd, 2016
Afraid of the Truth
i’m 28 years old and have been in trauma therapy for close to three years since its happen, and i still have a very hard time speaking about it. it happened while i was in israel for a 2 week vacation during college. i had had a few drinks and...
October 13th, 2016
I Didn’t See It In Time
I’m just some normal person. That’s what I always think of myself. I have a guy who loves me, and has never hurt me. My best friend, on the other hand, didn’t get the best experience with her boyfriend. Everything went pretty ok with them at first, but I didn’t...
April 20th, 2009
Thank you for speaking out…
I would like to first of all, praise all the women who’ve shared their stories on this website. It is a brave thing to discuss a topic so horrific and traumatizing. Speaking from personal experience, I know what kind of strength and courage that is needed to do such a...
October 9th, 2015
I Thought He Loved Me
I was sixteen and in a relationship with my ex boyfriend. We were only dating for a couple months at the time but I loved him already. We had many mutual friends and we lived in the same city. He treated me like a princess. He would buy me nice...
September 8th, 2015
The Day I Was Raped and Abandoned
1.9.07 It is the same every year. Every year the leaves turn, and there is that slight twinge in my leg, a hesitant reminder of times past. Every year as the winds change, there is that slight catch when you take a deep breath. A catch not from the cold...
I was a 15 year old virgin. Went with my brother to my 27 year old cousin’s house. I knew my cousin very well because I lived with them until I was 5 or 6 even calling his parents mom and dad. I decided to try alcohol for the first...
February 28th, 2016
Something so Horrible Could Make Me This...
I am a survivor of childhood trauma, and while working toward recovery from this trauma, I was raped a couple months ago. Ironically, the assault happened while I was traveling and interviewing to work toward my exciting career goals. I gave clear messages to the man who raped me that...
March 11th, 2015
This Is My Story
When I was born my mom said when she first held me she didn’t want me that there was something about me she didn’t like. She named me after her and gave me to my dad to do what he wanted with me. I was raped by him from birth...
June 15th, 2014
Innocence
I was raped repeatedly at the age of 8 by a neighbor teenager right after my mother had left our family, and I was sexually molested by a man who was 22 years older than me, a trusted father figure within a small religious community, when I was 16. I...
August 23rd, 2017
Does “No” mean nothing?
No should mean no, right? 2 weeks before the start of my Sophomore year I was sexually assaulted. I wanted to hang out with my best friend I went to high school with before school started. The original plan was that she was going to a sleepover at my house...
April 15th, 2014
A Journal of a Wayward Child
I have a long history of abuse and rape in my family and myself (44 years for me) and would like to have the opportunity to share my story with women around the world. Forgiveness has been the first step in healing and am now in a woman’s shelter beginning...
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
March 10th, 2017
Okay, Not Okay
Last January was the first anniversary for me since I was sexually assaulted for the first time in my life. I am straight, and I was assaulted by my female friend. Though I want to/feel that I need to share what had happened to me last year, I barely remember...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
By BF and me went to drink beers at the Door to Hell, a cave in the woods(it might have a name, but that’s what we called it). Basically a private place for the kids to drink, and the homeless clean the clans for salvage cash. We all drank a...
Hey ! I been rape by my long time friend that I trusted an respected..I never thought he cud of done something like this to me but after time past I realised for him it was a normal thing …well it was day like every other day ..he wanted to...
February 6th, 2018
What happened to me doesn’t have to...
There are so many times I imagine writing #MeToo on my social media, but I can’t. If my secret came out, it would destroy my family. My Mum would be devastated, and I know she’d blame herself for not noticing. She would feel that she’d failed as a mother, because...
November 23rd, 2014
In The Past
I started dating my boyfriend when I was 18 years old. He seemed really nice, caring and I loved him the way you do as a fresh 18 year old. He quickly started to change and began showing controlling traits. I thought this was normal as this was my first...
August 7th, 2018
I wish I never knew
I don’t remember it or how old I was but in fact I try and block it from my memorise, desperately trying to forget that it ever occured. All I remember was my mum telling me a couple years later a small detail from an incident that happened to me...
December 22nd, 2016
Police Officer/Date Rape
I was wondering what is the point of living anymore? Where to go and what to do when the police, lawyers, and judges are protecting a rapist because his daddy knows them all? They tell you to move on, talk to somebody, blah blah blah like I have not done...
