From the time I was very little my own father was a sexual predator in my life and my sister. I am sure my mother and my step mother knew how he was and just buried their heads in the sand. I wonder how many mothers just keep silent when...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
April 11th, 2009
Survivors of Continuous Events of Sexual ABUSE
I am 23 y/o of Multiracial Ethnicities, Filipino-Spanish-American. Struggling w/the issue of being multiracial and identifying my sexual identity. I am a survivor of 10 years of child incest/rape by my father from 6-17 years old. I was date raped again by a friend in college, he brought alcohol over,...
September 24th, 2017
Drunk and Alone
I went drinking last night with a friend and we both were there intending to pick up. We got pretty wasted from drinks these 2 brothers were buying and we went out and around back to the alley to make out a bit. After a few minutes my friend waved...
March 25th, 2016
Still Need Help
I was dating this guy that my family had a lot of connections with. He came over to my house one day. I was 20 years old and I am now 26. It started out as just kissing but he went to far and the next thing I know he...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
May 8th, 2017
I called him my friend
It was a dated function. This guy was my friend. I showed up, and was given lots of vodka. Thats all I remember. I woke up. 4am. I’m in his bed, with his clothes on. I turned over and saw him there, staring at me. He climbed on top of...
October 15th, 2016
Welcome To Adulthood
It was my eighteenth birthday. My mom took me to Olive Garden and the movies. My older brothers took me to get my first tattoo then dropped me off at me best friends house where we planned to throw a party. She invited her on and off again boyfriend who...
August 22nd, 2014
I Am Victorious!
My name is Yohanna Maceo-Ramirez and I say my full name because I have no shame in me anymore about what has happened to me. I was raped at 13 (I was a virgin) by a local playboy in the small town that I lived in the state of Pennsylvania....
May 23rd, 2016
Cafeteria Food
When I was 16 years old I was a nerdy person. I kept to myself and didn’t go out to parties or other. So when I got my first boyfriend I was ecstatic. He was a practical god to me. Things had been going well, until one day when we...
January 7th, 2016
Kidnapped
I was raped about a year before I was kidnapped. The kidnapping is more traumatic for me because nearly 20 years later I recognized a story on a profiling on America’s Most wanted that I knew it was the same people who kidnapped me. I escaped by some incredible strokes...
February 18th, 2015
Raped at Camp
I was 9 years old at a campground my whole family went to every year, literally since I was a baby. The two teenage boys that raped me were neighbors from the adjacent campsite. They were sons of a minister. It happened when I was walking enjoying the woods. The...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
March 23rd, 2016
A Lifetime
My unfortunate store started when i was 8 yrs old. My mother had just married a man she had only known a very short time (5 months). He started molesting me within days of the wedding and slowly progressed to rape. I was to scared to tell anyone until i...
December 27th, 2014
Can’t Believe I’m Doing This
I was in a physically abusive relationship. This was when I was in my late teens and twenties. I finally was brave enough to leave the relationship after 10 years. I met him when I was 15 years old. He had hit me before but he always promised to change....
January 5th, 2015
Stolen Innocence
My mother and father got divorced when I was two years old. My mother was a single mom with two kids so she was always working trying to make ends meet and making sure we had food in our tummies. I admire my mother for this. My father remarried, had...
August 22nd, 2018
PART 3: My True, Horrid, and Concluded...
“I’ve never forgotten him. Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart. I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously,...
April 20th, 2015
Catching Up With Me
I was twelve years old when I vividly recall my grandfather walking towards me and for the first time placing his hands on me. I was stunned and paralyzed. Each time that we would visit him (or have a sleepover) and when we were alone he would touch me, kiss...
December 12th, 2017
Family rape
I’m so lost. All my life I have seen and herd stories about girls being raped, touched, all sorts of unwanted physical interaction. But never in my wildest dreams did I ever think It was going to be me. I always knew how to prevent situations like those from evolving...
March 5th, 2018
One Night Only
I had been traveling nonstop for weeks. I was running on empty but still managed to pull myself together after a four-hour flight to meet a couple of my friends for dinner. Little did I know, it would only take that one night for my life to change drastically. I...
December 12th, 2017
Trapped
I don’t know what to call it. Its been a rough year, my cousins lost his sister to suicide, & I know it shouldn’t be an excuse for why I let him do what he does to me. I thought the first time he took advantage of me was going...
June 3rd, 2021
he made me loose hope in love…
I met this boy soon after leaving a long term relationship.. I was heartbroken and had my guard down when we began dating. Our relationship started as innocent “hookups” and turned into more. But he quickly became abusive. In my words i would say, he treated me like a piece...
September 27th, 2016
Multiple Times
I have been raped more than once. And unfortunately, some people start blaming the victim after the first time it happens. And unfortunately I rarely talk about this because it takes a piece of me every time I talk about what has happened. The first time I was raped, I...
January 21st, 2018
Employer rape
I was sixteen and working at a dry cleaners. The man I had worked for was like a father to me, but he was transferred to another shop and the owner gave his job to his nephew who was late twenties, early thirties, I’m guessing. I was struggling and pregnant....
June 25th, 2014
Endless Shame
I was leaving in Roma, Italy. I had a daughter, she was 2 years old. Her father, my husband and I were separated. He left often for the US and left us. I thought I could have ended it. I was a working model, 27 years old with a child....
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
April 22nd, 2018
Friend of mines set me up
I was about 18 years old 2 years ago and me and this girl became really close. We didnt talk im school much but after we graduate she wanted to hang out more. One day she tells me she wants me to go to the beach with her and a...
March 23rd, 2018
Fraternity Men
Hi. I’m really not sure how to go about this and I don’t know how comfortable I feel yet, but I saw your site and I wanted to reach out to share with other women. I was raped by a Fraternity man who I was actually very close friends with....
July 5th, 2011
Nothing important…
.. My first answer, when people asked what happened. I was raped at my 25th birthday in Hungary from one of the teachers who helped me with my diploma thesis and his friends, which I never met before. That was his birthday-present for me, beside the cake. I remember him...
January 9th, 2017
My Story
My story began late June… I was sitting in my room by myself reading a book as usual since I didn’t have any friends left in the town i lived in. At age 17 most high-school girls are surrounded by friends but I kept my distance on people and who...
April 3rd, 2018
My First Boyfriend
I was absolutely smitten with my first boyfriend. He was cute, handsome, and very smart. I had never been in love before. I thought I loved him more than I could love anybody else. I was clear; I wanted to wait until I was married. I wanted to share that...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
July 7th, 2016
A Ride Home
I was 21 years old and had just broken up with a boyfriend. I drove to a bar to meet up with some friends who convinced me coming out for a couple drinks would make me feel better. While I was at the bar, I saw my best friend’s acquaintance,...
