The first time I was raped was my sophomore year of high school. After a football game at an after party. I was having fun with a group of friends when I got a migraine so I went to find ibuprofen. My friend said he had some in his room and told me to go help myself when I walked in the room there was a guy in there so I grabbed the ibuprofen and went to leave when a second guy pushed me into the room and locked the door. I didn’t know what to do and froze. The next thing I knew was I was pushed on the bed with my dress ripped up the front. The guys took turns having sex with me and when that wasn’t enough they decided to one would have sex while the other did anal. I stayed there still not knowing what to do. After it all happened I just payed there and cried until everyone had left. I later found out that the “friend” that told me where the ibuprofen sent up the one guy to have sex with me. After that day my life was changed. I didn’t let anyone in to my life until my senior year. I started dating a guy and everything was going great until I wouldn’t have sex with him. That’s when he started raping me every night. This went on for almost two years not only did he rape me he was physically and mentally abusive. I lost count of how many times it had happened. I haven’t had the courage to tell anyone about any of this.
— Emily, age 19
I am sorry you are going through this. I too am a survivor. On May 17, 2016, I was raped by someone I had known over 45 years ago. SILENCE is the killer! I was raped as a child, kept silent, and did not heal until I opened up. I will devote the rest of my life to help eliminate rape. God bless.
Hello Emily, my name is niah. It’s okay to talk about it and feel hurt about it. Every night I dream of my past eape histories. It hurts badly, I’m only 14. I was raped by my uncle and later on raped by somebody I kind of knew. I suffer from depression, anxiety, etc. Its normal for people like us but things wilk get better soon. I feel bad for you and hope one day that they will be punished for what they did to you, and that you can find happiness. It will never go away because it’s a scar that cant be healed, but it can be better. I was raped multiple times by him, from 5 and til 6. Than @13. I forgive them because you have ro forgive but I’ll never be okay with what they did to me. I, USE rape victims have to live with what our rapists did to us. I always blamed myself but I realized it’s not my fault. It’s not NONE OF OUR FAULTS. Its the rapists faults. ❤❤Love you
I am so so sorry for what happened to you and everything you have been through. It absolutely breaks my heart. No one deserves to go through what you did and those people are absolutely despicable. I know things are very hard right now and life can be so awful sometimes but I promise everything will eventually be okay. It’s going to be a process you just have to give it all your might. You are so strong for telling your story and you are not alone. Please take care of yourself because you deserve it. You will be in my thoughts.
I know how hard this is. You are an inspiration and symbol of hope to all. Stay strong we admire you.