He hit me in the back of the skull with a beer bottle. I didn’t have much time to prepare–we had gotten into a drunken argument and he lunged towards me. The last thing I remembered was the cold, hard glass snuffing out my consciousness. Everything remained dark for four years after that, until one day I remembered. I remembered laying on the ground, my head throbbing and my lungs fighting to breathe. I faded in and out of consciousness. Every time I came to I could hear his moaning, and felt him pushing himself inside of me. I was too weak to fight back, so I laid there while he took what he wanted from me. Afterwards he left, and I stayed in the same spot for hours until I finally found the strength to stand. I forgot, but then I remembered. Now I can’t seem to let it go. I’ll pray for you, that God has mercy on your soul.
— Survivor, age 24
Survivor, I thank God you are alive because the world needs good humans like you. I will pray for you, not him. You don’t have to let it go! You do need to find a counselor who can talk to you about it to understand your feelings. You may want to get to a point where you file a complaint – or not, there is no right or wrong. Also if possible you should see a doctor, yes even 4 years later because an evident concussion like that can affect you in ways you may not know. You have the right to feel the way you feel, and you have the right to everything good God can and will give you, especially healing. You are a better human than me ! Keep up the good work for your fellow worthy humans !
Dear survivor – thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s not uncommon for trauma memories to come back to you, especially when there is a head trauma. I would really encourage you to talk to a therapist who can help you work through everything you’re feeling and move forward. “Letting it go” as you say, can be incredibly difficult but I do think with work and the right support it can be done. Sending you lots of love and support. You can do this – I believe in you!! Love, Alexis