I was 12 yrs old walking home from a friends house at night I was 2 blocks from my home when a man approached me and asked for a cigarette, I said I dont have one and started to walk a little faster, he then asked if I had a light, and I had only enough time to think why did he need a light if he didn’t have a cigarette, then he put a gun to my head and forced me into a nearby car, he put his jacket over my head still with the gun to it and drove me to a field and raped me, I was a virgin, when he finished he told me to count to 100, I did, I was naked and scared to death that he hadn’t left but when I could finally move I ran to a nearby house, they called the police and my mother met me at the hospital, after they did a rape kit the police officer told my mom he thinks I’m making it up because I had sex. He was never caught, I’ve been raped a couple times since then, I just gave up…….. I’ve been trying to kill the pain ever since. …… I’m just ruined……
— Stacy, age 44
Dear Stacy – thank you so much for sharing your story here. You were so brave when you were attacked – to get out of the car and call the police – and you are so brave now. It breaks my heart that your mother thinks you are not telling the truth but I want you to know that I believe you. It is not uncommon for women to be raped more than once but I want you to know that you are worthy of healing and of love. The pain can be such anguish and overwhelming. Counseling can be a big help – even if it takes a few tries to find the right fit with a counselor. I believe you and I believe *in* you. You are so much stronger than you realize. Sending you love!! Alexis
I am with you. My heart really melted after reading your story. Be brave,dear Stacy.
I’m really sorry this happened to you, I will pray that you will find peace and comfort