We were close friends. I never thought this could happen to me, but I was wrong. We were hanging out one day. We decide to go to his house, he stayed he need help with homework and I agree and I went. Everything was calm and normal. Out of nowhere he started to touch me. I told him to stop. I notice he wasn’t acting the same. There was something off about him. I ask him if he was okay and he said yeah. He grabbed my arm hard and I was freaking out. He started to kiss me and I told him to stop but he didn’t. I remember everything he did. He forces me to have sex with him and if I didn’t he would tell our friend and his friend he slept with me and make rumor up and I didn’t want people to know what happen. Everything he ask, he would also threaten me and I said yeah. I feel like no one and other feelings. I started to smoke, cut myself and I couldn’t sleep. My mom was worried about me, she didn’t know why I was acting different and she never found out why either. I kept this secret for three years now, but I managed to stop smoking and cutting. My sleeping is getting better but I still dream of that day. I wish I could forget, but I am glad I’m still here.
— survivor, age 17