My Rape Story

So, I was just five. I remember this like it was yesterday. So it was late at night, and I was spending the night at my aunt’s house. My cousin had passed by me a few times to go to the kitchen. I was sleeping in the living room and my cousin, and my cousin sat by me on the floor as I watched Hannah Montana. But anyway he started showing me porn, and since I was small I didn’t know what it was. I covered my eyes and he kept telling me to look at it. So then he asked if I wanted to try it. I forgot exactly what I said, I think I said “no I want to watch tv”. So then he said come in my room, so you can play my x-box. I loved playing his x-box ,so I got up not knowing what I would encounter later on. This was 2007 so my cousin was 17 or 16 at the time. I was playing the consul for quite a while then he turned it off. I assumed he wanted me to go to bed to I hopped out of his bed and went back to the living room. He went after me and s aid “I don’t want tiger to get you. (Tiger was my aunt’s dog ,and he knew I was terrified of him) so I went to his room again. I got into his bed and he followed. He wrapped his arm around me. He took his shorts and underwear off and I got up. He started kissing my chest and then he told me to put it in my mouth. I hadn’t complied the first time but about the 6th time I did. I was beyond disgusted and I ran. He pushed me in his closet and he went in also. He pulled my pants down and then he put a coat sleeve in my mouth. He stuck his penis in my backside and I cannot explain the pain. It hurt so bad and I was crying. After about 5-6 minutes he took me into my other cousins room. My other cousin was about 20 so he was not at his home. He had me on the bed and put my face in the sheets. I was screaming. I wanted my mom so bad. My uncle was at work and my aunt was sleeping with her door closed. After this disgusting thing was over. He said don’t tell on him or he could go to jail. He asked if I wanted him to go to jail and I said no. He was my favorite cousin. But when I went home on Sunday night, I told my dad. He went to my aunt and was mad!! He was asking why didn’t she come see what was happening and all that other stuff. I still see my cousin til this day. I legitimately start shaking every time I’m around him. You guys rape is no joke. I cried while making this. Condolences to those like me who have to live with their child innocence being taken away.