November 17th, 2017
Did I ask for it?
It is about three years ago now. I was in New York visiting my best friend. One night we were out at a nightclub after several of drinks. When we arrived at the nightclub we drank some more, and a guy bought me a drink. Suddenly everything is black. I...
November 22nd, 2014
I Thought He Loved Me
I don’t know how to start this… Well, I had a horrible teenage life getting bullied…and all I ever wanted was love and to be wanted. I would try to fit in, but I would attract the people that would see me as an easy target. I got raped by...
October 12th, 2016
Happy Hell-oween
I was 20 years old, invited to a party on a Southern California Marine base. My cousin invited me, her boyfriend was in the service. so I figured that it would be fun and safe. I was excited, I bought a new costume and got dressed up. When I got...
July 31st, 2015
Life of Trauma
When I was 5 I was adopted with my brother and sister. That’s when the abuse started. There are a lot of memories that I have blacked out but I can’t get rid of everything. The abuse started with me since I was the oldest. At that time I just...
November 27th, 2014
Use and Throw
I was in love with a man whom I thought had the most purest soul on earth. His initial hesitation to propose me or even kiss me made me fall for him over and over again. We worked in the same office so it was quite natural for us to...
July 30th, 2018
I Came Home
I came home from school, funny because it was the same time everyday from the same bus. I walked in our house, and down the hall. The door was open so I could see my Dad was on top of my 5 year old sister, between her legs, and attempting...
January 19th, 2015
Marital Rape
As a 6 year old child, I was molested by an older cousin. I did not say a word about this for a few years. I accidentally spilled the beans one night to my mom. I was placed in counseling to deal with the trauma, and the person there to...
August 3rd, 2014
A Self Destructive Life
I was sexually abused by my stepfather from age 5 until age 13. My mom knew and did nothing. Actually she told me when I was 10 that… ” everyone has hardships and this was mine so shut up and deal with it.” I was also abused by 2 of...
November 1st, 2015
He Was My Father
I was 11 years old and I had just moved to here I left my family behind and everyone that I cared about. My father moved here when I was 2. I have never seen him again since he left. Me and my mother we were the best of friends,...
October 23rd, 2016
I Remember Being Happy
I remember being happy to bump into you and smiling as I spoke to you. I remember feeling good that u invited me in and were not mad at me for staying away. Then I remember thinking that I must have given you the wrong vibe when u wanted to...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
December 16th, 2015
When I Was 7
When I was 7, my favorite cousins were visiting from a few states away, and I was so excited. It was the second day they were here, and my older cousin James (Changed his name) had gotten in trouble for stealing porn from my 2nd cousin who was in his...
June 5th, 2018
I am a survivor
I was first raped at the age of twelve, my school friend’s uncle, promised to take us to the movies, instead he took us to an isolated beach and grabbed me first, I tried fighting him but he was too strong for me, he hit me in my stomach and...
December 29th, 2015
I Trusted Him
I was 15. I was friends with a guy. Let’s call him J. I was into the drug game pretty hard, he was my dealer, and became a close friend. I would get drunk with him a lot, and he wouldn’t get drunk with me. And I soon found out...
July 2nd, 2018
I’m Confused
just wanted to post this because I don’t know what to think or why I’m even still thinking about this. And I guess I just wanted someone to tell me what I’m supposed to think about this situation. I invited someone over to my house to hang out. We had...
October 15th, 2018
He used me. He left me.
I am 15 years old like a teenager doing my own thing, drama and stuff. one day i was on my snapchat doing SFS which means “shout out for shout out” it’s like you ask someone to post you and say “go add her” sum like that. That’s how you...
August 8th, 2018
When will it be enough?
Why is it not enough? Why is my reluctance not enough to make you stop? Why is my “no” not enough? Why is my “no no no” not enough? Why are my clawing, shoving, desperately-trying-to-pull-my-pants-up hands not enough? Why is my cry of “oh god make it stop, please make...
August 26th, 2016
Why Me Over and Over?
I see stories of women being raped once when they are young adults or even teenagers and I kind of understand that was bad luck and that it could happen to anyone. I also hear stories of girls that were sexually abused when they were little and I guess that...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
November 22nd, 2017
Never Thought It Would Happen to Me
Dear Survivor, I know the bad days outnumber the good ones. Maybe you haven’t even had a good day since it happened. Maybe you feel like your temptations are the only logical way to escape. Maybe you’re ignoring it. I thought ending my life was the only way to escape....
Until this happened, I had been a divorced, middle class special education teacher and mother. Nothing exciting. I had worked with students in gangs but had never even heard of MS13. R stripped me of my identity, I was apologizing, working on being more submissive, trying harder to please him,...
February 13th, 2018
My first boyfriend in the US
It was 2010, and I had just moved from my birth country without a clue about where I was standing. I was hopeful because it was an opportunity that made me think I was blessed. it was my freshmen year in high school, and on my first day at lunch...
July 4th, 2014
A Survivor, Not a Victim
My mother was 17 when she met my father, he was 24. A year and a half later, I was born. My father played the father role only when it was convenient for him, as a result, I saw him every other month for the first 2 and a half...
October 2nd, 2017
Everyone loves him
I’ll make this short because he’s still here and I’m not going to escape. Writing this as I’m visiting with a friend because she has access to the internet and usually, I just don’t. The first time I met him I was fifteen, and it was facilitated by my mother....
September 4th, 2018
I don’t Know, but I Know
We gathered on a Saturday at my BFFs pool. It went from 4 of us to a couple of dozen! I had some beers, not a lot really, but I fell asleep on a deck chair. I woke up in someone’s room. I was still in my swimsuit, but my...
November 16th, 2016
Sexual Assault
At the age of 15, I was sexually assaulted by my Aunties Husband. One night he came in to my room when I was sleeping. I was awoken to find him sexually assaulting me! This meant my whole world had collapsed! At 15, after a week of the incident, I...
October 25th, 2014
Date Rape Drug
I am 67 now. In 1984 my younger sister met a man and he drugged her with a date rape drug. Her story was like so many I have heard. She woke up naked and didn’t know how she had gotten there. She was horrified. She knew she had been...
August 6th, 2010
Where did I go?
I have waited all my life to be able to tell this to someone I can trust, someone who will not judge me, but most importantly after hearing Linor Abargil and Cecelia Peck I am convinced that our stories may perhaps save others from being traumatized years after our rape....
June 26th, 2014
I Was Manipulated
3 weeks before I left my first year of college, (I had just turned 19) I met a boy through a school event and a few mutual friends. I talked to him first, and he felt that my initiation meant that “I wanted it”. I had recently been through a...
July 29th, 2016
Once When I Was 6, Once When...
I am a 19 year old girl. I am a lot of things. I am kind. I am honest. I am respectful. I am caring. I am loyal. I am smart. I am everybody’s rock to lean on. I am an athlete. I am a scholar. I am a future...
October 27th, 2017
It wasn’t my fault
It was my friends staggett and we crashed at her house after a fun night of celebrating her upcoming marriage. I fell asleep on her couch only to be awoken around 5:30am by her fiancé trying to unbutton my pants. I froze at that moment trying to figure out a...
