I can say it now

My Dad was strict with us girls about sex- If we lost our virginity, we were out on the street. An appeal to Mom just got her to shrug and a reply Don’t. One night my older brother Tim was supposed to stay over at a hot party, but apparently returned home drunk. I awoke to him pulling up my nightshirt, and barely awake I said”Hey, it’s Heather!” but he was already raping me. He mumbled something about his girlfriend”Cleo was already getting laid, so he needed this”, and though I tried but he was too big to push him off, and I was scared to tell. Our little sister Lily woke to watch the scene. When he was done, he said”Thanks” and went to the bathroom to pee, and then to bed. All I could do was console Lily, who was scared.
The next morning, after Dad and Mom went to work, Tim just walked down and got cereal, and ranted that at the party, he caught his girlfriend having sex with one of his good friends, and rather than having a hot time with him. He didn’t remember coming home. I just sat in shock, keeping everything to myself.
Lily never came home from college. Tim is in Rehab on probation from holding up a store drunk. Mom died of cancer before the next year was done, and Dad a few months ago. I kept it all to myself but with no one around, I can say what happened.

Heather, age 30