October 13th, 2015
Shattered Childhood
I have come to realize the extent of the damage, to me, to my soul, to my brain, because of childhood sexual abuse. Repeated sexual assaults. On me, on my child that I was, then. I can recall an assault when I was 2 yrs old. A repressed memory that...
September 30th, 2016
Still Confused
am eight years younger than my brother. When we were growing up he would often invite me to fight and play with him, in bed, on weekend mornings. When I was sixteen I had to leave the family home with mother and we moved into my brothers short term. I...
December 18th, 2014
You Must Acknowledge
For some reason I still can’t come out and say that what happened to me was rape even if everything in me says it was. I often refer to it as a “passive sexual assault” even though friends I’ve told about it have all said that it was rape. I...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
September 12th, 2016
If I Were Stronger Then
If I were stronger then, I would have left him after he sexually assaulted me in our mutual friend’s downstairs bathroom. I would have known that it was sexual assault. I would have told somebody. I wouldn’t have excused him by telling myself, “Hey, he could have inserted, but he...
June 26th, 2014
I Was Manipulated
3 weeks before I left my first year of college, (I had just turned 19) I met a boy through a school event and a few mutual friends. I talked to him first, and he felt that my initiation meant that “I wanted it”. I had recently been through a...
May 31st, 2015
Raped By Boyfriend
Hello, to whoever is reading this. This is the second time I’ve ever told anyone about what happened to me, but my friend has persuaded me to talk about it. I was 14 at the time, (a year ago) and I was going out with first boyfriend (who was 17.)...
February 26th, 2016
Stupid Coward
It began when my mother re-married and I suddenly got an older step brother. At first, I was delighted to have a new family member since I’ve always been a single child. We got along pretty well and we were pretty close, he would take me to shopping or to...
July 18th, 2017
Not all friends are true
I grew up such a trusting and open person. I cared about everyone who crossed my path and I would give the shirt off my back to anyone who needed it. So when I got a call at 11:30 from a guy friend saying he needed a place to crash...
July 2nd, 2018
I’m Confused
just wanted to post this because I don’t know what to think or why I’m even still thinking about this. And I guess I just wanted someone to tell me what I’m supposed to think about this situation. I invited someone over to my house to hang out. We had...
October 22nd, 2015
Rape at Bogota, Colombia
Sueño / Recuerdo I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of...
Before reading: English is not my first language. Be aware before you Judge me. Thank you. I can’t explain how it felt. The hardest part of my story is, that not only did he take away my trust, he took away a part of my memory, a crucial part, that...
November 21st, 2015
Worst Day Ever
I was about 6 years old when I was raped by my neighbor, we had these trees that went along our fence and if you where behind them no one could see you. He was about 15 and he came over and climbed the fence, he told me to take...
July 26th, 2016
Hope for Healing
I was about 19 years old. I couldn’t sleep and I had been seeing a man who lived in another town. I decided that I would get an early start and hitchhike to see him. Two men picked me up. They were friendly at first, asking questions. They were both...
June 25th, 2018
Close of a Brother
Growing up my brother would tell me we had to sick together because we were the only children who’s father was not around. My brother little by little starting age 6 he would kiss me then hump. eventually i was age 7 or 8 he’d begin having intercourse. To this...
April 7th, 2016
Knowledge is Power
Summer of 2015 my cousin brought his best friend to our family’s 4th of July celebration. His friend had always been flirty with me, but I had a boyfriend before this summer and he had a girlfriend. After he found out I was single on 4th of July, he started...
October 29th, 2016
Drunken Rape
Just a few months ago, April 1st, 2016, I was sexually assaulted. I am 16 years old, and was 15 when it happened. The man was 52… I haven’t seen my friend for a while and wanted to hangout with her, and we had nothing to do for a few...
August 27th, 2018
Healing and releasing painful memories
I was a fashion designer in the Los Angeles area. I opened up my own business and hired a young man that we knew in the garment business as our shipping manager and coordinator. He was someone my ex-husband, now deceased, knew. We became friends with him and his wife....
Recently single after a 2+ yr relationship, I was vulnerable and needy. Needy for attention mostly. And with my dad’s disappointment in my sexuality, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to try and hang out with guys more. It did. He made many advances over the summer, all of which I...
This is a very long story DO NOT READ IF TRIGGERED. Well i meet a boy when i was little we both were 15 , 16 he would do little simple things like grind on top of me with clothes on and kissing me. He started to force me to...
April 7th, 2017
Raped After School
Hi, My name is Vanessa i am 17 years old. I am going to talk about my story and what had happened to me while i was in school. One day my Boyfriend but now ex and i got into an argument over something stupid. We kept fighting that day...
January 14th, 2015
STRONG
When I was 8 years old a woman came into me, my brother’s and my dad’s life. My dad fell in love with her. Two years later, he proposed. A year and a half later we moved into her house. She had a nephew who was 17. I had liked...
June 24th, 2014
I Am Not Brave
It’s ruined my life and now I have multiple physical and mental conditions which have restricted my movement, motivation, and will to live. I now weigh almost 400 pounds and almost don’t care. I would end my life if I knew for sure I would not go to hell for...
April 8th, 2015
Who is Responsible?
On the night of my 14th birthday I went out with a few friends. We ended up going to a restaurant. The table in front of us was empty for 5 minutes. Next, there’s a man with dark hair, glasses, and comfortable clothes on. He sits there and stares straight...
August 3rd, 2018
Rubbing my scars
I am six years old. I think. It’s unclear my exact age because my parents never talked about it growing up and the legal records are now sealed. I am six, give a take a few years, and I am sitting on my bedroom floor between my bed and the...
December 2nd, 2015
Going to be His Girlfriend
I always told myself that I was going to wait to have sex, wait until I was married or at least until I was definitely ready. At sixteen years young that option was taken away from me. I remember this day too clearly and I hate that. When I was...
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 años. Viví una situación muy confusa cuando era niña casi 9 o 10 años. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentían con golosinas, ver televisión y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
December 10th, 2016
Roommates
He was my roommate. Someone I barely knew, an acquaintance. I had moved back to campus after living about a year 20 minutes out from school. I was desperate to be around people my own age again and get out of my current living situation. I took on random roommates...
December 18th, 2015
My Rape Story
When I was eight my older brother began touching me inappropriately. At first I thought it was ok, normal, so I thought I wanted him to. Sometimes I would ask him to but I was 8 so I didn’t know what it’s was we where doing. He should have said...
September 9th, 2015
He Was a Cop
Just writing this brings tears to my eyes. It’s still so raw to me even if it was two years ago. I was 18 and I started dating this cop I had make at my gas station job after he’d contacted me on Facebook. I’d liked him for so long...
March 24th, 2016
Rape By My Husband
Linor, watched Brave Miss World last night and was still shocked by the many rapes to women all over the world (later watched miner women in Bolivia). Admire your bravery in public, your youth and determination in looking for justice, speaking out, removing the blame of the victims and the...
