I climbed onto the tall charter bus, juggling my backpack and suitcase. I realized that I must have been running late; all the seats around my best friends were full. My eyes quickly darted around for an empty seat. He smiled at me from the middle of the bus –...
September 13th, 2014
Bad Programming
I don’t know if any of you other survivors have come to a situation that has forced you to just stand back, and stare at that dark private part of your life. Where you ponder exactly when you veered off the road that would have kept you ‘normal’. I’ve had...
June 12th, 2016
Not Remembering
When I was 8 years old my 16 year old cousin was my best friend. He would always be there for me and my other cousin. Except one day he took us out to his place while everybody was out. He had me and my cousin give him oral until...
April 26th, 2017
My Snowball Effect
My life has been a serious of many many struggles. But, I am grateful that they happened because I wouldn’t be the person that I am today. It started with my parents relationship. It was ever really good. But at the age of nine, I caught my Father cheating on...
My name is Gina and I was 20 years old when it happened. He was my boyfriend at the time, I loved him and he loved me. It was why I stayed with him despite what he did. The first time it happened was at a get together at my...
March 23rd, 2016
Sexual Assault
Oh goodness this is hard. I was 13 years old at the time, my “best-friend” was spending the night at my house. She convinced me that we should sneak out of the house to meet her boyfriend at his house (right up the street- he was considerably older than us)....
February 8th, 2018
But what really happened?
Last week I had decided to go on a night out with a few of my friends. Being 19, clubbing and alcohol is a hobby of mine, I did what I usually do and just go with the flow of the night. We had started off at the pub, I...
June 14th, 2016
Raped in Milan
I’m 23 years old and I’m Italian. When I was 16, I was raped by a photographer, who was 36 at that time….I was feeling so bad and so in shame that I didn’t tell anybody for years. But after a strong depression last year, I found the strength to...
January 10th, 2018
I thought it was my fault
It was my senior year of highschool and we were finally headed to mrytle beach for senior trip. I was 17. We had “trusted” friends we were heading down with most being the popular boys of our school and only 4 girls including myself. I thought I could trust my...
April 12th, 2015
Colored Hair and Diamond Tattoo
Where do I begin. This is not my story anymore. It’s hers. Or not. It’s mine. Twenty years ago I was 13 years old. 13 years but looked like 10 years. I was already in a difficult situation when I met him. My mother had cancer and I was terrified...
November 5th, 2014
Six Years of Denial
After six years, I am finally allowing myself to acknowledge that I was raped. The rapist was someone who I had recently became close friends with. It happened after a dinner party at his apartment, after everyone left. I was so shocked and confused I didn’t even realize what was...
September 13th, 2015
My First Two Times
strong>The first time My school had an exchange student in our class who has travelled from Austria. I immediately fell in love. He had a girlfriend back home but as we became friends and got closer and closer he told me ha had broken up with this girlfriend to be...
October 14th, 2016
Assault, Battery, and Rape
I am a 72-year-old woman, an RN for about 50 of those years Army Nurse Corps vet. I was/am not so beautiful nor smart, nor sexy/seductive. In my life I have been the victim of simple assault, sexual assault, simple battery, and sexual battery. Two of those were attempts. Two...
April 21st, 2017
A Year After
My journal entry on April 18, 2017 -About a year after submitting my “first story” on this site I just made a beautiful, clean cut, with a blade I took from my Mom’s drawer, right below the most prominent, bulging stretch mark on my right hip. I did it to...
March 17th, 2015
I Thought He Cared
It all started in 7th grade. I was some what popular spoke my mind about things I tho was wrong even tried to break up a fight once. My boldness is what caught his attention. We started out as friends laughing about almost everything but I soon became interested in...
August 18th, 2015
How I Was Raped
The man who did this to me was my boyfriend. His name is Brandon Cleine. We were both 17 at the time. Before it happened, I think to scare me he told me how he had raped another young girl before me when he was a young boy. He had...
July 6th, 2016
First “Real” Boyfriend
I was a late bloomer, sexually. I didn’t explore my sexuality with anyone until I was sixteen years old, with my first serious boyfriend in high school. I had never done anything with anyone until him. I started to feel comfortable and safe when we would fool around. A week...
April 11th, 2009
Survivors of Continuous Events of Sexual ABUSE
I am 23 y/o of Multiracial Ethnicities, Filipino-Spanish-American. Struggling w/the issue of being multiracial and identifying my sexual identity. I am a survivor of 10 years of child incest/rape by my father from 6-17 years old. I was date raped again by a friend in college, he brought alcohol over,...
September 9th, 2016
I Thought He Was My Friend
About 5 years ago I started hanging around a new friend group but there was a big change for me there were boys. About three weeks into being apart of this new friend group things started to change. Three boys started talking dirty to me telling me that I was...
June 21st, 2016
Last Party
I was a freshman in college at a school only a short distance from my home staying on campus to get the “full college experience”. I was never big on going out to parties because I had no interest in getting in trouble, and I hate the taste of beer....
