June 18th, 2016
Loss of Trust
I had a boyfriend. We were happy. I can’t say I loved him but he made me feel important and safe. I loved someone else who cheated on me when we were together so that’s why I couldn’t be with person I loved. I was happy with Sam though. He...
January 20th, 2017
Ready to Share
I was 18 years old. As with many of these stories, I was a freshman in college. I was drunk. It is embarrassing to admit that I was so drunk that I fell off of a 5′ loft bed into a mini fridge, resulting in a moderate to severe concussion...
February 20th, 2017
Being Raped
With the help of God, I can finally write this down. I watched Brave Miss World the same year I confronted on of the men who raped me. This site has allowed me to find strength and solidarity among the words, the deeply respected and haunting stories of others who...
July 31st, 2016
I Woke Up In The Tub
I woke up in the bathtub. With the shower running. My socks were on. My underwear between my legs. The alarm was going off. Something was wrong. Besides the socks. Besides the underwear. Besides the shower and the tub. Besides the pain. Don’t think about the pain. Something was wrong....
August 24th, 2009
חיה בשני עולמות מקבילים
מאיפה בכלל מתחילים לרשום את הסיפור שלי כשמרגישה שלא משנה כמה אני ירשום- זה פשוט לא יהיה מספיק. אני חיה בתוך הסוד הזה כבר שנים רבות- רבות מדי. אני בת 25, לאחרונה סיימתי את התואר הראשון שלי. למרות הכאב שאני חייה בחיי- לאורך השנים תמיד וידאתי שאת כל הכוחות שלי...
July 3rd, 2014
3 Days After Arriving at College
I was 18 years old, I thought he was cute, he was big football player I was meeting people in the first week. He seemed nice he invited me to a party in his dorm. I went there were people there and drinking, we flirted, then he signaled to his...
February 23rd, 2018
They thought it was fun
I started at 7th grade. I was asked by one of the seniors to meet them by the lockers after school. I was dumb and amateur. When I went there, they locked me in their locker room while filming the whole thing. I was so numb I didn’t know what...
October 8th, 2017
Dream / Recall
I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of showing their power-She...
March 27th, 2018
“I’m not gonna have sex with you”
I think about it all the time. The feeling of my legs shaking afterwards and the rest of the night. The mark that was left on my neck. The wave of confusion that I was left with. The feeling of shame and disappointment I had in myself for letting him...
February 22nd, 2018
incest
My name is Sabrina Giglio. My family are descendants from Sicily, Palermo, Italy. When I was 13, I am now 45, I was raped by my cousin, my mothers sisters son. When it happened all in a three month period, I was taken in back of alleys, beaten, anal violated,...
February 25th, 2015
Respect
First of all, I’m sorry if my English isn’t fluent, I’m Dutch. I have never been raped or anything that comes close to that. I just watched Brave Miss World this afternoon and it really touched me and I just felt like I had to show my respect to all...
January 16th, 2015
Hospitalized
My father raped me, on average of twice per week, from the time I was 8-17 years old. When I was 10, I was mutilated during one of the rapes (there is no way to describe the pain), and hospitalized (see medical report here: http://www.wonderwong.com/MedicalReport.jpg My father was also physically...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
November 21st, 2017
Friends are sharing
Sharing is big today, so I am. I was on a date, and he parked, and tried to have sex. I got mad, and said I’d walk home if he didn’t stop, and he keeps trying, so I walked off. On the way home, 2 guys grabbed me and raped...
November 9th, 2017
Please do not be afraid of being...
was 15. And still, until this day I don’t have the courage to call what happened to me “rape”. I call it sexual assault. “I thought u we’re telling people that I raped u witch I didn’t so I was gettin all scared”. My sexual assaulter apologized to me on...
March 31st, 2015
Raped by Him
It was a traumatic time for me and it even makes my guts clench and bile run up my throat each and every time such a dark memory evades my mind. The fact that he got away with it because of his status and how rich and connected him and...
October 26th, 2015
I Was Dating Him
I was 15 years old and dating this guy. I would flirt with him and tell him I wanted him so I guess you could go with the “she wanted it”. One day we were messing around and I told him that I didn’t want to go any farther. But...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
May 12th, 2017
I still don’t know what happened
We were at this reunion after work at a friends house, we were drinking, playing games and eating, the last thing I remember after my black out was playing monopoly with my friends, totally normal. Then I woke up completely naked at his bed thinking ‘what the hell happened?’ I...
March 8th, 2016
My Daughter and I Both
My story: When I was six years old, I was raped by a nine-year-old boy who lived down the street. His mother walked in on the act and yelled at us to stop. She told me to put on my clothes and that I could never come back over to...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
It was the day before my 23rd birthday. I had moved to a new city to be closer to my boyfriend but we ended up breaking up a few months after I moved. Throughout the time we dated, I became friends with his best friend. Even after my boyfriend and...
November 15th, 2017
Beyond a story
Dear Linor, I attended your movie showing in Monaco this past weekend. The irony was I attended thinking I was going to see a Princess Grace movie. Something light, beautiful, and with a story. I attended to honour Princesse Grace who is in the hearts of everyone she has touched....
July 3rd, 2017
Murky Memories
So I’m honestly not sure what to classify this as, even six full years after it happened. Over spring break my Junior year of high school, me and two of my best friends went to a “house party” hosted by a guy we’d only met twice. One of my friends...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
September 13th, 2022
Raped in my own bed
Locked forever in Liberty Plaza, Frozen in time, always saying no, But no one hears me, no one listens and no one comes. But why would they? If I don’t scream for help. Locked forever, in my tiny uni room. Your clothes, stained with vomit, in my bathroom. Photos of...
October 30th, 2016
Trying To Help
I’m Barbara, I’m Brazilian, and am 19 years old. I was abused by my step father when I was 8 years old. I told to my father, who told my mother, but they decided that I was lying, and ignored me. My mom sad to me that if I want,...
March 13th, 2018
Digging my own grave
From age 6 to 15 I was sexually abused. First it started with touching, then he would make me preform oral sex or he would get on top of me and try to put it inside but I was so little and that could risk him getting caught so he’d...
July 17th, 2017
Ketamine Rape
It was the first semester of my first year of college. I was desperate… desperate for approval, desperate for love, desperate to fit in. Tony seemed like a nice guy, though I had only met him once before. He asked if I would be his girlfriend, and I agreed. Over...
February 3rd, 2018
It was not my fault
While I sit here trying to find the words to my story it is still difficult to talk and think about it. I am now 23 years old, and everything happened when I was 15, actually around the same time of the year as I am writing this. It took...
December 8th, 2016
Salted Wound
When you ask someone who knows me well how to describe me, the first word that comes to their mind is strong. And yes, I have proven I am strong throughout my life by defying obstacles and haters like the powerful creature that I am. However, there is one part...
I met him on the job and he asked me out. After two dates he was pressing me for sex. I didn’t enjoy it at all. He was rough with me. I didn’t understand at the time what I was suppose to feel like during sex since I didn’t have...
