At the age of 13 years old, I was rape. After spending half of the day in the pool with my team mates( due to an international competition), I started feeling uncomfortable. By the swim pool, the guy kept placing his hands around my waist.
-I always say I am really stupid for not taking the hints that was leading to that moment.
-His hands went by my vagina and that was the moment I decided to leave. I left the pool area of the Hotel and went to my room. My room was double occupancy thus another person had a key for my room. I remember stripping to go to the shower when my door opened. At this point, I pulled my blanket over me thinking it was my teammate whom I was sharing a room with. Unfortunately, that was not the case and he (about two times my size) pushed me unto the bed. I fought, I screamed, I shouted, I cried. I did everything to escape but nothing worked. Honestly, after everything that moment where he forced himself into me is the hurt that I remember and constantly gets flashbacks.
-I still find it hard to come to terms with and up to this day, I haven’t gone into details about the incidence with anyone.
It can be really hard to come to terms with being raped. It can also be really hard to talk about the details. At the end of the day, you are in control of what you share and who you share it with. I’ve always believed that talking about these experiences helps in the healing process. I hope sharing your story here helped bring you some peace. Please know that you are not alone and that you are very brave. Lots of love to you, Alissa