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
At school I was never taught about consent. I never actually realised to the extent of how little respect that society has for women and their bodies till the day my recent ex boyfriend told me that I was my fault that I was raped, because I didn’t stop it....
December 8th, 2017
It was never…..That
I had the same boyfriend through most of high school. We went to the games. We went to dances. We went to the movies. We ate pizza. The basics, you know? Of course, I had a vagina, and he needed one. So we went to the backseat. We went there....
I was living overseas, Tel Aviv actually, and I was raped by a stranger that I trusted. I was 20. He was kind at first, enough to make someone like me who usually trusts no one trust him. He was so good at being charming and masking being a psychopath....
July 25th, 2016
He Took Advantage of Me
One night about 2 months ago I was at a party (it was a “Welcoming the Summer themed party) and a guy that had a huge crush on me was also there. We were all drinking and having a good time talking to everyone at the party. Near the end...
June 22nd, 2014
Over 40 years Ago
I have been raped both by a stranger and on a date, both in my teen years. The stranger was giving me a ride and took a side road out into the woods. I was helpless to fight physically, so I just acted like it was ok and tried to...
I was out on a Friday night with my best friend at a nice hotel bar in the city. I was a little drunk, but not much. I met a nice man who laughed with me and showed me pictures of his dog. I decided to go back to his...
June 13th, 2018
Today, I Let It All Go
My rapist- is what I called him. But I refuse to take ownership of him. I refuse to take the blame for actions. I refuse to hold on to the guilt. Today, I let it all go. My story begins in a high school biology class. A seemingly harmless flirtation,...
March 8th, 2017
I Repressed Everything… Until Now
I was fourteen and had already lost my virginity to a guy I barely knew, liked, or cared about. I was never one of those girls who saw themselves saving it until marriage. Knowing what I know now, I believe my first sexual assault happened much earlier in my life...
February 20th, 2017
Being Raped
With the help of God, I can finally write this down. I watched Brave Miss World the same year I confronted on of the men who raped me. This site has allowed me to find strength and solidarity among the words, the deeply respected and haunting stories of others who...
November 20th, 2014
Forced, De-flowered
I’ve experienced sexual assault and harassment for as long as I can remember. It mainly started when I was about 3 years old and my brother’s friends molested me. I remember having to see counselors due to becoming violent…they passed it off as ADD. Flash forward over a decade, I...
March 9th, 2015
My Best Friend
He was one of my closest friends and when it happened I was 17 years old and he was 18. I trusted him so much and even my family liked him around, because he became like family. We’d always go on my trampoline and talk for hours. Sometimes I let...
October 12th, 2016
Happy Hell-oween
I was 20 years old, invited to a party on a Southern California Marine base. My cousin invited me, her boyfriend was in the service. so I figured that it would be fun and safe. I was excited, I bought a new costume and got dressed up. When I got...
January 29th, 2017
The Night That Changed Me
I apologize for this being a tad on the long side, it is the first time I am sharing my full story with anyone and it was very therapeutic to write out every detail. I thank everyone for taking the time to read my story, and sharing in my healing….....
September 28th, 2015
Continue to Survive
I was molested at 2, I remember waking and going to sleep with older boy on top of me, but I was also molested by my father until I was 6, I Kept That From happening to my sister. If you knew back than the highlight of my life was...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
February 19th, 2015
The Setup
Growing up I was always a good church girl. Never cursed,n ever had sex, never did a lot of things. Until I turned 16, and began experimenting with opiates. I became an addict. To this day, my mouth still waters when thinking about a day in bed with a nice...
December 15th, 2015
Stockholm
I was 16 and I became friends with a girl who was 17 and about 6/7 months pregnant. She was a pathological liar who I found out came from a very messed up family. She took me on vacation with her two sisters, her oldest sisters boyfriend and her father....
August 14th, 2016
You Were My Friend
Only 15 and happy to be seeing you after I had been on vacation for awhile. You and another friend of mine who was a girl. I was tired for I had not slept well the night before. We were all in your room eating nachos and watching tv just...
January 5th, 2015
Stolen Innocence
My mother and father got divorced when I was two years old. My mother was a single mom with two kids so she was always working trying to make ends meet and making sure we had food in our tummies. I admire my mother for this. My father remarried, had...
February 9th, 2015
Dating For 10 Months When…
Hello, whoever may be reading this. I am 16 years old and I feel like it’s time to share my story for anyone that’s willing to listen. I have a boyfriend, he is 18 years old and to me he was great for the most part. We had been dating...
February 22nd, 2018
April 8th, 2016
This date changed my life. This was the date that lifted the rug, and uncovered all of the ill, suppressed memories and emotions that I had brushed under it. This was the date that opened my eyes to the exact number of times that I had been sexually assaulted: 6....
August 3rd, 2017
Did I ask for it?
