I’ll keep this one simple. I was forced into a threesome by two people I thought I trusted. I said no repeatedly but that word seems to have no value. I thought saying no was enough to stop them. I didn’t want it. After the assault, I tried to put my clothes on and leave and they told me I couldn’t.I had to fight to leave. I’ve never felt so devalued in my life. I never thought this could happen to me. What did I do wrong? what didn’t I do that I should have to stop them? I hear people talk about it, they glorify it like it was a good time for me. I have not told the truth because who will believe me over them? I’m ashamed.
— Survivor, age 20
Dear survivor – thank you for posting your story here. You did nothing wrong; THEY did the wrong thing by forcing you to do something you didn’t want to do. You have nothing to be ashamed of – which I don’t say to mean that your feelings aren’t valid, just that I am in no way ashamed of you or your actions. You did everything right because you got out of the situation alive. I believe you – 100% – and it wouldn’t matter who they are. I would encourage you to talk to a therapist or a counselor about what you’re feeling. You don’t deserve to feel the way to do. You deserve to find love and healing and support and peace. Wishing you all of that. Love, Alexis