For Halloween my friends and I went to a party. Everyone there was around 15-16 years old. At first I hung out with them, but then they started hanging out with others so I started hanging out with this guy. I knew him from school and we were actually very good friends at one point, so when I realized I was very drunk I thought I could trust him to cut me off.
At this point, people began leaving so he took me upstairs and laid in bed with me. Everything from here is hazy, but I know we talked and then began making out. I don’t remember if I kissed him or vice versa. I stopped him and asked him repeatedly where my friends were, and I don’t remember whether he answered me or not.
I don’t remember much about what he did to me but I know for a fact that I said I didn’t want to do anything. However, he only said, that’s okay I don’t have a condom anyways. So instead, he stuck his hands down my pants and touched me then gave me oral. I told my friends what happened and they know I was very drunk and clearly wasn’t a state to make decisions, but they still don’t understand that it wasn’t consensual.. I’ve tried to tell them how much it upsets me but they just wave it off as me being a drunken whore.
Dear Survivor, thank you for sharing your story with the Brave Miss World community. You are absolutely right, it wasn’t consensual, and I’m so sorry that your friends don’t understand that. It was not your fault. the blame is 100% on him. You deserve love and support, and I hope there are other people in your life you can turn to for those things. If not, maybe you could check out the Get Help page on this site to connect with people who will understand and support you. Lots of good wishes.