November 13th, 2017
Believe Her
About a month ago, my live in girlfriend didn’t come home. As it got later, I called and texted her about every 15 minutes. I called everyone I knew to find her. By half way through the night, my friends were trying to be honest: If she didn’t come home,...
December 10th, 2013
יש חיים אחרי אונס
שלום לכולן, אני בחורה חוזרת בתשובה מזה ארבע שנים .. בגיל 15 בערך עברתי אונס ע”י מציל .. שהיה באמצע שנות העשרים שלו.. לא הצלחתי לדבר שלוש עשרה שנים .. לא הצלחתי להגדיר לעצמי .. עברת עכשיו אונס .. אז שתקתי.. אבל הפצע לא מוכן להישאר בנפש ובגוף .. הוא...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
May 23rd, 2016
Cafeteria Food
When I was 16 years old I was a nerdy person. I kept to myself and didn’t go out to parties or other. So when I got my first boyfriend I was ecstatic. He was a practical god to me. Things had been going well, until one day when we...
June 9th, 2016
The First Time
I was 14 years old the very first time. It was almost summer in 2010, I was walking home from school and it was the second time one of my best friends wasn’t walking home with me. I stopped at the toilets in the local botanical gardens. As I left...
October 17th, 2017
#MeToo 5 years later…
#METOO i shared my story on this site a few years ago about the time i was raped by a stranger. i’m surprised at how easy those four letters rolled off my fingertips as if i was just writing anything. over the years i have been in therapy a lot...
April 14th, 2017
A Stong Woman
I just wanted and needed to tell you a story if I hadn’t told you already, please feel free to talk about the shame, the hurt, the life changing experience I endured. Did I ever tell you the story about the 3 year old little girl who was molested almost...
September 30th, 2017
My Best Friend’s Brother
A few months ago, back in February, I went through something I can’t ever forget. A little backstory, about a year ago in October, my boyfriend of a little over a year left me after telling me he wanted to marry me. I obviously was devastated and didn’t handle it...
July 9th, 2014
When I Was Three
My story starts when I was three years of age. I was molested by a stranger in my bedroom while my mother was having a party. That’s when it all started. I remember my biological father use to take baths with me and bathe me. I was molested all thru...
October 17th, 2015
Never Even Knew
I went out with a friend to our favorite bar. I had two drinks and the my one friend left. I was socializing and we were talking about fire ball and one guy offered to get me and his friend a shot. Then 2 more. Within mins everything was black...
February 12th, 2016
“Trust me, take a chance”
So where do I start…. 3 years ago I was raped. Saying this as always still feels like a lie to me as my brain has worked so hard to block it out that I feel it never actually happened to me. I’m guessing this is because I’ve never dealt...
April 11th, 2017
Years later… meeting my rapist again
I was abducted when I was nineteen by an acquaintance who stalked me. I tried to report it to the campus police, but they just humiliated me. Also, It was an ordeal that I don’t really remember because he drugged me. But many years later, I moved to a new...
I can still remember it so clearly. The taste of alcohol on my breath the morning after. The humiliation I was putting myself through. I couldn’t bring myself to accept it, I had read about it before and had even taken an online class before attending college, I remember thinking...
August 3rd, 2016
Life Changer
From the age of five to the age of nine I was sexually abused and assaulted by a family friends son who was a couple years older then me . He would touch me and tell me he was just trying to play . As I started getting older around...
October 4th, 2017
My best friend
Senior year of college, I was extremely drunk at a house party. My best friend, who I had hooked up with a few times was there with me, at a certain point I blacked out. I woke up in the morning in his bed with no clothes on, and I...
This is a very long story DO NOT READ IF TRIGGERED. Well i meet a boy when i was little we both were 15 , 16 he would do little simple things like grind on top of me with clothes on and kissing me. He started to force me to...
June 19th, 2014
The First Man In My Life
Was my father. He was a religious zealot. x 3 every Sunday, morning evening services and Sunday school in between. He helped build a new church roof over many weekends, leaving me with negligent babysitters, some cruel. All Church people. He had my mother committed to a psychiatric hospital 12 years before I...
February 12th, 2015
The Man in Uniform
My mom once told me is that the good thing about youth is that you are unafraid to try things. And in this story I was definitely unafraid to try something, or rather someone, new. I was doing my usual work outs at the military gym; a man had suddenly...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
June 27th, 2014
Lasting Effects
I just watched the Brave Miss World on Netflix. I was raped four times by four different men when I was between the ages of 16 and 22. I am now 44. I thought I was over all of it. The documentary showed me just how NOT over it I am....
January 12th, 2015
Who Is To Blame?
Seven months ago he was there when I was drunk. I don’t know his name and I never will. I know that I returned to my friends home with no underwear but a dress on. My dress was my only protection. I don’t know if I barely remember that night...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
December 1st, 2014
Light In The Dark
I grew up hearing all the right information when it came to date rape, sexual assault and healthy relationships. My mother, my school and other sources were good at teaching me the facts about these realities. Even being equipped with the tools to be able to recognize these risks and...
September 26th, 2016
Unhealthy Relationship
I already knew this guy, he was a friend of my friends. One day we all hung out and he said he had feelings for me, and that those feelings have been there for quite a while. I thought he was the mos amazing guy ever by the way people...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
April 13th, 2018
A young mother
I came to college a year early, I was seventeen and so naive. I had taken summer school 2 years so I could get out of that small town Kentucky high school. I was so ready to have a fresh start. My first semester was awesome. I joined a sorority...
October 20th, 2015
Made in America
My name is Ciaran. I was raped when I was 16 while at the concert made in america, a boy who was friends with my ex boyfriend took advantage of me. I was upset since me and my boyfriend had just broken up that day so I took to the...
November 22nd, 2017
Never Thought It Would Happen to Me
Dear Survivor, I know the bad days outnumber the good ones. Maybe you haven’t even had a good day since it happened. Maybe you feel like your temptations are the only logical way to escape. Maybe you’re ignoring it. I thought ending my life was the only way to escape....
July 7th, 2014
Raped Husband
I was married when I wasn’t a Christian. I was pregnant when I was 21 and my husband 24. I had a difficult marriage because my husband loved to get drunk. But, one time he told me he was rapped when he was a child by a 15 year old...
June 19th, 2016
Sexually Assaulted Abroad
I want someone to hear my story. I don’t know who, I don’t know how, but I want my story told. I had been traveling for six months throughout South and Central America. I created many beautiful memories and made lifelong friends along the way. I preached how safe and...
My dad had always been violent towards me. Me parents split up ages ago but he still come back to ‘see’ me. But he would hit me. He broke my jaw and cracked my ribs. He said if I told anyone he would kill me. So I kept my mouth...
