A year ago, I was 34 at the time. I woke up to my brother on top of me with his penis in my vagina. As soon as I woke up, I jumped and tried to push him off of me. My 7 year old son was laying right next to me sleeping. I couldn’t make much of a noise or put up much of a fight because I didn’t want my son to wake up and see what was going on. I began to cry and pleading him to stop. But he wouldn’t. Instead he put both his hands around my neck choking me until I could hardly breathe. This lasted for what seemed like forever. Then he stopped and released my neck. I laid there paralyzed from fear. I thought it was over then all of a sudden I felt him ram me from behind. It hurted so much I pressed my nails deep in his arms trying so hard to get up. I was crying out of control, quietly begging him to take it out. He just kept going. He them shoved himself it in my mouth. He was holding my head tight forcing me to perform. All of a sudden I felt him release his self in my mouth. He just laughed, picked up his clothes and left my room. This trauma has set me so far back. I can’t get that night out of my head. I find myself constantly thinking about suicide because I can’t get the shame and embarrassment out of my head. I never told anyone what happened and this secret is taking a toll of my life. Not sure if I’ll ever recover.
— Tamika
you are not the one who should feel ashamed. Your brother is the one who should be feeling embarrassed. He should pay for what he did and you should press charges against him cause if he did it to his own sister. Chances are he might be doing it to any other girl and nobody deserves that.
Be strong!
I had something similar to this happen to me, you shouldnt feel ashamed, this ISNT YOUR FAULT!! Hes the one thats sick, some ppl are demented, and he is one of them along with my brother and the many other brothers that have raped there sisters! Stay strong because at the end of the day you have your beauutiful son to live for and he needs you!
I had something like this happen to me when I was 8. Ever since that I have never been the same I had never to no one about it. I got married not too long ago and told my husband someone raped me when I was 8 but didn’t tell him it was my brother. I feel depress a lot and don’t know what to do I wish one day I could tell my mom about it.