I have no memories before rape. The first memory I have is being raped at 3 years old by my mom’s boyfriend and his dealer cousins. My first memories are of anguish and confusion. Broken trust and a broken body. That wouldn’t be the last time my mother allowed others...
January 20th, 2017
16 times
I have been sexually assaulted 16 times. 11 of those are rapes. It started when I was two. The last time I was 23. 3 of those times were by immediate family members, people I loved and relied on to love, protect and take care of me: My father, when...
April 5th, 2017
School Rape
I was 8 and I was heading to the girls bathroom. I walked into the biggest stall because I always go for the most spacious. I walked in and locked the door. Three males older than me, (about two or three grades), crawled into my stall from the one next...
September 7th, 2009
לדבר, להלחם, לנצח
לינור יקרה, בלי שתדעי ליוות אותי בשנים הקשות שלי. נאנסתי במשך שנים וכשאת סיפרת את הסיפור שלך אני הייתי בת 13. נתת לי את הכוח לספר את הסיפור שלי ולבקש עזרה. היום- יותר מעשור אחרי… ואחרי טיפול ארוך שנים ואין בוף עליות וירידות אני גאה לומר- ניצחתי. אני חיה. נהנת...
March 6th, 2014
In Denial of My Rape
When I was fifteen and sixteen, I was in an abusive relationship. He raped me four times, and had me convinced that it wasn’t rape because we were together. He would tell me things like, “I love you so much. I just couldn’t help it.” and “Don’t you love me?...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
November 21st, 2014
No Title Will Stop How I Feel
After watching Brave Miss World, I saw how strong victims have been. They’ve been able to share without feeling embarrassment and shame, which is what this movement has been about. I am not so brave as you all. I was molested as a child and stayed away from any human...
September 29th, 2017
Alcohol
I recently went through a very hard time in my life and I turned to alcohol. It was my coping mechanism, it helped me through the darkness. I knew it wasn’t the right thing to do but I continued to do it against everyone’s wishes. I finally started getting better,...
November 8th, 2018
Losing my virginity
I was on my first ever night out when I got speaking to a group of boys who then took me back to their house. I do not remember willingly making the decision to go back to the house. When we arrived one boy took me to this room and...
October 29th, 2016
Drunken Rape
Just a few months ago, April 1st, 2016, I was sexually assaulted. I am 16 years old, and was 15 when it happened. The man was 52… I haven’t seen my friend for a while and wanted to hangout with her, and we had nothing to do for a few...
December 28th, 2015
Help…
I live in an area where there aren’t a lot of people to talk to. There’s no support groups and there aren’t many counsellors that aren’t men. (‘m afraid of men, since what happened to me, and there’s one girl-counsellor but she doesn’t understand at all. It’s a very small...
June 17th, 2014
Still Carry the Anger
AFTER 15 YEARS I STILL CARRY AROUND THE ANGER OF WHAT MY FATHER AND NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR DID TO ME. BOTH OF THESE MEN WERE OLDER AND I WAS ABUSED FROM THE AGES OF 12-18. 7 YEARS OF MY LIFE LIVING IN FEAR, 7 YEARS OF MY LIFE SLEEPING WITH...
May 29th, 2017
The Friendship I Always Never Wanted
Denny* and I had a turbulent relationship. We had fun, so much fun – until 2009 began to unfold. Surviving Black Saturday traumatized Denny. His uncle had committed suicide a month earlier. He was experiencing his first hardships as an adult, and I was too young and naïve to see...
July 28th, 2017
Politeness Serves No One
I had just started college; this was about ten years ago. I was leaving a frat party on my own. A male friend of a friend texted me to ask what I was doing and if I needed someone to walk me back to the dorms. I had only met...
March 11th, 2015
This Is My Story
When I was born my mom said when she first held me she didn’t want me that there was something about me she didn’t like. She named me after her and gave me to my dad to do what he wanted with me. I was raped by him from birth...
November 3rd, 2015
Foreign City
I was in London and travelling Europe with my best friend. One night in Soho these guys were buying us round after round to the point where I knew I was at my limit and tried to decline, with no success. As the night progressed, he’d take my hand and...
November 14th, 2017
Mistaken Identity
Drunk at a party, I guess one of the most common phrases in the stories. I passed out on the couch, with my head on a good friend’s shoulder, and he was equally passed out. When I awoke, we were still on the couch, but I felt funny. My bra...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
September 28th, 2016
An Unknown Face & Hands
I was almost killed. I never thought I would utter those words let alone write them on a public website like this. I’ve written here before but that was a while ago, about a rape that happened almost 3 years ago. It’s happened countless times in my life already, I’ve...
March 14th, 2017
Surviving, Kinda
Help. God help me write this, but I think its time I let it out. This is my story about how a man who completely destroyed me within a matter of minuets, three times. At first I didn’t know it was rape. After years of abuse I just thought it...
September 28th, 2015
Continue to Survive
I was molested at 2, I remember waking and going to sleep with older boy on top of me, but I was also molested by my father until I was 6, I Kept That From happening to my sister. If you knew back than the highlight of my life was...
June 11th, 2016
My Brother’s Best Friend
Being raped by my brother’s best friend was the most confusing thing to ever happen to me. It’s been six years since that night and it still affects me. I want to tell my story because only through reading other survivor’s stories was I able to finally accept what happened,...
October 10th, 2016
Not Okay
When I was in my early 20s, I was travelling abroad with my then-boyfriend of 6 years, and during a one week stay in one city, we had started to make friends at this little dive bar that played really good music. One night, my boyfriend got particularly drunk, and...
June 30th, 2014
Happily Married, Rape Survivor
I am one of the lucky ones, I was blessed with an amazing man, who loves and supports me. I do not know if it has to do with the fact that he himself is also a survivor rape victim. I cannot remember at what age I began to be...
December 8th, 2015
Raped By My Father
First time I felt the pain of being raped, I was 8 years old. That day haunted me every night. For some reason I managed to find a way to deal with it. I didn’t forget but I made sure it didn’t destroy me. Then I turned 20, how life...
October 19th, 2016
My Life
Okay, most of you know parts of my story and some of you know all of it. My story isn’t like most people. Nobody should ever have to go through what I’ve been through. At a very young age, I began to be sexually and mentally abused. I was young,...
October 28th, 2015
Blindsided
Hello, my name is Andrea If you would have told me 8 months ago that I would be sharing this story and presenting these facts to you, I would not have believed you- not for one moment! But let me start with a bit of my history…. 10 years ago,...
August 13th, 2014
My 21st Birthday
I’ve never told anyone this story before, mostly because I know too much time has passed between what happened and now and know one will believe me. One of my best friends is still good friends with my rapist. Furthermore, I know that they will not believe me because many...
February 4th, 2015
Betrayed
It was near a year ago. It was my close friend’s birthday and we all ended up at his friends house for a party. We were all drunk, happy, just having fun. I needed the bathroom and he was looking for something in it as I had known him forever....
June 12th, 2016
Do NOT Trust Strangers
I was 19 at the time. Moved to a state across the country for a job. Met a few people there I hung out with daily. Went to one of the bars with them one night. We had met up with some people they knew. We had ordered a drink...