January 27th, 2016
Broken Hearted
I was raped by a man that was older then me I was terrified and cried the whole time I hate myself and feel so disgusting. I attempt to go to school at Temple University but it’s so hard I cry everyday and people think I’m happy and so beautiful...
December 12th, 2022
Forever Silent
I grew up at my uncle’s house. He was a heroine addict and dealer. Many of his “friends” would come over for heroine on a regular basis. When I was 7 years old, three of his friends took an interest in me and would take turns visiting me in my...
April 27th, 2018
Repressed Memories x3 Abusers
5 years ago I started undergoing EMDR therapy (commonly used with PTSD clients) with my psychologist. I don’t even remember how it came up in the session, or when, but i uncovered a repressed memory of a rape when i was 12. It was a neighbour, who was 19 or...
July 22nd, 2018
Raped by a work colleague
This starts April 2017 i went for a team meal with work colleagues, a few of us stayed out for drinks. So this “man” decided he would stay out with me and a few girls from our team. As the night went on 1 by 1 girls started to leave...
January 4th, 2018
My Story
There’s something I need to say, but I can’t. I can’t say it out loud. Because if I did then it’d be true. It’d be real. I don’t want it to be real. I just want it to go away. But it’s not going to go away, it’ll never go...
July 6th, 2014
Breaking the Trust
I was raped for the first time when I was 18 by an undercover cop. I had dissed him at a college party, I was followed by cop, ambushed from behind and was raped in a back alley and left me handcuffed to a pole naked for friends to find...
April 5th, 2017
14 Years, He Was Like A Brother
I was 19 years old, just came home from my first semester of college. I start back at my old job, seen many of the same faces, but also some new. One face in particular was of a guy I grew up with, I had known him for 14 years...
September 3rd, 2016
What Happened?
There was a boy who I had went to elementary school with. I always had a crush on him. He was cute and popular and so many girls liked him. I would see him from time to time but it wasn’t until right before my junior of high school did...
April 14th, 2016
Letter to My Rapist
To you, You don’t know me, I don’t know you. No idea what you look like, but still, there you are. In my thoughts, in my dreams, in my life. A stranger, yet so close to me. Every day, every night. Especially at night, actually. I don’t even know your...
When I was 15, my boyfriend asked me if we could have sex or any sexual contact, I said no I wasn’t ready. We had been dating for 2 months. 2 nights after he asked me, he took me out to see a movie. We sat in the back and...
December 20th, 2016
My Ex Husband – My Biggest Enemy
I fell in love with him in Greece ( Crete . I was about 14 years of age and i was so in love. I met him in the street for the first time on his motorbike. He had those brown eyes and hair. My mum knew him because she...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
November 13th, 2017
Bad Morning
I woke up next to this guy. I don’t know what we did. I didn’t stay to find his name. I am in pain. I am not a virgin. I left him a post-it with my contact info. I need a call to discuss this. I want to back up...
June 15th, 2015
Careful What You Wish For
When I was just 6 years old my biological dad walked out on my family. It was devastating, and for the next 5 years my mum would have boyfriends in and out of the house. I was a lonely child and I didn’t have very many friends, I was desperate...
December 6th, 2016
I’m Over Reacting
My best friend was held back when we were in first grade because her parents split up, and her mom thought she could use a fresh start. I would often go to her house after school because it was the only way I could see her. She had a huge...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
July 27th, 2014
A Picture
January, 2002- August, 2009, I tended bar at night. The establishment was a 3 minute drive, to-and-fro. In late August of 2009, I became a first-time homebuyer and moved to an adorable subdivision approximately 45 minutes away and returned to college, life was really great. July, 2011, I received a...
February 20th, 2018
My Story
I was 16 when I had my first kiss, 17 when I met my first boyfriend and lost my virginity. I was a shy girl, the one who blended into the background amongst her more attractive friends. Dennis was tall, blonde and exotic- All of us were drawn to him....
April 15th, 2017
Exposing Rapists – A Poem
You will never be free Dark is your secret Whatever you do Whoever you become However you dress That secret will turn acidy Drown it with beer Bury it in anger Throw yourself into work Grow your beard Marry the best Protect your daughters Still it will eat your insides...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
April 20th, 2009
My story and this amazing documentary film
I was raped when I was 17. It has been 23 years and I am still effected every single day. I was set up with this man by a very close friend of mine. She said she didn’t really like him, but maybe I would. I agreed to meet him...
February 7th, 2016
My Mom
Hello my name is Vivian. About 2 years ago my mother, with great shame and fear, revealed to me that she had been raped as a young girl on a date. She and her older sister, my aunt, went to the police for help and was told there was nothing...
March 27th, 2014
Thank You
On New Year’s Day 2005 I was sodomized and assaulted by a friend of a friend whom I had met that evening. He held me down, forced me to give him oral sex, and then anally sodomized me. I was so drunk that night that I felt it would be...
June 26th, 2018
Broken vase
A few weeks ago I was raped one Saturday night. It was by someone who I love dearly, and I want to trust completely- my boyfriend. We had become intimate and more affectionate with each other, and up until this point it was consensual and within my boundaries. We had...
November 30th, 2014
The Night It All Changed
It was the day after Valentine’s day. My friend and I decided to go out for some drinks that night spontaneously. We went to a local bar. We had some drinks before we left the house and had more when we arrived. Almost straightaway two guys came over to talk...
October 26th, 2015
So Alone
I was 14 and my mother had left me home alone for 2-3 weeks one summer…but that’s another difficult story. One night, I decided to go and get something to eat, so I walked 12 blocks to a store. I saw a guy in a pickup truck circling around and...
March 12th, 2016
Years in Denial
My story starts out as someone who moved almost 3,000 miles away from home to start their lives in Miami. I was very young and moved with my very best gay male friends. We found a great place right on the water. We were living the dream at 23. I...
May 13th, 2016
So Much Pain Its Overwhelming
I’m so overwhelmed with so much memory. I wish it would wash all of itself away. 6/7 violently molested by my 15 year old cousin, forced to give him oral. 8-12 manipulated into believing i would be in trouble if i told anyone. Everything was my fault. I was to...
October 9th, 2017
New Years Eve
We had gone to the big gathering to drink, party, and watch fireworks as 12 passed. There was about 12 or so in our group, but a lot got separated in the crowds, which got more solid as the moment approached, meanwhile everyone got more liquids as well. Midnight rang...
April 15th, 2018
My boyfriend of 2 years
I’ve been dating this guy for 2 years, and a little while ago, he took me to his family’s beach house for summer. The first night we were there, he offered me a candy. Obviously, I took it. I started to feel funny and turns out he drugged me and...
June 13th, 2016
Brock and Will
With the whole Brock Turner trial coming to light and the arguments and letters surrounding it, it only felt fitting that I right a response to this situation. Therefore, I must start from the beginning, my history and understanding of rape. What is rape? Rape is non-consensual sex. But what...
