I was sexually abused when I was 8 years old. I am 12 now it was my brother and he was 16 years old then and he still lives with the family. I live under the same house so what happened in my house was having construction so we were getting new beds. They had not arrived yet so we were sleeping on mattresses and he was sleeping in his room. My sisters and I were in my room. We were asleep but I felt something down there and his fingers. He saw my eyes open so he ran to his room. I went back to sleep because I did not know what do. I am awake all the time. I don’t even know if I have lost my virginity yet so I have not told anyone. I act like I am happy the worst thing is that we are Muslim so I get beaten everyday for the stupidest things and everyone in my family loves him. He is in university and doing something and if I say I know they will not believe me. I cry all night silently I share with my sister. My primary school teachers noticed something was wrong, so for my last year they knew I was abused. I could see it in there eyes but I never said. So I am going to be silent until the day I die. You can’t spell families without lies.
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I am so proud of you for writing your story here on the Brave Miss World website. I want you to know that the silence and isolation you feel are very normal to feel. There are a lot of people who never tell their families because they don’t think they will be believed. Most of the time people who think they will stay silent forever find someone they trust to tell. It could be a teacher or a close friend. If and when you are ready, I have no doubt you will find someone to tell. Just know that you are never alone, even if it really completely lonely. There is a whole community here that stands with you. I believe you. I will keep you very close in my heart. You are really really brave.
Thank you so much for writing your story here. The confusion and pain and loneliness you’re feeling must be so overwhelming but I assure you that you are not alone. You are very, very strong – smiling and continuing in school when you are feeling the way you do is so hard. But I believe in you. Please try to keep your mind open to the idea that you might one day tell someone. There’s no time limit and you shouldn’t feel any pressure but there are good people out there who will support you. Sending you support and strength.
Thank you for sharing your story with us, I think it was really brave of you. I hope you feel less alone, and I do believe that one day you will find someone you can tell, even if they aren’t in your family, so that you can get the support and healing you need and deserve.