January 23rd, 2015
Who I Once Called My Father
I am afraid… I have never told anyone… I don’t know where to start… But it has to come… My story begins on March 20, 1997… the day I was born. Yes, I am only 17, still very young. Going back to the day I was born, I have no...
June 23rd, 2014
Virgin Rape
In 1971, I was groomed/tricked by a male student from Chicago’s south side who was at a community college located in southeastern Washington State on a football scholarship. I was 18. I came from an abusive home: my mother mentally, emotionally and physically abused me from my age of 2...
November 15th, 2016
Hidden Emotions
My girlfriend and I have been dating for a little over two years. When we first started dating she told me that she had been raped and was very matter of fact about it. The only details she gave me was that it was someone in her family. Fast forward...
March 4th, 2016
Circumstances Collided That Night
I was 16, and a sophomore in high school. I had developed a close friendship with Jesse, a junior. He was nice and cool and I had started to develop feelings for him, and I’m pretty sure the feeling was mutual. I had had an extremely rough year that year,...
October 4th, 2017
Spousal Rape
5 years ago, I was married to an extremely emotionally and mentally abusive man. After only a few months of marriage, I decided enough was enough and asked him for a divorce. He refused. I attempted to file the Court documents but he constantly evaded service. Over the course of...
January 31st, 2017
CPS Let My Rapist Walk Free
Three years ago, I was a happy excited 20 year old looking forwards to an evening with her life long best mate. If only I knew less than 12 hours later my world would be turned completely upside down. We were getting ready for an evening in the local town,...
March 20th, 2016
Started With My Father
I apologize for how long this is and how graphic if graphic descriptions are going to be hard for you consider this your warning to stop now. However, I wanted to be frank about what I’ve done and what’s happened to me. I don’t want to pretend things weren’t the...
I was a 15 year old virgin. Went with my brother to my 27 year old cousin’s house. I knew my cousin very well because I lived with them until I was 5 or 6 even calling his parents mom and dad. I decided to try alcohol for the first...
January 1st, 2016
A Cruel Time To Prevail
Hello, my name is Nautica. And I am a survivor of rape and molestation by a family friend. But, to understand some of what I was thinking when it happened, I must tell the story of my life. When I was born, my mother had two girls from a previous...
December 18th, 2015
Growing Past Just Surviving
I grew up in an abusive household with an alcoholic father. Our daytime seemed the perfect middle class, church going family where all was polite, well and peaceful. Our night times where a living nightmare. My father became a different man drunk. I grew up physically and sexually abused, although...
October 16th, 2015
My Story
I was 9 so I will not sugar coat the truth. I will share with you how I was forced to do, well what you wouldn’t have wanted to do. I will share with why I had teary eyes as he separated my thighs. But then again you might only...
June 22nd, 2014
Over 40 years Ago
I have been raped both by a stranger and on a date, both in my teen years. The stranger was giving me a ride and took a side road out into the woods. I was helpless to fight physically, so I just acted like it was ok and tried to...
January 31st, 2017
Raped & Kidnapped By An Ex
I am a pretty happy go lucky kind of person and somewhat naive when I was younger. At the age ofor 19 I started a relationship with a guy who I call psycho Mike now. The relationship was physically & emotionally abusive, I honestly believe I was in shock all...
March 30th, 2010
Rape inside marriage is still rape…
I was married. I had a child. My husband was going through some midlife crisis of sorts. He drank more and more frequently in greater quantities. When he drank he wanted sex. I knew he didn’t want me because my weight repulsed him. And yet when he drank he wanted...
Although I was not raped until the age of 23 I need to start my story much earlier. When I was about 7 or 8, my older cousin, who was only one year older than me began touching me. At that age I don’t think I really understood what was...
I was 20, he is a very wealthy man, I still see him often times, he didn’t rape me he sexually assaulted me, I said NO! he didn’t care, he showered me afterward, I wish I could punish him, I wish I could forgive him, I also wish I could...
I was 20, he is a very wealthy man, I still see him often times, he didn’t rape me he sexually assaulted me, I said NO! he didn’t care, he showered me afterward, I wish I could punish him, I wish I could forgive him, I also wish I could...
September 21st, 2017
I don’t know who I am
25 years old and have been in and out of therapy for the past 10 years. I am diagnosed with CPTSD, Dissociative identity disorder, and severe major depressive disorder with suicidal tendencies. I grew up in a broken home where my mom would beat me every night and leave me...
October 1st, 2015
I Barely Knew Them
When I was 15, I went to the parade for my local fire department with my best friend. I was in good spirits, and the day seemed to be going well. As it was getting dark, my friend and I met this group of 4 guys in the park, and...
November 7th, 2015
Assault
My father had abandoned my family when I was 8 years old. From then on until now I thought I needed the love of a man to fill the emptiness he left behind. When I was 11 my mother worked at in a small Latin shop where she was a...
October 27th, 2017
Time To Tell
February 21st, 2017 . I (15) got into a friends car(17) . he was high as a kite. we drove through my town just fooling around like teens do. we went down this road i asked him to turn around and take me home because i had a strange feeling....
March 13th, 2015
Raped By My Brother’s Friend
I was 11 at the time. I went over to swim with some friends at my neighbor’s house. He was always touching me in places that he should not have. That day it started raining, my friends and I were going to leave because of the rain, but he didn’t...
October 23rd, 2011
my story-and where i “took it”…
My story begins when I was 5 or 6…. my parents best friends had a son a few years older than me…. at some point he started molesting me… every time his parents came over or we went over to their house… it started out “easy”.. like he would only...
December 29th, 2015
I Trusted Him
I was 15. I was friends with a guy. Let’s call him J. I was into the drug game pretty hard, he was my dealer, and became a close friend. I would get drunk with him a lot, and he wouldn’t get drunk with me. And I soon found out...
I met my boyfriend online 3 years ago, I was 17 at that time. I week after I went into college. One day his friend invited us to his home we were just few, my boyfriend, his friends, some other guys like 5 of them and girls like 6 of...
December 6th, 2017
Abused since I was young
It all started when I was very young, just starting in school. My cousin and aunt lived with my grandparents, and we were always over visiting. One night I had to stay the night and was put in my cousins’ room, he’s 7 years older than I. He made me...
December 5th, 2017
I should’ve tried harder to stop it
It was a year and 4 months ago, on my 16th birthday. I was at a house party of one of my good friends at the time and I was very, very drunk (how cliché of me)! When we first got there, our bags were put in a bedroom, so...
July 28th, 2014
הטרידו אותי
היי לינור קודם כל אני חייבת להגיד שראיתי את הסרט שלך אולי מאות פעמים וכל פעם אני מתרגשת מחדש. אני בת 13 ולפני כמה ימים הטרידו אותי וזה לא יוצא לי מהראש זה הלך ככה הלכתי עם חברה שלי לקניון ואז איש מבוגר פנה אלי ואמר לי שיש לי יופי...
December 7th, 2017
Rape Being Considered a “Joke”
Dear Readers, I am anonymous for a reason that me revealing this story is a danger to my life. The reason for this is because the rapist is somebody with high power. They are the son of this (something). I don’t know. I just know that for a fact that...