June 25th, 2018
Close of a Brother
Growing up my brother would tell me we had to sick together because we were the only children who’s father was not around. My brother little by little starting age 6 he would kiss me then hump. eventually i was age 7 or 8 he’d begin having intercourse. To this...
October 24th, 2017
Happy Birthday
I just turned 21 and i had my cousins car and my best friend was my D.D. we had lunch and i had my first legal drink and i also got a free drink from starbucks what a great start right. Im in college away from home so i kinda...
September 14th, 2016
So Many Times
I was always told how kind I was. Since a young age everyone told me that I had a kind heart. I feel like that’s the reason I have been taken advantage of so many times in my life. My kind heart made me vulnerable and naive to people who...
March 14th, 2011
He’s Dead
About a month ago I got a phone call from my brother. He told me that my ex-step dad, the man who molested me during my childhood, was dead, that he had died over a year ago, in October 2009. This day was one of the happiest days of my...
August 22nd, 2018
PART 4: My True, Horrid, and Concluded...
“To be, or not to be: that is the question: /Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer /The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, /Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, /And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep; /No more; and, by a sleep to...
I had met this guy through my brother in law. Since I had met him he sexually assaulted me before but I ended up liking him & went on a date with him. We were at a party & I had a few glasses of wine. The same night I...
July 3rd, 2014
3 Days After Arriving at College
I was 18 years old, I thought he was cute, he was big football player I was meeting people in the first week. He seemed nice he invited me to a party in his dorm. I went there were people there and drinking, we flirted, then he signaled to his...
August 27th, 2014
He Was My Boyfriend
Sometimes I have a hard time saying that what happened to me was rape. I feel like it takes away from legitimate experiences of it and that I’m just being stupid. But what better place to talk about it than here, right? I was 20 years old and he was...
You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
November 8th, 2017
What sent me over the edge
I had just turned 19. I went to a frat party, I was drinking too much because I was stupid and just wanted to fit in. I started dancing and making out with a stranger. He quickly became violent. When I tried to leave, he followed me upstairs and dragged...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
I met my boyfriend online 3 years ago, I was 17 at that time. I week after I went into college. One day his friend invited us to his home we were just few, my boyfriend, his friends, some other guys like 5 of them and girls like 6 of...
October 4th, 2015
My Own Brother
A year ago, I was 34 at the time. I woke up to my brother on top of me with his penis in my vagina. As soon as I woke up, I jumped and tried to push him off of me. My 7 year old son was laying right next...
November 14th, 2016
Powerful
I just watched the movie on Netflix. I’m in tears never told a soul what happened. I’m 38 yrs old and I was raped and molested at 7 yrs old by family friends. I’m in therapy for ptsd and anxiety. Came across the movie on Netflix and it was simply...
March 8th, 2015
His Masterpiece
When I was 15 I became very close to my uncle because I felt he was the only one who understood me. I loved him so much. We were best friends and never in a million years did I ever think of him in any other way other than my...
September 26th, 2017
Date Rape
I had been dating this guy my freshman year in college for almost 3 weeks. i was riding in his car with him and he reached over and started touching my thighs. I told him to stop and that i don’t feel comfortable. he pulled over to a secluded area...
December 16th, 2011
The summer between 6th and 7th grade
When you are twelve and you are running away from rape, and you are dazzling drunk from drinking out of a red SOLO cup, the world spins and the floor comes up to greet you, gritting it’s sandpaper teeth against your ruddied cheek. You remember the way the fence feels...
August 3rd, 2015
Our Stories & Pain Are Valid
I saw Brave Miss World today on Netflix, I watched it with my partner. She’s asleep now and I’m looking at the website alone trying to process what I saw privately so she doesn’t have to know the effect it had. When I was 17 somebody spiked my drink and...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
November 13th, 2017
Not friends
I was drinking pretty hard for a couple weeks straight, and drugs on and off, this is before I started treatment for bipolar disorder. I was very hypersexual. I came on to a longtime friend of mine, who habitually used me for money, etc anyway. Later I told him, we...
November 23rd, 2017
My consent is just that…mine
I was 25. He was 22. I was in my party phase. We ran in same friends circle. Joked, flirted and hooking up seemed logical. We met up on several weekends after last calls. It was a fling. Just fun. Right? One night we met up. He lived in same...
October 18th, 2011
Different face, but the same monster
It started when I was 5…he was a trusted friend of a neighbors family…I can still remember his smell, some 20 years later…’If you tell anyone that I touch you, I’ll hurt you’ he would say, and then throw me to the ground and walk away…fast forward 10 years, same...
July 14th, 2016
I Thought I was Safe
I was in class and I thought I was safe. It was my freshman year of high school and it was the week of finals. We didn’t have a final in that class so all of us got to play games. I sat next to him bc my friend was...
July 8th, 2014
Never Be the Same Again
On 03/02/11 my world changed forever I knew this guy he was acquaintance we decided to hangout I made it very clear to him I didn’t want to do anything sexual and he agreed and he told me he wouldn’t do anything that I didn’t want to do. So I...
May 3rd, 2018
That’s not Me, it’s Her
I read a recent story where a woman described not remembering, or seeing someone else. I know how you feel, my sister! I would rather not give exact details, fearing reprisals, but I was raped in the office of an authority figure. I can say that today, but at the...
July 27th, 2016
Lightening Does Strike Twice
I’ve been raped twice. One left left me bruised, one didn’t leave a mark. Both hurt the same. When I was 16 I got a boyfriend. He was older, and cool, and in a band. He took me to parties, and gave me weed, and made me feel cool, too....
November 14th, 2018
Six months in the making..
I visited this website one week after I was raped in search of story like mine to convince myself what happened to me was rape. Six months ago I went out for the last weekend at college with my friends for a “girls night”. I was drugged at a local...
July 10th, 2016
Rape Shaming
5 Years ago I attended Boarding School in the UK. I was a good student. Sociable. I was having the time of my life. After breaking up with my boyfriend, who had moved to a different continent, at the beginning of my last semester I fell into depression. It was...
April 26th, 2017
My Snowball Effect
My life has been a serious of many many struggles. But, I am grateful that they happened because I wouldn’t be the person that I am today. It started with my parents relationship. It was ever really good. But at the age of nine, I caught my Father cheating on...
February 5th, 2017
Holding My Feelings In
I’ve been raped twice and attempted rape, which I was coerced into I stopped but it was still very much sexual assault. This is over the past few months. I’m jumpy can’t focus very anxious all the time sleep is when I can I try to sleep and have nightmares...
June 6th, 2017
I Didn’t Choose This Life
My mom met a guy after my dad moved away. She took me to his house to meet his family and children. A few months his sons became my step brothers. There was the oldest which was the nice one and the youngest at the time about 14-15 while I...
