Gonna be 60 …I have never told anyone about this …so here goes …I’m 5 years old …baby sitter abuses me …my mom’s best friend at that …what did I know …but this has ruined me …first cause my mom didn’t believe me and it kept going for 2 yrs or so …at 7 I was molesting little girls in the neighborhood…..this was the 60’s, more like show me show u …but one time a girl probably 8 or 9 did the same thing to me and I got caught and she blamed me…..I have no trust in women …that experience made me a sexual being before I should have been …I’m addicted to porn …all kinds.
— Survivor, age 59
Dear survivor – thank you so much for sharing your story here. I can’t imagine how hard it must have been not to share with anyone all this time and I’m really grateful that you posted here. I hope this doesn’t sound like a platitude but I really believe you can still heal. I know I’m a woman so it might be hard to trust me – but what happened to you isn’t your fault. It’s the babysitter’s fault. I would encourage you to see a therapist – you can find one who is male – who can help you work through what you’re feeling. I believe you can heal. Sending you support!! Alexis