October 22nd, 2015
Rape at Bogota, Colombia
Sueño / Recuerdo I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of...
Help. God help me write this, but i think its time i let it out. This is my story about how a man who completely destroyed me within a matter of minutes, three times. At first i didnt know it was rape. After years of abuse i just thought it...
June 29th, 2014
Shattered
In my high school senior English class our teacher had us write many personal essays to prepare for our college essay. For the unit final we had to write passionately about an event that changed our life and read it to the class. When I was 16 I was raped...
July 13th, 2009
Not Alone
I am 34 years old. I was sexually abused by my ex-step-father for nine years. It ended 20 years ago, and I am only now comfortable and very passionate about using my experience to help others in some capacity. I am only very, very recently learning about ways that I...
April 11th, 2009
Survivors of Continuous Events of Sexual ABUSE
I am 23 y/o of Multiracial Ethnicities, Filipino-Spanish-American. Struggling w/the issue of being multiracial and identifying my sexual identity. I am a survivor of 10 years of child incest/rape by my father from 6-17 years old. I was date raped again by a friend in college, he brought alcohol over,...
September 14th, 2016
So Many Times
I was always told how kind I was. Since a young age everyone told me that I had a kind heart. I feel like that’s the reason I have been taken advantage of so many times in my life. My kind heart made me vulnerable and naive to people who...
January 30th, 2017
Newly Living Neighbour
I was living at a small unit for about 4 months, without any neighbours, until a man became my next door number, he knocked on my door introducing himself as my neighbour. At the time I didn’t think anything of it, as he was just being neighbourly, until one day...
June 25th, 2018
Close of a Brother
Growing up my brother would tell me we had to sick together because we were the only children who’s father was not around. My brother little by little starting age 6 he would kiss me then hump. eventually i was age 7 or 8 he’d begin having intercourse. To this...
June 15th, 2015
Careful What You Wish For
When I was just 6 years old my biological dad walked out on my family. It was devastating, and for the next 5 years my mum would have boyfriends in and out of the house. I was a lonely child and I didn’t have very many friends, I was desperate...
July 28th, 2014
הטרידו אותי
היי לינור קודם כל אני חייבת להגיד שראיתי את הסרט שלך אולי מאות פעמים וכל פעם אני מתרגשת מחדש. אני בת 13 ולפני כמה ימים הטרידו אותי וזה לא יוצא לי מהראש זה הלך ככה הלכתי עם חברה שלי לקניון ואז איש מבוגר פנה אלי ואמר לי שיש לי יופי...
I am 17 years old and live in Canada. I was with many people from my town at a campsite 2 hours away, a tradition for all graduating students called prom camping. I had only been there about 2 hours and I had been drinking but not much. I felt...
March 23rd, 2016
Sexual Assault
Oh goodness this is hard. I was 13 years old at the time, my “best-friend” was spending the night at my house. She convinced me that we should sneak out of the house to meet her boyfriend at his house (right up the street- he was considerably older than us)....
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
September 27th, 2016
Darkness With Friends
One day I was just chillin in my room texting a friend from school. Then I get these weird texts all of a sudden. My friend and I then text on another format of texting. We try to figure who’s texting me then we find out. From that day on...
October 5th, 2018
Kidnapped and raped at gunpoint
Hi so my story started in 2001 when an acquaintance kidnapped me at gunpoint and forced me to his home. I was repeatedly raped again and again with him having a gun to my head threatening to kill me. I remember picturing my daughters having to identify my body and...
May 15th, 2018
Someone so close to me
This only happened a year ago. My uncle who always would make sexual comments to me from age 6-still today raped me. We had this cookout where we invited our family and my uncle came. About halfway through I went to go use the bathroom and he cornered me and...
October 27th, 2015
Molested
I was molested by my grandfather for years as well as was my cousin. He had told her he was going to run away with her and marry her. She was scared so she told a counselor and he had been arrested. Although he was released, due to her changing...
January 25th, 2018
Too drunk to respond
I was living in a university dorm. I was 18. I had had too much to drink and my older next door neighbor had said that he would help me as I had cut my hand on glass. He took me into his room. He started to kiss me and...
September 13th, 2022
Raped in my own bed
Locked forever in Liberty Plaza, Frozen in time, always saying no, But no one hears me, no one listens and no one comes. But why would they? If I don’t scream for help. Locked forever, in my tiny uni room. Your clothes, stained with vomit, in my bathroom. Photos of...
May 16th, 2016
Don’t Know
I was 17 and he was 20 we were dating for 4 months he was lovely. He moved to London and I stayed at his for the weekend but it wasn’t the 1st time. Everything was normal. He put my phone on charge for me as we were watching Mean...
August 24th, 2009
My Story.
I’m Chanel, I’m 12 years old young right? Well here’s my heartbreaking story.. I was hmm.. About 10 or so when it all began. Now MOST people, their stepdads sexualy abuse them, well no. This guy. He was my older brother.. he was about ehh. 14, he KNEW rigt from...
April 22nd, 2017
These Men are More Protected Than We...
I can’t tell names. I can’t publicly announce who they were because they’re protected by a law that says I could be sued for defamation. This makes me so angry! I was the one that was harassed, manipulated, attacked. And yet every one of them walks free. These men. Many...
March 6th, 2018
My posting
I do not know what to say. I know, or at least see what others have posted. Do I claim that I am different, or expound that I am the same? I have spent a lot of time, effort and money in schools. It would seem I would have the...
October 17th, 2017
#MeToo 5 years later…
#METOO i shared my story on this site a few years ago about the time i was raped by a stranger. i’m surprised at how easy those four letters rolled off my fingertips as if i was just writing anything. over the years i have been in therapy a lot...
I have been raped multiple times. For the longest time I just acted like it wasn’t a big deal. I didn’t think about it and tried to forget about it all together. However, in reality, I was terrified. The time that scared me the most was when I was at...
January 12th, 2015
Who Is To Blame?
Seven months ago he was there when I was drunk. I don’t know his name and I never will. I know that I returned to my friends home with no underwear but a dress on. My dress was my only protection. I don’t know if I barely remember that night...
December 23rd, 2016
MesS Into A mesSage
Your home detention bracelet is now a permanent pain to my nerves because you maliciously put this around my ankle. You stole my car, you had access to my home, I was sodmized, raped and abused like an animal. It didn’t mean anything to you because you needed it more...
July 24th, 2014
One Morning
My friend introduced me to this guy. I knew him by sight, and he knew me. After a couple of dates he told me he had loved me from a distance for a long time. Our relationship wasn’t sexual, until one morning. Even though my instincts were telling me to...
April 9th, 2016
A Business Partner
When I fell in love with techno my eyes were bigger than bambi’s and I behaved just as clumsily. I love the music immediately! The people are so nice, so friendly! Everyone is hugging all of the time, how has this magical world existed without me knowing? Over the next...