September 12th, 2016
Disappointed
I’m not entirely sure what guys want. If I text my boyfriend good morning and appreciate him when he does something kind, I can put a smile on his face. If I study hard and be respectful and loving, I can make my dad light up. If I work out...
I’m 16. I’ve known the guy since I was 12. He’s been my best friend since I was 14. Last night, we were supposed to go to a lake and just hang out. It was boring so we went home, as normal. I had this brilliant idea that we could...
February 12th, 2015
My Rape Story
As a child, I was raped multiply times by my own uncle. Just this past summer, something happened to me and I finally decided I should tell someone about it. It was scary. I always thought that it was my fault and I still blame myself till this day. But,...
March 8th, 2018
My childhood
I remember when I was just a young girl coming home from school straight to my room scared to death. I was emotionally abused from a young age by my dad. he used to drink constantly and had no idea what I would come home too. I remember being called...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
December 1st, 2017
Victory
Let me start by complimenting Ms. Abargil on a Brave struggle. I too have competed in pageants, though never reaching the International stages, and well know the sexual harassment attracted. I have the fortune to not have matters progress to such violence, as she contended with. I do not feel...
August 24th, 2009
My Story.
I’m Chanel, I’m 12 years old young right? Well here’s my heartbreaking story.. I was hmm.. About 10 or so when it all began. Now MOST people, their stepdads sexualy abuse them, well no. This guy. He was my older brother.. he was about ehh. 14, he KNEW rigt from...
June 29th, 2016
A Letter to My “Family”
January 15, 2015 I was raped by my uncle, my moms brother. I’ve told my family, they just say “Oh he’s an over grown child”. Or “he didn’t know what he was doing”. Or “you were just high on drugs, you wanted it”. But none of them truly understand how...
February 19th, 2017
The Summer of 2013
Trauma. This word can describe many things. PTSD. Car accidents. Deaths. Rape. It can mean a variety of situations, each different from the rest. My brother and I both experienced trauma. In the summer of 2013, my brother was molested, and I experienced verbal sexual abuse. And the worst part...
November 15th, 2014
Just a Child
I am twenty-four, and have the unfortune of stating that I was raped twice. The first time i was thirteen years old, just a child, a virgin, with dreams of becoming a writer. I had my first boyfriend. He too was 13. A lot of the girls & boys at...
February 23rd, 2015
Assault at 12 Years by Teacher
In the fall of 2014, news came to me of a young girl raped by the same man who sexual assaulted me as a child. I felt like I was in a movie. This news brought me to my knees, comfirming what had happen to me 38 yeàrs ago. Back...
October 22nd, 2015
Rape at Bogota, Colombia
Sueño / Recuerdo I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of...
April 21st, 2016
I Didn’t Even Know Him
A couple of years ago back when I was in my senior year of high school some of my friends convinced me to go to this party. It was the last and first party I will ever go to. I didn’t plan to have any drinks at this party. All...
April 26th, 2017
My Snowball Effect
My life has been a serious of many many struggles. But, I am grateful that they happened because I wouldn’t be the person that I am today. It started with my parents relationship. It was ever really good. But at the age of nine, I caught my Father cheating on...
June 21st, 2016
Last Party
I was a freshman in college at a school only a short distance from my home staying on campus to get the “full college experience”. I was never big on going out to parties because I had no interest in getting in trouble, and I hate the taste of beer....
January 7th, 2016
Incest & Date Rape
As a young girl, from age 5-11, my stepfather repeatedly molested me when my Mom wasn’t around. I didn’t tell my Mom until I was 15, and she had divorced him. She still denies it ever happened. At 17, on the night I graduated from high school, I went to...
January 27th, 2017
A Guy With Crooked Teeth
I was molested and almost raped at seven or eight years old. My dad made me take judo classes when I was six because he wanted me to be able to protect myself. It’s a bit ironic that this happened in the judo-cabin, just weeks before I was going to...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
Sorry that is so long but please read. I don’t know where else to share this story. I went out clubbing with my best friend in August 2015. She met her boyfriend in the club and I didn’t want to third heel or bug them so I buzzed off and...
July 12th, 2015
Not Sure It Happened
I was a bit of a party wild child, started drinking when I was 13 and kissing boys, however did nothing sexual until I was 17. That’s when I started hanging out with the “cool” crowd. The popular boys seemed into me and that was really flattering so I started...
April 15th, 2018
My boyfriend of 2 years
I’ve been dating this guy for 2 years, and a little while ago, he took me to his family’s beach house for summer. The first night we were there, he offered me a candy. Obviously, I took it. I started to feel funny and turns out he drugged me and...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
October 18th, 2018
It never goes away
July 12 2008. That wasn’t the day I was raped. It was the day I was to be married to my rapist. He developed a drinking problem. He was always verbally abusive, though I didn’t recognize it at first. When he became physically abusive in November 2007, I began my...
July 21st, 2016
I’m the Slut. I Must’ve Wanted It.
I’m only 16. I don’t have the perfect life. Never have. But I have an amazing supportive family and they have given me more than enough to flourish into who I am today.. Or who I was. It only happened about a month or so ago. We were friends for...
November 30th, 2016
My Side
Only three weeks ago, I had my first kiss. About 3 minutes later, I had my first sexual experience, against my will. It was the Friday before Halloween, and I was spending it with kids from my school, all of whom I felt comfortable around and felt safe with. All...
October 31st, 2015
Life Is Rough
Hi my name is Susan. I live in NY as I have most of my life. I saw Brave Miss World on Netflix and finally felt I need to at least in some way share a glimpse of my abuse. My father was a severe drinker he always had a...
October 22nd, 2017
I can’t remember if I said yes...
I feel really embarrassed posting this, because this story is different than a lot of stories on here. But I had been going on dates with this guy and staying at his parents house and solely just falling asleep together, nothing sexual. I told him I only sleep with someone...
August 29th, 2020
Why you should talk to your daughters...
At 16 I began dating my first serious boyfriend. I kept it a secret from my mom since she made it feel like I couldn’t talk to her about anything, love, sex, school, nothing. I had recently turned 16 and he was 17 at the time. We went to the...
November 24th, 2015
All Just Too Much
I know I’m young, I’m only 25. But that doesn’t mean I haven’t experienced more in my few years on this earth than most will in their life. 17 years ago, when I was 8, my friend’s older brother raped me. I didn’t tell anyone, and over the years, I’ve...
June 26th, 2014
Afraid of Being Judged
When I was 18 years old I was like a lot of young women-dating, trying out relationships, making mistakes. My biggest mistake was to trust a “friend.”. We had a passionate relationship at the start. We were both college freshman, I had a long-distance boyfriend that wasn’t working out-and we...
October 2nd, 2017
Everyone loves him
I’ll make this short because he’s still here and I’m not going to escape. Writing this as I’m visiting with a friend because she has access to the internet and usually, I just don’t. The first time I met him I was fifteen, and it was facilitated by my mother....
March 12th, 2018
I’m Disgusted
A few weeks ago, my Boyfriend Alex and I joined up with some others celebrating the Eagles winning their 1st Super Bowl (E-A-G-L-E-S!), and many beers fell in the battles that followed. We ended up at Sue’s house, being a house, had bathrooms, and the only driver who could still...
March 8th, 2015
His Masterpiece
When I was 15 I became very close to my uncle because I felt he was the only one who understood me. I loved him so much. We were best friends and never in a million years did I ever think of him in any other way other than my...