February 25th, 2015
Respect
First of all, I’m sorry if my English isn’t fluent, I’m Dutch. I have never been raped or anything that comes close to that. I just watched Brave Miss World this afternoon and it really touched me and I just felt like I had to show my respect to all...
I was very young when my step dad abused me. I was about 5 or 6 years old. He said if I didn’t do as he said he would kill my mother. He was very abusive to my mother so I was scared and I did as he told me....
December 23rd, 2016
MesS Into A mesSage
Your home detention bracelet is now a permanent pain to my nerves because you maliciously put this around my ankle. You stole my car, you had access to my home, I was sodmized, raped and abused like an animal. It didn’t mean anything to you because you needed it more...
I met a boy off of the dating website Tinder. We met up and went on a motorcycle ride as our first date. I felt on top of the world and we hit off real well. We started hanging out anytime we could. One night, he came over drunk. He...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
February 22nd, 2017
I think my “boyfriend” raped me
I’m 16. I’ve been basically dating this guy for a few months.. we just haven’t made things official. Almost every time were alone we end up having sex. On Valentine’s Day he invited me to go out to east with him so after school he picked me up and we...
April 6th, 2015
Confused and Angry
I’m currently enrolled in a Philosophy of Love and Sex class at university and we were discussing sexual assault. The lecture really opened my eyes to something that had happened me earlier in the year and I’m pretty pissed and confused about it now. Friends from my previous university were...
October 18th, 2011
Different face, but the same monster
It started when I was 5…he was a trusted friend of a neighbors family…I can still remember his smell, some 20 years later…’If you tell anyone that I touch you, I’ll hurt you’ he would say, and then throw me to the ground and walk away…fast forward 10 years, same...
June 9th, 2016
School Does Not Care
When I was in 8th grade there was this kid who i sat next to in my English class. He would always constantly touch me and it would happen every single day. I would feel sick to my stomach whenever he would touch me and I remember writing in my...
November 8th, 2018
Losing my virginity
I was on my first ever night out when I got speaking to a group of boys who then took me back to their house. I do not remember willingly making the decision to go back to the house. When we arrived one boy took me to this room and...
December 20th, 2016
My Ex Husband – My Biggest Enemy
I fell in love with him in Greece ( Crete . I was about 14 years of age and i was so in love. I met him in the street for the first time on his motorbike. He had those brown eyes and hair. My mum knew him because she...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
November 21st, 2017
Friends are sharing
Sharing is big today, so I am. I was on a date, and he parked, and tried to have sex. I got mad, and said I’d walk home if he didn’t stop, and he keeps trying, so I walked off. On the way home, 2 guys grabbed me and raped...
August 19th, 2014
Hundreds of Times
I don’t remember exactly when it started. I know it started when I was very small, still in diapers. The beginning memories are all light, color, sound, smell-no words, no names or descriptions attached. Then they get more visual, more defined, more acute and sharp and poignantly terrifying. Then they...
October 21st, 2017
My experience as an intern in highschool
I was a senior at Towson High School in 1970. I was allowed to be an intern for half the day in my chosen interest. I was a member of DECCA, and did well, so I spent half the school day at the Towson Times, a member at the time...
June 10th, 2015
Raped When I Was 12
When I was 12 I was violently gang raped by two strangers in Tulsa, Oklahoma, USA in 1972. I reported it to the police, and was examined by a doctor. My vagina was torn. My clothes were torn and bloody. Later, a policewoman called me a slut. She said, “I...
August 20th, 2017
Good Guy
This story isn’t nearly as traumatic as so many rapes are, but it is something that still affects me a year later so I am hoping sharing will help. Last summer I had just moved into my new bedroom apartment. I hadn’t been socializing too much, I was dealing with...
May 3rd, 2015
I Was Nearly Raped
I was only 15 when I experienced the most horrible night of my life.. . I remember one night I was fast asleep in my room, when suddenly I felt someone sit next to me on my bed. I felt hands gentle, but rough, graze up and down my face,...
September 6th, 2016
What Should I Do?
Everything is very dream like to me, but it all started when I was about 4 years old. At that age, I didn’t know what sex was. My dad was never home, and I was afraid of my mom. I just don’t understand why my own uncle would do that...
December 15th, 2015
Stockholm
I was 16 and I became friends with a girl who was 17 and about 6/7 months pregnant. She was a pathological liar who I found out came from a very messed up family. She took me on vacation with her two sisters, her oldest sisters boyfriend and her father....
July 11th, 2014
Raped as a Baby
When I was around 4 or 5 I was raped by a grown man who was a friend of the family. We lived in a big house that was also a furniture store below, so my mother was very busy. My father lived somewhere else because they were divorced. After...
December 4th, 2017
Rape by Boyfriend
I never really told anyone the full extent of mine. I was in my first year of college and had severe body issues. I hated myself and was amazed when a couple of guys asked me out. I clicked with one guy and we started hanging out all the time....
February 28th, 2017
Hostage
For almost four years we were held hostage by two perpetrators, with my kids in Nevada. We learned first hand the meaning of torture, mental abuse, verbal abuse and sexual physical abuse. When you escape you think it’s over. The then DA didn’t show up for his job. So in...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
April 6th, 2018
Was it rape if he’s my boyfriend?
In retrospect, we are a happy, normal couple. My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years, what feel like less. I love him and he adores me. He loves me. He respects me. I think? So I may have had too much to drink one night when the...
February 9th, 2017
Unbelievable
Honestly kind of nervous to try this. I’ve never told anyone. I think I convinced myself it didn’t happen. That I was dating him so it couldn’t be rape. I was 17 in high school and dating a boy 4 years older than me. He was holding a party for...
June 7th, 2018
I don’t know if it’s rape
I don’t know if this is rape because I dont know if I was clear that I didnt want it. I am 19 years old and my boyfriend and I had been dating for 2 years at that time and been in an abusive relationship. I was a mess and...
March 9th, 2017
Was It Rape
A couple of months ago I went to London. I was there for two weeks staying in halls and knew no one. I was lonely. Having met him once before at a uni party, we’d liked each other and texted every so often. I knew he lived nearby and desperate...
August 30th, 2016
Forgotten Memories Submerge
I’m 21 years old, but my story begins from when I was 6 years old. My parents were not really involved in what was going on in my life, and simply, not interested. I was sexually abused spanning from age 6; 10; and 11. The incidents from when I was...
She was my babysitter, and I don’t know if I can recall every instance. It happened over a span of two years. I was a toddler and for awhile I knew it had happened but pretended it didn’t. It helped that my mind had forced most of the memories away...
