In March of 2015 my boyfriend, my first, and I broke up. I met another guy who seemed great. We hung out. I had gone to his house for a few nights already and not once did he try to touch me. Then one day we decided to drink again but this time with his friends. I got too buzzed and decided to lay down. He lay with me cuddling me like all the night’s before. I accepted. Then he started pushing his pelvis towards my bottom. After he started lifting my dress. I wanted to say no but I couldn’t say anything or move. He moved my underwear aside and pushed himself inside of me. I don’t remember much after that. Only him moving back and forth for a while. When he finally stopped, he’d been done for a while I finally was able to move and I pushed him out of me. I then fell asleep. When I woke up I didn’t remember until I went to the bathroom and his evidence was all over my panties. I didn’t tell anyone. I ended up getting back with my ex and couldn’t tell him because he’d say it’s my fault and wouldn’t want me anymore. Or if he did stay with me he’d never let it go.
— Survivor, age 20
Dear survivor,
I am really glad you shared your story here. Keeping it inside can be very hard and so I am glad you had this outlet. I hope in time you come to find that the people who care about you will not ever consider this your fault. You were zero percent responsible for what happened. This is something that happened to you – it is not who you are. I will keep you in my thoughts. Light and love, Alissa