I think I was 6 or 7 years old when my brother started touching the private parts of my body. There was never actually any penetration. I was kind of forced to touch him too. We played some games. Back then I didn’t think there was something wrong with that. I thought that all brothers and sisters do that. Now I am 17 years old. I love my brother, but I also hate him soo much for doing that to me, because sometimes I feel really bad because of him. I don’t want to tell my parents because I don’t want to break my family, but I just need someone to talk to.
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I’m no expert in this area, but you can find someone to talk to anonymously if that helps. It might help to tell your family to get this off your chest, but then again I am no expert.
Thank you soo much for your comment. You don’t know how much this means to me.
I can’t tell my parents. Idon’t want to put them in the position to choose between me and my brother. I want to tell my boyfriend. We are together now for 1 year. But I’m scared that this will ruin our relationship because he gets along with my brother.
I am really grateful that you felt safe sharing your experience here. Putting experiences like this into words can be frightening and can leave us feelings vulnerable, but doing so can also be very empowering and healing. Handling disclosures of sexual abuse, especially when the abuse has happened within the family, can be scary. I want you to know that your feelings are completely valid. It makes perfect sense that you both love and hate your brother. It also is completely understandable why you feel really bad because of what he did. I think it is really important that you talk about this with someone. I say that only because you voiced that you needed someone to talk to. It doesn’t have to be your parents right now. You are in control of how and when you disclose. I think it is really important to remember that you are in control of who you tell and how and when you tell them. There are some really fantastic resources available for people who need to talk through their experiences. One place to start is at the “Get Help” link on the top of this page. If you are interested in specific resources in your area or additional websites you can look to, I am more than happy to help you.
You took a huge step by sharing your story here and acknowledging that you need someone to talk to and I want you to know how much bravery and courage it takes to do that. I am really proud of you. From what you wrote it sounds like you feel isolated and alone in this. Please know that you have a community here that believes and supports you. We may not be with you in person, but we most certainly are in spirit. You are not alone. You’ve done nothing wrong. You are incredibly brave.
Please know that I will keep you close in my thoughts. I am sending you peace and love.
— Alissa
Thank you very much! Today I feel much better. Sometimes I have really bad days and I feel terrible, but mostly I have good days 🙂