Hi my name is Susan. I live in NY as I have most of my life. I saw Brave Miss World on Netflix and finally felt I need to at least in some way share a glimpse of my abuse. My father was a severe drinker he always had a dark side. He had murdered an 17 year old named Joanne prior to meeting my neglagent mother. My father worked in the church as well as graveyards and he molested me. At times he made me say my name as someone else’s in the basements of these places. My father would get drunk and introduce me to these dead people carrying on conversations as if they were still alive. My only refuge is and was my older brother Matthew. I have been violated by more perverts than I am able to discuss. Thank you for the strength you gave me to be able to share a part of my past. Im just not sure how to heal these wounds.
— Susan
Susan,
Thank you so much for your bravery and courage. Trauma like this takes many years to heal from, but i firmly believe that healing is possible. I believe that that first step of this is speaking up and sharing your experience with someone safe – just as you did here. I know that doing so took a lot of courage to do and I am so proud of you for doing it. What happened to you is not your shame and it does not have to define you. Know you are on the right road and that there are resources out there that can help you.
Here is a good place to start: http://www.bravemissworld.com/get-help
Just know that you are not alone. We all stand with you with love and support.