August 17th, 2015
He Took My Virginity
I was never the type of girl who would sleep with anyone. I was, what the boys used to call me back in high school, ‘frigid’. In reality, I was just shy. I believed in intimacy as being something between you, and your partner with whom you loved and cherished....
November 27th 2015. I still haven’t been able to call it what it was out loud. Rape. I was a freshman in college, but back home for thanksgiving break, and one of my close friends had a party where lots of people came, and many were drinking. I chose not...
February 5th, 2017
He’s Your Husband, It’s Not Rape
I was married and had 2 children. It was 1974, our children were 3 1/2 and 1 year old and we were both 24 when we separated and began divorce proceedings. I asked for $200 a month for child support no alimony. I was to keep all household items and...
November 24th, 2015
The First Time
I was 6, when my family was hosting a religious prayer. About a hundred people were invited. And in went on for almost a month. People would come and go. There was a priest, who would make me sit on his lap whoever he got the chance. One day, my...
August 23rd, 2016
Multiples Agressions Sexuelles
J’ai 31 ans et je suis afro-canadienne. J’ai été agressée sexuellement à plusieurs reprises. La première fois, je devais avoir 8 ans. J’étais dans un autobus loué par mes parents, bondé de monde. On allait à la campagne assister au mariage d’une parente. Mi-trajet, mon père a pris la place...
April 6th, 2018
A friend who is a rapist
I’m a survivor maybe not as strong as I was but I will work to make myself stronger. As a mother of 3 boys and a wife of 10 years. I never thought one of my husband’s friends would peep at me while changing or grab me and finger me...
June 30th, 2014
Happily Married, Rape Survivor
I am one of the lucky ones, I was blessed with an amazing man, who loves and supports me. I do not know if it has to do with the fact that he himself is also a survivor rape victim. I cannot remember at what age I began to be...
October 24th, 2016
I Was 9
The rape… I was 9 years old and was raped by my stepfather. This didn’t happen over night. It started with inappropriate touching until he eventually raped me. I didn’t really understand what was happening. I was disgusted by what he did. I told him yuck you peed on me....
October 22nd, 2015
Rape at Bogota, Colombia
Sueño / Recuerdo I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
August 7th, 2014
I Am Beautiful Now
It all transpired the summer that I turned 16. This was a rough summer for me already, as it was also the summer that I had started menstruating. That’s a hard time even without having experienced such ugly things. I was a late bloomer, and embarrassed at how late a...
April 14th, 2017
Memories
My life have been a real roller coaster ride that I wish would end but I’m starting to deal with the pain. When I was about 3 or 4 I can remember my uncle sexually touching me and kissing me I don’t remember him penetrating me, though I can remember...
July 18th, 2014
The Elevator Man
He knew me. I was a passenger in his elevator frequently, as my best friend lived in the building that was just a few blocks away from mine on the upper west side of New York City. That day, en route to my best friend’s apartment, he closed the elevator...
January 5th, 2015
Stolen Innocence
My mother and father got divorced when I was two years old. My mother was a single mom with two kids so she was always working trying to make ends meet and making sure we had food in our tummies. I admire my mother for this. My father remarried, had...
October 17th, 2017
An Embarrassing Situation
Let me start my story as my experience is a little non typical, and I feel for those who had a harder fate, as I got very lucky. Most who I tell this to take it well, it was a learning experience! I made an incredible mistake! I walked to...
July 8th, 2014
Child on Child Sexual Abuse
Our son was sexually abused by an older male cousin at the age of 5. We only knew there had been inappropriate behavior on Christmas Day in 1995, when our son (age 8) at the time, told us of an incident when this same older male cousin pinned him up...
March 14th, 2018
Childhood rape
Hello, I’m a male. I was raped when I was age 9 by my brother, my mom was on drugs at the time and my brother was with are dad in another state, my mom got so bad on drugs she couldn’t take care of me they way should have,...
February 10th, 2015
Speaking Up for Women
My own personal experience involves someone I trusted, drugging and attempting to rape me. I used creative writing as a form of healing during this process. I would like to share my short piece of spoken word surrounding the issues that women face on a daily basis all over the...