March 10th, 2018
When Will My Voice Be Heard
By the age of eighteen, I would be taken advantaged of and raped at a house party. By 19, after coming forward and sharing my story to Tidal IX I would be told that there was not enough witness testimony and evidence therefore their decision that it most likely did...
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
September 19th, 2016
Am I Over Reacting?
Hi…so…this is the first time I’ve ever said something about this. I’m not even sure if I’m going to post this or not. So, my story happened when I was around seven years old at a summer camp. I had noticed there was a pretty troubled eleven year old, who...
November 25th, 2017
Half sister
I was young. I was your average 3rd grade girl, I was outgoing and was pretty active, It went on for a year, maybe a bit more. I was 7, she said it was a game. Shes 3 years older than me, so I know she knew it was wrong....
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
June 21st, 2018
I still feel like it’s my fault
I don’t know why I’m writing this but I’ve been reading all of these stories and felt the urge to speak. I don’t know if I was raped. I still deal with the guilt of feeling like I led him on in some way, told him I wanted it possibly...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
October 13th, 2016
I Didn’t See It In Time
I’m just some normal person. That’s what I always think of myself. I have a guy who loves me, and has never hurt me. My best friend, on the other hand, didn’t get the best experience with her boyfriend. Everything went pretty ok with them at first, but I didn’t...
September 24th, 2015
Just Wanted to Escape
I am seventeen years old and I’m just beginning to heal. It was over a month ago when it happened. It was a Sunday night at a local festival of sorts in the city. The previous night I had ventured out with my bestfriend, but we were told off that...
August 26th, 2016
Why Me Over and Over?
I see stories of women being raped once when they are young adults or even teenagers and I kind of understand that was bad luck and that it could happen to anyone. I also hear stories of girls that were sexually abused when they were little and I guess that...
April 2nd, 2018
He bought me chips and sent me...
Two years ago I aborted the child of my rapist. To this day I still feel sick to my stomach at the thought of this. This man had the ability to remove all sense of control from me and break me completely in a matter of hours. He also forced...
June 16th, 2014
Halting The Pain
It’s taken me 30 years to be able to face what happened to me, let alone be open about it. I have spoken about it since about a year or so only with a few people, and the hardest thing to do, and the only reason I do not go...
July 24th, 2014
Repressed Memory
I feel like an impostor, like I might not even deserve this space, but I don’t know. I don’t remember anything but tiny bits from my childhood. Part of that is because the divorce from age 9-11 was so central to my life, partly because I think I have repressed...
September 25th, 2015
Rape Is Everywhere
My experience with rape started with the rape of my mother when I was about 12 years old. 2 strangers (men) dragged her out of our yard to a close abandoned lot and beat and raped her. Shortly after my best friend was out biking, and her chain slipped. She...
February 6th, 2018
What happened to me doesn’t have to...
There are so many times I imagine writing #MeToo on my social media, but I can’t. If my secret came out, it would destroy my family. My Mum would be devastated, and I know she’d blame herself for not noticing. She would feel that she’d failed as a mother, because...
November 21st, 2014
No Title Will Stop How I Feel
After watching Brave Miss World, I saw how strong victims have been. They’ve been able to share without feeling embarrassment and shame, which is what this movement has been about. I am not so brave as you all. I was molested as a child and stayed away from any human...
July 10th, 2016
What Is Success?
I’m not a doctor or a lawyer, a CEO, athlete nor a celebrity of any kind. I don’t own a boat of any sort or make six-figures. But I am a success. Here’s how… The first time it happened, I knew what it was, I said no. I was 18...
July 5th, 2014
My 18th Birthday
I had been dating him for 6 or so months. We were in band together, and started dating on a band trip. Everything was innocent. I was very insecure about my feelings with boys because I was more comfortable in relationships with girls rather then boys. So even kissing and...
March 8th, 2017
Too drunk to remember
I was at a gathering at a friend’s house when I was 15 with around 10 people from school. Throughout the night, one guy began to show some interest in me by trying to put his hands up my shorts and grabbing my breasts and I just continued to remove...
You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
November 22nd, 2014
I Thought He Loved Me
I don’t know how to start this… Well, I had a horrible teenage life getting bullied…and all I ever wanted was love and to be wanted. I would try to fit in, but I would attract the people that would see me as an easy target. I got raped by...
September 5th, 2010
גבר אלים וחולני
לקראת גיל 15 התחלתי לצאת עם בחור שהיה גדול ממני בשנה, לאחר חודשיים בערך ביחד הייתה בנינו מריבה מטופשת במהלך המריבה הוא נהייה אלים כלפי זאת הפעם הראשונה בעצם שהוא הרים עליי יד, הביא לי סטירה שהפילה אותי על הריצפה וכשאני שוכבת על הרצפה הביא לי מכה חזרה בבטן עם...
April 12th, 2015
Colored Hair and Diamond Tattoo
Where do I begin. This is not my story anymore. It’s hers. Or not. It’s mine. Twenty years ago I was 13 years old. 13 years but looked like 10 years. I was already in a difficult situation when I met him. My mother had cancer and I was terrified...
November 22nd, 2017
Never Thought It Would Happen to Me
Dear Survivor, I know the bad days outnumber the good ones. Maybe you haven’t even had a good day since it happened. Maybe you feel like your temptations are the only logical way to escape. Maybe you’re ignoring it. I thought ending my life was the only way to escape....
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
July 10th, 2017
Naive girl
I was 17 years old and just started dating this guy, X. First guy that I had ever dated. I didn’t know what was right and what was wrong at that time, trying to live life to the fullest during my high school days. So, when he invited me to...
April 21st, 2015
Flashbacks
I just don’t know how to start. It feels weird and I am ashamed, I feel dirty and I don’t have any self-esteem left. I am having a great boyfriend. We both are having a strong relationship and we are dating since five years and a half, I met him...
February 26th, 2018
Military Sexual Trauma
I was in the Air Force, 18 years old, stationed at Wright Patterson Air Force Base in Ohio. I worked in the Foreign Technology Division, for the Commander. My car was in the mechanic, and I needed a ride back to the barracks. The Commander asked a 65 year old...
February 28th, 2018
I was raped
I am a freshman at Upper Darby High School. I was raped while walking home from school. I don’t want to go into a lot of details, except that I was a virgin before it. He is a member of my class, and I see him every school day. I...
November 5th, 2016
Love of My Life?
I was 17 years old. My senior year of high school was complete. My boyfriend at the time came down from Stanford to see me graduate. He was caring, supportive, kind, you know, a great boyfriend. He was a sophomore, grade A student, football player, and community activist. Two weeks...
February 28th, 2015
Girls Without Parents
When I was 6, I was adopted after my biological parents passed away. Two other girls were also adopted into the same family. Between ages 8 and 14, the “adoptive parents” sent me every Sunday to my “uncle,” a family friend only, not a real uncle. Classic story, making me...
July 7th, 2014
Raped Husband
I was married when I wasn’t a Christian. I was pregnant when I was 21 and my husband 24. I had a difficult marriage because my husband loved to get drunk. But, one time he told me he was rapped when he was a child by a 15 year old...
