As a child, I was raped multiply times by my own uncle. Just this past summer, something happened to me and I finally decided I should tell someone about it. It was scary. I always thought that it was my fault and I still blame myself till this day. But, I was glad to get that out of me. The man was never sent to jail.
Until this day it stills hunt me. But I never let it show. I keep thinking that I’m going to be a prostitute because it get sexually addicted to people I don’t know what to do. I keep thinking that i’m going to be raped again but by a stranger. My friends don’t know that this is going on with me, and I really need help.
Thank you so much for sharing your story on the Brave Miss World site. What happened to you is not your fault. Your uncle made the decision to hurt you and you are never to blame for that. Sexual trauma can be very confusing and hard to deal with, but reaching out for help is a huge step in the healing process.
The effects of rape are very real and the fears you speak of are not uncommon. They are very real and they are very valid. Please know that you are beautiful on the inside and out and that what happened to you does not have to define you. I do not know where you are located, but I can tell you that there are wonderful anonymous and confidential resources available to help people in your situation.
The healing journey is long and hard, but I promise you that light awaits on the other side. I am keeping you in my thoughts. You can heal from this.
I watched “Brave Miss World” and want to help, in honor of my many friends who have been raped. I have a blog and many followers. I am at your service.
Love,
Dennis