Sexually assaulted as a young girl

I was about 6 or 7 yrs old when I was first sexually assaulted by one of my relatives close friends, my mom was away for the night and I had to spend the night with my older cousin and in the middle of the night I woke up to his friend rubbing his middle part on my bottom area, I remember i had on this little pink nightgown dress on and he lifted up my night gown and removed my underwear and got on top of me and held my head where I could not move it and was looking straight into my eyes while he assaulted me , I was just a little girl then and what he did to me was not right and I knew it wasn’t I cried and cried but he put his hand over my mouth and told me to keep quiet after he was done he told me if I ever told anyone he would hurt me over and over again so I stayed quiet for the most of my childhood and teenage years i buried my hurt deep down inside me but as I got older and understood what he did was not right and how miserable I was growing up i decided to finally speak up and not to be afraid anymore I had nothing to be afraid of #Iambrave.

The second time it happened I was 10 or 11 and it was by my own relative he held me down while he start to penetrate me he held my mouth and pinched my arms when I started to cry, he said if I ever told he would kill me so i never told until recently I am now 23 yrs old and I finally spoke up about these two people who assaulted me I was miserable like I said and depressed and I took it out on the people who mattered the most to me , I told my story and I feel relieved so much and Weight lifted off my shoulders im not alone and I am a survivor.