Lost Soul

I was a victim of rape when. I never talked to other victims. It started when I was young. 12 or 13 years old not sure I just wanted it to go away. My brother used to come in my room and touch me it happened. We were alone at his house than my neighbor showed his private to me and my friend, which was her Dad, then my Uncle wanted me to sit on his lap so he could get aroused. At that time, I was lost afraid and shattered all at the same time. I just wanted to die. Then I got a hold of crack cocaine than I was finally not feeling the pain no more than I was trying to get some drugs. This guy gave him a ride than he jumped on top of me grabbing my neck choking me I thought it was my time to die he choked me so hard the blood vessels broke and all the blood rushed into my eyes. He raped me. I did not say anything until my mom seen my eyes and the big bump on my neck. After that I picked him out of the line up but I was so ashamed to admit he raped me. I only said he tried to rape me until this day. I still remember his name Gregory Gram. That happened when I was 17 years old but I stayed on drugs after that for 12 years until recently. I confronted my brothers and told him how he ruined my life and how it affected my relationships. I could not let no one touch me. I’m still not married..or in a relationship. I really admire you and by you sharing I never really shared my story but I told my Mom. She is in denial and that hurts she dont want to believe it. I’m now working and sober for 20 year. My age is 48 years old years and I just want to help others.