Sexually Assaulted

I was on a work night out for our Christmas party. I was texting my then boyfriend most of the time at the party till we ended up having an argument and he told me not to go round when I was finished. So I went to my friends to pick her up then we went out drinking. I ended up getting really drunk and went back to my boyfriends. We had a fight because I walked in to find in cuddled up to another girl! We argued I can’t remember much from the night I ended up smacking my head off the toilet then crawled back into the living. I eventually fell asleep on the couch. The next morning not only did I wake up with the hangover from hell but I also woke up with one of his housemates laying next to me with his hands down my pants! I was terrified and didn’t know what to do so I pretended to be asleep! He kept trying to put my hand on his penis and I kept moving it away. He went to go on top of me when my boyfriends other flat mate came in and he jumped up and left. As soon as he was gone, I broke down crying to the flatmate telling him what he did! I then went into the bedroom to tell my boyfriend and he didn’t care! He said “doesn’t change anything we are finished!” I just cried and cried! Eventually I rang my mum told her what happened then I went home and she got the police involved! I had to go for checks and swabs at the hospital it was so horrible! I managed to do my statement! And a few months later he was charged with 2 accounts of indecent assault! His trial is 19th June!! As in 3 weeks away and I am petrified!! I have to go! But luckily I’m getting a screen but it’s still so scary!! But I’ll be glad for it to be over it’s took 18 months to come to trail!! I’m not sure whether to go to the verdict and sentencing or just leave it! He put me through hell I’ve been in hospital for a month in October last year. I was diagnosed with anorexia, I went on to drugs to cope which was never me! I always hated drugs! I had other boyfriends along the way but most of them left me because I was “damaged goods.” But eventually I found a lovely amazing caring boyfriend that I now live with and engaged too! He was so supportive and understanding! He’s coming to court with me! He never pressured me he waited till I was ready! He cuddles me and calms me down when I have nightmares and flashbacks! I just want to close that horrible chapter in my life and move on from it without thinking about the trail etc!