February 27th, 2016
Lost Soul
I was a victim of rape when. I never talked to other victims. It started when I was young. 12 or 13 years old not sure I just wanted it to go away. My brother used to come in my room and touch me it happened. We were alone at...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
April 16th, 2016
The Healing Process
I moved to another country when I was seven. It was like I succeeded in getting away from the past. But, that wasn’t how it turned out to be. Even in a new place with new people, it kept haunting me. The place where it all happened was in my...
May 25th, 2015
Why Didn’t You Stop Him?
I was raped when I was 15 by a man who took me back to his house from a park. I didn’t mention it for 12 months; eventually I burst and shared. The following is my delineating of the story that I wrote 4 years later, and edited today. It...
July 2nd, 2014
My Scars Do Not Define Me
Walking home from the stables after a riding lesson, I was attacked. My hometown was an affluent beach town, the kind of place where nothing “bad” ever happened. Million dollar homes lined the neighborhood. I was 12 and hadn’t even kissed a boy yet. I didn’t know what was happening,...
Although I was not raped until the age of 23 I need to start my story much earlier. When I was about 7 or 8, my older cousin, who was only one year older than me began touching me. At that age I don’t think I really understood what was...
December 1st, 2015
Suffered and Survived
Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength. I believe life is precious. You can only live one life, unfortunately. Death, can sweep you away in an instant. Some people just let it happen,...
June 24th, 2014
Multiple Times
Raped by a caregiver at 6 years old and then again after he was released from captivity. Second rape was also kidnapping and stabbing to punish me for telling the first time. I almost died. I blocked the trauma from my memory. My mother tried to get me help but...
January 22nd, 2018
Sexual assault
it always happened when my religious teacher would come to my house to teach me. he came every single weekend and he used to touch me everywhere. he’s hit me before so much and he was soooo scary. he’s tried to rape me once before but he’s done things just...
April 27th, 2016
Awareness Among Teenage Boys
I recently watched the Brave Miss World movie with my teenage sons who are 13, 14 and 16 as I thought they needed to see it. Their reactions ranged from anger to horror to outright indignation about what happens regarding rape and sexual assault. I am very open with my...
December 28th, 2015
Sexual Assault
My sexual assault happened when I was 3 years old up until I was 9 years old. I was living with my mum and when I was 3. I hoped in the bath so I said that my downstairs was hurting so my step dad took me into the room...
January 4th, 2014
A flat tire is a rapist’s opportunity
In September 2003, my twin sister babysat my 2 year old son so I could go out with friends. On the drive home, I got a flat tire and a man pulled off the highway to ‘help’ me. After pretending to fix the tire and failing, he offered to drive...
March 19th, 2018
He had my pants down
I remember arriving. there was a recycle bin at the door already overflowing with cans. I remember the loud music. I don’t know when who where or how. the why and what were obvious! I looked down and could see between my legs. he didn’t even take the time to...
October 14th, 2016
Assault, Battery, and Rape
I am a 72-year-old woman, an RN for about 50 of those years Army Nurse Corps vet. I was/am not so beautiful nor smart, nor sexy/seductive. In my life I have been the victim of simple assault, sexual assault, simple battery, and sexual battery. Two of those were attempts. Two...
Help. God help me write this, but i think its time i let it out. This is my story about how a man who completely destroyed me within a matter of minutes, three times. At first i didnt know it was rape. After years of abuse i just thought it...
October 28th, 2015
Justice
Just need to express my anger about something that happened many years ago. I am a secondary survivor I would say. I was not physically raped by this man but my niece was at the tender age of 9 until she was 11. She is 47 now. I found out...
January 20th, 2017
Ready to Share
I was 18 years old. As with many of these stories, I was a freshman in college. I was drunk. It is embarrassing to admit that I was so drunk that I fell off of a 5′ loft bed into a mini fridge, resulting in a moderate to severe concussion...
April 12th, 2018
Bartender Lies
I was 21, a young ballet dancer studying in NYC. My roommate and I went to visit the bar of the restaurant I was a hostess. The bartenders were always revered, put on a pedestal. I thought the attention from him was good, a positive thing. How wrong I was....
September 7th, 2009
לדבר, להלחם, לנצח
לינור יקרה, בלי שתדעי ליוות אותי בשנים הקשות שלי. נאנסתי במשך שנים וכשאת סיפרת את הסיפור שלך אני הייתי בת 13. נתת לי את הכוח לספר את הסיפור שלי ולבקש עזרה. היום- יותר מעשור אחרי… ואחרי טיפול ארוך שנים ואין בוף עליות וירידות אני גאה לומר- ניצחתי. אני חיה. נהנת...
August 12th, 2014
A Childhood of Sexual Trauma
My father began sexually abusing me before I started school. I remember him telling me to touch his penis as he was lying on the bed and I was sitting beside him. He told me it was ‘sex education.’ I have only that one flashback from the early years. Years...
October 25th, 2018
The Boys Club Continues
I decided to share my story after reading another woman’s story on this site…she was brutally gang raped by police and contemplating suicide. Please “don’t let them win” by Suicide. I know it’s your choice to take your life or survive…. I know the helplessness against the Blue Wall. I...
December 8th, 2015
Stronger Every Day
I was 18 years old when it happened. I am now 34. It’s crazy to me to realize that it was almost half of my lifetime ago and yet something reminds me of it so often, even now. And then I see this documentary, and the tears surface without my...
February 9th, 2016
Now I Understand My Husband
My husband was brutally and violently raped by the taxi driver who was trusted to take him to school – a friend of his Grandfather. He was 12 and grew up in Lebanon. I was the first person he told and he was 45. He suffered in silence using alcohol...
February 4th, 2017
Supposed To Be There
Let me kick it off by saying that it was by my almost stepbrother and that he took my virginity but at that time it was consensual. Now that that’s out of the way, we can begin. So Rey and I had had sex a couple of times and I...
February 26th, 2018
silent rape
I have never spoken out before like this, I’ve told close friends before that I’ve been raped but never actually retold the story. I started watching the documentary on Netflix and could only watch the first 10ish minutes before I had to turn it off as it triggered something. I...
March 10th, 2015
I Thought It Was Normal
As a child I was sexually abused by my Granddad, I thought it started when I was around 8 but I have since put lots of different pieces together and realized it had been happening since I was about 4 until I was 12. I knew I didn’t like what...
February 5th, 2017
Holding My Feelings In
I’ve been raped twice and attempted rape, which I was coerced into I stopped but it was still very much sexual assault. This is over the past few months. I’m jumpy can’t focus very anxious all the time sleep is when I can I try to sleep and have nightmares...
March 31st, 2015
Raped by Him
It was a traumatic time for me and it even makes my guts clench and bile run up my throat each and every time such a dark memory evades my mind. The fact that he got away with it because of his status and how rich and connected him and...
I was raped when I was in college. I haven’t told many people about it because I had been drinking at the time and did go home with him. I thought it didn’t count or I deserved it because I had lead him on. Watching Brave Miss World made me...