January 26th, 2016
Raped at a Birthday Party
I was 15 when it happened. I had been invited to a friend’s birthday party at her house. It was held in the large garden outside. I went in to go to the bathroom and went I came back out, he was there, waiting for me. At first, I thought...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
When I was 12 years old when my half brother from my mothers side raped me. Not once but twice. The second time I was 13 years old. The first time it happened, he told me He had forgotten something in an old apartment he was fixing. So I went...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
June 27th, 2016
The Day I Was Raped
I knew him. I’d known his since middle school. He was my friend. At least, he acted like my friend. Now I know what he wanted. He left In 8th grade and went to a new high school. I didn’t hear much from him till the summer after 9th or...
April 10th, 2018
A person to trust became my worst...
It was supposed to be one of the most exiting weeks of my life, a step into adult-hood i had dreamed about all of summer. Freshers week. The week everyone is supposed to let go of all inhibitions and have an amazing time with new friends and people who you...
September 13th, 2015
My First Two Times
strong>The first time My school had an exchange student in our class who has travelled from Austria. I immediately fell in love. He had a girlfriend back home but as we became friends and got closer and closer he told me ha had broken up with this girlfriend to be...
December 10th, 2013
יש חיים אחרי אונס
שלום לכולן, אני בחורה חוזרת בתשובה מזה ארבע שנים .. בגיל 15 בערך עברתי אונס ע”י מציל .. שהיה באמצע שנות העשרים שלו.. לא הצלחתי לדבר שלוש עשרה שנים .. לא הצלחתי להגדיר לעצמי .. עברת עכשיו אונס .. אז שתקתי.. אבל הפצע לא מוכן להישאר בנפש ובגוף .. הוא...
April 28th, 2017
She Should Be Over It
A year ago, one of my best friends, who happens to be a guy, broke down to me about issues his girlfriend was having. He wasn’t crying, or sad, or hurt..he was angry, as he told me about how her ex had forced her a while ago (they had been...
March 25th, 2016
Tormented
I lost my virginity when I was 14, I was with my best friend at the time, we met up with one of her friends who was 21. he had problems I even think he was on drugs I’m not entirely sure. Anyways they both decided that it was my...
January 4th, 2018
My Story
There’s something I need to say, but I can’t. I can’t say it out loud. Because if I did then it’d be true. It’d be real. I don’t want it to be real. I just want it to go away. But it’s not going to go away, it’ll never go...
November 2nd, 2016
Scared Like Crazy
I have never been raped but, I’ve been scared of being raped since I was 14. That’s 7 years of living in fear. My college’s campus is pretty safe but whenever I hangout with my guy friends outside of baseball practice (I’m the team’s #1 fan and photographer) or the...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
June 27th, 2014
Lasting Effects
I just watched the Brave Miss World on Netflix. I was raped four times by four different men when I was between the ages of 16 and 22. I am now 44. I thought I was over all of it. The documentary showed me just how NOT over it I am....
April 9th, 2016
Memories Are Back
It has not been a year since my father raped me, and everything changed since that day I did not return to be the same person I was before, I thought that maybe could get over act as if nothing had ever happened but I could, my mother took me...
November 15th, 2014
Just a Child
I am twenty-four, and have the unfortune of stating that I was raped twice. The first time i was thirteen years old, just a child, a virgin, with dreams of becoming a writer. I had my first boyfriend. He too was 13. A lot of the girls & boys at...
January 20th, 2017
Is It My Fault?
I’m 15. I was raped exactly 11 months ago. He is autistic so nobody believed me. As bad as this sounds I only agreed to go out with him because he pressured me into it. I’m not allowed to date until I’m 16 and only if the boy is a...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
February 23rd, 2018
My abuse
y name is Norm I am 56 yrs old. From the ages of 8 to 10 I was sexually abused by my church priest. I never told a single soul, I buried it so deep that to me it never happened. I grew up a troubled child and later fell...
November 24th, 2014
Raped At 16, 29, 31
I was a child, an intelligent one. I grew up in Melbourne, Australia. When my aikido assistant instructor invited me to study at his home before my holiday tuition commenced at Melbourne uni that morning, I did not know that he had other things in mind. I was raped in...
November 27th 2015. I still haven’t been able to call it what it was out loud. Rape. I was a freshman in college, but back home for thanksgiving break, and one of my close friends had a party where lots of people came, and many were drinking. I chose not...
November 19th, 2014
Couldnt Damage My Spirit
I watched the Brave Miss World documentary and as a survivor myself I never thought to disclose what has happened to me publicly. I had years of abuse with more than one perpetrator. I suffer from complex post traumatic stress I have bouts of it on and off for years...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
October 26th, 2018
Victim Shaming
SVU’s Detective Benson & Tutuola vs. Real NYPD Detectives By: Tiffany V. Stiles 10/19/2018 Along with millions of avid viewers, I’ve been a fan of Law & Order: Special Victims Unit for almost 20 years. The compassion these characters have for victims of sexual assault is unparalleled to the strong...
April 15th, 2016
This is MY story
My name is Emmalin. My sister Kylie shared her story in here “my coach my rapist”. I am 17 and a junior in high school. My best friends are my sisters Taelyn, Kylie, and Hannah. Hannah is in the grade below me. I remember how much pain our family went...
June 28th, 2017
Sexual Assault
For years I’ve blocked out these horrible images I have in my head. I see the younger me; volnerauble, and letting this man take advantage of me. I see myself hurting, and no one noticing. I’m sorry to my younger self, sorry for not being strong enough to speak up....
June 20th, 2018
A Silent Fighter
I will not be a victim, I will be a voice. Although my voice may shake I am not weak. I am not just a survivor, I am a fighter! A girls night out took a turn for the worst, innocent flirting and being a tease with no intentions, became...
February 9th, 2017
Unbelievable
Honestly kind of nervous to try this. I’ve never told anyone. I think I convinced myself it didn’t happen. That I was dating him so it couldn’t be rape. I was 17 in high school and dating a boy 4 years older than me. He was holding a party for...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
April 16th, 2018
He doesn’t even know he raped me
I was very drunk one night at a party and as I swiped through my tinder I matched with this boy. He messaged me really quickly and told me he was a senior and that he thought I was pretty and that we should hang out. I was really drunk...
December 2nd, 2016
Six Year Old’s Point of View
You Knew, But Didn’t Care You knew as soon as I ran into the kitchen sobbing, “He hurt me!” something bad happened to me, but you didn’t care. You knew it was so bad I peed right in front of the oven door where one of you was basting the...
December 17th, 2015
Raped and Numbed
For a long time I felt ashamed about what happened to me. I thought it was all my own fault. I never had a high self-esteem of myself. Other girls were better than me, I was an outsider. I did not finish my school and went partying a lot and...
September 14th, 2016
So Many Times
I was always told how kind I was. Since a young age everyone told me that I had a kind heart. I feel like that’s the reason I have been taken advantage of so many times in my life. My kind heart made me vulnerable and naive to people who...
