I was 6 years old when I was molested by a neighbor who’s daughter I played with. After a year I told my older brothers and they told my parents. After I talked with my parents and they told the man to get counseling. At six I had no idea what feelings were normal. How to process it and no one would listen. This opened me up to not feeling safe. When I was 13 I was dating a guy and he wanted to do more then I wanted. I was.raped multiple times not realizing that this is rape as much as a stranger doing it. At 15 I met a man the was a brother of a friend. My friend was in the hospital and so he would give me rides and he started grooming me. He took me to a hotel where I said NO to sex. We hung out and I fell asleep. Next thing I knew he was on top of me raping me. After that I felt like I had to stay with him. I was ruined totally now. I was with him for five years. The reason I left was I was pregnant because of a rape and then he physic ally beat me so badly I lost the baby. I had grown up. I became a nurse. I got saved in my Lord Jesus Christ’s death and resurrection. I met the most loving, gentle kind man. We married and I realized that I made love for the first time ever and that it could be enjoyable and wonderful. I have two beautiful children and a blessed life. Through sharing my testimony, pray and a wonderful marriage (as well as, counseling) I have had much healing and peace.
We must stand up for others that have not found their voice yet. God is good all the time and all the time he is good.
– Survivor, age 37
Dear survivor,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. You speak to something that I think many many survivors face; that is, how do you process what happened to you when no one is listening. You’ve experienced a lot of trauma, but what I take from your story is that you found healing. Your story will offer hope to countless survivors who do not thing that healing or peace are within reach. It can take a long time, but it is most definitely possible. Light and love to you.