March 23rd, 2018
My best friend raped me
I will start out by saying that I am a totally different person now than I was then at 18. I won’t say that what happened made me who I am today because I know better than that. You aren’t broken nor damaged from what happened, you just work on...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
December 26th, 2014
Inspired
I was sexually assaulted 5 months ago on June 30th 2014. I had the idea to take myself and two of my other friends bridge jumping, so I feel as if I’m to blame. We got there and we noticed a strange man who was by himself staring at us....
October 20th, 2016
Brave Miss(es) Indeed
All my life, women have felt they could intimidate me and hurt me. Why? To make themselves feel better? Because I deserve pain and humiliation? Every instance of significant harassment and assault was at the hands of a woman. When I was 13, the girlfriends I had cherished turned on...
March 29th, 2016
Small Town, Popular Boyfriend
I was 11 when I first met, lets call him Dave, he was 13 at the time. I live in Australia and Dave and his family were from Canada, they’d moved into my very small outback town, as his father is a priest, and they were ‘needed’ by the church....
June 8th, 2016
#IStandWithHer
May 7th, 2013. A day that will forever stick in my mind as the worst day of my life. I was a junior at the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign. I had completed my last final of junior year and was excited to see what senior year had to offer. These...
March 23rd, 2018
The cycle
Not once but twice I was raped. The first time I was young, I was recovering from a medical procedure and used this truth as an excuse to not engage in sex with the man I was in a relationship with. He was much older than I, and I had...
January 16th, 2015
Hospitalized
My father raped me, on average of twice per week, from the time I was 8-17 years old. When I was 10, I was mutilated during one of the rapes (there is no way to describe the pain), and hospitalized (see medical report here: http://www.wonderwong.com/MedicalReport.jpg My father was also physically...
January 19th, 2015
My Best Friend
My best friend was raped when she was fourteen. She was raped by two older guys during her summer job at a children’s theme park. She’s never been the same. She didn’t tell me that she had been raped until about five years ago, and it hasn’t been until recently...
August 8th, 2014
Taking Back My Life
5 1/2 years ago, I was raped by someone I had hoped to have a relationship with. This is my first time sharing my story in a public forum, outside of therapy or close family or friends. We had been dating for a few months when he told me he...
October 21st, 2017
My experience as an intern in highschool
I was a senior at Towson High School in 1970. I was allowed to be an intern for half the day in my chosen interest. I was a member of DECCA, and did well, so I spent half the school day at the Towson Times, a member at the time...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
For my 23 birthday I wanted to do something special for myself, and let go of what holds me back. In the last year so many things have happened and changed me as I am. I’m done hiding something that doesn’t define me, that wasn’t my fault. At the young...
October 22nd, 2016
Two Friends and Two Boys
I’m the friend that everyone talks about. The one that always needs someone to listen to her problems and never really listens back. The one that expects you to be there the moment I need you, but when you need me I may or may not be there. I never...
November 21st, 2018
Molested by my cousin
I was 6 years old girl at the time and I remember everything clearly. the only person that new for a long time was my older sister who was “touched” by him too once. however what made want to talk about it is the fact that I have told my...
January 13th, 2016
Under Age drinking
I was 14. Id just left school due to bullying and I wasn’t getting an education. I had only one friend. She was popular and had been invited to a Halloween party where people would be drinking. I went along with her. We go ready at her cousins house who...
January 4th, 2014
Sexist Families Leave Girls Vulnerable to Rape
Having survived two childhood rapes and two violently sexist ex partners, I would suggest that the current system is totally set up to protect the perpetrators and is hugely biaised against the women and children that are assaulted by men and boys. I did speak out to friends at the...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
February 19th, 2016
Moving on Alone from Rape
I am a 26 old women. When I was 25, I was raped by someone I never knew. I was on a dating site. A guy started talking to me we exchanged numbers. He sounded nice we started messaging each other. Good few hours later, he wanted meet in the...
December 28th, 2015
Help…
I live in an area where there aren’t a lot of people to talk to. There’s no support groups and there aren’t many counsellors that aren’t men. (‘m afraid of men, since what happened to me, and there’s one girl-counsellor but she doesn’t understand at all. It’s a very small...
February 3rd, 2017
Its Got To STOP!
My story and experiences of what I’ve been enduring for over a year now is so fantastic that even I have a hard time getting my mind around it. I am a Caregiver that has worked for the same employer for almost 8 years now. She has a professional Conservator...
April 8th, 2016
Harassment at Work
So I came on here before and posted a story about the date rape I endured last June. And now the result of my rape us that I seem to be a target for every fucking asshole in the trip state area. Maybe it’s the piece of me that was...
March 1st, 2016
I Thought I Knew Hi
Ever since I was born, my mom’s siblings lived with us. 2 brothers, and a sister. So basically, I viewed them as my 2 older brothers, and older sister, (but in reality they were my 2 uncle and aunt). I’ll start calling the 2 brothers as A and B. Fast...
November 19th, 2017
Junior Prom
Asked out to Junior Prom is supposed to be Great, am I wrong? This guy was not my choice, and I mainly went to, basically Go. I was in a new dress, hair, and lots of make-up. We had a dismal time there. He said a lot of creepy things....
September 1st, 2014
Remember November
November 1st of 2013, my two friends were having a Halloween birthday party. Halloween is/was my favorite holiday but now it only brings bad memories to the surface. I was 19 years old and at my friends’ party only holding a solo cup full of water. I did not drink...
March 23rd, 2016
Afraid of the Truth
i’m 28 years old and have been in trauma therapy for close to three years since its happen, and i still have a very hard time speaking about it. it happened while i was in israel for a 2 week vacation during college. i had had a few drinks and...
July 28th, 2014
הטרידו אותי
היי לינור קודם כל אני חייבת להגיד שראיתי את הסרט שלך אולי מאות פעמים וכל פעם אני מתרגשת מחדש. אני בת 13 ולפני כמה ימים הטרידו אותי וזה לא יוצא לי מהראש זה הלך ככה הלכתי עם חברה שלי לקניון ואז איש מבוגר פנה אלי ואמר לי שיש לי יופי...
I am nearing 32 years of age and I was sexually abused from the age of 7-12 by two seperate family members. They just so happened to have a father that had fame attached to his name. I think this may have contributed to the fact that nobody in my...
August 14th, 2015
Family Member
It started at 6, I used to live with my grandma me my parents and my two cousins. My cousin was 15 when he started touching me, he would kiss me put his hands in my pants and touch me, put his fingers inside me and make me perform oral...
The reason i am sharing my story is because, all though SOME of my family have always been 100% supportive of my sexual assault and would do anything to help me. They don’t understand what I’ve been through and hopefully never will. Although I have told most of my close...