January 13th, 2015
Still Can’t Believe It
I know that I have been raped, but still can’t believe it. In all cases I knew my rapist. I was a rebellious teenager and walked away from home when I was 16. The cousin of a friend where I was staying raped me like 3 times and also gave...
October 22nd, 2017
Me too.
I was seventeen. I remember this night like it happened a few hours ago except its a blur. I had just graduated from high school and it was the summer going into my freshman year of college. I went to a party with my three best friends. I remember there...
March 19th, 2017
ONLY the Beginning
“Mmmm, such a good little cousin” To you, the connotation may be absolutely nothin’ But let me tell you about lil’ mini me 11 years back There were quite a few things that I seemed to have lacked My father was a deadbeat, mom a workaholic All I really had...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
September 25th, 2015
Rape Is Everywhere
My experience with rape started with the rape of my mother when I was about 12 years old. 2 strangers (men) dragged her out of our yard to a close abandoned lot and beat and raped her. Shortly after my best friend was out biking, and her chain slipped. She...
April 5th, 2016
My Coach My Rapist
I grew up in a fun, crazy, happy, and healthy household. With an two older brother, older sister, and two younger sister we are all pretty close Basketball is my life. I grew up in a small town in Missouri. So small we didn’t even have a football team. Basketball...
May 22nd, 2016
Close Call
I dated a guy, for a day, in second grade. My memories of him that day consisted of us holding hands doing circles around the skating rink. In sixth grade, we were once again in school together. I remember him telling everyone I was his ex girlfriend and I thought...
June 24th, 2014
How My Life Has Changed
I have the most incredible respect for all of the victims who are speaking out. I am writing about my experience only because I CAN NOT IMAGINE what would have happened if I had not escaped my attacker, because…even though I escaped, my life has never been the same. I...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
May 17th, 2016
Don’t Want to Anymore
One day I was hanging out with my on again off again boyfriend at the time. That day everything was normal and one thing led to another. During this session he expressed that he wanted to try anal, which he had expressed before. I, like all other times, told him...
April 6th, 2015
Confused and Angry
I’m currently enrolled in a Philosophy of Love and Sex class at university and we were discussing sexual assault. The lecture really opened my eyes to something that had happened me earlier in the year and I’m pretty pissed and confused about it now. Friends from my previous university were...
April 12th, 2018
Bartender Lies
I was 21, a young ballet dancer studying in NYC. My roommate and I went to visit the bar of the restaurant I was a hostess. The bartenders were always revered, put on a pedestal. I thought the attention from him was good, a positive thing. How wrong I was....
Honestly, I really don’t know why I am sharing this. I’ve never been opened about this.. To this day, the only one who I have mentioned this too is my boyfriend.. Im too scared to tell my family.. i had recently came back to school from suspension, I was barley...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
I was 3 or 4 at the time. This boy was about fifth grade age. He would unzip my pants and point with his friend. I was at daycare and only my mom and dad know. I am ten and just recently told my parents. Nothing is worse than this....
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
August 26th, 2016
Why Me Over and Over?
I see stories of women being raped once when they are young adults or even teenagers and I kind of understand that was bad luck and that it could happen to anyone. I also hear stories of girls that were sexually abused when they were little and I guess that...
July 5th, 2011
Nothing important…
.. My first answer, when people asked what happened. I was raped at my 25th birthday in Hungary from one of the teachers who helped me with my diploma thesis and his friends, which I never met before. That was his birthday-present for me, beside the cake. I remember him...
April 25th, 2015
Memories
My very first memories include getting a kitten, playing with a stuffed animal with my dad, and finally taking home a red dress I had talked incessantly about after seeing it in a store window. My other first memories, which happened around the same time at ages 3 and 4,...
December 4th, 2017
Rape by Boyfriend
I never really told anyone the full extent of mine. I was in my first year of college and had severe body issues. I hated myself and was amazed when a couple of guys asked me out. I clicked with one guy and we started hanging out all the time....
December 1st, 2016
My Relationship With Dad
This is hard to write about, because its still going on. My dad is still using me, and have been for almost a year now. I don’t remember everything about the first time he raped me. I was 16 and my mom was away on a business trip. She works...
August 13th, 2017
You are with me!!
