I was 20, he is a very wealthy man, I still see him often times, he didn’t rape me he sexually assaulted me, I said NO! he didn’t care, he showered me afterward, I wish I could punish him, I wish I could forgive him, I also wish I could stop him from ever doing it again. I WISH. I tried to commit suicide a few months ago even though I happened two years ago, and even though there was no penetration, Im afraid often times, and others im mad, and I feel helpless, only my parents and sister know. I had a few drinks, I was drinking, why didn’t I fight, why did I freeze?!