July 1st, 2014
I’m Doing You a Favor
I was 7 years old when we moved into my step-father’s house. Around that time he pulled me into his dark bedroom and whispered that there was something very important he wanted to show me. My mom had just left the room to go downstairs and make dinner for us....
December 21st, 2015
Not A Trustworthy Man
I always looked up to my uncles as father figures when my father was not around (he worked a lot). I never once thought that an uncle of mine, a father figure to me would do such a thing to me. Two or three summers ago, my aunt and mother...
May 4th, 2016
First Love to Long Term Abuse
I met my first love when I was 14 years old. I felt like a lost soul at that age and befriended a much older neighbor who was in his early 30s. I told him all my problems and he seemed very sweet and caring towards me. If I’m honest,...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
January 20th, 2017
16 times
I have been sexually assaulted 16 times. 11 of those are rapes. It started when I was two. The last time I was 23. 3 of those times were by immediate family members, people I loved and relied on to love, protect and take care of me: My father, when...
September 12th, 2009
Just Me………
I was supposed to be a part of the interviews for the Cleveland Rape Crisis Center, but for some reason that did not pan out, so here I am…. My story is probably one of many, but I was a child who was repeatedly molested, and unfortunately grew up to...
July 24th, 2014
Repressed Memory
I feel like an impostor, like I might not even deserve this space, but I don’t know. I don’t remember anything but tiny bits from my childhood. Part of that is because the divorce from age 9-11 was so central to my life, partly because I think I have repressed...
July 16th, 2015
How Could It Have Happened
I am currently with someone. However, the last person to have sex with me is not him. Because I was raped. I was in bed and pretty much falling asleep. I had a rough day because of a sad falling out with a friend. I wasn’t in the mood for...
The first that I remember being hurt was when I was 4. I stayed home from kindergarten and my daddy came into my room and started rubbing my upper thigh, which turned into him rubbing inside of my panties. He put his fingers inside of me, and I remember screaming....
January 21st, 2018
#metoo
This entire movement has really made me reflect on past experiences and made me realize that there are so many women and men out there that have been through the same thing. I remember my first job at a small restaurant where I was working as a hostess. I was...
I trusted a lot of people, never in my mind, I thought they will harm me, but I was wrong. I was hurt in a lot of ways. My boyfriend at that moment, he was sweet at first but everything changes the longer we were together. He never likes it...
November 15th, 2016
Hidden Emotions
My girlfriend and I have been dating for a little over two years. When we first started dating she told me that she had been raped and was very matter of fact about it. The only details she gave me was that it was someone in her family. Fast forward...
August 29th, 2018
Males can be victims too
I’m a male in the north east of England. It’s difficult to talk about but I was raped. I’ve waited over 3 years to finally admit that to myself. Since I am a male, many people dismissed me. The first person I told was my sister who helped me get...
August 9th, 2015
Locked Up
My story is too long to share here, so I ask you to view my page www.thecasestudytas.com. My daughters and I were drugged with over the counter insomnia aides, and raped repeatedly by my then fiancé. “Inadvertent” errors made by the police led doctors to diagnose me as delusional. My...
August 6th, 2015
I Don’t Even Know
I started counseling December 3, 2014. I’ve know since the 6th grade that I was sexually assaulted as a young girl. But It was fuzzy. I couldn’t remember much of anything. I told my guidance counselor, who then brought in my mother. She cried. A lot. Then she called my...
When I was 9 my favorite holiday was always Halloween, going out at night scaring and getting scared but it was more of a joke scare. But, Halloween 2010 was not a “joke scare.” My mum was sick and couldn’t take me trick or treating so my neighbor took me....
I am a survivor of rape! At 14 years of age I was raped by a 16 year old boy on the morning of the 7th of may i woke up to find a lot of texts off the boys friend saying they wanted me to come to his friends...
August 5th, 2015
A Victim No Longer
I am a survivor of sexual abuse. I am 19 years old. When I was 4 till I was in fourth grade my step father molested me. I loved him like he was my father for so many years. He took so much of my innocence from me. I remember...
June 19th, 2014
The First Man In My Life
Was my father. He was a religious zealot. x 3 every Sunday, morning evening services and Sunday school in between. He helped build a new church roof over many weekends, leaving me with negligent babysitters, some cruel. All Church people. He had my mother committed to a psychiatric hospital 12 years before I...
February 6th, 2017
I Said No
They made me do a module on sexual assault and harassment. I listened. I did it. I read 1 in 5 women will be sexually assaulted. I told myself it would never be me. I would never put myself in that situation. And then the storm came. I liked you...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
July 21st, 2014
Undertones Throughout My Life
I was groomed as a child. A man rang my house phone and told me that he knew my mother. For talking to him and doing what he told me, my mum would get loads of money. I can’t remember exactly how I old I was, I think I was...
April 15th, 2014
A Journal of a Wayward Child
I have a long history of abuse and rape in my family and myself (44 years for me) and would like to have the opportunity to share my story with women around the world. Forgiveness has been the first step in healing and am now in a woman’s shelter beginning...
October 15th, 2016
Date Rape
I was married a long time and am now divorced, so therefore I’m not very experienced with dating. Recently I went on a date with a guy I knew about ten years and who was getting a divorce. We had a fantastic time. We talked often for another week and...
July 23rd, 2018
I forgot, but then I remembered
He hit me in the back of the skull with a beer bottle. I didn’t have much time to prepare–we had gotten into a drunken argument and he lunged towards me. The last thing I remembered was the cold, hard glass snuffing out my consciousness. Everything remained dark for four...
March 22nd, 2018
I was born for this
My Story. Where do I begin, throughout my childhood I’ve lived to be someone’s property of satisfaction, unable to experience an ordinary childhood. from the age of 5 was when I started being portrayed as a simple object, being touched in areas that a child would never understand but wonder...
June 25th, 2014
Overcome It
When I was a toddler a neighbor and friend of the family hurt me. I was left with the family next door along with my newborn baby brother on the day my mother’s father died. When my mother changed my diaper, she found blood and there were scratches on me....
October 15th, 2018
My message to all
As I heard the news that Kavanaugh made it into the supreme court, my heart sank. My husband, who follows politics relentlessly, was furious but I was silent and went on with my day. Getting angry would mean that I would have to really think about what this event means...
January 27th, 2016
My Story
Here my story. I was in relationship my ex raped me so many times. I kept telling him to stop but he wouldn’t he abuse me etc he hit me call me names threatening to kill my family. I thought he loved me all he wanted was power over me...
August 5th, 2015
I Trusted You
I’ve realized I use my “daddy issues” to explain why I do some of the things I do, this no different. It’s not an excuse, just helps show some of my reasoning. All I really wanted was someone to care about me, to take care of me. I was 17,...
June 24th, 2014
I Am Not Brave
It’s ruined my life and now I have multiple physical and mental conditions which have restricted my movement, motivation, and will to live. I now weigh almost 400 pounds and almost don’t care. I would end my life if I knew for sure I would not go to hell for...
May 3rd, 2018
It is not my fault
One day I was in school and I decided to hang out with a couple of friends. We decided to ditch class and have some fun. We were all A students and decided to take a break from out class. We decided to go into the basement and just hangout...