October 4th, 2017
Spousal Rape
5 years ago, I was married to an extremely emotionally and mentally abusive man. After only a few months of marriage, I decided enough was enough and asked him for a divorce. He refused. I attempted to file the Court documents but he constantly evaded service. Over the course of...
September 7th, 2009
לדבר, להלחם, לנצח
לינור יקרה, בלי שתדעי ליוות אותי בשנים הקשות שלי. נאנסתי במשך שנים וכשאת סיפרת את הסיפור שלך אני הייתי בת 13. נתת לי את הכוח לספר את הסיפור שלי ולבקש עזרה. היום- יותר מעשור אחרי… ואחרי טיפול ארוך שנים ואין בוף עליות וירידות אני גאה לומר- ניצחתי. אני חיה. נהנת...
June 30th, 2014
Married My Rapist
I watched the project on Netflix. I saw Joan Collins. She is the first person that I have heard of doing what I did. I was a virgin and had planned to remain a virgin until I was married. The guy I was dating knocked at my apartment door which...
February 13th, 2016
Touched by a Man I Didn’t Know
So I was around 9-10 when this happened. I had just moved with my dad to another state, and since my mother was doing a nursing course, I had to live with him for a year. The neighborhood I lived in was really nice and there were lots of kids...
May 17th, 2017
There Is Hope For Us
Hi, I’m not here to share my story. Because I already did that (https://www.bravemissworld.com/share_your_story/fear-became-a-part-of-my-life) I’m here to tell you all, that there is hope for us. After almost 1 month of joining this site/forum and telling my story, yesterday (with the help of my boyfriend), I finally got the courage...
April 8th, 2018
Coming forward turned into a nightmare
6 months ago I was raped while at college. And I still have no idea who by. I was walking by a lake to get some fresh air and he came from behind. I never even saw his face. It all happened so fast that I completely froze. I didn’t...
July 25th, 2014
Aftermath
I feel that I should be over the trauma, or the distress of being raped so many years ago. However, at times, 1987 seems like yesterday to me and reliving that day happens more often than I care to share. I lived in a very friendly, unpopulated and isolated part...
September 9th, 2017
Hard Time
Hi, I’m Tayler. I am currently 15. I was raped a month after my 15th birthday. My rapist was my older brother’s very good friend. I have 5 brothers (yes, it’s very difficult.). So whenever they had friend over it was no big deal. my rapist was over often and...
April 14th, 2017
4 Years Ago
4 years ago when I was 19, during my first year at University I met a guy through my friend. He seemed nice enough, he was a bartender at one of the local bars that we frequented because my friends liked it. We went out to go dance/drink at the...
November 14th, 2017
Mistaken Identity
Drunk at a party, I guess one of the most common phrases in the stories. I passed out on the couch, with my head on a good friend’s shoulder, and he was equally passed out. When I awoke, we were still on the couch, but I felt funny. My bra...
July 21st, 2015
Was It Real or Not
It always seemed like a joke to me, rape. Having a lot of guys as friends I felt so close to guys and felt I could trust then more, until one came along he was like a brother to me but he always told me he loved me and I...
I couldn’t sleep tonight, and all I could think about was making a difference in the world. Somehow I stumbled across this forum in my quest to find away to make the world a better place. I read a few of the stories and sobbed the whole time. I had...
March 31st, 2015
Raped by Him
It was a traumatic time for me and it even makes my guts clench and bile run up my throat each and every time such a dark memory evades my mind. The fact that he got away with it because of his status and how rich and connected him and...
October 2nd, 2017
Everyone loves him
I’ll make this short because he’s still here and I’m not going to escape. Writing this as I’m visiting with a friend because she has access to the internet and usually, I just don’t. The first time I met him I was fifteen, and it was facilitated by my mother....
October 21st, 2017
Sexual harrassment
I was 15. I earned a letter in a sport at high school, wasn’t able to attend because I had blown out my knee in practice the day before. The next day, my teacher/coach said to me that if I came to his car after school, I could have my...
February 19th, 2018
I was 4 yrs old
And the rape affects me every day. Now I am 55 yrs old. My heart breaks for people who have lost their lives or their loved ones to violent or other types of crimes. I know their struggle is probably worse than mine. But I am in pain. I have...
November 7th, 2015
Assault
My father had abandoned my family when I was 8 years old. From then on until now I thought I needed the love of a man to fill the emptiness he left behind. When I was 11 my mother worked at in a small Latin shop where she was a...
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
March 26th, 2016
First Time
When I was 14 years old I was raped by the friend of my friends older sister. He was 19. We went to a party, being underage we were offered alcohol by him and his friends, however we couldn’t get the drinks from the bar ourselves. Because of this I...
August 13th, 2015
Deja Vu
When it happened, I didn’t want to believe it. I tried to convince myself it just had to be a nightmare. It couldn’t possibly be happening. Not again. Not by him. He was my best friend. When I was raped the first time around, roughly four years ago, he was...
May 15th, 2018
Someone so close to me
This only happened a year ago. My uncle who always would make sexual comments to me from age 6-still today raped me. We had this cookout where we invited our family and my uncle came. About halfway through I went to go use the bathroom and he cornered me and...
November 22nd, 2014
I Thought He Loved Me
I don’t know how to start this… Well, I had a horrible teenage life getting bullied…and all I ever wanted was love and to be wanted. I would try to fit in, but I would attract the people that would see me as an easy target. I got raped by...
February 12th, 2016
Step Daddy
I was really young when my mom was whoring around. She started with this man named Ray and he had some warrants out for shooting a man. He went to prison for a few years and while he was in prison my mom met another man. His name was Cliff,...
October 25th, 2016
Sexual Assault
My name is Brandon. My story starts 23 years ago at the age of 3. I was molested by my brother who was 13 and our mother walked in on 1 incident. My mother seemed more traumatized by the event than I was. Constantly pushing on me to, “press charges”...
March 9th, 2016
Once Again
At age 8, I was raped and beaten by my alcoholic grandfather. My mom having a mental illness was in the hospital so I had to live with my grandparents. My grandmother was sweet but she left for work 5 am and got home by 11pm. When she was gone...
September 1st, 2015
People You Do Not Know
was seventeen. And I was about to finish high school, and start college the following year in film and television production. I had a boyfriend in high school, and did not realize that he was abusive because I was not ready to sleep with him, but he would make me...
February 1st, 2018
Healing
The Little Girl in the Picture Have you ever had that one picture of yourself that you say, “Who is this?” You just stare at it, and it calls your soul. It is like it is telling you to search deep within yourself and remember. How far back can you...
January 4th, 2014
I Am Still Standing
Being taken advantage of isn’t particularly new to me. From the ages of four to eighteen I was neglected and abused by both of my parents in many ways. When I left for college in August of 2010 I fully planned to leave my old life behind and fight to...
June 21st, 2016
Last Party
I was a freshman in college at a school only a short distance from my home staying on campus to get the “full college experience”. I was never big on going out to parties because I had no interest in getting in trouble, and I hate the taste of beer....
February 9th, 2016
I Was Just a Dancer
I got kicked out when I was 17. My mother and I didn’t get along. My mother has some mental problems. I still love her though… Since I got kicked out and I was still in high school, I started to be a stripper because it got the bills paid....