Dear Rapist, I hate you. I hate how you took advantage. I hate how you violated me. I hate how I no longer see the world as beautiful any more. I hate how I only see the evil. I hate how every day I live with what you done to...
June 13th, 2016
Violent Rape
am 20 years old. This year, 8 February 2016, I walked out my back door to check on my washing. An African male smashed a beer bottle over my head and another one caught me as I lost my balance and ushered me inside. They shuffled me through to the...
January 21st, 2017
You Can’t Trust Anyone
At the time he was my boyfriend of about 6 months. my first boyfriend in high school had cheated on me with my best friend, that relationship doesn’t hold much meaning to me because first loves to me can be first mistakes I was very young and should have seen...
July 17th, 2017
Ketamine Rape
It was the first semester of my first year of college. I was desperate… desperate for approval, desperate for love, desperate to fit in. Tony seemed like a nice guy, though I had only met him once before. He asked if I would be his girlfriend, and I agreed. Over...
The most horrible thing is not what has happened, but what it does to you. It can take hours, some people have to suffer through it for years. For some of us it has just been a moment. It only takes one moment and everything you are, everything you have...
February 22nd, 2018
April 8th, 2016
This date changed my life. This was the date that lifted the rug, and uncovered all of the ill, suppressed memories and emotions that I had brushed under it. This was the date that opened my eyes to the exact number of times that I had been sexually assaulted: 6....
April 6th, 2014
I WAS RAPED BY SEVERAL
WHEN I WAS ONLY 2 YEARS OLD MY FATHER RAPED ME IN THE NIGHT. HE WAS A BASTARD. THEN WHEN I GROW OLDER DAY BY DAY HE RAPED ME TWICE … THRICE AND SEVERAL TIMES IN THOSE YEARS TILL NOW. I HATE HIM. I AM VERY GOOD LOOKING SO MANY...
August 19th, 2010
two years ago
two years ago i came home from a club in paris, and took the nightbus, suddenly a few guys started making fun of me, i dropped my earphones and said: ok enough! than the one guy stood up and started beating me, at first nobody in the bus helped me,...
May 2nd, 2018
Finally Sharing
My story is old nearly two decades and yet it as if my rape was yesterday. I have done a lot of healing absolutely but this type of trauma never leaves you – it shapes you. I feel sad about the circumstances around my rape and as others have experienced...
March 12th, 2014
A Long Healing Process
I wonder sometimes why we don’t hear more about “domestic rape”. Is it because we are ashamed to come forward and admit that we were repeatedly raped by a man that was suppose to “love” us? How do you tell a police officer, a friend or your mother that the...
April 26th, 2015
Too Close
Hi, this is awkward but it feels great to share about this. these events continued over a series of years. When I was 6 years old my brothers friend asked me if I wanted to go to his house because my brother was there so I said sure this boy...
November 13th, 2015
My Friend
I wasn’t raped or sexually assaulted, and I’m not sure if this belongs here, but I’m going to say something anyways. My friend was abused, physically and mentally, by his parents. They would lock him out of the house for long periods of time and do other things. He told...
June 25th, 2014
Thank you for being LOUD!
I know it is hard to share this burden, to deal with it again and again, to listen to stories that are triggering of the PTSD and to try to help the whole world and feel overwhelmed. I hope you will give yourself a chance to take a break when...
August 21st, 2017
He said he’d never do it again
First of all..I’m not a native speaker. I’m from Switzerland and somehow feel more comfortable with writing my story in English because..it feels like it didn’t happen to ME but to someone else. It started when I was 13…my family and my uncle’s family organize a meeting every 2-4 months....
November 2nd, 2016
First Time Sharing
I have never shared my story before in detail. I have told a couple close friends that I was raped but I can tell by how they react that they don’t believe me or it makes them uncomfortable. I had known the guy for a few years, his family was...
October 17th, 2018
When i was stripped of my innocence
when i was younger, about 6/7, an older man (about 17) approached me at a park late at night and told me my pants were undone and that he would help me do them up, he brought me to a park bench and proceeded to stick his hand down my...
April 22nd, 2016
Black Out
I have just decided to come clean I’ve been hiding it for too long trying to pretend it didn’t happen to me and it can’t go on. I don’t have a lot of people I feel comfortable yet to talk to so here it goes. I was kinda into this...