October 23rd, 2017
Confused for Too Long
So many stories here have helped me to feel okay, so I figured I would give back in hopes that my story might comfort someone else who may have experienced something similar. I was raped when I was 17 on a family vacation, and for 8 years of my life...
March 10th, 2017
Okay, Not Okay
Last January was the first anniversary for me since I was sexually assaulted for the first time in my life. I am straight, and I was assaulted by my female friend. Though I want to/feel that I need to share what had happened to me last year, I barely remember...
February 13th, 2015
Abuse of Men and By My Mother
My name is Michelle and I have lived a life that I wished was only a movie. The first memory I have is when I was 5,and my mother’s boyfriend was sexually abusing me. My mother sat me in the living and put on a talk show, the topic was...
February 18th, 2015
Survivor of Rape
After my rape, I tried to pretend like everything was okay and stuffed the pain away somewhere deep inside. I finally wrote my story almost a year ago to a friend of mine. At the time I thought I was strong and “over things”, but the truth was, I wasn’t....
June 23rd, 2014
My Mother Was Raped
I was not sure if I should talk about this in public. I have saved this feeling in my heart for so many years, I remembered one day my mother and I were arguing about a boy I wanted to go out with. My mother was so afraid and started...
February 24th, 2018
Story of My Life
Being adopted as a child always made me feel like I was stuck in the middle. Growing up it wasn’t always easy being around kids that always talked about their lives at home, I always wanted to share my experience with them but I just knew that I couldn’t. I...
September 23rd, 2016
Rape
I was raped by a family friend. Someone I thought I could trust. I was wrong. He kept me in a room at my mother’s home all night long. I felt like I was going to die, or I wished it at the time. I wanted to go to the...
April 12th, 2016
Embrace It All
Hello fellow survivors. I want to share a key moment in my recovery process after I was raped by a stranger in a hotel because I hope that it will help you with the process of going through all the guilty feelings and the stages of grief (just like when...
January 12th, 2018
The Night That Changed My Life
How nice to know that within the next 7-10 years you will never have touched me. How devastating to know that 5 of you drugged then raped me after mixing something into my drink while I was using the bathroom. How horrible is it that my best friend, someone I...
June 19th, 2018
I am a survivor
The first time I was molested I was about 4 years old. I barely remember it. My birth mother was very poor and lived with who I’m assuming was a boyfriend or pimp. He used to take me in the bedroom and tell me to take off all my clothes....
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
September 5th, 2010
גבר אלים וחולני
לקראת גיל 15 התחלתי לצאת עם בחור שהיה גדול ממני בשנה, לאחר חודשיים בערך ביחד הייתה בנינו מריבה מטופשת במהלך המריבה הוא נהייה אלים כלפי זאת הפעם הראשונה בעצם שהוא הרים עליי יד, הביא לי סטירה שהפילה אותי על הריצפה וכשאני שוכבת על הרצפה הביא לי מכה חזרה בבטן עם...
December 6th, 2014
My Own Sister
t was my freshman year of college and I had just broken up with an emotionally abusive boyfriend from back home. I was upset and angry and also feeling liberated because I could finally do what I wanted. So I went to a party with a couple friends. While I...
June 26th, 2014
Afraid of Being Judged
When I was 18 years old I was like a lot of young women-dating, trying out relationships, making mistakes. My biggest mistake was to trust a “friend.”. We had a passionate relationship at the start. We were both college freshman, I had a long-distance boyfriend that wasn’t working out-and we...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
October 12th, 2016
Happy Hell-oween
I was 20 years old, invited to a party on a Southern California Marine base. My cousin invited me, her boyfriend was in the service. so I figured that it would be fun and safe. I was excited, I bought a new costume and got dressed up. When I got...
November 28th, 2017
It’s my fault
I’m a small town girl living on her own for the first time in a really big city going to college. I’ve been dating my boyfriend (who lives 5 hours away) for almost 5 years and one night I went out with some friends and ended up getting really wasted...
The reason i am sharing my story is because, all though SOME of my family have always been 100% supportive of my sexual assault and would do anything to help me. They don’t understand what I’ve been through and hopefully never will. Although I have told most of my close...
January 23rd, 2016
My Stepdad Molested Me
Three months ago when I was still 17, I lived in Arizona but went with my stepdad to visit family in Delaware. We were staying at my nana’s house while she was on vacation. The only other person in her house was her dog sitter. My stepdad was very strict...
November 30th, 2014
Ex-Boyfriend
I dated my boyfriend for 4 years on and off. He was extremely emotionally and physically abusive. He isolated me from everyone I knew, including my parents and made me feel like he was everything. He was the first guy I slept with, and even the first time with him...
July 8th, 2014
Impacted Forever
I was a private duty nurse taking care of a very critical patient. I was very foolish and trusted the Son that lived in the home. He was very kind and caring. I had been working there for over 6.5 months. One day the Son and 2 friends came in...
December 5th, 2014
First Friend at University
I went to university in Newcastle, UK. It was my fourth day of university and i was just getting used to meeting new people and getting to grips with being on my own and away from home. I had met some people during this time but the first person I...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
November 7th, 2017
The Friend
2 years ago my boyfriend (now fiancé) and a mutual friend he worked with went to a concert. All of us had been drinking. On the way home I noticed my boyfriend texting someone. Of almost 9 months of dating I was furious to know he was texting with his...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
June 13th, 2018
Today, I Let It All Go
My rapist- is what I called him. But I refuse to take ownership of him. I refuse to take the blame for actions. I refuse to hold on to the guilt. Today, I let it all go. My story begins in a high school biology class. A seemingly harmless flirtation,...
October 22nd, 2017
Say Something
My girlfriends and I were going out to a few bars on a Friday night to celebrate a birthday. We were all a little drunk, but no one was out of control. At the second bar, we met up with a few of our guy friends to keep the celebration...
September 5th, 2015
What’s Done Is Done
I have had few sexual experiences but none of them have been entirely consensual. My first experience was when I was 14, I was playing truth or dare with what had been my two closest friends, a brother and a sister. I was dared to have sex with the brother...
May 1st, 2017
I wanted to get high
It started off, not so well. I wanted to get high, smoke some weed. I wanted to get high because I, I was feeling low. I didn’t have enough money so I went, ‘5’ with some guy. I knew of him, I didn’t think any harm. His dark brown eyes...
August 26th, 2016
Why Me Over and Over?
I see stories of women being raped once when they are young adults or even teenagers and I kind of understand that was bad luck and that it could happen to anyone. I also hear stories of girls that were sexually abused when they were little and I guess that...
February 1st, 2017
Be Careful Who You Trust
The first time I was raped was my sophomore year of high school. After a football game at an after party. I was having fun with a group of friends when I got a migraine so I went to find ibuprofen. My friend said he had some in his room...
