I have been raped 2 times in total, both in the same place, both by strangers. The first time was hang rape, they chased after me pinned me down and took turns with me. They told me it was my fault for wearing a skirt that showed some of my thighs or a top which was a bit lowcut. Each time I was penetrated it hurt like hell, I screamed for them to stop but each time I screamed they just laughed. I was there for hours as they did as they pleased with me, then they left me there broken so I had to go home alone and I could barely walk. I had a shower when I got back, I must have been in there for over an hour just trying to wash myself. I was only 13 when this happened and my dreams have never let me forget it.
The second time was only a month ago, it was only one guy this time, he grabbed me from behind, covered my mouth, and threw me on the floor then used me to his satisfaction. This time I told the police and I told them about the other time as well but they said I was lying because the chance of being raped by a stranger barely ever happens, so for it to happen twice is impossible. They said I was probably just in regret from having sex with someone and I have mixed up my definitions of rape.
I am now pregnant, and honestly, I don’t know what to do. I only turned 16 last week and I haven’t finished my education, I know having a child now will probably ruin my chances of having a good life, but my life has already been ruined by these monsters, I don’t think I can kill my own child.
— Survivor, age 16
Don’t listen to the police. They obviously don’t know how to handle the situation. Take a couple deep breaths and realize how strong you are. The amount of strength it took to even report is amazing. Your life is not going to be over, you are strong, don’t give up.
Thank you so much.
Dear survivor -I agree strongly with Victoria -the amount of strength it took to report it is incredible. You are so brave and so strong and I am so proud of you for sharing your story here. I want you to know that I believe you and my heart goes out to you. As far as your pregnancy, I wish I could give you advice – abortion or adoption or keep the baby or something else – but only you can make that decision. I would encourage you – if you can – to talk to a therapist about what you’re going through. They might be helpful in making that decision. And remember that no matter what you decide, you are doing the best you can with the information you have. I will say this though – you CAN heal from this. Your life may feel awful right now but I really believe you can heal and have a life again. I believe that no matter what your decision now because you deserve that. Please know that I’ll be thinking of you. Sending you lots of love, Alexis
I am so sorry to here about that! I read about it and started to cry😢! I have my own story to tell if u want to read it it is called raped by my grandfather! Girl u r brave to tell that story!!!!!!!!
Oh my gosh! This needs to stop in this horrible world.
You are truly an amazing person
Dear survivor,
it’s so disheartening that something like this has happened with you. you don’t deserve this. nobody does. it’s just society that’s so blinded by the fact that rape is not considered a cruel thing. just because you wore a skirt, they got attracted. they’re wrong, you are NOT. society should not define what you wear, and mainly who you are as a person. you’re still pure, beautiful, strong and very, very brave to even share your story on a platform like this. i truly am empathetic. coping up with this trauma is extremely difficult, and you’re doing it. you deserve to be heard, deserve to be loved. stay strong, i wish you a speedy recovery and a bright future ahead. there are many people who are going to be there for you.