January 4th, 2017
My Best Friend’s Boyfriend
My junior year of high school I had class with this guy I had never seen around school before. It turns out he transferred from another school and as time passed he began dating one of my best friends. I had a crush on him but I obviously didn’t purse...
January 7th, 2016
Incest & Date Rape
As a young girl, from age 5-11, my stepfather repeatedly molested me when my Mom wasn’t around. I didn’t tell my Mom until I was 15, and she had divorced him. She still denies it ever happened. At 17, on the night I graduated from high school, I went to...
October 11th, 2016
Literal Hell
Last November I was In a back field that was surrounded by woodland.one minute I was tending to the horses and then suddenly I had a hand over my mouth and eyes. I was dragged round the corner, so that there was no way anyone could see. They tied something...
June 9th, 2015
It’s A Long Story
The first time I was raped I was 7, it was my next door neighbor. I trusted him naively. I trusted him like I trusted everyone I met. I didn’t know what some people were capable of, I didn’t understand. I went next door, I wanted to see his sister,...
March 20th, 2017
My Nightmare
From the age of 8, I have been protecting and defending myself. Trying to keep on his good sudden so that he wouldn’t hit me the way he did mama. I just didn’t know that something worse was in store for me. One night he walked in all calm and...
June 25th, 2014
Endless Shame
I was leaving in Roma, Italy. I had a daughter, she was 2 years old. Her father, my husband and I were separated. He left often for the US and left us. I thought I could have ended it. I was a working model, 27 years old with a child....
It was 1:00 in the morning I snuck out to meet a boy they meet at the skatepark I got in his car an he drove us back to his house. He took me to the bathroom. He started to get undressed an than he took my clothes off an...
December 19th, 2017
Rape Victim / Rapist in Hollywood
I am a member of the private MeToo group. I have seen some of the members get their stories on your site. I would like to share my story as I think it’s important. My rapist, who even admitted on a recorded line, raping me and other children, will face...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
November 20th, 2015
My Story
I was a young teenager. I’ve never been ultra skinny, so I started to develop curves on a young age, hips, boobies, ass. Apparently for my uncle that was a reason to go and touch my boobs. He would come in my room when I was studying or chatting with...
October 19th, 2016
In The Concrete Jungle
I was born and raised in New York City. I walked everywhere. When my dad left when I was fourteen, my mom had to work longer shifts at the hospital so I would take the subway and then walk to my Aunt Tina’s house. I had been doing this for...
September 13th, 2014
Bad Programming
I don’t know if any of you other survivors have come to a situation that has forced you to just stand back, and stare at that dark private part of your life. Where you ponder exactly when you veered off the road that would have kept you ‘normal’. I’ve had...
December 19th, 2017
Assaulted
I wasn’t raped but i sure am traumatized. I use to get nervous every time i saw him but now i’m just mad. It was may 2017. I was a 14 year old sophomore. I was at a new school trying to have fun and trying to get to know...
April 3rd, 2018
My First Boyfriend
I was absolutely smitten with my first boyfriend. He was cute, handsome, and very smart. I had never been in love before. I thought I loved him more than I could love anybody else. I was clear; I wanted to wait until I was married. I wanted to share that...
January 11th, 2017
Prom Night
This happened fourteen years ago but I am just now realizing that I was raped. I can look back and see how it affected me but at the time I thought it was my fault. Back in high school I had a large group of friends that was composed of...
May 30th, 2016
Not Blood Cousins
I’m very young not even 13 yet and I’m already sexually assaulted. I was 4 or 5, and me and my parents and my brother lived in a 2bedroom apartment. My Daddy’s other children would visit. They are my cousins. Not by blood. They was visiting and we always had...
October 24th, 2018
Believe it or Not, It happened to...
was raped 29 years ago. I was Party Raped, Gang Raped, whatever you want to call it. 1989 I was 14, and raped by my ex boyfriend and 2 of his friends (who I had never spoke to). I will save all the details. I was Drunk, beyond drunk, and...
February 6th, 2017
I Said No
They made me do a module on sexual assault and harassment. I listened. I did it. I read 1 in 5 women will be sexually assaulted. I told myself it would never be me. I would never put myself in that situation. And then the storm came. I liked you...
January 4th, 2018
My Story
There’s something I need to say, but I can’t. I can’t say it out loud. Because if I did then it’d be true. It’d be real. I don’t want it to be real. I just want it to go away. But it’s not going to go away, it’ll never go...
May 31st, 2015
Raped By Boyfriend
Hello, to whoever is reading this. This is the second time I’ve ever told anyone about what happened to me, but my friend has persuaded me to talk about it. I was 14 at the time, (a year ago) and I was going out with first boyfriend (who was 17.)...
December 10th, 2013
יש חיים אחרי אונס
שלום לכולן, אני בחורה חוזרת בתשובה מזה ארבע שנים .. בגיל 15 בערך עברתי אונס ע”י מציל .. שהיה באמצע שנות העשרים שלו.. לא הצלחתי לדבר שלוש עשרה שנים .. לא הצלחתי להגדיר לעצמי .. עברת עכשיו אונס .. אז שתקתי.. אבל הפצע לא מוכן להישאר בנפש ובגוף .. הוא...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
October 10th, 2016
When I Was 11…
When I was 11 my mom met this guy named Jordan. He called himself 3D. Almost immediately he moved in with us. The psychical abuse started after a couple of months. He convinced my mother to start beating us and have us kneel on rice for hours at time as...
February 9th, 2016
Now I Understand My Husband
My husband was brutally and violently raped by the taxi driver who was trusted to take him to school – a friend of his Grandfather. He was 12 and grew up in Lebanon. I was the first person he told and he was 45. He suffered in silence using alcohol...
Although I was not raped until the age of 23 I need to start my story much earlier. When I was about 7 or 8, my older cousin, who was only one year older than me began touching me. At that age I don’t think I really understood what was...
The first time I was raped. I was 18, I never thought of it as rape until recently, but I guess it was. I’d been drinking and there just wasn’t a clear line of consent. I was too out of it to say yes or no. And the guy had...
May 8th, 2019
UNEXPOSED – AFTER 30 YEARS OF EXTREME...
Molestation 4-13, dissociation syndrome started, afraid 24/7, PTSD 10, black outs began & were triggered by the smell of certain foods or a male authorities voice. Attempted Rape 15, Physical Abuse 16-31, all my ex-boyfriends. Rape 18, also attempted suicide & started dancing because I needed extra money & no...
March 30th, 2010
He Never Apologized
Most recently was when I lived with my ex-fiance. I was the first girl he’d slept with and I naturally had a much lower libido than him, but usually went with it anyway. One day he wanted sex when I was feeling really unwell. I told him I felt crappy...
September 14th, 2017
my rape
i was just raped this weekend a few feet from my house. i just kissed my boyfriend and went across the driveway between the rowhouses and he grabbed me behind the dumpsters. i think i recognized him and said rodney but he punched me in the belly and called me...
December 20th, 2016
My Ex Husband – My Biggest Enemy
I fell in love with him in Greece ( Crete . I was about 14 years of age and i was so in love. I met him in the street for the first time on his motorbike. He had those brown eyes and hair. My mum knew him because she...
