Last November I was In a back field that was surrounded by woodland.one minute I was tending to the horses and then suddenly I had a hand over my mouth and eyes. I was dragged round the corner, so that there was no way anyone could see. They tied something round my eyes and mouth. I never saw the person I just knew it was a male. They pulled my pants down and put their hands up my top.
I try to not think about what happened after that but the nightmares bring remind me every night.
The pain was excruciating. I tried to scream but barely any sound came out. The man didn’t say anything until it was all over. He told me never to tell anyone. I heard him running away but I didn’t move for about half an hour after that.
At the time I was only 13, and it has affected me so much.
Still as beautiful as you were yesterday. I’m a 18 year ol girl and thank god i never went through that but imagining just makes my stomach drop. God bless, you’ll pull through soon. Good luck!!
I am sorry you suffered through this experience.
Please seek a professional counselor to speak with. I don’t know what your mindset is at this time in your life, but you have at least spoke out about your abuse.
I don’t know your experience(s) but I know my own and the effects both short and long term as well as developed chronic and acute behaviours due to the rape and molestation I experienced.
I was 28 years old before I told my first girlfriend. She was very supportive and tried to help in my healing process, BTW the process is a lifelong journey as I have learned.
I was 48 when I faced my abuser. I can tell you the years between were difficult at best.
Since I started therapy and was able to bring some closure and realize I (BIG GIANT CAPITOL I ) was not responsible for anything that happened I was a child.
The responsibility falls completely upon the shoulders of my abuser and the people who failed to act to stop the abuse.
Therapy helps as does being around like people who can relate to.
Best of luck to you……
Thank you for speaking out and trusting Brave Miss World with your story. It takes a lot to share the hell you experienced and I am proud of you for doing so. There are support systems available for you that can help you with the nightmares. If you click on the “get help” tab above, you can find some help. If you have questions or need help findings resources, please respond back to my post. You may feel like you are in this by yourself, but you are not alone. Light and love to you, Alissa ~ Brave Miss World Team Member
I’m so sorry for you that must have been horrible I hope that no one ever says anything to call you weak or stupid because that is true strength. I’m thirteen right now and that really scares me I hope you were treated with the respect that you deserved after that happened and I hope you got help too because that would’ve been hard for anyone. Even someone as strong as you. I hope you are ok now. I’m sorry that I can’t do anything to make that not have happened. I’m really really sorry!