My dad had always been violent towards me. Me parents split up ages ago but he still come back to ‘see’ me.
But he would hit me. He broke my jaw and cracked my ribs. He said if I told anyone he would kill me. So I kept my mouth shut.
One night I was home alone. My sister was at her boyfriends place and my mum was out.
I heard someone was in the house. I thought I was dad but it was one of his ‘mates’.. I didn’t know what he wanted from me and I was scared out of my mind. I ran to my room and shut the door but he pulled me out to his car, held a gun to my head and raped me. After he threw me in the ground and drove off. I didn’t know what to do. I was traumatized. Now I can’t sleep at night because I’m scared that I will wake up and he will be there. To this day I can still feel his hands on me. No matter how many burning hot showers I take or how many times I try and convince myself that I’m ok, nothing works.
— Jessie, age 16
Dear Jessie,
Thank you for sharing your story here with Brave Miss World. What happened to you is incredibly traumatizing and everything you mentioned about how you feel now is real, valid, and normal. It can take a long time to heal from experiences like this, and one of the first steps is acknowledging it. You did that here and I am really proud of you for that. There are resources available that can help you if you want them. If you look to the top of this page you will see a link for “Get Help”. I am also very happy to help you find resources. If you ever need to, just reply back to this message and I will respond. You are very brave. Light, love, and solidarity, Alissa ~ Brave Miss World Team Member
Hey,if u need any help mail me I am ready to help
Hey Jessie you need to keep strong and tell someone u trust then u can get help on the path to recovery.
I am here if u need to talk.dont worry u can get through this I believe in u