March 8th, 2016
My Daughter and I Both
My story: When I was six years old, I was raped by a nine-year-old boy who lived down the street. His mother walked in on the act and yelled at us to stop. She told me to put on my clothes and that I could never come back over to...
August 17th, 2017
Raped at the age of 16
Firstly I would like to thank God to save me with his power. I was 16 years old when my friend and I ended up on the tavern`s street until 12 o`clock midnight. My friend and I were not attending the same school. My friend met her school friends and...
March 6th, 2014
In Denial of My Rape
When I was fifteen and sixteen, I was in an abusive relationship. He raped me four times, and had me convinced that it wasn’t rape because we were together. He would tell me things like, “I love you so much. I just couldn’t help it.” and “Don’t you love me?...
July 22nd, 2014
Almost Raped
I dated him about 5 years and then one day I took him home and we sat in my car and he out of the blue said, “I have been thinking about taking you down and having my way with you”. I was stunned, and said, “you know they call...
May 25th, 2018
Twice a pattern?
If something bad happens once, people usually say it’s bad luck. But to happen twice, just seems stupid. Growing up in a restricted family, I had never been exposed to the sexually explicit content that is out in the world. However, when I turned 17 that all changed for me....
August 1st, 2016
I Want My Life Back
when i see children playing i envy them…they seem so happy, stress free and i wish i could be like them..Am trying to be normal and happy but its hard as i cannot stop thinking about that fateful night when i lost myself.I was raped by an acquaintance, a guy...
March 24th, 2017
I am More than a Victim
I was raped the summer before my sophomore year. I was at a party. I was dancing and talking to everyone that I came into contact with, I wasn’t drinking just having a good time. The friends I was with left to go get a drink and to go to...
June 8th, 2018
Perfect on Paper
I met him at a party on New Years. He was handsome, a great dancer, a pre-law student, worked while putting himself through school, had a new car, played in a jazz band, father was a minister. We went to different schools so he called me when he came home...
June 16th, 2015
I Hate My Father
I want to start by saying; it was not my father who raped me. It was New Years Eve, 08/09, I had just turned 16 and was on Holiday visiting my father. We were at the beach celebrating, until my father got really drunk. He is an alcoholic, which I...
November 20th, 2015
He’s Still Out There
I was sixteen years old. Arrogant. Naive. I thought nothing could ever go wrong, so when a strange man approached me I thought nothing of it. I was raped in the building right next to where I lived. To this day I’m upset that I could not fight back, instead...
July 17th, 2017
Ketamine Rape
It was the first semester of my first year of college. I was desperate… desperate for approval, desperate for love, desperate to fit in. Tony seemed like a nice guy, though I had only met him once before. He asked if I would be his girlfriend, and I agreed. Over...
February 23rd, 2018
They thought it was fun
I started at 7th grade. I was asked by one of the seniors to meet them by the lockers after school. I was dumb and amateur. When I went there, they locked me in their locker room while filming the whole thing. I was so numb I didn’t know what...
June 23rd, 2014
Feeling Lost
Though at times I feel lost, I know now that I am not defeated. The first time I was assaulted I was only 4 years old. My dad’s best friend molested me. I only vaguely remember what happened, but remember how I felt more than anything. I recall feeling confused...
April 14th, 2017
A Stong Woman
I just wanted and needed to tell you a story if I hadn’t told you already, please feel free to talk about the shame, the hurt, the life changing experience I endured. Did I ever tell you the story about the 3 year old little girl who was molested almost...
June 26th, 2014
Rape Survivor
It was supposed to be the best time of my life! It happened on December 23,2000 I had just became a Mom of a beautiful baby boy so I was happy and in love. But that day everything change. I decided to go out that night but came home early...
March 11th, 2016
A Big Man
I was walking home from school one afternoon when two guys stopped a car and forced me in. They drove me to a wooded area then started flipping a quarter to see which one got to go first. I kept trying to get away, but they would not let me....
February 28th, 2018
The Other Guy
I was 17. A really bright student. It was pretty hard for me to be close friends with guys especially the popular ones. I had a boyfriend at the time a fist time for me. It was a long distance thing, but he had been a long time crush of...
April 27th, 2018
Repressed Memories x3 Abusers
5 years ago I started undergoing EMDR therapy (commonly used with PTSD clients) with my psychologist. I don’t even remember how it came up in the session, or when, but i uncovered a repressed memory of a rape when i was 12. It was a neighbour, who was 19 or...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
July 31st, 2015
Life of Trauma
When I was 5 I was adopted with my brother and sister. That’s when the abuse started. There are a lot of memories that I have blacked out but I can’t get rid of everything. The abuse started with me since I was the oldest. At that time I just...
December 19th, 2017
Realization of Rape
I am a 20 year old female. This year I realized I was raped. One day I was reading an open letter a survivor wrote to her abuser. As I was reading, it hit me: that’s what happened to me. I didn’t want to believe it, but I knew. I...
July 8th, 2015
Enough Is Enough
I am now 22, at 18 I had my first real boyfriend, who completely mentally and emotionally abused me, but of course in that moment I was in complete denial of the whole situation. After about a year of going out, things were getting worse. One night while having sex...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
July 24th, 2014
Repressed Memory
I feel like an impostor, like I might not even deserve this space, but I don’t know. I don’t remember anything but tiny bits from my childhood. Part of that is because the divorce from age 9-11 was so central to my life, partly because I think I have repressed...
February 17th, 2017
I Need to Tell Someone
I’m not sure how to begin to be honest, I have never gone into depth about it. I was molested and raped by my father and his brother. My father raped and molested me from age 4 until I was 13 his brother molested and raped me from ages 10...
October 22nd, 2017
Say Something
My girlfriends and I were going out to a few bars on a Friday night to celebrate a birthday. We were all a little drunk, but no one was out of control. At the second bar, we met up with a few of our guy friends to keep the celebration...
April 14th, 2016
Letter to My Rapist
To you, You don’t know me, I don’t know you. No idea what you look like, but still, there you are. In my thoughts, in my dreams, in my life. A stranger, yet so close to me. Every day, every night. Especially at night, actually. I don’t even know your...
For my 23 birthday I wanted to do something special for myself, and let go of what holds me back. In the last year so many things have happened and changed me as I am. I’m done hiding something that doesn’t define me, that wasn’t my fault. At the young...
My story starts with me wanting to have a photo shoot, to be put in a casting base in Norway. The man who ran this page, was also the photographer – and he offered me to meet with him and the secretary. We met, and made an appointment that I...
June 24th, 2015
It Was My Fault
I’m going to say everything honestly right now… I’m a teenager, and last summer I got into the habit of smoking weed because I was really stressed out. All my parents did was argue and my brother was really abusive to. I also was self harming and smoking lessened the...
May 10th, 2017
I’m Not Sure
I was 13, and he was my first boyfriend, it was out of the blue really. He just asked me out and I was quite flattered at the time .. I’m pretty much average looking. We pretty much talked, kissed and that was it. The second time he called me...
August 22nd, 2014
Date Rape
I was 23 and it was our 3rd “date.” We went to his house to watch movies and have pizza. I was okay with that because he lived with his mom and she was home. We ate and then went to his room. On the way up the stairs he...