August 13th, 2014
My 21st Birthday
I’ve never told anyone this story before, mostly because I know too much time has passed between what happened and now and know one will believe me. One of my best friends is still good friends with my rapist. Furthermore, I know that they will not believe me because many...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
April 26th, 2017
My Snowball Effect
My life has been a serious of many many struggles. But, I am grateful that they happened because I wouldn’t be the person that I am today. It started with my parents relationship. It was ever really good. But at the age of nine, I caught my Father cheating on...
February 20th, 2018
My Story
I was 16 when I had my first kiss, 17 when I met my first boyfriend and lost my virginity. I was a shy girl, the one who blended into the background amongst her more attractive friends. Dennis was tall, blonde and exotic- All of us were drawn to him....
February 19th, 2015
The Setup
Growing up I was always a good church girl. Never cursed,n ever had sex, never did a lot of things. Until I turned 16, and began experimenting with opiates. I became an addict. To this day, my mouth still waters when thinking about a day in bed with a nice...
June 8th, 2016
#IStandWithHer
May 7th, 2013. A day that will forever stick in my mind as the worst day of my life. I was a junior at the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign. I had completed my last final of junior year and was excited to see what senior year had to offer. These...
September 7th, 2009
לדבר, להלחם, לנצח
לינור יקרה, בלי שתדעי ליוות אותי בשנים הקשות שלי. נאנסתי במשך שנים וכשאת סיפרת את הסיפור שלך אני הייתי בת 13. נתת לי את הכוח לספר את הסיפור שלי ולבקש עזרה. היום- יותר מעשור אחרי… ואחרי טיפול ארוך שנים ואין בוף עליות וירידות אני גאה לומר- ניצחתי. אני חיה. נהנת...
June 24th, 2014
Paris Nightmare
19, first night in Paris, met a handsome guy my age. Kissed at a nightclub, he gave me his number as I was traveling around France for the rest of the summer but would be passing through Paris on the way back. Ring me, he said. I was flattered. Also...
March 15th, 2016
Ashamed Afraid Angry Grey
When I was 19 years old, I got my first job working in a fast food restaurant. I was so happy to have gotten the job. I was so proud to surprise my father with this news as he’d helped me in the past with work and this time I’d...
February 17th, 2017
Secretly Molested
I lived with my great aunt and uncle since I was about 3 because my mom didn’t have her life together. I think the first time I was molested I was about 7. I was sleeping between them for some reason and woke up to being touched down there. It...
December 18th, 2014
You Must Acknowledge
For some reason I still can’t come out and say that what happened to me was rape even if everything in me says it was. I often refer to it as a “passive sexual assault” even though friends I’ve told about it have all said that it was rape. I...
Before reading: English is not my first language. Be aware before you Judge me. Thank you. I can’t explain how it felt. The hardest part of my story is, that not only did he take away my trust, he took away a part of my memory, a crucial part, that...
February 5th, 2016
Speaking Up
I was raped was by my ex boyfriend. We were living together at the time and he had a really big drug problem. I didn’t want to believe that a person I trusted would ever hurt me. After it happened several times and I started to be afraid to go...
June 22nd, 2014
Raped as a Boy
I was raped as a child for many years by someone I considered a father figure, my uncle. I had only realized what it was before I became a teenager. He passed away in 97 from a flesh-eating disease. I always thought this was God’s doing for what he did...
January 10th, 2018
We Need Peace Too
When I was 8 years old, I was molested by a stranger in bus. This experience made me afraid of men and boys in general, i did everything to be invincible, i kept a lot to myself. Some years later, i was almost gang-raped. They didn’t get to do the...
November 19th, 2017
Just Violated
I need to post here. I read your posts with a friend who needed to heal, and now I need to heal. A stranger grabbed me in my garage, took my purse for money, and violated me. I am hurt, physically hurt, mentally hurt. I was opinioned that she was...
March 6th, 2014
In Denial of My Rape
When I was fifteen and sixteen, I was in an abusive relationship. He raped me four times, and had me convinced that it wasn’t rape because we were together. He would tell me things like, “I love you so much. I just couldn’t help it.” and “Don’t you love me?...
March 24th, 2017
I am More than a Victim
I was raped the summer before my sophomore year. I was at a party. I was dancing and talking to everyone that I came into contact with, I wasn’t drinking just having a good time. The friends I was with left to go get a drink and to go to...
April 20th, 2017
Freshman Year
I go to a small college in the northeast, and my freshman year I was at a party at one of the sports team houses. It was only October, and I had a group of friends at school and all, but there was also a kid from my high school...
February 11th, 2016
Longest Prayers of My Life
I was like 9 or 10 years old. A friend of mine was moving to Nogales Sonora so she invited another friend and me to the city. two adult uncles of my friend were staying in her house, and one night her uncles slept in the room where we were...
March 17th, 2017
Him or Me
When I was 15 I was in a foster home. The couple was planning on adopting me. I was so excited to finally have a real family. A friend of their’s past away and her husband was in the army so they took in her son while his dad finished...
January 24th, 2015
4th of July
I remember it like it was yesterday. And although I was intoxicated at the time, I remember the pain. I remember the embarrassment afterwards. I was 20 years old, and I was waiting for marriage. He was a hockey player. He was charming and he was older. It was the...
October 17th, 2015
Never Even Knew
I went out with a friend to our favorite bar. I had two drinks and the my one friend left. I was socializing and we were talking about fire ball and one guy offered to get me and his friend a shot. Then 2 more. Within mins everything was black...
This is a very long story DO NOT READ IF TRIGGERED. Well i meet a boy when i was little we both were 15 , 16 he would do little simple things like grind on top of me with clothes on and kissing me. He started to force me to...
January 9th, 2018
I got away
Recently I went on a date with someone I met online. He was charming, cute, funny and I thought he was kind. He invited me over for some drinks and dinner. We were having a good time and he decided to kiss me. I was excited and enjoyed our kiss...
November 28th, 2017
I don’t know what to think
This isn’t rape. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know what to think or feel or even how to act around him. I guess it started when my mom went on vacation and left me and my step dad at the house. He would sleep with me and...
March 19th, 2018
Quarterly Review
As my 1st job, I was working at a chain store while going to school, and supporting my Mother through her cancer treatments. We had some assistance, but not enough to cover bills and food, much less rent. I needed the job. The manager TJ knew I was hard up...
February 19th, 2018
I’ve survived sexual abuse
As a kid I was a molested from the time I was 5 until 15. I married to leave my house. Got pregnant and divorced soon after. Then I found myself in a very controlling relationship. Found myself pregnant again which are lost that child due to a DUI driver...
December 16th, 2016
Confused by Rape
I would like to start by saying the recent rape is indeed all of my fault and i now feel completely disgusting and hate myself. And please try to understand where I’m coming from before judging me too badly…. I had a hard time with love and figuring it out....
