Never Ending

When it happened I was a junior in high school (16 years old.) My best friend was having a party at her house, so I snuck out and had my friends pick me up. I didn’t drink much, 2 shots or so was not drunk or even the slightest buzzed. I was aware of everything. My friend led me into a dark room and I trusted her not knowing what she was doing though. When I entered the room there were 2 boys waiting for me, in that moment in time I still didn’t know what was happening. Then it happened. I was pinned down and forced to let them do whatever they pleased. As I cried and told them I didn’t want it to happen, my words nor cries made it stop. After being in the room for a few minutes I got the chance to get away and I grabbed a blanket and darted, as I ran down the stairs I saw everyone from the party gathered on the couch looking at the stairs as I asked my so called “best friend” if she knew they were going to do that. She looked at me and said “you earned —‘s friendship back” those words I will never forget.. I eventually told my parents and we got the law involved and as it has been over a year later it has only gotten worse. The boys lawyer makes me out to be the bad person, I am the one who is harassed and my name is slandered. I don’t know why I deserve this but everyday I hate myself more and more. There will never be justice, thats all I ever wanted. I take anti-depressants and go to counseling and these boys continue on with their lives like nothing has changed.