January 19th, 2016
The Power of Victimization
My sister and I were 17 when my parents (in an effort to help my cousin turn his life around) offered for my cousin to live with us while he worked on bettering his life and making changes. At the time, he was on the most wanted list I believe...
October 25th, 2014
Date Rape Drug
I am 67 now. In 1984 my younger sister met a man and he drugged her with a date rape drug. Her story was like so many I have heard. She woke up naked and didn’t know how she had gotten there. She was horrified. She knew she had been...
August 6th, 2010
Where did I go?
I have waited all my life to be able to tell this to someone I can trust, someone who will not judge me, but most importantly after hearing Linor Abargil and Cecelia Peck I am convinced that our stories may perhaps save others from being traumatized years after our rape....
April 21st, 2017
A Year After
My journal entry on April 18, 2017 -About a year after submitting my “first story” on this site I just made a beautiful, clean cut, with a blade I took from my Mom’s drawer, right below the most prominent, bulging stretch mark on my right hip. I did it to...
July 26th, 2019
Those 8 hours
Those Eight Hours Eight hours of that day cost me everything and resulted in a life sentence my five-year-old brain was, at that time, too small to comprehend, so those eight hours, like the monster in the closet, hid from me, for decades, showing only an unexplained unease with myself...
March 6th, 2014
In Denial of My Rape
When I was fifteen and sixteen, I was in an abusive relationship. He raped me four times, and had me convinced that it wasn’t rape because we were together. He would tell me things like, “I love you so much. I just couldn’t help it.” and “Don’t you love me?...
September 6th, 2016
What Should I Do?
Everything is very dream like to me, but it all started when I was about 4 years old. At that age, I didn’t know what sex was. My dad was never home, and I was afraid of my mom. I just don’t understand why my own uncle would do that...
November 12th, 2017
My younger brother
I live at home with an alcoholic bipolar dad and my has lost all dignity and self-love. I moved away from my home because of my abusive father and our tenant would talk about how he wanted to be with a younger woman, and touch me inappropriately. My parents convinced...
December 28th, 2014
Warning
I’ve never spoken up about my story before in fear that people wouldn’t Believe me. It’s complicated but it starts here I was molested when I was about 4 by a stranger that came into the house. I didn’t even understand what had happened but the effects on my life...
February 4th, 2018
I was molested and raped at 6
I was taken away from my mother and father at 6 years old. I lived in three different family members’ homes. The last home I moved to, terrible things happened. I was abused physically, from slapping to being punched in the face. Emotionally, from being told my parents were pieces...
September 21st, 2015
Raped By a Family Member
I was sexually abused twice by a cousin when I was 8 years, although I do not remember anything from my childhood this painful event has been in my mind since it happened, I can remember everything: colors, smells, ambiances. Years passed by and somehow I got close to this...
August 19th, 2014
Raped by Brother
I was about 12/13 years old when I was raped by my brother. In my memory it happened often during approx. 1 year. He warned me not to talk about it with my mom. When we went on a family holiday, my eldest brother did not come. Usually they would...
April 24th, 2018
I “needed” to do this!
I am the youngest of 6, and at the time I was to go to mandatory college, the elder 5 either had or were working on Master’s or PhD in various fields. I can only say that a stunningly easy Senior year was bringing me to a 3.0 I applied...
March 31st, 2015
Raped by Him
It was a traumatic time for me and it even makes my guts clench and bile run up my throat each and every time such a dark memory evades my mind. The fact that he got away with it because of his status and how rich and connected him and...
July 12th, 2015
Not Sure It Happened
I was a bit of a party wild child, started drinking when I was 13 and kissing boys, however did nothing sexual until I was 17. That’s when I started hanging out with the “cool” crowd. The popular boys seemed into me and that was really flattering so I started...
December 7th, 2017
Rape Being Considered a “Joke”
Dear Readers, I am anonymous for a reason that me revealing this story is a danger to my life. The reason for this is because the rapist is somebody with high power. They are the son of this (something). I don’t know. I just know that for a fact that...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
Help. God help me write this, but i think its time i let it out. This is my story about how a man who completely destroyed me within a matter of minutes, three times. At first i didnt know it was rape. After years of abuse i just thought it...
June 30th, 2015
Date Rape
It was 32 years ago, but it changed the direction of my life. Seventeen and so many dreams. But, the gorgeous, smart, popular quarterback took that away. He moved on to have a big life in Silicon Valley. I stumbled through several attempts. Only my later trust in Jesus gave...
June 29th, 2014
With Love
I was 6 years old when I was first raped. My older brother saw fit to make me a woman. For many years this went on, I didn’t even realize what he was doing to me until I was 13 and it continued for several years after as I did...
January 30th, 2016
My Two Days of Hell
16 years ago I had just finished college and had a 1 year old son. I met a young man through friends and we had started dating. He seemed so great. He was tall and muscular, good job and was so good to my son and so good to me…...
May 7th, 2018
I dont know what to call it
i was about 8 my cousin was in his 20″s i only remember waking up by his weight on me and feeling his penis on me i don’t know how i got to my bed or what had happened i am 27 years old today he is in jail for...
January 25th, 2018
I thought we were friends
I met him in the summer of 2011 in college. We were close friends, he was my go-to for advice. He moved across the country in May of 2014 and I followed in April of 2016. after graduating college the previous December. We were roommates, close friends, then he said...
November 13th, 2018
Lost My Virginity In Rape By Jehovah’s...
I was barely 17. Living on my own and fairly naive. Had a job at chicfila in Clayton Georgia USA. He was 36. Ex con. Jehovah’s witness and my boss. He raped me repeatedly over the course of two years. Forced anal when I said no. Choked me unconscious and...
March 19th, 2018
Quarterly Review
As my 1st job, I was working at a chain store while going to school, and supporting my Mother through her cancer treatments. We had some assistance, but not enough to cover bills and food, much less rent. I needed the job. The manager TJ knew I was hard up...
I couldn’t sleep tonight, and all I could think about was making a difference in the world. Somehow I stumbled across this forum in my quest to find away to make the world a better place. I read a few of the stories and sobbed the whole time. I had...
November 21st, 2017
Family Party
We went to a family party. After eating and watching his siblings play, he wanted to go inside and relax. We were laying in bed and he started to touch me. It hurt and it made me feel uncomfortable and scared. I told him to stop, and he smirked at...
May 9th, 2016
Didn’t Know I Had Been Raped
You know how sometimes, out of the blue, in the middle of the day and out of context, you remember something that happened ages ago? Sometimes it’s a good memory, sometimes it’s so random we forget about it again, and some other times it’s like a ghost that never really...
October 15th, 2016
Date Rape
I was married a long time and am now divorced, so therefore I’m not very experienced with dating. Recently I went on a date with a guy I knew about ten years and who was getting a divorce. We had a fantastic time. We talked often for another week and...
January 13th, 2015
My Story
This is very hard for me to write this, but after just watching Brave Miss World it brought me to tears and I realize now that more people need to speak out about this. One night, at the age of 14, I was walking home from a party alone the...
