I was married once before to a bartender with a drug problem. Many nights he would encourage me to come down to the bar and drink with him and his coworkers after closing up. Many nights I would stumble my way out of the bar after 2 drinks, make it home, and completely black out. The next morning I would always wake up with no underwear on and confused. This was a regular occurrence until I woke up with my husband inside of me. I told him to stop, and he shoved his hand over my face until he finished. For some reason, I stayed after that for 2 months. I tried to make it seem like it never happened, because I was too embarrassed to have to explain how my husband could rape me. The last straw was when we went out drinking, and he decided that he wanted to go buy some drugs, which I was not okay with. He put me in a taxi with 3 of his male acquaintances and told me that he would meet me at their place. He also told his friends in the cab to “do whatever” with me. I was then molested by these men in the taxi. The next morning I moved out and filed for divorce. We have been divorced for 4 years. He has a daughter now, and I’m terrified for her.