When I was 13, I was able to have my own room without my brother, but looking back at it now I wish we had the same room. Almost every other night my mom would come into my room when I was sleeping and rape me. Most people say “It’s not rape if you liked it.” Well, I didn’t like it and had No control over it.
I found out that she was doing it one night when I woke up to her on top of me. I tried to get her off me, but I didn’t have the strength. When she did it, she didn’t use a condom and made me release inside her. I could only hope she didn’t get pregnant.
She got up and kissed me on the lips and said “Thanks son and your the daddy of this baby.” I tried to confront her about it, but she ignored me. Without any male figures in my life and no one to tell, I had to live with that.
Now I’m 15, raising my 2 year old son/brother. I don’t know what to do, so around him. I act like me and my mother are together, but I will always look at my mother differently.
Thank you for reaching out and sharing your story here on the Brave Miss World site. I do not know where you are located, but I can tell you that, if you need and if and when you are ready, there are many resources, call lines, and websites, that can assist you in dealing with your rapes, your mother, and you r son. What has happened to you is not okay. There are safe people and safe places that you can turn to for help if you choose to call on them….One place to start is the website rainn.org. This site offers many valuable resources for teens like you. I will keep you in my thoughts….