February 13th, 2016
Bad Date
Date rape is ugly. It makes me wonder how to better protect myself. My apparently sweet boyfriend of 5 months once said he hated rapists and would injure or kill anyone who committed rape. Then we went camping in a remote area, 26 miles off the main road. I love...
December 19th, 2015
Since Age 6?
I have early memories from about age six. When i was about six years old, I fondly have flash backs of being touched by my younger brother’s father. I’m not completely sure what he exactly did to me but I sometimes have weird “dreams” and I’m not sure if there...
August 31st, 2016
Raped in College
I was 20 when I moved into my first apartment in college, I was date raped by my down stairs neighbor. I went to better myself with big thoughts of changing the world. I was drugged and raped by my down stairs neighbor. I tried to tell my best friend...
January 23rd, 2017
My “Step-father”
When I was about 5 my mother married a guy. The first year was awesome, I loved him he bought me anything I wanted and always made sure I didn’t get yelled at by my mom. He “got sick” for about a week during the summer usually my mom left...
(I’ve felt) Man in Florida ruined my innocence I’ve felt sorrow I’ve felt vengeance I felt what it was like to lose God Tears run down my face allot no one understood I felt the guilt and the blame I felt what it was like to be ashamed being in...
March 9th, 2016
Once Again
At age 8, I was raped and beaten by my alcoholic grandfather. My mom having a mental illness was in the hospital so I had to live with my grandparents. My grandmother was sweet but she left for work 5 am and got home by 11pm. When she was gone...
February 20th, 2018
My Story
I was 16 when I had my first kiss, 17 when I met my first boyfriend and lost my virginity. I was a shy girl, the one who blended into the background amongst her more attractive friends. Dennis was tall, blonde and exotic- All of us were drawn to him....
June 24th, 2014
My Daughter
My daughter was molested (8 yr old) one time by one of my brothers. God is so great that allow me to find out as soon as it happened. Soon after that we moved to US. In that week when happened I told my mother and she did not believed...
It was the first day of my job interview. I had gotten an early scholarship for college when I was 15 and I finished it by 20. I’m now 25 and still can’t forget my rape story. It was terrifying. The guy who was the interviewer told me that getting...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
December 16th, 2016
Confused by Rape
I would like to start by saying the recent rape is indeed all of my fault and i now feel completely disgusting and hate myself. And please try to understand where I’m coming from before judging me too badly…. I had a hard time with love and figuring it out....
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 años. Viví una situación muy confusa cuando era niña casi 9 o 10 años. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentían con golosinas, ver televisión y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
April 20th, 2017
Freshman Year
I go to a small college in the northeast, and my freshman year I was at a party at one of the sports team houses. It was only October, and I had a group of friends at school and all, but there was also a kid from my high school...
September 12th, 2016
If I Were Stronger Then
If I were stronger then, I would have left him after he sexually assaulted me in our mutual friend’s downstairs bathroom. I would have known that it was sexual assault. I would have told somebody. I wouldn’t have excused him by telling myself, “Hey, he could have inserted, but he...
May 26th, 2018
I didn’t think she would do this....
Okay so I was at my best friends 16th birthday party (im 17). There were a couple of friends, one friend asked to bring another friend (which party we went to the week before) and he brought 3 of her friends (Lets call one of them Tim) with him. At...
April 26th, 2015
Too Close
Hi, this is awkward but it feels great to share about this. these events continued over a series of years. When I was 6 years old my brothers friend asked me if I wanted to go to his house because my brother was there so I said sure this boy...
May 16th, 2018
Personal Statement – Written January 2017
Twilight hours of February 25, 2016 are buried in oblivion, bygone, sunk out of my head, perhaps for self-protection. This eclipse of my heart in dead of night. Fraternity boy coolness turns to shadiness at nightfall. His country boy accent is of the coal pitch blackness of the mines, sinking...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
October 23rd, 2011
my story-and where i “took it”…
My story begins when I was 5 or 6…. my parents best friends had a son a few years older than me…. at some point he started molesting me… every time his parents came over or we went over to their house… it started out “easy”.. like he would only...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
January 5th, 2015
Stolen Innocence
My mother and father got divorced when I was two years old. My mother was a single mom with two kids so she was always working trying to make ends meet and making sure we had food in our tummies. I admire my mother for this. My father remarried, had...
October 19th, 2015
College Campus Rape
I was a freshman in college. I was attending a college and living at home, but a friend of mine went to a school out of town and lived on campus. I decided to visit with her for one night. She took me to a party where I met a...
August 25th, 2016
Happy Birthday
I fell asleep on a couch of my friend, coworker, and tutor. I knew his place to be a safe one. I even knew his roommate, a friend I’ve known since elementary school. I woke up in his bed on my stomach with his on my back inside of me....
April 25th, 2015
Molestation
This happened to me 20 years ago. My older brother by 3 years started touching me and gradually raping me. I don’t know how long it was going on, I think a few months to a year. I don’t have a lot of memories of the abuse,only pieces of it,...
I was raped for two years. And that was only the first person. During that two years there were others who tried and one who succeeded. All of this happened before my 18th birthday. My first relationship began when I was 16, it only took him a week into it...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
June 26th, 2014
Never a Victim; Only Myself
This is my first time sharing my story publicly. Although my story is like many others, my reactions to it, and my outlook on it, are very unique I believe. The first time I was raped, I was 18 years old. It was a beautiful night in the summer of...
December 10th, 2013
יש חיים אחרי אונס
שלום לכולן, אני בחורה חוזרת בתשובה מזה ארבע שנים .. בגיל 15 בערך עברתי אונס ע”י מציל .. שהיה באמצע שנות העשרים שלו.. לא הצלחתי לדבר שלוש עשרה שנים .. לא הצלחתי להגדיר לעצמי .. עברת עכשיו אונס .. אז שתקתי.. אבל הפצע לא מוכן להישאר בנפש ובגוף .. הוא...
March 7th, 2018
I’m Only Stronger
Wednesday night of November 1, 2017 I was beaten half to death by my ex boyfriend. He kicked me, punched me, pistol whipped me and took the battery out of my phone therefore, making it impossible for me to call anyone or for me to leave. I never thought that...
Alcohol quieted my anxiety and dulled my hurt. I never ate enough, so when I drank, I would get drunker, faster. Alcohol gave me guts and I felt bold, sexy, and powerful under its spell. My new gal pal and I drank that day until all I can recall are...
March 23rd, 2018
My best friend raped me
I will start out by saying that I am a totally different person now than I was then at 18. I won’t say that what happened made me who I am today because I know better than that. You aren’t broken nor damaged from what happened, you just work on...
August 5th, 2016
They Blamed it on the Tequila
I graduated, I actually graduated. Senior year was over, and the next part of my life was just beginning. Mexico was calling our names and here we were, fresh out of high school, ready to take on this vacation as if it was our last. No regrets. Then I met...
September 15th, 2017
Online dating
I have been raped three times in my life. Once was with a boyfriend in high school when I was 17. His sexual preferences changed as ours all do, but mine stayed the same and we didn’t like the same things anymore. But that didn’t stop him from getting what...