July 31st, 2016
I Woke Up In The Tub
I woke up in the bathtub. With the shower running. My socks were on. My underwear between my legs. The alarm was going off. Something was wrong. Besides the socks. Besides the underwear. Besides the shower and the tub. Besides the pain. Don’t think about the pain. Something was wrong....
April 9th, 2016
Memories Are Back
It has not been a year since my father raped me, and everything changed since that day I did not return to be the same person I was before, I thought that maybe could get over act as if nothing had ever happened but I could, my mother took me...
January 11th, 2018
Still Going
I can barely remember my childhood but Im going to let it go and share what I do remember. Im 33 years old and grateful to have survived. I remember my mothers husband raping me at the age of 7. He was sexually, mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive. He was...
July 8th, 2014
Child on Child Sexual Abuse
Our son was sexually abused by an older male cousin at the age of 5. We only knew there had been inappropriate behavior on Christmas Day in 1995, when our son (age 8) at the time, told us of an incident when this same older male cousin pinned him up...
June 2nd, 2015
My Army Fiance
I was 18. He was 21. He had been back from a deployment over in the middle east for 2 and a half. We started dating after spending time on the phone and in person. We were great, no problems at all. Except I refused to have sex. I am...
April 22nd, 2019
Swept under the carpet
I was 8 years old and my Mam always brought me supermarket shopping with my grandparents every Saturday. It was always the same, same shop, same car, same smell, I hated it! My grandfather always bought me an ice cream, a really expensive one, once bought and back in the...
July 18th, 2014
The Elevator Man
He knew me. I was a passenger in his elevator frequently, as my best friend lived in the building that was just a few blocks away from mine on the upper west side of New York City. That day, en route to my best friend’s apartment, he closed the elevator...
October 3rd, 2016
That One Night
I can remember so many things about that one night so clearly. I went to have dinner at a friend´s house because we were going to the pub later to celebrate another friend´s 21st birthday. I was wearing a black dress. I usually don´t wear dresses when I go out....
July 28th, 2017
Politeness Serves No One
I had just started college; this was about ten years ago. I was leaving a frat party on my own. A male friend of a friend texted me to ask what I was doing and if I needed someone to walk me back to the dorms. I had only met...
June 10th, 2016
Spring Break Nightmare
I was on Spring Break in Cancun (my first and only time to go somewhere for Spring Break). I was a Junior in College and knew that I should always, and only, accept a drink (non-alcoholic or not) from the employee serving the drinks. I always followed this rule. I...
Born A Girl When I was 10, I noticed men looking at me differently When I was 10 to 12 men and boys of all ages honked their horns, whistled and yelled profanities at me When I was 13 my friend and I were walking home in the daylight, when...
July 8th, 2014
Impacted Forever
I was a private duty nurse taking care of a very critical patient. I was very foolish and trusted the Son that lived in the home. He was very kind and caring. I had been working there for over 6.5 months. One day the Son and 2 friends came in...
December 9th, 2015
I’m a Victor, not a Victim
I grew up in a dysfunctional and broken family. The youngest of four to a single mother struggling with addiction and her own demons, I didn’t have much of a chance in the pursuit of normalcy. When we were children, my mother sent us to church once a week with...
March 30th, 2016
From Scared Girl to Strong Mother
Though I’m sure I experienced some type of sexual abuse as a child younger than 6, I cannot recount those memories. I do recall being overly sexual by the time I was 6 years old. I do, also, recall hating being around my aunts boyfriend (who I later found out...
October 25th, 2018
The Boys Club Continues
I decided to share my story after reading another woman’s story on this site…she was brutally gang raped by police and contemplating suicide. Please “don’t let them win” by Suicide. I know it’s your choice to take your life or survive…. I know the helplessness against the Blue Wall. I...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
May 1st, 2017
I wanted to get high
It started off, not so well. I wanted to get high, smoke some weed. I wanted to get high because I, I was feeling low. I didn’t have enough money so I went, ‘5’ with some guy. I knew of him, I didn’t think any harm. His dark brown eyes...
April 15th, 2018
My boyfriend of 2 years
I’ve been dating this guy for 2 years, and a little while ago, he took me to his family’s beach house for summer. The first night we were there, he offered me a candy. Obviously, I took it. I started to feel funny and turns out he drugged me and...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
May 4th, 2015
No Wasn’t Good Enough
I was enlisted in the United States Army. I believed it was my chance to find my self and be courageous and to leave the sheltered area from where I was raised, to be a voice. After a deployment with my unit I came home, I was tired and worn...
April 8th, 2015
The Woods Don’t Speak
So this happened to me a week ago.This boy I liked seem real nice everything I wanted so my friend got us to gather. I’m 15. He is 16. So he would tell me everyday how pretty I am and how pretty my eyes are and at first I was...
December 1st, 2017
Long way back
I have gotten out of a very abusive relationship. It started when we were dating, with requesting and then demanding being masturbated in his car. Eventually he wanted oral sex. When his parents were out, he took my virginity, over my objections, and after that regularly wanted sex. He got...
April 7th, 2015
Becoming Whole
I was 3 years old the first time I was molested. The molestation/rape went on for almost 15 years old; involving dozen’s of men, dozen’s of times, I was prostituted by my grandfather for almost 6 years. I was brutalized and tortured. I was again raped when I was 21...
June 8th, 2016
#IStandWithHer
May 7th, 2013. A day that will forever stick in my mind as the worst day of my life. I was a junior at the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign. I had completed my last final of junior year and was excited to see what senior year had to offer. These...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
August 30th, 2015
Is It Rape When It’s Your Husband??
I was married at 16 to a man that was not a good guy. Is it still rape when it comes to your husband?? I had two small children aged about 2 & 3 at the time. I was about 19. He became very mentally ill, crazy if he did...
October 17th, 2018
When i was stripped of my innocence
when i was younger, about 6/7, an older man (about 17) approached me at a park late at night and told me my pants were undone and that he would help me do them up, he brought me to a park bench and proceeded to stick his hand down my...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
December 31st, 2015
Sexual Assault
My first take on “sex” was misunderstanding. I didn’t know what it was, and my mother told me that I didn’t need to worry about it yet. My father and mother had always stressed being responsible, and learning to defend yourself. I chose “Start By Believing” to tell my story,...
May 2nd, 2017
Be Careful Who You Trust
Be careful who you trust, they could end up betraying you. At least that is what happened to me. My mother had been dating this guy for almost 7 years. They had 2 kids together. I had trusted him life he was my father. I guess I shouldn’t have. When...
May 25th, 2018
Twice a pattern?
If something bad happens once, people usually say it’s bad luck. But to happen twice, just seems stupid. Growing up in a restricted family, I had never been exposed to the sexually explicit content that is out in the world. However, when I turned 17 that all changed for me....
