Every Way Imaginable

I was first sexually abused between the ages of 10 to 12 by a family acquaintance. I did not deal with the abuse until I was in my 40’s. I am now 53. The consequences of being sexually abused at such a young age were staggering. I was extremely promiscuous and had low self-esteem and self-worth. Every relationship I became involved in was abusive in every way imaginable. I have endured multiple physical and emotional injuries. I was first married in 1980 to a demon. The only positive aspect of that disaster was my three beautiful children. However, this demon sexually and emotionally abused all three of my babies. In addition, he sexually, physically and emotionally abused me. After being legally married for 20 years, I finally gained my children’s and mine freedom. My horrible decision making relative to relationships continued. Without going into detail relative to each and every single disaster, I believe the ultimate breaking point came in 2007. I had lost my home of 16 years, attempted suicide multiple times and destroyed family relationships. When living in a shelter, I met an individual I never should have been involved with. Long story short, after moving into an apartment together things went from bad to worse. Following varied restraining order violations and countless court hearings, he was placed in jail for 1.5 years with a few other conditions. I received a broken cheekbone, nerve damage on the left side of my body and 8 staples in my head. Fast forward to current day, I am a full time college student attempting to obtain my Bachelors and Masters degrees in Social Work to assist others to move forward. I am a volunteer advocate for domestic violence and sexual assault victims and part of a survivor advocacy group that speaks publicly attempting to educate the public. I have been remarried for 3 years to a supportive man and are attempting to reestablish my fractured family relationships.