I was at high school a week before my 18th birthday, we have a late class cancelled that week and as my bestfriend was texting as I have not seen him in so long he asked me to come over to play grand theft auto. I was so excited as I loved that game.
It came 4 o clock and I got to his house he was so excited to see me as we chilled and talked for about a hour about how I hated my ex boyfriend on how he broke my heart, we went into his room to set up the Xbox
He randomly got up came over to me and held me down as I asked him what he was doing he started to kiss I tried to get away but then he covered my mouth, and started taking my clothes off I
Was so scared and shaking everywhere. Then he raped me, I tried to scream I said no thousands of times but he didn’t listen
Then he told me to get the “fuck” out of his house and walk home
As I got up and started to walk with my shaky legs I just cried and cried and went home and cried.
That next day I decided that I should go to the police, they were really no fucking help as all I wanted to happen as him to fucking deserve what he has done to me.
I was a fucking virgin.
I hate him so much and the worse thing about it is that once he was my
Bestfriend.
— Survivor, age 21
MY heart goes out to you< and go and get in touch with a women rape relief organization on campus or off campus ASAP.
The fact he was your former Best friend is nasty, and he had no right to take your choice : of when and who you like to make love to for your first time in your life" being a survivor of rape at child hood though I can tell you your high value is the same. and from my own experience I know you can get back trust and sensation you today believe are gone.
get help and start healing
Blessings
Dear survivor,
It takes a lot of courage to share your story. I was moved by the raw emotion you shared. I think sometimes it is easy for people to forget how deeply rape impacts survivors. Feeling the emotions you wrote with will help people to better understand how deep the pain runs. I hope that you continue to heal and that you are able to find peace. You deserve peace, happiness, and love. I wish all of those things for you and I am sending love your way ~ Alissa