When I was 13 years old I went to stay with a cousin and her husband. After being there a few weeks off and on the husband started getting close to me and i didnt understand why. One night he came into the room where I was sleeping acting like...
December 31st, 2015
Childhood End
When I was a child, my mother was always gone to meetings. She would come home after I went to bed and my step father was at the bars and was away till late. I would go home from school and watch TV and do my home work. I was...
October 18th, 2017
It’s OK
My Rapist: My mother’s boyfriend. My Age: 13 Force Used: Authority We had a close family, my Mom, my bratty Little Sis, Me of course, and the latest of Mom’s Boyfriends. We used to do a lot of things together, especially watch Cable. Once we were all on the couch,...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
October 14th, 2014
It’s Your Fault
I’m a 22 year-old girl from Belgium, who got raped for 5 years by the boyfriend of my mother who has a borderline personality disorder. I’m really glad that there is a website like this, because, thanks to those stories I feel less alone. I hope that I could meet...
January 27th, 2017
The Man Who Never Was
I would like to go back to December 19th of 2016, the charming man I met all in black, his hair down and his fedora hat, the man who has this smile, this look in his eyes, who danced with me, and said hurry up guys this girl and I...
July 27th, 2016
My Brothers Two Best Friends
On July 23rd 2016, I went bowling with my brother, his girlfriend Destiny and my brother’s two best friends, Chase and Francisco (Paco). We bowled and had a few drinks at the bowling alley. We even had a funny bet that the loser would have to run down Howard Street...
May 2nd, 2018
Finally Sharing
My story is old nearly two decades and yet it as if my rape was yesterday. I have done a lot of healing absolutely but this type of trauma never leaves you – it shapes you. I feel sad about the circumstances around my rape and as others have experienced...
March 2nd, 2017
Friends No Longer
It was right after the holidays me and my best friend were going to the movies then going back to her house. When we got there her brother was there and he had never liked me or that’s what it seemed like but i bought myself chips and he just...
June 23rd, 2014
When I Was 8 Years Old
It is a miracle I am alive. I come from a family in which my step mother and father molested, raped and raised me behind closed doors with the secret of rape… Among the dinner parties with friends and family around.. my brother and I suffered in silence. We had...
August 25th, 2015
2 Years Ago
It happened two years ago. I went out in manhattan with some friends. I was already drunk by the time we got to the third bar. I remember taking a drink from someone and then absolute darkness. I have one faint memory of standing outside the bar alone and the...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
January 18th, 2016
I Am a Survivor…
I had taken the purity ring promise when I was 13. I was first assaulted when I was 7. Then had a bad experience with a guy when I was 12. Now at 16, I was raped by my now ex boyfriend in my own basement at home… Just days...
October 3rd, 2015
Overcoming My Story of Rape
Being raped was something I never ever imagined would happen to me, the hurt, the pain, sickness to my core, but I know I was never to blame for what happened. Here is my story told in part poetry form and anyhow I can express what happened. I have to...
May 13th, 2016
Blamed Myself
It was a year ago, I was out with my friend and when I drink vodka I tend to blackout, I don’t drink it anymore. So anyway I think I got kicked out of the club for being too intoxicated and I lost my friend and I remember seeing this...
June 29th, 2014
Generations
You are fearless – even when vulnerable. My story is different. I don’t know what is considered “rape” – my grandfather never inserted his penis inside me, but he licked me, touched me and massaged me. It was rape in my mind. He also raped my mind as he convinced...
I was raped for two years. And that was only the first person. During that two years there were others who tried and one who succeeded. All of this happened before my 18th birthday. My first relationship began when I was 16, it only took him a week into it...
You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
March 6th, 2016
Raped By a Friend
I was 17. A virgin. Very naive. In college away from home for the first time. Grieving terribly for my mom who had passed away 2 months earlier. I was living in a coed dorm. A group of us – male and female – hung out together. I went to...
October 4th, 2017
I thought he was a friend
This year I started my first year of uni and there was this guy in one of my classes he was an exchange student, and we became study partners, and I was helping him understand Aussie culture. After the mid-tri break second day back he asked to come over to...
It was 1:00 in the morning I snuck out to meet a boy they meet at the skatepark I got in his car an he drove us back to his house. He took me to the bathroom. He started to get undressed an than he took my clothes off an...
