My name is Beth. I was 14 years old when I was token advantage of by a guy I thought loved me. He was very sweet at first but he wanted more. I was willing the first time. I felt I was too young. One day he really wanted it and I said I wasn’t into it. He got really upset and held me down. He hurt me and raped me at the age of 14. It continued for a year straight. I didn’t know how to stop him or tell someone. Until one day, I was in my room and he came over and said he wanted some. At the point, I got used to being punched and thrown around, so I did what he said. And I started crying and it’s started to hurt so I screamed an told him it hurt and he kept going. My mom heard me and came running to my rescue. Screaming and throwing him off me and making him leave. That’s when it came out. I ended pregnant with a little girl. I decided to keep her. But one day after school I walked to his house and decided that I could finally stand up to him and say I am done. I told him he wasn’t seeing our daughter. He beat me and raped me yet again. That night I came home, I hid from my mom and I felt like I was going into labor. I did. But when I got to the hospital I had her and when she came out, she was still born. I lost the only thing to help me get through life. I left him finally. I was scared. I tried to press charges against him but it didn’t work. My dad loved the guy, so my dad told the cops I lied and he got away with not only raping me for so long but hurting our daughter. I’m 19 years old and I still can’t get over it. And my rapist try to talk to me everyday.
— Survivor, age 19
I dont even know u or ur dad but.. i very strongly dislike ur dad!!! How in the hell could do that?!?!? He likes ur rapist more than you? And not only ir rapist but ur baby daddy AND ur babies murderer!!! Ugh disgusting. He deserves to be punched, a lot more. Im so so so so sorry this happened to u. I wish i could help u somehow…. email me if u want and only of u want so i can talk. I was molested when i was younger so i have a very slight similarity to how u feel. All i want is to help.
Dear Beth – You are so brave to share your story here. I am so unbelievably grateful that you found the incredible strength it took to leave him. I am heartbroken to read of the loss of your daughter and of your father’s reaction. Please try to be gentle and patient with yourself as you try to heal. “Getting over it” takes a lot of time and some days are harder than others. There are many layers to what you experienced so grieving them all and healing won’t happen overnight – but I promise you that you can do it with therapy and speaking out and finding things that make you happy. You will go on to have a beautiful life because you deserve it. I am thinking of you and sending you love and support. Alexis
No offense, but your dad is evil, just plain evil. If he really chose your rapist of hi sown daughter, he is no father of yours. I understand how it is to be not understood, when nobody ever believes you. I am truly sorry for what your have been through.
Dearest Beth,
Thank you so much for sharing your story with the Brave Miss World community. You’ve experienced incredible pain, loss, and betrayal and I hope that giving voice to this offers you hope and peace. The healing journey can take a long time. It can be very frustrating when it feels like we can’t move on or we can’t get over it. Sometimes the journey requires that we take things one minute at a time, then one hour at a time, and then one day at a time. There are some wonderful resources available to help survivors in the years following their trauma and if you ever feel like reaching out for resources would be helpful to you, you can find some wonderful tools at the top of the Brave Miss World website under the “Get Help” tab. You can also reply back to this post and I will help you find any resources you are looking for. Try to remember that you will walk this journey in your own time and in your own way. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts as you navigate this. Light, love, and solidarity ~ Alissa, Brave Miss World Team Member
Dear Beth,
Please try RAINN!!!!!!
hope it works………..