I was exactly ten when it happened. I was playing in my room with my toys when this guy came in. I knew him very well and as I went to greet him. He grabbed me, stuffed me into his trunk and drove off. I was chained up, beaten and raped for 3 days on end. Over and over. It was the most traumatic and horrible experience of my entire life. One night I heard men shouting: “we have guns!” I assumed he sent them to kill me. I crawled under the bed trying to hide. I was ordered out naked, I felt so helpless and humiliated. Then I saw ‘FBI’ on his jacket. I was so relieved I started crying. I was asked many questions afterwards. I still struggle with the consequences but thanks to amazingly supportive friends, I am starting to heal. Physically and mentally. Thank you to all my friends and family out there. I love you all so very much and wouldn’t trade you for the world.
— Juanelle Beukes, age 13
Dear Juanelle,
You are so brave and so very special. It is obvious that there is so much love in this world for you and I am very grateful for that. You deserve nothing but love and support. The journey to heal can be long, but knowing there are loved ones to support you can help a great deal. I have no doubt you will go on to fulfill all of your dreams and that you will change the world. Sending you lots of love ~Alissa
You are a very brave person. I would not know how you feel and I do not wish to pass the same experience. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. Even though you have your family members and many supportive friends you will sometimes feel alone. Just a reminder that you are NEVER alone!! There is someone that loves you unconditionally and will never in ANY way hurt you!!! His name is God!! He will never leave you and He is with you ALWAYS!!! Everything happens for a reason and maybe God put you through this because something great will come out of this. Don’t give up and remember that God is always by your side. Hope that you will go far in life. I’m sure that with God’s help you will accomplish lots of great things. With great love- Marintia. <3
You will be okay. You will get through this. You have wonderful friends and family to support you and help you get through this. I don’t know what you look like but I know you are beautiful. Don’t dwell in the past. Live in the present. Trust. Love. Something horrible happened to you. But it will only make you stronger. Best of luck. Hope you get past this. Remember you are loved.
-c