April 21st, 2015
Flashbacks
I just don’t know how to start. It feels weird and I am ashamed, I feel dirty and I don’t have any self-esteem left. I am having a great boyfriend. We both are having a strong relationship and we are dating since five years and a half, I met him...
March 5th, 2018
Liberating Moment
I watched your documentary today and it was liberating. I too was a victim of rape. I was molested from age 11 to 17 by my biological father. He also molested my 2 younger sisters. My mother when she found out stayed with him. I have went through so many...
January 25th, 2018
Never Heals
I am a young girl, only fifteen years old. It was over seven months ago, when I went through a very traumatic time. I was at a house party, somewhere I regret ever going. I was interested in a boy who was holding the party, and that was the only...
September 28th, 2017
Nobody believed me
I’m not going to state the relationship I had with this boy but I was around six. I’ll call him x so x one day took me into a room. And started touching me. X was much older than I was and I was a scrawny little girl. X continued...
One day I was walking down the street at about 5 P.M., 15 days after my 15th birthday. At the time, I was in Mexico. A man rushed down the street, looked at me frantically, and said, “You’re in danger. Please come with me.” I followed him and eventually we...
I realized I was holding shame of when I was molested from a childhood friend at age 8. She was a child herself that was brutally molested. For years I held anger towards her then let that go. Then held anger towards her abuser. We were children who both had...
March 7th, 2018
I loved him
I was 21 when I went out drinking with friends. I woke up in the morning not being able to recall how I got home or anything that had happened that night, I didn’t feel hungover or sick. I wasn’t wearing any clothes and I had bruises on my body....
October 21st, 2017
My experience as an intern in highschool
I was a senior at Towson High School in 1970. I was allowed to be an intern for half the day in my chosen interest. I was a member of DECCA, and did well, so I spent half the school day at the Towson Times, a member at the time...
November 11th, 2015
Second Date
I had gone out on one date with this guy and it was really nice. There wasn’t any pressure to even kiss at the end of our date so it ended with a hug. The second date wasn’t even really a date. He had invited me to come over to...
August 11th, 2014
Forever Changed
I’m 16, this happened to me when I was 14 and he was 15, I’m going to call him A.It was my freshman year. New school, new house, and new state. It all started when my biology teacher moved everyone around. When I sat down at this desk, I saw...
October 14th, 2014
It’s Your Fault
I’m a 22 year-old girl from Belgium, who got raped for 5 years by the boyfriend of my mother who has a borderline personality disorder. I’m really glad that there is a website like this, because, thanks to those stories I feel less alone. I hope that I could meet...
August 15th, 2015
Scared and Confused
Two years ago I was a sophomore in high school. It was the last day of school and some guy I saw of as my brother asked me if I was going to go to the same class we have. I said yes. On my way to class I decided...
February 17th, 2015
Secrets
First of all, I want to thank Linor. Thank you for sharing your story. I have watched it about 5 times by now. Every time I have a hard time, I watch this so I don’t have to feel so alone. I am 22 years old now and I was...
September 20th, 2017
Was I Raped?
In January of this year, I was invited to a male friend’s house with a female friend. We were told another one of friends were there, as well. My female friend and I didn’t have plans, so we agreed to go over. We all sat in the tv room of...
February 12th, 2018
My Boyfriend
It happened freshman year of high school during my first relationship. It started by being pressured into doing sexual acts even though I told him I didn’t want to. He would make me feel terrible about myself until I did what he asked me to do. By this point I...
November 15th, 2017
I did Not need to know this
Youngest of 3, and I was the most outgoing. I was into sports and clubs, and after school church activities. I came home from field hockey, all sweaty and stinky, and needed a shower like no tomorrow! I went straight in and to my room to get a change of...
(I’ve felt) Man in Florida ruined my innocence I’ve felt sorrow I’ve felt vengeance I felt what it was like to lose God Tears run down my face allot no one understood I felt the guilt and the blame I felt what it was like to be ashamed being in...