June 24th, 2014
How My Life Has Changed
I have the most incredible respect for all of the victims who are speaking out. I am writing about my experience only because I CAN NOT IMAGINE what would have happened if I had not escaped my attacker, because…even though I escaped, my life has never been the same. I...
January 17th, 2015
Trauma
I was 7 years old. It was within few days after losing my father. My long distance cousin would come to my house. One morning, I found him playing with my boobs. Second day, I found him playing with my private part. Third day, I woke up early so that...
May 19th, 2016
Childhood Friends
When I was 3 I had a best friend. We were so close. Like sisters. Her dad took a like in me and started to touch me at night. Saying “If you don’t let me you’ll never see her again.” I was 3. I didn’t know what to do. She...
July 16th, 2016
Panic Attack
The very first time I ever had a panic attack, I was 16, my boyfriend was there. I was lying on the floor of my bedroom listening to him tell me some stupid line about how he “had been thinking about me all week”, when it just hit me, not...
November 13th, 2015
More Than Once
I just finished watching this beautiful film. For the first time in 37 years I don’t feel alone and I do have a voice, and what happened to me matters. It changed who I was suppose to be. I have never told anyone that I was raped twice in two...
March 14th, 2018
Childhood rape
Hello, I’m a male. I was raped when I was age 9 by my brother, my mom was on drugs at the time and my brother was with are dad in another state, my mom got so bad on drugs she couldn’t take care of me they way should have,...
November 7th, 2017
My Ex-husband
I was married once before to a bartender with a drug problem. Many nights he would encourage me to come down to the bar and drink with him and his coworkers after closing up. Many nights I would stumble my way out of the bar after 2 drinks, make it...
December 27th, 2015
Time Heals
I was 16 and around September I began talking to a friend of mine. He was very attractive he played basketball, was tall, but also really cocky. I wasn’t looking for anything other than hanging out just because he was younger than me however we kissed and what not. This...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
October 28th, 2015
When I Was 8
Between the ages of 7 1/2 and 9 1/2 I was continually molested by my step-brothers Robert Redwine (16-17) and Earl Redwine Jr. (18). These molestations escalated briefly to a one time event when I was 8. That’s when Robert attempted to penetrate me. He stopped when I cried out...
May 17th, 2016
Don’t Want to Anymore
One day I was hanging out with my on again off again boyfriend at the time. That day everything was normal and one thing led to another. During this session he expressed that he wanted to try anal, which he had expressed before. I, like all other times, told him...
The first time I was raped I was about 7 years old, my uncle raped me in my grandmother’s house, he had previously assaulted my mother when he was younger and my mother was a kid. I was sleeping in my room with my cousin by my side, and I...
December 20th, 2016
Struggling to Survive
5 months ago I went on a night out with my friend. ‘=I remember dancing, having fun and then my memory goes very patchy. Next thing I know I’m naked and being raped. I tried to get him off but it’s like I was a doll that could see her...
November 24th, 2015
The First Time
I was 6, when my family was hosting a religious prayer. About a hundred people were invited. And in went on for almost a month. People would come and go. There was a priest, who would make me sit on his lap whoever he got the chance. One day, my...
August 12th, 2014
A Childhood of Sexual Trauma
My father began sexually abusing me before I started school. I remember him telling me to touch his penis as he was lying on the bed and I was sitting beside him. He told me it was ‘sex education.’ I have only that one flashback from the early years. Years...
November 28th, 2018
The times when rape culture has got...
When at a party, highly intoxicated, a boy thought it was okay to take kissing to mean forceful fingering, to mean trying to have sex even when there was blood everywhere, leaving her with a fear of sex contributing to a psychological problem called vaginismus, preventing her from enjoying sex...
June 7th, 2016
Gang Raped
I was raped when I was 15 by 6 men. I went to a party with my “friend and she left to go hang with a guy alone. I was left downstairs with multiple men. They gave me drinks and I began to realize that I was feeling dizzy and...
You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
January 20th, 2017
Is It My Fault?
I’m 15. I was raped exactly 11 months ago. He is autistic so nobody believed me. As bad as this sounds I only agreed to go out with him because he pressured me into it. I’m not allowed to date until I’m 16 and only if the boy is a...
August 5th, 2015
They Laughed
It was the first time I’d ever used a fake ID, the first time anyone had ever bought me a drink, the first time I’d ever worn too little clothes on a freezing December night because hours of dancing didn’t need a winter coat. I was celebrating the end of...
April 16th, 2015
Wanted Love But Got Rape
Everyone thought that I was going through a bad breakup. And for a long time, I made myself believe it too. It was like losing a piece of my voice, my life, my skin, my heart, my soul. My mind became a place of torment that I could never escape....
August 16th, 2015
Raped At 15
I was raped at 15, I used to be friends with this boy on Facebook. We talked at school a lot and he always told me I was pretty. One day he asked me to come over his house. I said “sure” he wouldn’t hurt me. So, when I arrived...
December 5th, 2011
A familiar fight
Like Linor, I too am working to encourage victims to speak out and let the rapist be the only one ashamed. Ironically, I also made a documentary, “Miniskirts, Mace and Other Misconceptions” about my personal story and the way our culture treats victims of rape. I am working to educate...
October 20th, 2017
A Lifetime of #MeToo – How Sexual...
I was eleven when I lost my virginity. It happened under an old pine tree in an overgrown backyard of an old lady’s house a block away from my childhood home. The boys were older. They were rough and cruel. They laughed the whole time like it was some hysterical...
July 16th, 2016
Panic Attack
The very first time I ever had a panic attack, I was 16, my boyfriend was there. I was lying on the floor of my bedroom listening to him tell me some stupid line about how he “had been thinking about me all week”, when it just hit me, not...
August 19th, 2010
two years ago
two years ago i came home from a club in paris, and took the nightbus, suddenly a few guys started making fun of me, i dropped my earphones and said: ok enough! than the one guy stood up and started beating me, at first nobody in the bus helped me,...
September 25th, 2015
Rape Is Everywhere
My experience with rape started with the rape of my mother when I was about 12 years old. 2 strangers (men) dragged her out of our yard to a close abandoned lot and beat and raped her. Shortly after my best friend was out biking, and her chain slipped. She...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
August 13th, 2014
My 21st Birthday
I’ve never told anyone this story before, mostly because I know too much time has passed between what happened and now and know one will believe me. One of my best friends is still good friends with my rapist. Furthermore, I know that they will not believe me because many...
I was raped 8 months ago…I was 20 years old at the time at my university when it happened. After watching Brave Miss World I felt compelled to share my story. I went out to the bar one night and got a drink, I set it down for a short...
June 20th, 2014
My Horrific Nightmare
Three years ago I was raped. I met a man who was a marine and had mutual friends. We hit it off and began dating. After two months he got out of the marine corp and moved back to his home of Reno, NV. Truthfully, I knew he had issues....
September 30th, 2018
Date rape
I just turned 18 on the day I moved into a dorm at Rutgers New Brunswick I was invited by a senior to his dorm room to drink wine and hang out Who still lives in a dorm as a senior? Without being a officially a dorm rep I was...