July 1st, 2016
Don’t Belive Your Cousins
When I was 12 years old, I went in my uncle’s house to celebrate my birthday after eating dinner. We slept in a bedroom (in uncle’s house)with my cousins, my sister & big brother. My big brother would take me in the garage & he attempted rape with me. Every...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
September 13th, 2016
I’m Not Sure
I’ve been broken up with my ex boyfriend for about a month, so I’ve been reflecting on our relationship a lot and I notice how a lot of the sex we had made me uncomfortable. During the relationship I feel as if I was in a daze and never actually...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
January 7th, 2016
Ended in Rape
I was involved with a married man. I know I was wrong for being with him but the chemistry was strong. I cannot describe the shame I feel from being with him. He was really into s and m stuff and we used code words or if he was too...
February 10th, 2017
Raped at age 9 & 15
Rape isn’t love, Rape isn’t sex, Rape isn’t a relationship, Rape isn’t consensual. The only thing that had my dignity written all over it was taken from me, The one thing that meant so much to me was taken from me, the one thing that made me feel more like...
June 27th, 2014
The Monster With The Pretty Smile
I was in grade nine when I lost something that can never be returned. I just want to make it clear that I do not want anyone’s pity, or empathy. I don’t want people to say “that poor girl how could someone do something like that to her?” What’s done...
July 22nd, 2014
Almost Raped
I dated him about 5 years and then one day I took him home and we sat in my car and he out of the blue said, “I have been thinking about taking you down and having my way with you”. I was stunned, and said, “you know they call...
This is very hard story for me to tell but after finding this site and reading the other stories I’ve built up the courage to tell my story. I didn’t start dating until I was 17 and this was my first boyfriend, he seemed sweet at first always able to...
March 29th, 2016
Small Town, Popular Boyfriend
I was 11 when I first met, lets call him Dave, he was 13 at the time. I live in Australia and Dave and his family were from Canada, they’d moved into my very small outback town, as his father is a priest, and they were ‘needed’ by the church....
September 27th, 2016
Multiple Times
I have been raped more than once. And unfortunately, some people start blaming the victim after the first time it happens. And unfortunately I rarely talk about this because it takes a piece of me every time I talk about what has happened. The first time I was raped, I...
October 29th, 2017
Had Her Back
A friend and I went to a party, and we went as a pair to watch out for each other. My friend drank too much and was passed out on the living room couch, I was okay. She was still out as most of the guests left, or paired off...
February 23rd, 2016
My Story of Rape
i was raped when i was 17, six years ago. i was going through an extremely dark time in my life and was so desperate for love and affection and to feel like i was worth something that i snuck out of the house and walked six miles through a...
August 12th, 2016
Young and Unaware
I’m 19 now and it took 4 years for me to process what had happened. I really only became aware of it 1 year ago. But when I was 14, I was dating a boy who was 17. I had lied about my age and he thought I was 15,...
July 24th, 2018
I Am A Survivor
It’s been 7 months since you raped me. 7 months since you took something so valuable to me. I still feel your hands around my neck and your breath down my neck. I was so scared to tell my own parents because you threatened me you would hurt me if...
t’s been a while, hasn’t it? I’m sure neither of you have noticed the lack of access you have to my social media as I have blocked you. I am a part of your past now, a simple memory that occasionally pops up on your Facebook memories or in your...
July 9th, 2014
37 Years Ago
I just got thru watching your documentary on Netflix I cried thru most of it as obviously I can relate to some of the stories of the victims. I was not raped I was sexually molested by my grandfather at ages 6-9. As I now am 43 years old I...
November 24th, 2013
Childhood Friend Date Rape
I had lived abroad with my military family and returned to my home State after graduating high school to live with my grandmother to decide my future rather college or join the military. I received a phone call from a childhood friend if I wanted to drive to a nearby...
December 14th, 2017
Confused
So one day I was hanging out with this guy friend if mine. We had consensual sex about a week before this. We were in a hotel room and I got into bed naked with him. He started to put me down telling me I was a whore and I...
April 20th, 2009
Thank you for speaking out…
I would like to first of all, praise all the women who’ve shared their stories on this website. It is a brave thing to discuss a topic so horrific and traumatizing. Speaking from personal experience, I know what kind of strength and courage that is needed to do such a...
January 27th, 2018
We Stand Together
I’m a survivor. I have severe PTSD trauma due to being molested the young child for 6 years raped by neighborhood kids the broke into my house and videotaped and spread all over the streets by the age of 13. For years boys and men abused me. I was being...
September 26th, 2017
Date Rape
I had been dating this guy my freshman year in college for almost 3 weeks. i was riding in his car with him and he reached over and started touching my thighs. I told him to stop and that i don’t feel comfortable. he pulled over to a secluded area...
January 15th, 2017
Raped 14 times in 1 year
i had this uncle and i never met him before but he stayed with us for 6 months and after about 1 month he started. he wouldn’t stop. at the time i was 13 and he was 21. i haven’t told anyone. — survivor, age 15
October 29th, 2015
Date Rape
I was 19, and wanted a “real” relationship. At the time I had a friend who was an ex roommate I would hang out with a lot and one day we went to a group outing with some of her friends. One of her guy friends came along, and as...
October 18th, 2017
I was raped
When I was 17 I was drinking this wine in my bedroom when I wake up and I can’t see and I can’t move and there’s a guy who’s fingering me and it’s painful and then he taps me on the shoulder and I don’t wake up and he rapes...
June 26th, 2014
Lost Dignity
I was fifteen when the 23 year old son of my parent’s best friends came to stay with us. He had just moved from Toronto and was starting a new life in Winnipeg. He acted like my big brother and I liked talking to him. My family had recently also...
April 30th, 2016
Tattoo Artist
I have been tattooing for about a year and a half, happy in my career making good money, working with my best friends. I was at my best friends kids birthday party, that’s when I met my rapist. He seemed like a super cool dude, that day went well. He’s...
August 26th, 2016
Why Me Over and Over?
I see stories of women being raped once when they are young adults or even teenagers and I kind of understand that was bad luck and that it could happen to anyone. I also hear stories of girls that were sexually abused when they were little and I guess that...
June 24th, 2014
I Am Not Brave
It’s ruined my life and now I have multiple physical and mental conditions which have restricted my movement, motivation, and will to live. I now weigh almost 400 pounds and almost don’t care. I would end my life if I knew for sure I would not go to hell for...
January 1st, 2017
Out For A Walk
I went out with my dog on Christmas day and three men with a dog I saw out of the corner of me eye. I turned to look to cross the road and saw one of them staring. I heard shouting and went to go a different way home and...
September 16th, 2014
The First Man Who Broke My Heart
Unfortunately my childhood has to be the most painful memory I have until now. I grew up in a dysfunctional home, where my father was a drunk, lazy, woman beater who would cheat on my mom continuously. My mother was just a woman who was trying to keep a family...
April 10th, 2018
A person to trust became my worst...