June 9th, 2016
Raped Study Abroad in Seoul
First, I have to say that the actions of one individual does NOT define an entire culture — so if you are thinking of traveling there, please know that it is just as safe as any other western city, if not safer in some areas. So my story begins. I...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
December 17th, 2014
Stand Strong
My heart goes out to all the survivors sharing. I was drugged and raped over 25 years ago as a girl. My friend, her father was a very sick abusive man who was drugging her and others and photographing abuse. It was truly horrific. There were two against me and...
July 6th, 2015
Still Haven’t Healed
I was raped while on a second date with a guy I had met at a bar. I was 18 and a virgin. My family was very strict catholic and sex was never something that was discussed. One night I met a guy. He seemed really nice. I didn’t have...
July 17th, 2015
Date Rape
It happened about a month ago now. This guy, whose name I will not state, added me on my Facebook and messaged me. We started talking for about 2 weeks and I was really into him, he invited me to his friends house for a few drinks one night and...
December 29th, 2014
One Day At a Time
I just started university and I am living away from home. I live in student accommodation and I am a nursing student. My apartment and the apartment next door is all nurses and we spend a lot of time with each other. I have never really been much of a...
January 13th, 2015
Still Can’t Believe It
I know that I have been raped, but still can’t believe it. In all cases I knew my rapist. I was a rebellious teenager and walked away from home when I was 16. The cousin of a friend where I was staying raped me like 3 times and also gave...
January 27th, 2017
The Man Who Never Was
I would like to go back to December 19th of 2016, the charming man I met all in black, his hair down and his fedora hat, the man who has this smile, this look in his eyes, who danced with me, and said hurry up guys this girl and I...
May 9th, 2014
Becoming a Warrior
It all started when I chose to attend Frostburg State University for my undergraduate studies. It was a compromise of sorts; my Father wanted me close to home, while there was enough distance to allow me the chance to flourish and be on my own. I knew the moment I...
January 3rd, 2018
Abused By A Therapist
I started seeing a psychologist at the Flexman Clinic at the age of seven to be tested for Autism Spectrum Disorder, which I was soon diagnosed with, in addition to OCD and ADHD. I started seeing either a therapist or another psychologist (I don’t remember which) soon after and at...
February 26th, 2018
silent rape
I have never spoken out before like this, I’ve told close friends before that I’ve been raped but never actually retold the story. I started watching the documentary on Netflix and could only watch the first 10ish minutes before I had to turn it off as it triggered something. I...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
November 26th, 2014
Innocence Taken
As a 17 year old girl who was drugged, raped and impregnated by my own boyfriend, I would like to speak out and stand tall. My life was taken from me and I was forced to endure a full-term pregnancy only to be abandoned by my own parents and sent...
February 16th, 2017
Someone I Thought I Could Trust
It was summer 2016, I was 17 at the time almost 18. I was in karate for 7 years, I had quit when I was 13 or 14. By this time my mom was still going and I decided to go with her to watch. I saw a few people...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
May 16th, 2016
Don’t Know
I was 17 and he was 20 we were dating for 4 months he was lovely. He moved to London and I stayed at his for the weekend but it wasn’t the 1st time. Everything was normal. He put my phone on charge for me as we were watching Mean...
June 19th, 2018
I am a survivor
The first time I was molested I was about 4 years old. I barely remember it. My birth mother was very poor and lived with who I’m assuming was a boyfriend or pimp. He used to take me in the bedroom and tell me to take off all my clothes....
May 8th, 2019
UNEXPOSED – AFTER 30 YEARS OF EXTREME...
Molestation 4-13, dissociation syndrome started, afraid 24/7, PTSD 10, black outs began & were triggered by the smell of certain foods or a male authorities voice. Attempted Rape 15, Physical Abuse 16-31, all my ex-boyfriends. Rape 18, also attempted suicide & started dancing because I needed extra money & no...
May 9th, 2018
Why does this keep happening to me?
I was about…6 I think. The first time it happened. My uncle was living with us after he came back from the islands. The first time he molested me was in our living room. It was in the middle of the night and I was watching a show, everyone were...
June 10th, 2016
Night Out
I still don’t know if it is rape. My therapist says it was, and so do the police and my parents, but I don’t want to believe it. I met a group of guys and they all seemed so nice, they let me smoke with them and invited me home....
October 19th, 2017
I didn’t know what to do
When I was 13 I was friends with a guy, he was 19 and I didn’t think it was serious, I was a kid and we hung out in a group. I went to his house because ‘he had to pick something up’. When I was there he started kissing...
December 20th, 2016
My Ex Husband – My Biggest Enemy
I fell in love with him in Greece ( Crete . I was about 14 years of age and i was so in love. I met him in the street for the first time on his motorbike. He had those brown eyes and hair. My mum knew him because she...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
April 7th, 2017
Raped After School
Hi, My name is Vanessa i am 17 years old. I am going to talk about my story and what had happened to me while i was in school. One day my Boyfriend but now ex and i got into an argument over something stupid. We kept fighting that day...
August 8th, 2018
When will it be enough?
Why is it not enough? Why is my reluctance not enough to make you stop? Why is my “no” not enough? Why is my “no no no” not enough? Why are my clawing, shoving, desperately-trying-to-pull-my-pants-up hands not enough? Why is my cry of “oh god make it stop, please make...
Help. God help me write this, but i think its time i let it out. This is my story about how a man who completely destroyed me within a matter of minutes, three times. At first i didnt know it was rape. After years of abuse i just thought it...
February 4th, 2014
He Was My Hero
Hi, I am 15 years old from Netanya, Israel. From age 5 to age 7 I sexual abuse by my neighbor ,who was 17. I was a child, I did not understand, he was my hero … He knew what he wanted and what he is doing .. Every word...
September 28th, 2015
Continue to Survive
I was molested at 2, I remember waking and going to sleep with older boy on top of me, but I was also molested by my father until I was 6, I Kept That From happening to my sister. If you knew back than the highlight of my life was...
February 22nd, 2017
My First Time
I was 19 and it was my second year in university. It was great, I lived in my new dorm with some really nice girls and I couldn’t have asked for anything more. It was December 19. I came out of an economics lecture and it was relatively late, it...
December 6th, 2016
I’m Over Reacting
My best friend was held back when we were in first grade because her parents split up, and her mom thought she could use a fresh start. I would often go to her house after school because it was the only way I could see her. She had a huge...
January 23rd, 2015
So Now What?
Upon finding this site, all I have to say is I believe that in this world there is only one solution to rape, pedophiles, and all that nasty shit that goes on, and that is death. Those filthy rats that are human cannot be forgiven, and for those who oppose...
July 2nd, 2016
A Voice to be Heard
I just want my voice to be heard for once, I want the truth to be heard and to stop having my words twisted. I’m done being silenced. If you have ever been blamed for your rape due to date rape this story is for you.
