I was molested by my grandfather for years as well as was my cousin. He had told her he was going to run away with her and marry her. She was scared so she told a counselor and he had been arrested. Although he was released, due to her changing her mind, because our uncles and other family members were mad and going to disown her. My mother did ask me the day he was arrested if he had ever touched me and I told her yes. She was very angry asking why I never told her. I explained it was her dad and that I was scared. Charges were dropped and he was released and we have never talked about since. At one point, my cousin and I were watching a movie with the topic of molestation and when I turned to her she said very firmly “I don’t want to talk about it!” I was so upset I just walked out of the room. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, depression, anxiety and have been hospitalized several times trying to take my life. I have always just wanted my family’s support. With no luck I have learned drinking helps me and yes my meds. I know thats not the answer. I have had inpatient and outpatient therapy. I have always wanted and still do confront my mother. I just want her to know how its affected my life. I could go on and on. I would love to help others knowing what they are feeling inside and that even though I may not know them personally, but that I am here for then and will believe them!
— Michelle Ward, age 47
Michelle,
I can assure you that sharing your story here will help many survivors know that what they are feeling is valid. Keep on telling your story. Keep on speaking out! Sexual victimization can have devastating effects, but having a community to share with can make it easier. Thank you for your bravery! Light and love to you.