Hello, my name is Zhyasia Johnson. I was recently molested by my mother’s boyfriend. Ot started in 2015. He would always ask me to come and do stuff for him. Then one day, I guess he got enough courage and was touching my boobs. Then he started to feel me…I...
April 8th, 2018
Coming forward turned into a nightmare
6 months ago I was raped while at college. And I still have no idea who by. I was walking by a lake to get some fresh air and he came from behind. I never even saw his face. It all happened so fast that I completely froze. I didn’t...
October 8th, 2017
Dream / Recall
I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of showing their power-She...
June 26th, 2014
Afraid of Being Judged
When I was 18 years old I was like a lot of young women-dating, trying out relationships, making mistakes. My biggest mistake was to trust a “friend.”. We had a passionate relationship at the start. We were both college freshman, I had a long-distance boyfriend that wasn’t working out-and we...
September 21st, 2015
Raped By a Family Member
I was sexually abused twice by a cousin when I was 8 years, although I do not remember anything from my childhood this painful event has been in my mind since it happened, I can remember everything: colors, smells, ambiances. Years passed by and somehow I got close to this...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
September 4th, 2018
I don’t Know, but I Know
We gathered on a Saturday at my BFFs pool. It went from 4 of us to a couple of dozen! I had some beers, not a lot really, but I fell asleep on a deck chair. I woke up in someone’s room. I was still in my swimsuit, but my...
December 23rd, 2016
MesS Into A mesSage
Your home detention bracelet is now a permanent pain to my nerves because you maliciously put this around my ankle. You stole my car, you had access to my home, I was sodmized, raped and abused like an animal. It didn’t mean anything to you because you needed it more...
November 12th, 2014
Is It Really Rape?
One week ago at a Halloween party, I blacked out and woke up with a woman from the party. I was with her for eight hours, but remember less than 10 seconds. The last thing I remember is feeling somewhat drunk, but still alert and having fun with a big...
September 8th, 2016
Touching
Ok here I go. About a week ago I was asleep when I felt something on my arm. It was my sister’s hand. She grabbed my hand and rubbed it across her private areas, then got on top of me and raped me. I am not reacting well to this...
December 4th, 2017
I’m so sorry
I’ve never told anyone my story- I brushed it to the side, hoping I’d find strength in myself to forget. I have a little sister, she needs someone to look up to- It can’t be me when I’m suffering. This exact day a year ago, my life changed forever- I...
December 7th, 2017
Rape Being Considered a “Joke”
Dear Readers, I am anonymous for a reason that me revealing this story is a danger to my life. The reason for this is because the rapist is somebody with high power. They are the son of this (something). I don’t know. I just know that for a fact that...
For my 23 birthday I wanted to do something special for myself, and let go of what holds me back. In the last year so many things have happened and changed me as I am. I’m done hiding something that doesn’t define me, that wasn’t my fault. At the young...
October 13th, 2017
I wish she wouldve helped me
My sexual assault is the one time in my life where I had no power. Runaway, say No, hit him? But It’s not my fault, I didn’t want this. Why do I have to fight against someone who is an animal? I didn’t even know this would happen. I was...
I met a boy off of the dating website Tinder. We met up and went on a motorcycle ride as our first date. I felt on top of the world and we hit off real well. We started hanging out anytime we could. One night, he came over drunk. He...
February 12th, 2016
Victim of Abuse
I was five when it first happened. It happened time and time again after that until I was around twelve. I don’t know what made it stop but I am forever thankful it did. He was my brother, the one person who was meant to protect me from the exact...
August 17th, 2017
Raped at the age of 16
Firstly I would like to thank God to save me with his power. I was 16 years old when my friend and I ended up on the tavern`s street until 12 o`clock midnight. My friend and I were not attending the same school. My friend met her school friends and...
August 7th, 2018
I wish I never knew
I don’t remember it or how old I was but in fact I try and block it from my memorise, desperately trying to forget that it ever occured. All I remember was my mum telling me a couple years later a small detail from an incident that happened to me...
January 3rd, 2014
Drugged and Raped at Age 14
I was something of a “wild child” in my teenage years. I grew up in the Los Angeles area and fell in love with live music at a very young age. My mom wouldn’t allow me to go out to any concerts, and we had a venue with lots of...
I am 17 years old and live in Canada. I was with many people from my town at a campsite 2 hours away, a tradition for all graduating students called prom camping. I had only been there about 2 hours and I had been drinking but not much. I felt...
April 25th, 2017
Because of You
Because of you, I lost who I was. I lost everything that made me feel who I am as a person. You made me feel ashamed, scared, and disgusted all at the same time. You made me feel ashamed and disgusted because you have made me blame myself for what...
June 22nd, 2014
Please Allow Me To Be Heard
Throughout my adult life I have struggled with conflicting emotions, grief, shame, and sadness. When I was 15 I was raped by a guy I was dating. I was young and very naive. When I met him, he swept me off my feet. He said all the things a girl...
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
October 26th, 2014
Raped Three Times
I’m 21 years old and I would like to share my story. When I was 10 years old, my uncle’s friend who worked at his place, tried to rape me. My cousin said that he wanted to talk with me. I went to the shop who were next to my...
October 6th, 2018
Sexually assaulted at 4
I was born in Bogota, Colombia. I am now 64. When I was 4, me and my same-age friend passed by a nearby carpentry shop that was around the corner. We knew this guy. Everybody called him “Mr. Morris”. He enticed us to go into the shop, and then he...
September 6th, 2015
Gang Rape At 15 Years Old
My name is Patricia. I’m 18 years old and when I was 15, I was stranger raped. I had gone out to a party with my friends at a club, it was her birthday. There were other people there I didn’t know. But I didn’t mind, first thing we did...
January 20th, 2017
16 times
I have been sexually assaulted 16 times. 11 of those are rapes. It started when I was two. The last time I was 23. 3 of those times were by immediate family members, people I loved and relied on to love, protect and take care of me: My father, when...
April 6th, 2014
I WAS RAPED BY SEVERAL
WHEN I WAS ONLY 2 YEARS OLD MY FATHER RAPED ME IN THE NIGHT. HE WAS A BASTARD. THEN WHEN I GROW OLDER DAY BY DAY HE RAPED ME TWICE … THRICE AND SEVERAL TIMES IN THOSE YEARS TILL NOW. I HATE HIM. I AM VERY GOOD LOOKING SO MANY...
September 18th, 2014
You Were Suppose To Protect Me
I was…young. Five or six when my brother raped me. I didn’t know what was going on. He had just pulled me into this small hallway that connected the bedroom hallway and kitchen. He had pulled out his penis and told me to touch it. Told me to pump it...
March 1st, 2016
I Thought I Knew Hi
Ever since I was born, my mom’s siblings lived with us. 2 brothers, and a sister. So basically, I viewed them as my 2 older brothers, and older sister, (but in reality they were my 2 uncle and aunt). I’ll start calling the 2 brothers as A and B. Fast...
