I’m 15. It’s been several (6) months since I have been raped. At the time I was 14. I liked this boy. We had so much in common. Music mainly. We loved the same bands and I became really good friends with him. Once our summer before freshman year hit we started hanging out even more. I started to like him even more. We had hung out at his house alone maybe times, so why would I say no to it again? I wish I did. We were just watching a movie and talking and he started to get touchy. I was fine with hugging him, but his hand would roam my thigh and I became uncomfortable. He wasn’t a virgin. He had told me his sex stories. I was a virgin. Once I figured out what he wanted to do I tried to leave. But he wouldn’t let me. He forcefully pinned me down on his bed and raped me as I begged him to stop. He didn’t. Once he was done he left telling me not to tell anyone. I was scared. So, I didn’t tell anyone. Now I’m in high school carrying this. I pushed everyone away. I’m not the same. I’m scared to tell somebody. They won’t understand. They’ll blame me. Sometimes I blame me. I had a huge crush on him, maybe I should have liked it. Maybe I led him on thinking I wanted it. Maybe if I fought back more. Nobody knows the truth but I like it that way.
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it’s not your fault. you said no, he should have stopped. people will understand and be supportive. tell a counselor, she/he has dealt with this before and willnot judge, nor are they allowed to judge.tell a parent, get help. if you dont want to tell a parent, go see the school counselor. good luck, i hope you think about my advice.
it’s not your fault. you said no, he should have stopped. people will understand and be supportive. tell a counselor, she/he has dealt with this before and will not judge, nor are they allowed to judge.tell a parent, get help. if you dont want to tell a parent, go see the school counselor. good luck, i hope you think about my advice.
Don’t blame yourself it’s not your fault it’s all his fault. I know how you feel you feel like no one will believe you and that your scared, but trust me if you do it’ll be the best decision of your life you won’t regret it family and friends will be by your side the rest of the way don’t be one of those victims that regret years later in their life do it now instead of punishing yourself
Like everyone here has said – what happened is not your fault. I know the feeling that no one will believe you. I’ll be honest – not everyone will. It really, really hurts when that happens but know that you are not alone in that. BUT some people are amazing and are so loving and supportive. Sometimes it takes a few tries to find the right people to tell. Remember that you are in control of how much you tell and who you tell it to. I’m already proud of you for posting your story here and 100% believe you. I would recommend trying to find a therapist or a counselor to talk to. These people are trained to help you sort through your emotions. Not everyone has to know – but you don’t have to carry it alone. I’m thinking about you and sending you love!!! Alexis
Don’t you dare blame yourself. No one deserves to be raped. No one.
I honestly hope you get better soon xx