My name is Erin McKinney,...
September 30th, 2018
Date rape
I just turned 18 on the day I moved into a dorm at Rutgers New Brunswick I was invited by a senior to his dorm room to drink wine and hang out Who still lives in a dorm as a senior? Without being a officially a dorm rep I was...
November 5th, 2015
My Family Indifference
was sexually abused by 2 family members. Nobody tells you that on one innocent and primal level you might enjoy the attention and the sexual sensations that lull you into submission. Nobody tells you that rape is often softened to the point that you are not allowed to cry out...
I was raped during my freshman year of college. I went to a party and drank for the first time. I didn’t get super drunk, but I was definitely not totally aware of everything going on. I remember I was sitting on a couch listening to music when all of...
April 27th, 2017
Confused
I was debating for a long time whether or not to share this story, whether or not I have the right to do it. But I feel like I need to tell someone, anyone because it’s tearing me up. That’s the only thing I’ve had in my mind for the...
March 29th, 2017
Abused By My Father
I started being sexually abused around 8 years old. How do you tell someone that your own dad assaulted you? How do you process what’s happening to you? You don’t. At least I didn’t at first. I continued to be abused for at least 5 years, and it wasn’t until...
November 11th, 2015
Second Date
I had gone out on one date with this guy and it was really nice. There wasn’t any pressure to even kiss at the end of our date so it ended with a hug. The second date wasn’t even really a date. He had invited me to come over to...
May 15th, 2014
The Night That Changed My World
I was raped at college just after turning 21. Off campus at FSU. It was New Year’s Eve, 1979. He got in & blindfolded me. I was raped repeatedly for hours. There were no roommates or neighbors, no cell phones, nothing but a pair of scissors I was fixated on...
February 20th, 2018
Nine Years Worth of Abuse
Guilt. Shame. Embarrassment. Relent. These are all things I feel daily, and it comes and goes. I feel as though I can never be happy, because of the monster I feel I am at heart. I grew up with my mom and my stepdad. Both of these people are tremendously...
May 21st, 2017
My friend assaulted me and another
I wish I knew how to say this in a fleshed out, eloquent way but I just found out so I don’t. My room mate (we’ll call him John) assaulted me a few months ago. I was asleep drunk on the couch and when I woke up he was behind...
August 17th, 2015
I Was 3 Years Old
He was 12, my father’s younger brother. He was my friend, my playmate, my love. It was very traumatic. Still is, more than 60 years later. I finally told my parents a few years before they died. He was at their funeral. I’m still unable to talk about it with...
September 1st, 2014
My Two Rapes
It’s taken me about 15 years to call my 1st time having sex what it really was-rape. As a mental health therapist who’s trained to know what abuse, sexual assault, rape is I’m not quite sure why it’s taken me this long. Maybe it’s because of my culture’s confusion about...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
June 24th, 2016
Raped, Adopted, Raped Again
When I was little (before 2) I was raped by a man in my biological family. Most of the people in my biological family when I was 2, where drug addicts, meth heads and , alcoholics. I don’t remember who it was or what all happened, and lots of people...
September 13th, 2017
Letter to my offender part 2
Flashback The month before everything happened (October) I got in a fight with a cousin. I was not prepared to fight with her she’s bigger than me so it’s safe to say her five friends and my one had no idea I was going to fight back but I did....
October 17th, 2016
My Beloved Man
I see many Articles online about Abuse. Abuse by coworkers, friends, fathers, ex-boyfriends, and sometimes strangers. I feel like I have to whisper this story of mine, because it is to remain a secret forever. I can’t speak up loud enough for my children to hear. Life would be ruined....
I was raped 8 months ago…I was 20 years old at the time at my university when it happened. After watching Brave Miss World I felt compelled to share my story. I went out to the bar one night and got a drink, I set it down for a short...
April 15th, 2014
A Journal of a Wayward Child
I have a long history of abuse and rape in my family and myself (44 years for me) and would like to have the opportunity to share my story with women around the world. Forgiveness has been the first step in healing and am now in a woman’s shelter beginning...
November 28th, 2017
It’s my fault
I’m a small town girl living on her own for the first time in a really big city going to college. I’ve been dating my boyfriend (who lives 5 hours away) for almost 5 years and one night I went out with some friends and ended up getting really wasted...
I was at a fraternity party with a date in February 1989 at Marquette University, Milwaukee, Wisconsin. It was a beach theme, so we were all wearing bathing suits. I distinctly remember choosing a one-piece because I thought that a bikini would cause problems. I was wearing denim shorts as...
June 11th, 2016
A Letter to My Rapist
Yesterday I sent this letter to the guy who raped me 33 years ago. —, I never imagined writing this letter. I am sure it will surprise you to receive it. It is a letter long overdue. Maybe you already know this, but in the past few years, more and...
July 4th, 2014
A Survivor, Not a Victim
My mother was 17 when she met my father, he was 24. A year and a half later, I was born. My father played the father role only when it was convenient for him, as a result, I saw him every other month for the first 2 and a half...
March 13th, 2018
I Did NOT Get Justice But I...
When I walk the halls of the hospital as a bubbly HM3 and greet everyone, they can never see the demons I am fighting on the inside. I walk with my head held high and with a beaming smile to hide the stress and pain but I always carry myself...
October 9th, 2015
I Thought He Loved Me
I was sixteen and in a relationship with my ex boyfriend. We were only dating for a couple months at the time but I loved him already. We had many mutual friends and we lived in the same city. He treated me like a princess. He would buy me nice...
October 22nd, 2017
Say Something
My girlfriends and I were going out to a few bars on a Friday night to celebrate a birthday. We were all a little drunk, but no one was out of control. At the second bar, we met up with a few of our guy friends to keep the celebration...
September 27th, 2014
Empty
I don’t know how to start this story, I don’t know how to write or even describe the feelings I feel. I’m a 16 year old girl from Sweden. This things happened when I was 12 and I’ve never talked to anyone about it, I tried once to tell my...
I was 27 years old when it happened. There was this guy I met through a friend of mine named Noah. My friend said he was a great guy. Said he was newly divorced, cute, a Christian and that I would really like him. Noah and I had talked on...
May 16th, 2018
Personal Statement – Written January 2017
Twilight hours of February 25, 2016 are buried in oblivion, bygone, sunk out of my head, perhaps for self-protection. This eclipse of my heart in dead of night. Fraternity boy coolness turns to shadiness at nightfall. His country boy accent is of the coal pitch blackness of the mines, sinking...
August 9th, 2016
The Night My Life Changed
I felt so lost and alone. It was so scary. My “friends” we’re having a party in one of the dorms so I thought I would go to hang out. It was cool in the beginning no pressure. Just drinking and eating and having a good time. Until things turned...
