Drinking at a party is a Bad Idea!
I had won a drinking game! Won is a relative term. After throwing most of it to the porcelain altar, I passed out in a chair downstairs.
Usually, that would be all, but I skipped one, and then 2 periods, and went in hoodie and sunglasses to buy the stick. I killed 2 in disbelief, as they were both positive! I hadn’t been with a male in over a year!
Not being Holy enough for any alternative, I remember passing out at a party, and asked if anyone saw me picking up. No one did, and some uncomfortable questions started to be asked.
I don’t know if I’d rather remember or Forget it, and I’d rather not Find the answers.
Thank you for sharing with us. So a couple of things – first… whatever happened, it is NOT your fault. Drinking does NOT make it ok for anyone to touch you without your consent.
In terms of remembering or forgetting, the truth is that you may not have control of that; your brain is a powerful and complex organ and might make the decision for you. But I feel like uncertainty is really hard and I would encourage you to talk to a therapist or a counselor to deal with just that one aspect of your story. I’m not sure where you are medically now but there are ways to test for paternity with both a baby or products of conception if you want to look into either. But again, I would talk to a therapist before you make any big decisions. It can be so helpful and you don’t have to carry this all alone. Please take good care of you and – if you can – let others help you. Sending you lots of love, Alexis