February 13th, 2016
Touched by a Man I Didn’t Know
So I was around 9-10 when this happened. I had just moved with my dad to another state, and since my mother was doing a nursing course, I had to live with him for a year. The neighborhood I lived in was really nice and there were lots of kids...
December 29th, 2015
I Trusted Him
I was 15. I was friends with a guy. Let’s call him J. I was into the drug game pretty hard, he was my dealer, and became a close friend. I would get drunk with him a lot, and he wouldn’t get drunk with me. And I soon found out...
September 2nd, 2015
Still Think It Was My Fault
I don’t really know what to say. I am currently 17 years old and i would need 4 hands to count all the “men” i can somewhat recall sleeping with. Lets just say nothing really phases me. I feel as if bad things are happening all the time. Around me...
July 8th, 2014
Multiple Rapes
Dad’s dad grabs my breast and french kisses me when I am 11, 12 years old. Dad lifts me up above his head and drops me on the ground breaking my ribs and gets on top of me and won’t get off until I threaten to tell mom age 14....
January 27th, 2018
Set Up
This is crazy because this is the first time I’ve ever publicly talked about it. Not even many of my friends know. I always say “something transpired in college.” It’s my way of not dealing with it. Well, by the subject I’m sure you’re wondering what I mean by set...
April 15th, 2017
Exposing Rapists – A Poem
You will never be free Dark is your secret Whatever you do Whoever you become However you dress That secret will turn acidy Drown it with beer Bury it in anger Throw yourself into work Grow your beard Marry the best Protect your daughters Still it will eat your insides...
September 15th, 2016
Déja-vu
There is a place near my house; a theater. When I was young I used to go to this theater often to watch movies with friends and family. It was a very classic place for my neighborhood. Everyone knew this place and would always go there to chill or to...
April 3rd, 2017
I wish I would have been smarter
I was seventeen. I had met a guy through a friend, he was much older than I was, I was a minor. I had been taken to a bar, his friend didn’t bother to check my I.D as I was with his good friend. I was then taken to his...
October 13th, 2017
HS Reunion
This year, I attended my 10 year Reunion, the first time I saw anyone from HS since Graduation Day. Most of all, I had a long talk with Jerry R. Jerry R. and I dated for a long time, and over my objections, he kind of forced me into having...
July 1st, 2016
The Cliche
Rape is an ugly word. Short, finite, guttural. The word reflects its own nature, the lasting impact a few moments can have on your life. And yet often so many of us refuse to use it. For so many years I did. Because I thought of rape as an extreme...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
August 25th, 2016
The Night I Wished Never Happened!!
was 22 yr old Virgin(indian) when this occurred…. I’m a doctor was doing my internship at bangalore medical college… I was so fed up with studies I wanted to have fun i made new friends and one among that was a girl named kritta .. she was living the life...
January 25th, 2018
Was it rape?
I used to never understand the word rape. I used to never think it could happen to me. Too be honest, I still don’t understand it all I know is what happened was wrong. It was six years ago. It was a warm night in may I was at my...
March 6th, 2016
Piano Teacher
It all happened 7 months ago. My piano coach came over one day to help me with my recital. An my mom and dad were out of town so it was just me and my piano teacher. At first everything was cool then we decided to take a little break....
April 11th, 2016
“No” is Universal
Last night I went out to a bar near campus with a few good friends of mine. After a few drinks we ran into some foreign exchange students who bought us shots. An hour or so later I left the bar with one of the french exchange students that I...
July 3rd, 2014
3 Days After Arriving at College
I was 18 years old, I thought he was cute, he was big football player I was meeting people in the first week. He seemed nice he invited me to a party in his dorm. I went there were people there and drinking, we flirted, then he signaled to his...
November 1st, 2016
Stepfather
It all started when I was in 4th grade [age 9]. I didn’t understand what he did when he touched me over my clothing. As I got older my mum said never let someone touch you in your areas where you were underwear, but he constantly said to me ‘don’t...
May 8th, 2018
He took everything
I went out for a night out with work, but I wasn’t nervous or apprehensive despite not knowing very many people that would be present. I worked part time in a shop, and the man who owned it owned a number of others and had a Christmas party for all...
November 24th, 2014
Raped At 16, 29, 31
I was a child, an intelligent one. I grew up in Melbourne, Australia. When my aikido assistant instructor invited me to study at his home before my holiday tuition commenced at Melbourne uni that morning, I did not know that he had other things in mind. I was raped in...
January 12th, 2018
The Night That Changed My Life
How nice to know that within the next 7-10 years you will never have touched me. How devastating to know that 5 of you drugged then raped me after mixing something into my drink while I was using the bathroom. How horrible is it that my best friend, someone I...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
June 29th, 2014
Every Time I Said “No”
I could write a novel with the sexual harassment and mental and physical abuse i have survived in my lifetime. Yet i will stick to the worse three sexual assaults.. I was brought up in a very religious home. Not so much *the good type* of religion, yet the type...
October 4th, 2016
It Happened More Than Once
I was a rape victim for 4 years for two different people, here is my story. When I was 10 years old my mom had a good friend named Pearl, was like an aunt to my younger sister and I and like a sister to my mom so we called...
August 14th, 2015
Family Member
It started at 6, I used to live with my grandma me my parents and my two cousins. My cousin was 15 when he started touching me, he would kiss me put his hands in my pants and touch me, put his fingers inside me and make me perform oral...
January 3rd, 2014
Raped Twice and Attempted Rape Once No...
At 19, a young innocent, never even had a first date. I naively went to the motel room of a road construction worker I had gotten to know while working in the store in my tiny town. He would NOT take NO for answer – raped and lost my virginity...
i was only 7 years old. He was my babysitter. he raped me. i remember i was just playing with my dolls when he came into my room. he said “can i play too?” i said yeah and handed him one of my ken dolls. “no not that kind of...
November 9th, 2017
Gang rape and further sexual assaults
May 05 2001 is a date that will always be tattooed on my brain as that was the day I was raped. I was coming home from work and to save a few pounds I decided to take the bus. After a few minutes I realised I was being followed....
July 8th, 2014
Never Be the Same Again
On 03/02/11 my world changed forever I knew this guy he was acquaintance we decided to hangout I made it very clear to him I didn’t want to do anything sexual and he agreed and he told me he wouldn’t do anything that I didn’t want to do. So I...
August 24th, 2017
I trusted him
I really don’t even know if what happened to me even qualifies as assault or rape. I’m sure the guy sure doesn’t think so. I dated this guy, Kevin, briefly a year ago. We had a sexual relationship at that time but we decided we were both still hung up...
February 10th, 2016
Family Ties
When I was 17, I was on holiday with my dad, step mum and step brother. Everything was going great until one night when my dad and his wife went to bed early leaving me and Stephen alone. At first everything was normal, I was on one side of the...
August 5th, 2015
I Trusted You
I’ve realized I use my “daddy issues” to explain why I do some of the things I do, this no different. It’s not an excuse, just helps show some of my reasoning. All I really wanted was someone to care about me, to take care of me. I was 17,...
March 27th, 2014
Thank You
On New Year’s Day 2005 I was sodomized and assaulted by a friend of a friend whom I had met that evening. He held me down, forced me to give him oral sex, and then anally sodomized me. I was so drunk that night that I felt it would be...