It was supposed to be one of the most exiting weeks of my life, a step into adult-hood i had dreamed about all of summer. Freshers week. The week everyone is supposed to let go of all inhibitions and have an amazing time with new friends and people who you...
September 27th, 2016
Darkness With Friends
One day I was just chillin in my room texting a friend from school. Then I get these weird texts all of a sudden. My friend and I then text on another format of texting. We try to figure who’s texting me then we find out. From that day on...
December 16th, 2014
Did He Rape My Mind Too
I was 17 when I was drugged and raped. I was on holiday with my best friend, and it was our 2nd night out. We went to a bar and started chatting to a group of lads. At the time it seemed so genuine and I was having a good...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
October 17th, 2018
The reason for my tattoo
So I decided that I will be getting a new tattoo, it’s my tattoo that tells the story of my rape, and that i am a survivor and not a victim anymore. I changed my major in college from nursing to social work because I want to make a change...
July 27th, 2016
Lightening Does Strike Twice
I’ve been raped twice. One left left me bruised, one didn’t leave a mark. Both hurt the same. When I was 16 I got a boyfriend. He was older, and cool, and in a band. He took me to parties, and gave me weed, and made me feel cool, too....
October 22nd, 2017
Denial
On October 29 2016 I was raped after a Halloween party. I had gone back a dorm with my friend and the guy she had been seeing, I was very intoxicated at the time. I stupidly had a threesome with my friend and the guy. After a little while my...
December 18th, 2017
He Loved Me
He was my best friend. He had loved me for years. I trusted him. I was 18. We had just graduated high school. I went out drinking with some friends and he offered to be our designated driver. Later that night, when I got sick he offered to take care...
April 7th, 2018
Lasting memories
Three things happened in my life. When I was younger I was molested by 3 men in my life, all family. I still blame myself till this day. Every touch, every word so powerful. I grew up a messed up girl from that. Move forward to the future, on April...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
June 23rd, 2014
Dirty Whore
was once innocent. But that part of me doesn’t exist anymore. When you’re raped you lose a piece of you in a sense. You find yourself left a different person with a broken spirit. I’m a shadow of the girl I use to be. Life is no longer safe and...
August 24th, 2009
חיה בשני עולמות מקבילים
מאיפה בכלל מתחילים לרשום את הסיפור שלי כשמרגישה שלא משנה כמה אני ירשום- זה פשוט לא יהיה מספיק. אני חיה בתוך הסוד הזה כבר שנים רבות- רבות מדי. אני בת 25, לאחרונה סיימתי את התואר הראשון שלי. למרות הכאב שאני חייה בחיי- לאורך השנים תמיד וידאתי שאת כל הכוחות שלי...
September 1st, 2014
Remember November
November 1st of 2013, my two friends were having a Halloween birthday party. Halloween is/was my favorite holiday but now it only brings bad memories to the surface. I was 19 years old and at my friends’ party only holding a solo cup full of water. I did not drink...
September 26th, 2016
Unhealthy Relationship
I already knew this guy, he was a friend of my friends. One day we all hung out and he said he had feelings for me, and that those feelings have been there for quite a while. I thought he was the mos amazing guy ever by the way people...
July 2nd, 2018
I’m Confused
just wanted to post this because I don’t know what to think or why I’m even still thinking about this. And I guess I just wanted someone to tell me what I’m supposed to think about this situation. I invited someone over to my house to hang out. We had...
December 31st, 2015
I Didn’t Know What Happened
When I was 6 years old. I lived in the same building as my cousins. I spent everyday after school over there since my parents were working long hours. For about a week my girl cousin had detention and didn’t get home until an hour after school. So I walked...
Few years ago, I went overseas for my Studies. I was staying with my dad’s brother, my uncle who had bad drinking habits. I never get to know my dad’s family very well because they were living overseas. I was around 10 years old when I saw them last time....
October 21st, 2015
From a Boyfriend
I was only 15 at the time, he was my first ‘serious’ boyfriend. He always spoke to me about sex and this made me uncomfortable as I was not ready. I had clarified this to him and told him I didn’t want to. We were round his house watching a...
May 3rd, 2018
That’s not Me, it’s Her
I read a recent story where a woman described not remembering, or seeing someone else. I know how you feel, my sister! I would rather not give exact details, fearing reprisals, but I was raped in the office of an authority figure. I can say that today, but at the...
August 13th, 2015
Deja Vu
When it happened, I didn’t want to believe it. I tried to convince myself it just had to be a nightmare. It couldn’t possibly be happening. Not again. Not by him. He was my best friend. When I was raped the first time around, roughly four years ago, he was...
December 1st, 2016
My Relationship With Dad
This is hard to write about, because its still going on. My dad is still using me, and have been for almost a year now. I don’t remember everything about the first time he raped me. I was 16 and my mom was away on a business trip. She works...
September 9th, 2015
He Was a Cop
Just writing this brings tears to my eyes. It’s still so raw to me even if it was two years ago. I was 18 and I started dating this cop I had make at my gas station job after he’d contacted me on Facebook. I’d liked him for so long...
November 28th, 2014
Naive and Vulnerable
I was working in a hotel in a remote holiday village where he was the bouncer on the nights that the night club attached to the hotel was open. He was not the stereotypical bouncer. He was relatively small, average build and not threatening-looking. It was obvious he was there...
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
May 8th, 2017
I called him my friend
It was a dated function. This guy was my friend. I showed up, and was given lots of vodka. Thats all I remember. I woke up. 4am. I’m in his bed, with his clothes on. I turned over and saw him there, staring at me. He climbed on top of...
January 4th, 2014
I Am Still Standing
Being taken advantage of isn’t particularly new to me. From the ages of four to eighteen I was neglected and abused by both of my parents in many ways. When I left for college in August of 2010 I fully planned to leave my old life behind and fight to...
April 23rd, 2015
My Boyfriend Raped Me
This all began when I met a guy at the age of 15. I met him through friends and all was great. He was so nice, attractive, wealthy, he really put on a good show for the first month. I was a virgin when we got together (obviously.) We had...
November 27th, 2017
Party Accident
I was in the second trimester of school and the pressure was beginning to psych myself out. My friends told me about a party, knowing I would more than likely, not go. I bombed my trig test and was disappointed and angry. That night, I snuck out of my house...
January 7th, 2018
God Saw You Kill My Two Little...
I grew up in the Appalachian mountains with incest and violence, I’m an Appalachian inbred Hillbilly, ain’t nothing wrong with that. People who write similar stories or movies most times are not an inbred Hillbilly which makes my story unique. At nine years old I was beaten and raped at...
February 10th, 2015
Speaking Up for Women
My own personal experience involves someone I trusted, drugging and attempting to rape me. I used creative writing as a form of healing during this process. I would like to share my short piece of spoken word surrounding the issues that women face on a daily basis all over the...
February 22nd, 2018
incest
My name is Sabrina Giglio. My family are descendants from Sicily, Palermo, Italy. When I was 13, I am now 45, I was raped by my cousin, my mothers sisters son. When it happened all in a three month period, I was taken in back of alleys, beaten, anal violated,...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...