October 22nd, 2014
After 14 Years
I wasn’t stabbed, beaten, or even hurt. There were no marks on my body. Two and a half years after it happened, the police officer, detective, and lawyer to whom I told my story all believed me and were respectful and empowering. In so many ways, I have been lucky....
March 27th, 2018
SURVIVOR OF RAPE
I was raped involving 3 men that worked in the same workplace with me. MY PROFESSION WAS A DIETARY AID. I WAS ASSIGNED IN AN AREA WHERE ELDERLY PEOPLE EATS IN THE DINING ROOM. I WAS ASSIGNED BY MYSELF(which I thought I was). Three men where talking to each other...
May 1st, 2016
Don’t Know What I’m Doing
I think I was 6 or 7 years old when my brother started touching the private parts of my body. There was never actually any penetration. I was kind of forced to touch him too. We played some games. Back then I didn’t think there was something wrong with that....
July 11th, 2015
Domestic Rape
My high school boyfriend lured me in from the start. Being young and insecure, it was easy to fall for every lie. After only a month into our relationship, he went to jail. He lied to my family and I, saying it was wrongful driving related charges. My sweet mother...
November 28th, 2017
It’s my fault
I’m a small town girl living on her own for the first time in a really big city going to college. I’ve been dating my boyfriend (who lives 5 hours away) for almost 5 years and one night I went out with some friends and ended up getting really wasted...
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 años. Viví una situación muy confusa cuando era niña casi 9 o 10 años. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentían con golosinas, ver televisión y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
February 6th, 2018
My Safe Place
I have three safe places in my life. Home, church, and school. But I’ve dealt with a lot of crap in my life that over time, caused me to lose these safe places. When was 8/9 I was abused horribly by two older foster girls who were staying with my...
April 22nd, 2017
These Men are More Protected Than We...
I can’t tell names. I can’t publicly announce who they were because they’re protected by a law that says I could be sued for defamation. This makes me so angry! I was the one that was harassed, manipulated, attacked. And yet every one of them walks free. These men. Many...
November 26th, 2014
My Own Street
When I was 17, in my final year of high school, I went out to dinner with a couple of friends on a Saturday night. I left to walk home afterwards, and I was unaware that there was a car was following me as I did. I was almost home...
August 13th, 2015
Deja Vu
When it happened, I didn’t want to believe it. I tried to convince myself it just had to be a nightmare. It couldn’t possibly be happening. Not again. Not by him. He was my best friend. When I was raped the first time around, roughly four years ago, he was...
August 7th, 2014
I Am Beautiful Now
It all transpired the summer that I turned 16. This was a rough summer for me already, as it was also the summer that I had started menstruating. That’s a hard time even without having experienced such ugly things. I was a late bloomer, and embarrassed at how late a...
January 27th, 2016
Broken Hearted
I was raped by a man that was older then me I was terrified and cried the whole time I hate myself and feel so disgusting. I attempt to go to school at Temple University but it’s so hard I cry everyday and people think I’m happy and so beautiful...
April 6th, 2017
A Private College; A Private Rape
It was in October of my freshman year at college. I majored in Psychology/Sociology and wanted a law degree. I was in Criminology class when I met this guy. He was a “bad boy”; didn’t show up to class that often but wrestled. He grew up in Chicago and had...
July 28th, 2017
Politeness Serves No One
I had just started college; this was about ten years ago. I was leaving a frat party on my own. A male friend of a friend texted me to ask what I was doing and if I needed someone to walk me back to the dorms. I had only met...
November 22nd, 2017
Never Thought It Would Happen to Me
Dear Survivor, I know the bad days outnumber the good ones. Maybe you haven’t even had a good day since it happened. Maybe you feel like your temptations are the only logical way to escape. Maybe you’re ignoring it. I thought ending my life was the only way to escape....
August 23rd, 2015
Way Back in 1973
I was young and rebellious, and trying to find my way in a world where men didn’t love you. My father had left the family, but dutifully picked up my sisters and me every Saturday for 1.5 hours, as per the divorce court order. AT age 13 he beat me...
January 4th, 2014
Speaking It
I do not know how to begin. I do not know, because these things aren’t talked about. There is no way to talk about them, so there is no way to start. But maybe starting at the beginning is best. It was a date. Not the first. He was charming,...
May 31st, 2017
What am I doing wrong
My first experience with sexual abuse was at age 3 or 4, I don’t remember but my mother told me in an almost joking matter about what the 14 year old girl next door made me do. Again almost everyday in the 7th and 8th grade. The school bus was...
February 25th, 2015
Drugged and Gang Raped
The guy I met, I thought was a nice guy. Very undercover, nice, seemed genuine. I met him, he was walking a baby Pitbull. I have a passion for these dogs, rescued some, and have one myself. I invited him to come to visit me, as I had not been...
March 17th, 2016
Choir Camp
When I was young I was in this children’s choir. Every summer they had an overnight at a camp grounds to prepare for the next season. The first time I went there, I was 11. I went with my best friend at the time who had just gotten new glasses....
October 7th, 2014
The Time I Was Raped
I was sixteen years old, and was with friends just hanging out downtown on a weekend night. During the evening, I met this person who was an older friend of my boyfriend (who wasn’t with us that night). He hung out with all of us, others seemed to know him....
By BF and me went to drink beers at the Door to Hell, a cave in the woods(it might have a name, but that’s what we called it). Basically a private place for the kids to drink, and the homeless clean the clans for salvage cash. We all drank a...
I was raped during my freshman year of college. I went to a party and drank for the first time. I didn’t get super drunk, but I was definitely not totally aware of everything going on. I remember I was sitting on a couch listening to music when all of...
March 13th, 2018
Too temping, I guess
I was 21 at the time and with my very first girlfriend. All of my life I had been so far in the closet, with the whole world telling me I was straight that finally being with a girl was so freeing. We we’re hanging out in her apartment drinking...
March 23rd, 2018
Child sex abuse
When I was 13 my stepfather punished me by touching me “down there”. He told me thats what bad girls get. After that it progressed to longer touches, he made me touch him as well. He wouldn’t punish me as he did my sisters because we, “had a relationship.” I...
March 24th, 2016
More Than Once
I would like to share my story with you. It all started around age two when my grandfather started molesting me, then taught my uncle to do the same The whole time growing up, I really thought it.was all a dream, till one night when I was 18 I heard...
June 21st, 2016
Last Party
I was a freshman in college at a school only a short distance from my home staying on campus to get the “full college experience”. I was never big on going out to parties because I had no interest in getting in trouble, and I hate the taste of beer....
June 25th, 2014
My Rape Stories
I was raped by my brother when I was 4 years old on more than one occasion. When I was 13 years old he approached me again in a sexual manner and asked if I would take off my shirt and bra and let him touch my chest, I was...
June 8th, 2014
35 Years Ago
I had the pleasure of viewing your film this evening in Albuquerque, New Mexico. 35 years ago I was raped at the age of 25. My journey has not been easy as you and all the other amazing woman in the film so shared with us. I have never heard...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
January 10th, 2017
I Am Brave!