March 23rd, 2016
Molested While Sleeping
Hello my name is Christian Helen Alvarado, When I was 7 years old my mother and father had Separated and were filing for divorce and my mother was fighting for child custody. I live with my father for 2 years in the time they were separated . It was me...
December 7th, 2015
Twenty Years of Hell
I was twelve. I hadn’t become a woman yet as mother nature was not ready, I was not ready. My family needed a horse trainer for our paso fino horses. We met a man, age 26, that was working at another farm a about two hours away. He began training...
August 24th, 2009
חיה בשני עולמות מקבילים
מאיפה בכלל מתחילים לרשום את הסיפור שלי כשמרגישה שלא משנה כמה אני ירשום- זה פשוט לא יהיה מספיק. אני חיה בתוך הסוד הזה כבר שנים רבות- רבות מדי. אני בת 25, לאחרונה סיימתי את התואר הראשון שלי. למרות הכאב שאני חייה בחיי- לאורך השנים תמיד וידאתי שאת כל הכוחות שלי...
February 5th, 2017
Holding My Feelings In
I’ve been raped twice and attempted rape, which I was coerced into I stopped but it was still very much sexual assault. This is over the past few months. I’m jumpy can’t focus very anxious all the time sleep is when I can I try to sleep and have nightmares...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
December 22nd, 2017
Sexual assault from my step brother and...
Around age 6, I began trying to please my stepbrother. He was a year older than me and he and my cousin were always treated like angels despite being terribly mean to me. All I wanted was their respect and friendship. It began as innocent, games in the room we...
November 13th, 2015
My Friend
I wasn’t raped or sexually assaulted, and I’m not sure if this belongs here, but I’m going to say something anyways. My friend was abused, physically and mentally, by his parents. They would lock him out of the house for long periods of time and do other things. He told...
August 15th, 2017
But I Was Drunk
I was leaving my last appointment of the day for work. I got in my car, called my boyfriend of five months and was for some reason or another upset with him. I had also recently left a long term relationship of four years prior to entering this new relationship....
December 1st, 2014
Light In The Dark
I grew up hearing all the right information when it came to date rape, sexual assault and healthy relationships. My mother, my school and other sources were good at teaching me the facts about these realities. Even being equipped with the tools to be able to recognize these risks and...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
April 7th, 2018
He raped me. I hugged him goodbye...
One night while 18 years old and out partying with a girlfriend, I ran into an old friend. He was older – 27 – and I had known him for about 4 years, since he was good friends with my neighbor. I thought he was a friend because he seemed...
May 13th, 2016
Blamed Myself
It was a year ago, I was out with my friend and when I drink vodka I tend to blackout, I don’t drink it anymore. So anyway I think I got kicked out of the club for being too intoxicated and I lost my friend and I remember seeing this...
August 10th, 2015
First Crush
I was rapped only when I was 15. I was a very shy and extremely beautiful girl and many people wished that when I’ll grow up then they will marry their son with me. I was living a happy and luxurious life and when my father had to go to...
September 20th, 2016
The One I Trusted
When I was in 5th grade, I had recently been traumatized with my friend Mario, as we had been knocked out and raped. As soon as school started, I distanced myself from every guy except for Mario and Kostos, a nice Greek/Mexican boy that lived across the street from me....
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
July 2nd, 2014
5 Years On
Two days before my 18th birthday I was out with my friends in a club. A random guy kept coming up to me, trying to get me to dance with him. I plainly rejected him but he was so persistent so I finally gave in & danced with him, along...
July 18th, 2017
Not all friends are true
I grew up such a trusting and open person. I cared about everyone who crossed my path and I would give the shirt off my back to anyone who needed it. So when I got a call at 11:30 from a guy friend saying he needed a place to crash...
June 13th, 2017
Just wanted to be loved
I was with this person for 3 years he said he cared and that he loved me he had me thinking it was going to Be so much more for three years I cared about this person. I took everything from him the hurt,the pain in the abuse that he...
October 20th, 2017
He wasn’t a ‘friend’
One night, as per usual, we went downtown for a couple drinks. I don’t have my driver licence so he took me home. He was a good friend. I liked him very much. He always was so nice and understanding. We made out one night couple years prior to that...
October 26th, 2017
Keep it to myself
One afternoon I walked home from the bus, to find my brother and 2 of his friends watching a porn. They made rude comments about I’d look good like that. I tried to go to my room, but they tackled me. They all raped me, but technically, my own brother...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
December 21st, 2015
Not A Trustworthy Man
I always looked up to my uncles as father figures when my father was not around (he worked a lot). I never once thought that an uncle of mine, a father figure to me would do such a thing to me. Two or three summers ago, my aunt and mother...
January 4th, 2014
Sexist Families Leave Girls Vulnerable to Rape
Having survived two childhood rapes and two violently sexist ex partners, I would suggest that the current system is totally set up to protect the perpetrators and is hugely biaised against the women and children that are assaulted by men and boys. I did speak out to friends at the...
October 21st, 2015
6 to 20
I was 6 years old when I was molested by a neighbor who’s daughter I played with. After a year I told my older brothers and they told my parents. After I talked with my parents and they told the man to get counseling. At six I had no idea...
April 29th, 2017
Ignoring only gets so far
I had thought that if I ignored it, it would go away. Here and there throughout the past eight years, this proved true. Like all things, some days were betters than others. Like all things, this would have to come to an end. This past week, that end was now....
July 6th, 2016
First “Real” Boyfriend
I was a late bloomer, sexually. I didn’t explore my sexuality with anyone until I was sixteen years old, with my first serious boyfriend in high school. I had never done anything with anyone until him. I started to feel comfortable and safe when we would fool around. A week...
February 17th, 2017
Hated Myself
I was 15 years old when I came from school waiting for a taxi to go home. Normally that taxi spot is always busy but that specific day there was a witness with no one in site when suddenly 3 guys came from across the road making as if they...
August 8th, 2018
When will it be enough?
Why is it not enough? Why is my reluctance not enough to make you stop? Why is my “no” not enough? Why is my “no no no” not enough? Why are my clawing, shoving, desperately-trying-to-pull-my-pants-up hands not enough? Why is my cry of “oh god make it stop, please make...
December 8th, 2015
Stronger Every Day
I was 18 years old when it happened. I am now 34. It’s crazy to me to realize that it was almost half of my lifetime ago and yet something reminds me of it so often, even now. And then I see this documentary, and the tears surface without my...
July 14th, 2014
I Was Only 14
I was having fun at a friend’s sweet 16 party. It was held in a little “club” that was very popular. It was very hot inside and I had never danced that much in my life. I went outside to get a breathe of fresh air. A strange man was...
One evening in June about a year ago, I went to bed without checking my tempermental back door lock. I got into bed and heard a noise like a magazine falling to the floor….and attributed it to one of my many cats. One of my cats, Shanti raised her head...
September 22nd, 2017
Unsure
Earlier this year, I was drinking heavily at a bar and ended up going home with a guy. I don’t really remember getting to his place, I don’t even remember what he looked liked, or what his name is. We had kissed and danced at the bar, and the next...
I just watched your documentary yesterday and I am glad to see some one CAN speak out and hear people stories. I am a 46 year old French woman who was walking in the streets of upper west side of Manhattan on May 16th when a man dining outside a...