April 21st, 2017
A Year After
My journal entry on April 18, 2017 -About a year after submitting my “first story” on this site I just made a beautiful, clean cut, with a blade I took from my Mom’s drawer, right below the most prominent, bulging stretch mark on my right hip. I did it to...
College is about finding yourself, finding your friends and ,finding who you want to become. While there is more freedom that comes with the title of a college student, there is more adulting as well. The movies make college seem like an endless party where all the boys are cute...
September 28th, 2015
More Than Half of My Life Ago
I was 15 or 16 years old and troubled. I didn’t live with my parents and the group that I was hanging out with was troubled as well. We were drinking and doing drugs and hanging out with much older guys. There was a guy who lived at this house...
July 18th, 2015
Lost In Time
When I look back, it’s just a flash of memories. I don’t remember where I was or exactly when it happened… But I’m pretty sure it impacted me in a way I’ll never be able to explain. I had just turned sixteen. Life is great. I’ve got really great friends....
April 10th, 2017
College Rape
I went away to college, after being in a very mentally abusive relationship before, I was craving love and attention. I met a guy in my first week at college he was 18 and cute, I was amazed that he wanted to hang out with me so I fell for...
August 12th, 2016
Young and Unaware
I’m 19 now and it took 4 years for me to process what had happened. I really only became aware of it 1 year ago. But when I was 14, I was dating a boy who was 17. I had lied about my age and he thought I was 15,...
February 19th, 2015
The Setup
Growing up I was always a good church girl. Never cursed,n ever had sex, never did a lot of things. Until I turned 16, and began experimenting with opiates. I became an addict. To this day, my mouth still waters when thinking about a day in bed with a nice...
December 10th, 2014
First College Party
I was not much of a party girl my freshman year of college. My friends heard of a party off campus and said they would not take no for an answer. We got dressed and even bought our own alcohol as m best friend was worried that the drinks may...
January 23rd, 2015
So Now What?
Upon finding this site, all I have to say is I believe that in this world there is only one solution to rape, pedophiles, and all that nasty shit that goes on, and that is death. Those filthy rats that are human cannot be forgiven, and for those who oppose...
May 19th, 2015
Shelter My Soul
Only 13 years old and I had run away from my home. Where my mother would beat me and drag me around the floor because I refused to understand her. I ran away and hitchhiked on the highway right before marathon, 7 mile bridge. A man stopped and asked me...
June 25th, 2014
Thank you for being LOUD!
I know it is hard to share this burden, to deal with it again and again, to listen to stories that are triggering of the PTSD and to try to help the whole world and feel overwhelmed. I hope you will give yourself a chance to take a break when...
November 15th, 2015
Molestation
As a child I was molested by my brother. I have bits and pieces that pop up here and there and scenes that I try to forget. He did things to me and my sister that have damaged us to our core and the affects are still showing even though...
I don’t even know how to start this, but I guess I need another opinion… so here it goes. A few weeks ago, I was at my friend’s frat. He’s a really great guy, and I am friends with both him and his girlfriend, so I have always felt comfortable...
January 7th, 2017
Black and Blue
My story is a little different than the ones Ive read. And for a long time I didn’t see it as rape because of what I was reading. I now realize that I was raped an I need to go forward. The first step is to share my story. I...
May 8th, 2016
Losing My Innocence At Fifteen
I was at a party with my older cousin, she was the only one I knew. I had been drinking a lot and I was sitting by myself when a boy came up to me. He seemed nice and when he asked me to go with him to get something...
March 6th, 2017
Sexual Assault
My name is Roberta and I was sexually assaulted as a child. I was sexually assaulted by two men on different occasions. Both were acquainted to the family. One man sexually abused me on one occasion, while the other did it for years, from 7 to 14 years of age....
December 5th, 2015
Alone No Longer, Brave Till the End
In my time of need, I was surrounded by people and yet I was alone. I was 18, it was 2013. I was about to go to college and was the happiest I could be, almost. My best friend was murdered just six months earlier, and while I was coming...
June 10th, 2014
Abuse and Rape
I was sexually abuse by a young man (close to 18) from the time I was 5 until I was 9. Then when I was 16 a man who I considered my big brother raped me. He took me home from a wedding. I had gotten drunk at the wedding....
August 10th, 2015
Brothers
In 1971, I was a 19 year old college sophomore. I had been dating my boyfriend for about 4 months. He was only the second person with whom I had ever had sex. One night, he had a party at his apartment. He had invited his older brother, who was...
May 28th, 2018
Rape Survivor
August 14th, 2017 August 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with friends and laughter, then ended with fear, pain, and loneliness. I never had guessed it would be a day that I would never forget. The 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with laughter and friends,...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
September 30th, 2016
Still Confused
am eight years younger than my brother. When we were growing up he would often invite me to fight and play with him, in bed, on weekend mornings. When I was sixteen I had to leave the family home with mother and we moved into my brothers short term. I...
April 20th, 2015
Catching Up With Me
I was twelve years old when I vividly recall my grandfather walking towards me and for the first time placing his hands on me. I was stunned and paralyzed. Each time that we would visit him (or have a sleepover) and when we were alone he would touch me, kiss...
April 22nd, 2017
These Men are More Protected Than We...
I can’t tell names. I can’t publicly announce who they were because they’re protected by a law that says I could be sued for defamation. This makes me so angry! I was the one that was harassed, manipulated, attacked. And yet every one of them walks free. These men. Many...
August 10th, 2015
Brothers
In 1971, I was a 19 year old college sophomore. I had been dating my boyfriend for about 4 months. He was only the second person with whom I had ever had sex. One night, he had a party at his apartment. He had invited his older brother, who was...
November 29th, 2014
Not Safe in Your Own Family
My mother had me very young, she cannot afford us a place to live so we were staying at my grand mother house with my 3 uncle and my aunt. The night one of my uncle was coming to bed with me and abused me. I was very young, so...
December 8th, 2016
Salted Wound
When you ask someone who knows me well how to describe me, the first word that comes to their mind is strong. And yes, I have proven I am strong throughout my life by defying obstacles and haters like the powerful creature that I am. However, there is one part...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
January 4th, 2015
Dad Touching Me
It all started when I was 4\5 and me and my dad would be in bed. Me and my cousin were mainly knew in our family for our looks (we’re native American and we look like a native American model). I pretend to check my dad’s head for bugs and...
October 21st, 2017
Was it Really Rape
I still hear the little voice in my head questioning it. He was a good guy and just as drunk as I was. He probably didn’t notice that I blacked out. I was angry. He apologized. It’s ok. I’m just as much to blame. We were in college. We dated....
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
August 5th, 2015
They Laughed
It was the first time I’d ever used a fake ID, the first time anyone had ever bought me a drink, the first time I’d ever worn too little clothes on a freezing December night because hours of dancing didn’t need a winter coat. I was celebrating the end of...