I am a rape survivor! My story started when i was 15 I was walking home from school when i felt someone grab and yank me back then i passed out, then i came to and i was on someones shoulder and had a blindfold on, i started to scream...
April 14th, 2016
Letter to My Rapist
To you, You don’t know me, I don’t know you. No idea what you look like, but still, there you are. In my thoughts, in my dreams, in my life. A stranger, yet so close to me. Every day, every night. Especially at night, actually. I don’t even know your...
August 30th, 2016
Losing My Virginity to a Campus Rape
My first night out at the bars in college was one that began with much excitement and anticipation. It was a freedom that I had never felt before. I felt old. I was in a new place with people who had absolutely no opinions of me. I was ready to...
March 28th, 2016
My Story
Rape is defined as the unlawful sexual intercourse or any other sexual penetration of the vagina, anus, or mouth of another person, with or without force, by a sex organ, other body part, or foreign object, without the consent of the victim. (Kentucky Revised Statutes 510) The state of Kentucky...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
August 22nd, 2018
PART 2: My True, Horrid, and Concluded...
“Behind every beautiful thing, there’s some kind of pain.” —Bob Dylan. Every story has a climax–the part in which the protagonist has to overcome an obstacle they face. To simply put things into perspective, my obstacle was my father. Reaching the middle of my twelfth year, life was great. It...
December 15th, 2015
Stockholm
I was 16 and I became friends with a girl who was 17 and about 6/7 months pregnant. She was a pathological liar who I found out came from a very messed up family. She took me on vacation with her two sisters, her oldest sisters boyfriend and her father....
June 26th, 2014
Rape Survivor
It was supposed to be the best time of my life! It happened on December 23,2000 I had just became a Mom of a beautiful baby boy so I was happy and in love. But that day everything change. I decided to go out that night but came home early...
March 4th, 2015
Raped By 6 Policemen
Thirty years ago this March, my entire world was completely shattered after being befriended by a Snr Constable of the N.S.W Police Force & he invited me to his unit to watch a VHS Video of the 1984 Movie “Police Academy”. He knew I was an absolute movie nutter. He...
June 29th, 2017
Broken Girl
It all started when I was nine years old and I was sent to foster care. My foster mom had two older sons and they would each take turns touching on me and making me touch them. My foster mom would make me sleep in the same bed with them...
June 18th, 2018
The rape apology and my reply
(I have changed the names of all people involved in this account.) This is quite a long account so I do apologise. Max, this is the message you sent me 8 years after I woke up to you on top of me after our college prom: Hi, I sincerely hope...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
October 12th, 2016
Happy Hell-oween
I was 20 years old, invited to a party on a Southern California Marine base. My cousin invited me, her boyfriend was in the service. so I figured that it would be fun and safe. I was excited, I bought a new costume and got dressed up. When I got...
September 26th, 2018
The healing process
I dont know how to start.. But.. Here it goes.. This might sound like a book but ill keep it very short to get to the point..i was probably about 8 yrs old when i remember being inappropriately touched by someone who i thought could be trusted..it continued for a...
August 29th, 2020
Why you should talk to your daughters...
At 16 I began dating my first serious boyfriend. I kept it a secret from my mom since she made it feel like I couldn’t talk to her about anything, love, sex, school, nothing. I had recently turned 16 and he was 17 at the time. We went to the...
September 12th, 2014
Molested
I was a young girl 8 my aunt’s husband started touching me then showed me his penis. I was scared to tell my parents. My dad would have killed him. I think there are things I can’t remember sometimes it like a bad movie in my head. I am a...
June 30th, 2014
Catfished
I was raped when I was 16 and again when I was 17 but now I am in my 20s. When I was 16 I started looking for companion ship online. I was always a socially anxious person so it was a way, for me, to meet new people. I...
December 12th, 2016
Prisoner of Love
I was married to a monster, but no one knew. Everyone thought we had the perfect marriage and were the perfect couple. Sex was used as a tool to control me. Sodomy, especially, was used to dehumanize me. I found a way out of my many years of the hell...
April 21st, 2015
Flashbacks
I just don’t know how to start. It feels weird and I am ashamed, I feel dirty and I don’t have any self-esteem left. I am having a great boyfriend. We both are having a strong relationship and we are dating since five years and a half, I met him...
December 16th, 2011
The summer between 6th and 7th grade
When you are twelve and you are running away from rape, and you are dazzling drunk from drinking out of a red SOLO cup, the world spins and the floor comes up to greet you, gritting it’s sandpaper teeth against your ruddied cheek. You remember the way the fence feels...
January 24th, 2018
I felt like it didn’t count because...
I was lucky. I went on a date with a man I met, and I wanted to play around and make out. I was not shy, or coy, or unclear. I straight up told him that we would not be having intercourse – but if he was okay with that,...
February 16th, 2015
Sleepraping
6 years have passed and I think about this everyday. Everyday. An inner tug of war turning the events over in my head. My boyfriend is an ‘upstanding citizen’, joined the army for the forces of good and would walk old ladies across the road. He started by the end...
October 23rd, 2016
I Remember Being Happy
I remember being happy to bump into you and smiling as I spoke to you. I remember feeling good that u invited me in and were not mad at me for staying away. Then I remember thinking that I must have given you the wrong vibe when u wanted to...
March 25th, 2016
Read This Please
AS For those who’ve had a HORRID PAST Please I ENCOURAGE YOU TO READ: DO NOT EVER THINK OF KILLING YOURSELF EVERRRR PLS DON’T DO IT! It does suck because the world today is messed up, Ignorant and seems we have no one left to trust That’s true but that...
September 29th, 2017
Alcohol
I recently went through a very hard time in my life and I turned to alcohol. It was my coping mechanism, it helped me through the darkness. I knew it wasn’t the right thing to do but I continued to do it against everyone’s wishes. I finally started getting better,...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
Few years ago, I went overseas for my Studies. I was staying with my dad’s brother, my uncle who had bad drinking habits. I never get to know my dad’s family very well because they were living overseas. I was around 10 years old when I saw them last time....
October 16th, 2016
My Sister, My Best Friend & Me
I grew up very aware of the consequences of teenage girls, alcohol, and teenage boys. My parents adopted my older sisters Hayleigh and Vanessa from Spain. They were told they couldn’t have kids, but 14 years after they adopted the girls, they had me. When Vanessa was sixteen she was...
November 24th, 2014
Raped At 16, 29, 31
I was a child, an intelligent one. I grew up in Melbourne, Australia. When my aikido assistant instructor invited me to study at his home before my holiday tuition commenced at Melbourne uni that morning, I did not know that he had other things in mind. I was raped in...
June 30th, 2014
We Live Part of Hell on Earth
I grew up believing that the world is a very dangerous place and i thought that after my first trauma, i would never have to deal with a similar event. When i was 6 years old, my grandfather molested me several times. it may have lasted for about a year...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
March 30th, 2010
He Never Apologized
Most recently was when I lived with my ex-fiance. I was the first girl he’d slept with and I naturally had a much lower libido than him, but usually went with it anyway. One day he wanted sex when I was feeling really unwell. I told him I felt crappy...
