I was 15. I was friends with a guy. Let’s call him J. I was into the drug game pretty hard, he was my dealer, and became a close friend. I would get drunk with him a lot, and he wouldn’t get drunk with me. And I soon found out why. After running away again, I went on a camping trip with him and some friends. Everyone was passed out. Except J. He tried to rape my friend and me. I fought him off. Later on, he touched me and over powered me. I kept saying no. Soon I just zoned out and let him do it. I fell asleep to him touching me.
A few months later I had a party. I invited J for some odd reason. I got drunk and high. I was having a lot of fun. Then all of a sudden I blacked out. I don’t remember what happened. Except one detail. I remember grabbing the sheets and that’s it. I was told J raped me. After this black out I came to consciousness again. I was later raped by another guy the same night. I remember that rape. Which I find strange considering I was more messed up during that rape. Then I was later told J gave me a new drug that night in my drink, and that is why I blacked out.
I am 16 now. I don’t do drugs anymore. I am currently in rehab. I don’t drink that often anymore. I was raped by 4 guys. And molested by 9 guys in a year. Everyone calls me a slut for it. But I’m not. I’m a survivor.
— Survivor, age 16
Michalya – you are most definitely a survivor. You have strength and courage that many adults don’t have, much less others your age. I’m so happy you are getting treatment, and I hope you have found people around you that are worthy of your story and your trust. Thank you for sharing your story with us, I feel honored to have read it! Maryrose
Sweetheart u are a diamond in the dust, I’m so happy that u shared your story but if u don’t mine me asking did you ever tell your parents or a cop?
Though you may be called a slut, which you are not, there are many who say you are not. Who cares if they do call you a slut though! Do they know you well enough! Have they been through what you’ve been!
You stay strong! We believe in you and reading your story inspires me beause after sex, rapes, drugs, alcohol, you are still trying to fight the evil in the world. You stopped drugs, which is hard to do, believe me, and you hardly drink which is also hard to do. You should be proud that you are so courageous and filled with strength. If there is any time that you feel alone, sad, scared, just say this prayer, Virgin Mary mother of God pray for us and comfort me. Stay strong girl! JMJt