This is my story. I wrote it about a year ago in hopes that putting it to words and sharing it might help to shed the last bit of shame, after finally having shared the story with the few people closest to me in my life. I wrote it in...
January 9th, 2017
My Story
My story began late June… I was sitting in my room by myself reading a book as usual since I didn’t have any friends left in the town i lived in. At age 17 most high-school girls are surrounded by friends but I kept my distance on people and who...
February 28th, 2015
Girls Without Parents
When I was 6, I was adopted after my biological parents passed away. Two other girls were also adopted into the same family. Between ages 8 and 14, the “adoptive parents” sent me every Sunday to my “uncle,” a family friend only, not a real uncle. Classic story, making me...
I was out on a Friday night with my best friend at a nice hotel bar in the city. I was a little drunk, but not much. I met a nice man who laughed with me and showed me pictures of his dog. I decided to go back to his...
April 13th, 2015
A Meek Young Girl
I was 17 at the time and my attacker was 16. We started dating in October. We were dating and everything was going great through our relationship. 2 months into our relationship his friends made fun of him by saying how I wasn’t a virgin and he was and that...
March 25th, 2016
Read This Please
AS For those who’ve had a HORRID PAST Please I ENCOURAGE YOU TO READ: DO NOT EVER THINK OF KILLING YOURSELF EVERRRR PLS DON’T DO IT! It does suck because the world today is messed up, Ignorant and seems we have no one left to trust That’s true but that...
September 20th, 2016
Drugged
I had been friends with K for about a year, hung out with him and his girlfriend, consoled his girlfriend after arguments, spent many a night on his couch. We were friends. He got me a job where he worked when I needed a change of pace. So, when I...
June 25th, 2014
A Difference Perspective
In 1986 I attended the Academy Of Dramatic Arts in Pasadena California, where I met someone very special. We had a fast passionate dating period full of love, respect and admiration and we talked about marriage. We lived apart and one morning while I was on my way to a...
December 31st, 2015
Sexual Assault
My first take on “sex” was misunderstanding. I didn’t know what it was, and my mother told me that I didn’t need to worry about it yet. My father and mother had always stressed being responsible, and learning to defend yourself. I chose “Start By Believing” to tell my story,...
January 17th, 2016
No Justice
I was 15 when I got raped. I consented at first, I mean it was supposed to be a rebound that’s how I got to the guys house. I met him through others. And he lived near a place that I volunteered for. Everyone told me he’s insane, but I...
June 27th, 2014
The Monster With The Pretty Smile
I was in grade nine when I lost something that can never be returned. I just want to make it clear that I do not want anyone’s pity, or empathy. I don’t want people to say “that poor girl how could someone do something like that to her?” What’s done...
November 11th, 2015
Second Date
I had gone out on one date with this guy and it was really nice. There wasn’t any pressure to even kiss at the end of our date so it ended with a hug. The second date wasn’t even really a date. He had invited me to come over to...
December 3rd, 2015
Fenced In
I was only 14. We had been “dating” as much as we could at that age. He was my first I guess you could say serious boyfriend. I never imagined feeling so attached to someone as I was to him. It was July and very warm the summer was flying...
October 13th, 2017
My Father’s Funeral
After a long illness, my Father passed away, and I flew into his funeral. My bags were stolen out of the airport. I only had my bags, and the clothes I was traveling in. I had to go to the mall and get some appropriate outfit the morning before the...
May 16th, 2018
Personal Statement – Written January 2017
Twilight hours of February 25, 2016 are buried in oblivion, bygone, sunk out of my head, perhaps for self-protection. This eclipse of my heart in dead of night. Fraternity boy coolness turns to shadiness at nightfall. His country boy accent is of the coal pitch blackness of the mines, sinking...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
September 5th, 2018
It still doesn’t feel real…
I was 5 when it happened. I was at my best friend’s house and her ‘grandpa’ was making her take a bath before we could go out and play. When I think back to it, I often wonder if she even needed a bath or if that was just his...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
April 14th, 2023
My “Father”
When I was 10, my father twisted my mind into thinking sex was convenient and normal between a father and daughter. I was so small and innocent that I didn’t know what to believe, but I was too scared and weak to do anything about it. For the next 5...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
August 15th, 2014
Kibbutz
I’ve just finished watching your amazing documentary, it’s taken me a couple of months of knowing about it to finally be able to press play. I’m so pleased I did, I cried for you Linor, I cried for myself and I cried for all the strong women who spoke, and...
July 5th, 2017
A letter to my rapist
I cannot even put into words how much you have hurt me. You have completely broken me and I hope by writing this I can explain at least a bit of how your assault affected my life. What you did to me has shattered the way in which I see...
It was the first day of my job interview. I had gotten an early scholarship for college when I was 15 and I finished it by 20. I’m now 25 and still can’t forget my rape story. It was terrifying. The guy who was the interviewer told me that getting...
November 2nd, 2016
Scared Like Crazy
I have never been raped but, I’ve been scared of being raped since I was 14. That’s 7 years of living in fear. My college’s campus is pretty safe but whenever I hangout with my guy friends outside of baseball practice (I’m the team’s #1 fan and photographer) or the...
December 4th, 2015
Family
For years my uncle called me names that were sexual. He’d make sexual jokes towards me and I didn’t think much of them. May 8th he took something that was special to me and its something that I’ve never been able to get over. I was scared and didn’t want...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
Born A Girl When I was 10, I noticed men looking at me differently When I was 10 to 12 men and boys of all ages honked their horns, whistled and yelled profanities at me When I was 13 my friend and I were walking home in the daylight, when...
December 12th, 2015
Raped After Work
I wasn’t feeling well and left work about 2am. I worked in a hospital at that time. I was running a fever, nauseous and it was so very cold. I was bundled up in my coat and was hurrying across the street to parking garage. I wasn’t paying attention to...
July 19th, 2017
Was it my fault?
I have been with my boyfriend from the age of 13, I am now 20years old. He is the love of my life. Just over 1 year ago our perfect bubble was shattered. I was out drinking with my step sister. I remember feeling like the alcohol had definitely hit...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
October 4th, 2017
Spousal Rape
5 years ago, I was married to an extremely emotionally and mentally abusive man. After only a few months of marriage, I decided enough was enough and asked him for a divorce. He refused. I attempted to file the Court documents but he constantly evaded service. Over the course of...
September 30th, 2015
Naïve
This started when I was 14 with a guy I’ve known most my life. We went to elementary school together, I was in 1st grade and he was in 2nd. He’s a year older than me. We are now 17 and 18. We were only friends, not anymore. I won’t...
March 24th, 2015
75 Percent Humidity
You never want to be the person who admits to being raped twice, but I’m that woman. It was at college and I was a virgin. The assailant’s family had a lot of money and were well connected. He was never prosecuted. The second time, I blamed myself because who...