December 21st, 2016
Two Strangers in a Park
I’m new to this site but lately I’ve just felt that I need to let this out, to tell someone what happened, and I’m not ready to tell anyone in my life. Two months ago I was assaulted by two men in a park a kilometre from my home. I...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
August 24th, 2009
חיה בשני עולמות מקבילים
מאיפה בכלל מתחילים לרשום את הסיפור שלי כשמרגישה שלא משנה כמה אני ירשום- זה פשוט לא יהיה מספיק. אני חיה בתוך הסוד הזה כבר שנים רבות- רבות מדי. אני בת 25, לאחרונה סיימתי את התואר הראשון שלי. למרות הכאב שאני חייה בחיי- לאורך השנים תמיד וידאתי שאת כל הכוחות שלי...
July 4th, 2014
A Survivor, Not a Victim
My mother was 17 when she met my father, he was 24. A year and a half later, I was born. My father played the father role only when it was convenient for him, as a result, I saw him every other month for the first 2 and a half...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
September 7th, 2009
לדבר, להלחם, לנצח
לינור יקרה, בלי שתדעי ליוות אותי בשנים הקשות שלי. נאנסתי במשך שנים וכשאת סיפרת את הסיפור שלך אני הייתי בת 13. נתת לי את הכוח לספר את הסיפור שלי ולבקש עזרה. היום- יותר מעשור אחרי… ואחרי טיפול ארוך שנים ואין בוף עליות וירידות אני גאה לומר- ניצחתי. אני חיה. נהנת...
February 6th, 2018
My Safe Place
I have three safe places in my life. Home, church, and school. But I’ve dealt with a lot of crap in my life that over time, caused me to lose these safe places. When was 8/9 I was abused horribly by two older foster girls who were staying with my...
June 21st, 2016
Last Party
I was a freshman in college at a school only a short distance from my home staying on campus to get the “full college experience”. I was never big on going out to parties because I had no interest in getting in trouble, and I hate the taste of beer....
March 10th, 2017
Sexual Abuse
I was 18 years old and started working in a night club. One of the bouncers took a liking to me. Before I knew it we hit it off. He was 32. After a month of seeing each other, I moved in with him. Little did I know what I...
July 14th, 2016
I Thought I was Safe
I was in class and I thought I was safe. It was my freshman year of high school and it was the week of finals. We didn’t have a final in that class so all of us got to play games. I sat next to him bc my friend was...
November 14th, 2017
Took Me, Took my Wedding
Bachelorette parties are for misbehaving, and I went to my friend’s and misbehaved, but only so bad. I got very drunk, and couldn’t drive, and it was rainy, turning to thunderstorms, so when it came time to go home, my fiancé was still at work, so I called a friend...
March 10th, 2017
Okay, Not Okay
Last January was the first anniversary for me since I was sexually assaulted for the first time in my life. I am straight, and I was assaulted by my female friend. Though I want to/feel that I need to share what had happened to me last year, I barely remember...
June 5th, 2017
School Principal
My name is Dassi Erlich. I am a survivor of sexual abuse through the hands of Malka Leifer, my former school principal. Malka Leifer is wanted to face trial in Australia on 74 charges of indecent assault and rape, involving myself and other girls of the Adass Israel School in...
I can still remember it so clearly. The taste of alcohol on my breath the morning after. The humiliation I was putting myself through. I couldn’t bring myself to accept it, I had read about it before and had even taken an online class before attending college, I remember thinking...
Born A Girl When I was 10, I noticed men looking at me differently When I was 10 to 12 men and boys of all ages honked their horns, whistled and yelled profanities at me When I was 13 my friend and I were walking home in the daylight, when...
September 29th, 2018
The secret
I was 15 years old dating a 20 year old named Scott. One day Scott asked me to hang out at his house and picked me up on his motorcycle. I went there and his friend Vernon was there. Within a few min of arrival, the two of them threw...
I was doing well in school, and I was in ColorGuard and was a honor roll student than I met him. We started out as friends, we played video games together. Then we became good friends. I developed a likeness for him because he was the first male to ever...
January 20th, 2015
Glad To Say I’m A Survivor
I was 15 when it happened, He was my best friend.. Me and him would always walk to our other friends house together, As we were walking he started touching me, nothing big or anything, just a tap here, or there. then he grabbed my hand and asked me to...
December 19th, 2015
I Was Raped as a Child
I was ten years old when I was raped by one of the church helpers for my weekly class. He always scared me. He constantly would “playfully” chase me around during recess and tickle me, finding me when I would try to hide. I never told anyone; other adults would...