July 23rd, 2018
How Many Times?
I have been raped, I don’t know anymore whether I admit, or declare it. My first time, also my first time, was on a date with my boyfriend. We were making out, and he went up my shirt, and I stopped him with a no. He kept trying until he...
April 20th, 2009
My story and this amazing documentary film
I was raped when I was 17. It has been 23 years and I am still effected every single day. I was set up with this man by a very close friend of mine. She said she didn’t really like him, but maybe I would. I agreed to meet him...
August 27th, 2014
He Was My Boyfriend
Sometimes I have a hard time saying that what happened to me was rape. I feel like it takes away from legitimate experiences of it and that I’m just being stupid. But what better place to talk about it than here, right? I was 20 years old and he was...
November 14th, 2018
Six months in the making..
I visited this website one week after I was raped in search of story like mine to convince myself what happened to me was rape. Six months ago I went out for the last weekend at college with my friends for a “girls night”. I was drugged at a local...
September 5th, 2010
גבר אלים וחולני
לקראת גיל 15 התחלתי לצאת עם בחור שהיה גדול ממני בשנה, לאחר חודשיים בערך ביחד הייתה בנינו מריבה מטופשת במהלך המריבה הוא נהייה אלים כלפי זאת הפעם הראשונה בעצם שהוא הרים עליי יד, הביא לי סטירה שהפילה אותי על הריצפה וכשאני שוכבת על הרצפה הביא לי מכה חזרה בבטן עם...
Four years ago, my ex partner had raped me. I remember everything like it was yesterday. He lives on an island, and to get there you would have to take a boat, and his dad worked on the boat. My nightmares would always either be me stuck on the island...
October 19th, 2015
College Campus Rape
I was a freshman in college. I was attending a college and living at home, but a friend of mine went to a school out of town and lived on campus. I decided to visit with her for one night. She took me to a party where I met a...
February 22nd, 2018
My baby girl
I am a mother of a beautiful 5 year old baby girl who I got custody taken away from me. For 2 long miserable years I fought for her to get supervised visits with her dad and I lost. My baby girl would come home and tell me horrible stories....
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
December 10th, 2016
Roommates
He was my roommate. Someone I barely knew, an acquaintance. I had moved back to campus after living about a year 20 minutes out from school. I was desperate to be around people my own age again and get out of my current living situation. I took on random roommates...
February 7th, 2016
My Mom
Hello my name is Vivian. About 2 years ago my mother, with great shame and fear, revealed to me that she had been raped as a young girl on a date. She and her older sister, my aunt, went to the police for help and was told there was nothing...
July 17th, 2016
I Want to Live
When I was 5 years old I slept over my cousins house. She wanted to play doctor. I never played before. Her mom walked in and sent me and my sister home. We never saw her again until we were older. Her mom blamed us but it was her idea....
April 16th, 2018
He doesn’t even know he raped me
I was very drunk one night at a party and as I swiped through my tinder I matched with this boy. He messaged me really quickly and told me he was a senior and that he thought I was pretty and that we should hang out. I was really drunk...
June 25th, 2014
Thank you for being LOUD!
I know it is hard to share this burden, to deal with it again and again, to listen to stories that are triggering of the PTSD and to try to help the whole world and feel overwhelmed. I hope you will give yourself a chance to take a break when...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
February 22nd, 2018
My Brave Daughter
Last year my 13yo daughter told me that her friend confessed that her stepfather was indecently touching her. Her friend was afraid to tell her mother because she thinks that the authorities will take her away from her own family. After persuading her to seek help and the school helping...
I used to live in south Korea with my parents and my two brothers (one older and one younger). My older brother died when I was very young and my parents decided to migrate overseas for a fresh new start. When we first came to Australia, we settled in extremely...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
June 26th, 2014
Afraid of Being Judged
When I was 18 years old I was like a lot of young women-dating, trying out relationships, making mistakes. My biggest mistake was to trust a “friend.”. We had a passionate relationship at the start. We were both college freshman, I had a long-distance boyfriend that wasn’t working out-and we...
January 21st, 2018
Be Aware
A girl I date recently came forward to me about 2 occurrences. I really don’t know how to feel about it all because she is a victim of rape but she also put herself in each situation it occurred. The summer after her freshman year of college she went to...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
I was a freshman in high school so it was the world to be dating a senior. Until you get passed the fact that he’s just 4 years older and that he is mentally and verbally abusive. Not to mention the boy cheated on me. But he had me so...
March 19th, 2017
Party Time
When I was fifteen I went to my first college party. My friend Katie who was a senior and eighteen at the time had been invited by an older boy and I insisted that we go. She was hesitant but I pushed and she relented. So we got all dolled...
November 7th, 2016
The Girl Who Went To College
It was early into my first year of college in New York City. (I’m from a really small Midwest town and grew up as a painfully awkward band geek and was going through my first ever breakup with my then-long-distance HS boyfriend back home but we were trying to stay...
February 9th, 2016
Did He Rape Me?
I really need an honest answer, I just want to understand what happened. I feel guilty for calling it “rape” because people have such worse experiences than what happened to me. I’m sorry if this is long, but please bear with me. Ok, this is the background…. I never wanted...
July 8th, 2015
Enough Is Enough
I am now 22, at 18 I had my first real boyfriend, who completely mentally and emotionally abused me, but of course in that moment I was in complete denial of the whole situation. After about a year of going out, things were getting worse. One night while having sex...
I was a little girl who thought the world was a place of protection and comfort. I guess my positivity proved me wrong. That night I remember thunder and lots of heavy rain hitting the roof as I sat still, he was whispering in my ear telling me not to...
September 23rd, 2016
Rape
I was raped by a family friend. Someone I thought I could trust. I was wrong. He kept me in a room at my mother’s home all night long. I felt like I was going to die, or I wished it at the time. I wanted to go to the...
January 21st, 2017
You Can’t Trust Anyone
At the time he was my boyfriend of about 6 months. my first boyfriend in high school had cheated on me with my best friend, that relationship doesn’t hold much meaning to me because first loves to me can be first mistakes I was very young and should have seen...
November 21st, 2015
I Trusted Him
When I was a teenager, I would stay out past curfew a lot. My mother was at her wits end with me. She constantly expressed her disappointment. At one point she said to me “you are going to end up pregnant.” When I turned 18, I signed up for the...
March 7th, 2018
I loved him
I was 21 when I went out drinking with friends. I woke up in the morning not being able to recall how I got home or anything that had happened that night, I didn’t feel hungover or sick. I wasn’t wearing any clothes and I had bruises on my body....
July 9th, 2014
37 Years Ago
I just got thru watching your documentary on Netflix I cried thru most of it as obviously I can relate to some of the stories of the victims. I was not raped I was sexually molested by my grandfather at ages 6-9. As I now am 43 years old I...
December 14th, 2017
Confused
So one day I was hanging out with this guy friend if mine. We had consensual sex about a week before this. We were in a hotel room and I got into bed naked with him. He started to put me down telling me I was a whore and I...
December 1st, 2017
Remember as a victim you have done...
There are so many opinions. She wore a short skirt. She didn’t say no. She wanted it. Yep… I believe it can be complicated unless you are in the middle of the situation. Then it is very clear. You have said yes or no, or your body has indicated yes...