December 8th, 2015
Stronger Every Day
I was 18 years old when it happened. I am now 34. It’s crazy to me to realize that it was almost half of my lifetime ago and yet something reminds me of it so often, even now. And then I see this documentary, and the tears surface without my...
March 17th, 2016
Raped By A Registered Sex Offender
I was 40 years old when it happened to me. I was a virgin because of my faith and beliefs about not having sex outside of marriage and I have never been married. I’m also physically disabled–I was using a walker at the time and waiting for my insurance to...
February 20th, 2018
My ex’s best friend
My ex had gotten a girl pregnant and as upset as I was I was really worried about him because we had broken up a year before after a five year on and off again relationship. So I asked if his best friend would come talk to me to let...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
July 4th, 2014
A Survivor, Not a Victim
My mother was 17 when she met my father, he was 24. A year and a half later, I was born. My father played the father role only when it was convenient for him, as a result, I saw him every other month for the first 2 and a half...
August 16th, 2018
Childhood Friend
I’m 22, and this is something I’m just now coming to terms with after having sought therapy 6 months ago. Going into therapy, I knew I needed help, but didn’t know why/what was wrong with me. I’ve felt it for years – a darkness whose source was unknown to me....
October 20th, 2016
Brave Miss(es) Indeed
All my life, women have felt they could intimidate me and hurt me. Why? To make themselves feel better? Because I deserve pain and humiliation? Every instance of significant harassment and assault was at the hands of a woman. When I was 13, the girlfriends I had cherished turned on...
I was 19 when I was raped. I knew him. We had met through my friend. I was just getting over a breakup and wanted someone to take my mind off of him. We had hung out once before the rape with my friend and one other person. Everything was...
February 23rd, 2018
They thought it was fun
I started at 7th grade. I was asked by one of the seniors to meet them by the lockers after school. I was dumb and amateur. When I went there, they locked me in their locker room while filming the whole thing. I was so numb I didn’t know what...
December 10th, 2016
Roommates
He was my roommate. Someone I barely knew, an acquaintance. I had moved back to campus after living about a year 20 minutes out from school. I was desperate to be around people my own age again and get out of my current living situation. I took on random roommates...
April 12th, 2017
Lost Trust In Men For The Longest...
I was 8 years old when me, my mom, brother and sister went to visit my dad and his family in Arizona. My siblings and I wanted to stay the night with our cousins. My mom and dad left. When we were all asleep my uncle came into the room...
February 8th, 2015
Rape of My Partner
My partner was raped 10 years ago by a man she at the time trusted. He drugged her at his home. His wife was there and carried her home saying she had passed out due to alcohol but on the way back to her home raped her. She knows this...
July 29th, 2016
Once When I Was 6, Once When...
I am a 19 year old girl. I am a lot of things. I am kind. I am honest. I am respectful. I am caring. I am loyal. I am smart. I am everybody’s rock to lean on. I am an athlete. I am a scholar. I am a future...
September 24th, 2017
Drunk and Alone
I went drinking last night with a friend and we both were there intending to pick up. We got pretty wasted from drinks these 2 brothers were buying and we went out and around back to the alley to make out a bit. After a few minutes my friend waved...
September 13th, 2017
Letter to my offender part 2
Flashback The month before everything happened (October) I got in a fight with a cousin. I was not prepared to fight with her she’s bigger than me so it’s safe to say her five friends and my one had no idea I was going to fight back but I did....
June 11th, 2016
A Letter to My Rapist
Yesterday I sent this letter to the guy who raped me 33 years ago. —, I never imagined writing this letter. I am sure it will surprise you to receive it. It is a letter long overdue. Maybe you already know this, but in the past few years, more and...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
January 8th, 2016
Hidden But Not Forgotten
I honestly don’t know how to start this. Before the rape ever happened I had a crush on my father’s wife nephew. The most I have ever done with him was kiss him and harmless groping. This brings me to my rape story it started on a normal day. I...
Dear God, Turn me into a unicorn. Sincerely, Me. A unicorn. My first memories as well as current thinking that comes to mind when I hear the term “unicorn” is my Lisa Frank trapped keeper and the 500 page sticker sheets that made their comeback debut at Target dollar spot...
May 17th, 2016
Don’t Want to Anymore
One day I was hanging out with my on again off again boyfriend at the time. That day everything was normal and one thing led to another. During this session he expressed that he wanted to try anal, which he had expressed before. I, like all other times, told him...
November 14th, 2017
Mistaken Identity
Drunk at a party, I guess one of the most common phrases in the stories. I passed out on the couch, with my head on a good friend’s shoulder, and he was equally passed out. When I awoke, we were still on the couch, but I felt funny. My bra...
January 22nd, 2017
2-4 am on January 15th
Its almost Cliche, the way it starts out. I was out clubbing with friends, got too drunk, and was taken advantage of. There was a pre-party, and I had three drinks there. Everyone else was going out clubbing, and i was unsure of what i wanted to do. A friend...
March 2nd, 2015
School Prom
n the beginning of December last year, I was at my first school prom ever. I was so excited, and had spent the whole day with my mom, looking for the perfect dress. I’d spent hours and hours in front of the mirror, putting on my makeup and fixing my...
December 9th, 2014
Halloween 2014
I went to a Halloween party with some of my friends. We had a couple drinks beforehand at my apartment before going out. I brought a bottle of Coke with two or three shots of alcohol in it, intending only to drink that that night so I would stay safely...
July 5th, 2011
Nothing important…
.. My first answer, when people asked what happened. I was raped at my 25th birthday in Hungary from one of the teachers who helped me with my diploma thesis and his friends, which I never met before. That was his birthday-present for me, beside the cake. I remember him...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
August 12th, 2016
Young and Unaware
I’m 19 now and it took 4 years for me to process what had happened. I really only became aware of it 1 year ago. But when I was 14, I was dating a boy who was 17. I had lied about my age and he thought I was 15,...
October 16th, 2018
Was i raped?!
So last week I was with my friend and one of her guy friends. We were staying at his place. We all went out for drinks. I got very very drunk and have no recollection of coming home. My next memory is only two seconds long of him naked on...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
October 26th, 2017
Keep it to myself
One afternoon I walked home from the bus, to find my brother and 2 of his friends watching a porn. They made rude comments about I’d look good like that. I tried to go to my room, but they tackled me. They all raped me, but technically, my own brother...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
July 24th, 2018
I Am A Survivor
It’s been 7 months since you raped me. 7 months since you took something so valuable to me. I still feel your hands around my neck and your breath down my neck. I was so scared to tell my own parents because you threatened me you would hurt me if...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
April 6th, 2016
Holding It In
When I was in 5th or 6 the grade, I can’t remember exactly when it started, I began to have dreams that someone was coming into my room at night. I didn’t recall much of what they were doing. A few months after it began I realized they were not...