February 27th, 2016
Lost Soul
I was a victim of rape when. I never talked to other victims. It started when I was young. 12 or 13 years old not sure I just wanted it to go away. My brother used to come in my room and touch me it happened. We were alone at...
September 15th, 2015
7 Months
I met my boyfriend at a party where there were many people. We talked the whole evening, he was discreet and nice. He listened to me and was showing a great patience. We snuck away to kiss at the end of a large garden. We lay in the wet grass,...
July 10th, 2018
The thief
I was only 5, people say you can’t remember it because you were so small but I do remember everything that happened, I was sexually harassed by my cousin who I loved like a brother, I don’t know but I was so scared to tell anyone so I told the...
March 21st, 2016
Freshman on Campus
It was my freshman year on campus. I was always shy and quiet but I always attracted guys. The wrong guys. I wanted that fairytale love. After my first big rivalry game on campus I said goodnight to my friends and started my walk back to my dorm. I met...
January 23rd, 2015
So Now What?
Upon finding this site, all I have to say is I believe that in this world there is only one solution to rape, pedophiles, and all that nasty shit that goes on, and that is death. Those filthy rats that are human cannot be forgiven, and for those who oppose...
October 18th, 2016
The Gentleman
I met this guy in a bar and he was 5 years older than me. He was really nice to me and we ended up back at my place but sometime in the taxi back I decided I didn’t want to have sex with him and when we got to...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
September 12th, 2016
Disappointed
I’m not entirely sure what guys want. If I text my boyfriend good morning and appreciate him when he does something kind, I can put a smile on his face. If I study hard and be respectful and loving, I can make my dad light up. If I work out...
May 21st, 2015
My Ex-Boyfriend and Rapist
When I was 19, I had the world in the palm of my hand. I had just graduated high school and community college, both with advanced honors. In the fall, I transferred to university and was looking forward to all that college life had to offer; I was excited for...
October 24th, 2018
Believe it or Not, It happened to...
was raped 29 years ago. I was Party Raped, Gang Raped, whatever you want to call it. 1989 I was 14, and raped by my ex boyfriend and 2 of his friends (who I had never spoke to). I will save all the details. I was Drunk, beyond drunk, and...
June 29th, 2014
With Love
I was 6 years old when I was first raped. My older brother saw fit to make me a woman. For many years this went on, I didn’t even realize what he was doing to me until I was 13 and it continued for several years after as I did...
May 7th, 2017
Manhandling to Rape
I am 21. I have grown up believing that love anywhere anytime and driven by this feeling. I met a guy few months back. It was an instantaneous liking, from chats to coffee if only I knew then his intentions. One day he invited me for a drink and after...
March 24th, 2015
75 Percent Humidity
You never want to be the person who admits to being raped twice, but I’m that woman. It was at college and I was a virgin. The assailant’s family had a lot of money and were well connected. He was never prosecuted. The second time, I blamed myself because who...
November 1st, 2016
Stepfather
It all started when I was in 4th grade [age 9]. I didn’t understand what he did when he touched me over my clothing. As I got older my mum said never let someone touch you in your areas where you were underwear, but he constantly said to me ‘don’t...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
May 2nd, 2017
Be Careful Who You Trust
Be careful who you trust, they could end up betraying you. At least that is what happened to me. My mother had been dating this guy for almost 7 years. They had 2 kids together. I had trusted him life he was my father. I guess I shouldn’t have. When...
June 17th, 2014
Boyfriend Hell
When I was 20 years old I was dating someone I met offline. I would go to his place every other weekend. We’ll the one time I went his him, his friend, and i were all hanging out till about 12 midnight. I got up to go to the bedroom...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
July 27th, 2014
A Picture
January, 2002- August, 2009, I tended bar at night. The establishment was a 3 minute drive, to-and-fro. In late August of 2009, I became a first-time homebuyer and moved to an adorable subdivision approximately 45 minutes away and returned to college, life was really great. July, 2011, I received a...
November 28th, 2017
Surpris à la Maison
A week after my marriage, I had moved into Pantin, outside Paris, with his mother and son. I had my premier day at new occupation. I remove my stockings, and wanted food. My stepson grappled me to my knees. After a fight, I felt him enter inside me. He only...