I am 20 years old. I have had consensual sex before with a previous boyfriend. I had a friend that I had known for a couple of years from college classes and mutual friends. He used to have a controlling girlfriend then when they broke up he started talking to me asking me if I wanted to hang out with him. He picked me up after my class, got out, and drove me to his house where he had told me the night before we could watch a movie together and hang out. So I’m laying in bed with him and he begins to kiss me, gets on top of me and he is also shirtless. I had my pants off because I had a longer shirt on (sorta like a night gown) but still had my panties on. When he was kissing me he then climbed on top of me and then started kissing me more. Then he began to go inside of me with him holding my hand above my head to where I couldn’t move also this was without anything leading up to us having sex. I’m just confused as why he would think that was okay or if I was really raped. I didn’t give any sort of consent. He never once asked me if that’s what I wanted and he never asked me if I was okay and wanted him to keep going. I feel absolutely disgusted by this and I feel like I don’t know what to do about the whole situation. If anyone has any advice on what to do that would be great.
— Survivor, age 20