October 19th, 2016
My Life
Okay, most of you know parts of my story and some of you know all of it. My story isn’t like most people. Nobody should ever have to go through what I’ve been through. At a very young age, I began to be sexually and mentally abused. I was young,...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
November 21st, 2015
Worst Day Ever
I was about 6 years old when I was raped by my neighbor, we had these trees that went along our fence and if you where behind them no one could see you. He was about 15 and he came over and climbed the fence, he told me to take...
June 7th, 2016
Gang Raped
I was raped when I was 15 by 6 men. I went to a party with my “friend and she left to go hang with a guy alone. I was left downstairs with multiple men. They gave me drinks and I began to realize that I was feeling dizzy and...
March 13th, 2018
I Did NOT Get Justice But I...
When I walk the halls of the hospital as a bubbly HM3 and greet everyone, they can never see the demons I am fighting on the inside. I walk with my head held high and with a beaming smile to hide the stress and pain but I always carry myself...
June 12th, 2016
Do NOT Trust Strangers
I was 19 at the time. Moved to a state across the country for a job. Met a few people there I hung out with daily. Went to one of the bars with them one night. We had met up with some people they knew. We had ordered a drink...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
January 23rd, 2017
Relationship does not equal consent
I had been with my boyfriend for 6 months, and he was starting to distance himself from the relationship. When we made out he always tried to take things further but I wasn’t ready. In an attempt to save the relationship from ending, I told him I wanted to do...
June 5th, 2018
I am a survivor
I was first raped at the age of twelve, my school friend’s uncle, promised to take us to the movies, instead he took us to an isolated beach and grabbed me first, I tried fighting him but he was too strong for me, he hit me in my stomach and...
March 14th, 2011
He’s Dead
About a month ago I got a phone call from my brother. He told me that my ex-step dad, the man who molested me during my childhood, was dead, that he had died over a year ago, in October 2009. This day was one of the happiest days of my...
April 20th, 2018
A secondary survivor
I haven’t suffered through a rape myself, but I found out recently that my partner has. She’s carried it by herself for nearly 10 years. One day she was brave enough to tell me. I don’t know why, but I am glad she found the courage and felt safe enough...
September 26th, 2014
My Friend’s House
I am 43 years old and I know that the effects if my rape have cut deep. I have never said it before, “my rape” until I am typing it now. It’s been 25 years…I saw your documentary last night so now it’s time. I was 18. It was the...
Born A Girl When I was 10, I noticed men looking at me differently When I was 10 to 12 men and boys of all ages honked their horns, whistled and yelled profanities at me When I was 13 my friend and I were walking home in the daylight, when...
January 27th, 2016
My Rapes
I am an alcoholic/addict in recovery. I have a little over 1yr sobriety and I am 44yrs old. I honestly cannot remember how many times I’ve been raped. While I watched the film, I thought of two. I don’t really want to think of the rest. I was drinking and...
October 14th, 2014
It’s Your Fault
I’m a 22 year-old girl from Belgium, who got raped for 5 years by the boyfriend of my mother who has a borderline personality disorder. I’m really glad that there is a website like this, because, thanks to those stories I feel less alone. I hope that I could meet...
March 6th, 2014
In Denial of My Rape
When I was fifteen and sixteen, I was in an abusive relationship. He raped me four times, and had me convinced that it wasn’t rape because we were together. He would tell me things like, “I love you so much. I just couldn’t help it.” and “Don’t you love me?...
The reason i am sharing my story is because, all though SOME of my family have always been 100% supportive of my sexual assault and would do anything to help me. They don’t understand what I’ve been through and hopefully never will. Although I have told most of my close...
March 23rd, 2017
One Of Many
I was about 6 or 7, and I went to stay at a friends house. Her and I shared her brothers room that night, and for some reason I just could not sleep. So I lay there awake at 2:38 in the morning. The door opens and her oldest brother...
June 25th, 2014
Thank you for being LOUD!
I know it is hard to share this burden, to deal with it again and again, to listen to stories that are triggering of the PTSD and to try to help the whole world and feel overwhelmed. I hope you will give yourself a chance to take a break when...
January 7th, 2015
3 Generations
My mother grew up in a house hold with 10 older siblings. One of them is a half sister who was raped by her father and became pregnant with my mother’s brother/nephew. Everyone knew it was happening but instead kept quite. My grandmother was jealous of her own daughter one...
December 8th, 2015
Raped By My Father
First time I felt the pain of being raped, I was 8 years old. That day haunted me every night. For some reason I managed to find a way to deal with it. I didn’t forget but I made sure it didn’t destroy me. Then I turned 20, how life...
October 21st, 2017
Me too…
#metoo It had been 5 years since it had happened. 3 years after it happened I thought about it. I realized what happened to me. I thought I was just a dumb 18 year old girl, I thought it was okay because I was drinking, I thought it was okay...
December 19th, 2017
Planned Rape
I was in a complicated relationship. Complicated meaning he was done with his ex but she wasn’t done with him. Anyway, we’ve been together for 4yrs at the time and we’ve had our differences but nothing like this. I’d come and stay with him at his home and he’d come...
April 16th, 2018
He doesn’t even know he raped me
I was very drunk one night at a party and as I swiped through my tinder I matched with this boy. He messaged me really quickly and told me he was a senior and that he thought I was pretty and that we should hang out. I was really drunk...
November 8th, 2016
Rape Victim
When I was 21 years old (in a few weeks I’ll be 40) I was raped by a man I didn’t know. At that time I was a flight attendant and came home from a long flight. At the parking lot (it was night, the parking lot was empty), he...
December 22nd, 2016
Summer of ’09
I used to remember the exact date. All I remember now is that it was July of 2009. I was 8 years old and so was my friend Chelsy. We were raped by our mutual friend’s older brother who was 15. We were watching Spongebob in our friend’s house. All...
December 10th, 2015
Friends?
The first occurrence of sexual assault happened to me when I was 6 years old, at the hands of my sister. She continued to sexually assault me until she met her boyfriend 3 years later. The second time, in 2002, I was drugged and raped by two college acquaintances. I...
July 2nd, 2016
Assaulted By Family Member
His name is Michael. He still exists in the same world as me. I have seen him in passing cars, in the store, and he is often suggested to me as a ‘person I might know’ on Facebook. He has (or had) a wife and a few children, three or...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
February 9th, 2015
Dating For 10 Months When…
Hello, whoever may be reading this. I am 16 years old and I feel like it’s time to share my story for anyone that’s willing to listen. I have a boyfriend, he is 18 years old and to me he was great for the most part. We had been dating...
December 8th, 2015
Stronger Every Day
I was 18 years old when it happened. I am now 34. It’s crazy to me to realize that it was almost half of my lifetime ago and yet something reminds me of it so often, even now. And then I see this documentary, and the tears surface without my...
October 14th, 2016
A Wolf Hidden In Sheeps Clothing
It was the second semester of my sophomore year in college. I recently just got out of breakup and was still dealing with a loss in my family. Pretty much a depressing stage of my life that I was so willingly eager to escape. I wanted to take on my...