I am 22 and I am a survivor of 2 sexual assaults. The first takes place when I was young, perhaps around 5 or 6. My mum had gone out for the evening with a friend and so she had asked another of her friends to babysit for her. I...
August 6th, 2015
When Is Rape Actually Rape?
It is very hard for me to share my story with the world. For the first time in eleven years I’ve decided to share it with others. There is a couple of people who knows little about it, but none has ever gotten the full story. I’ve kept my story...
October 22nd, 2015
Rape at Bogota, Colombia
Sueño / Recuerdo I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of...
July 31st, 2016
I Woke Up In The Tub
I woke up in the bathtub. With the shower running. My socks were on. My underwear between my legs. The alarm was going off. Something was wrong. Besides the socks. Besides the underwear. Besides the shower and the tub. Besides the pain. Don’t think about the pain. Something was wrong....
September 15th, 2017
Online dating
I have been raped three times in my life. Once was with a boyfriend in high school when I was 17. His sexual preferences changed as ours all do, but mine stayed the same and we didn’t like the same things anymore. But that didn’t stop him from getting what...
December 17th, 2014
What If I Make You?
There is no short way to tell this story. There is no condensed version of the pain I’ve felt every day since 10:26pm, October 10th, 2011. I know very few will read this, but I also know that I wouldn’t be able to stand telling my story one more time,...
July 1st, 2016
The Cliche
Rape is an ugly word. Short, finite, guttural. The word reflects its own nature, the lasting impact a few moments can have on your life. And yet often so many of us refuse to use it. For so many years I did. Because I thought of rape as an extreme...
October 31st, 2015
Life Is Rough
Hi my name is Susan. I live in NY as I have most of my life. I saw Brave Miss World on Netflix and finally felt I need to at least in some way share a glimpse of my abuse. My father was a severe drinker he always had a...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
February 26th, 2018
At the Movie’s
We were into each other. I thought. We were “talking” for about a month until we decided to go on a date. Although we were only talking for a month, we were freshman in high school and curious. Our texts got a little sexual at times. But that was all....
September 18th, 2014
You Were Suppose To Protect Me
I was…young. Five or six when my brother raped me. I didn’t know what was going on. He had just pulled me into this small hallway that connected the bedroom hallway and kitchen. He had pulled out his penis and told me to touch it. Told me to pump it...
September 7th, 2018
And It Continues
I’m 22 years old. The first time i was molested I was six years old. Over the years I was molested several more times by different people. Almost as if people could see an invisible target on my back that meant I was easy prey. Each time I vowed that...
January 31st, 2016
What Was I Thinking?
I was 14 when I was raped. I lied to my parents about sleeping over at a friend’s house and instead my (now ex) boyfriend picked me up. We had fun and drank and had a party. After about 10p.m. he got high, I went to a room and locked...
I felt so nasty, hurt and betrayed. I didn’t even know him. He didn’t even know me but he’s been inside me. I was walking home in when this man popped up out no where asking for money. I’m only 13, I have no money, so of course I said...
November 15th, 2016
Victim No More
As a child i grew up in an abusive household. My mother and father were both heavy substance users and I was exposed to a lot of violence ever since birth. Quite frankly, my rape was inevitable. I was only just 12 at the time, first year of high school....
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
June 3rd, 2014
My Boyfriend Raped Me
My story I think is quite long, this is the first time I am writing it. I was raped, many times I do not know the number exactly, by my boyfriend of two years. I only realized it was rape after months in therapy trying to come to terms with...
September 7th, 2015
University Bar
I was in my university student bar with a friend visiting from home- we had decided to let loose one final time before exams and got incredibly drunk. Upon arriving at the ‘Club Night’ in my SU we were waiting at the bar and met some guys. From what I...
October 28th, 2015
Blindsided
Hello, my name is Andrea If you would have told me 8 months ago that I would be sharing this story and presenting these facts to you, I would not have believed you- not for one moment! But let me start with a bit of my history…. 10 years ago,...
June 14th, 2015
The Same Effect
On several occasions, from when I was 7 up to last year (nothing yet this year) I have had to get out of situations that would have ended in rape, all different circumstances. The ones I experienced when I was around seven, were by young girls that I feel equally...
March 19th, 2018
Quarterly Review
As my 1st job, I was working at a chain store while going to school, and supporting my Mother through her cancer treatments. We had some assistance, but not enough to cover bills and food, much less rent. I needed the job. The manager TJ knew I was hard up...
February 19th, 2015
The Setup
Growing up I was always a good church girl. Never cursed,n ever had sex, never did a lot of things. Until I turned 16, and began experimenting with opiates. I became an addict. To this day, my mouth still waters when thinking about a day in bed with a nice...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
October 25th, 2016
Sexual Assault
My name is Brandon. My story starts 23 years ago at the age of 3. I was molested by my brother who was 13 and our mother walked in on 1 incident. My mother seemed more traumatized by the event than I was. Constantly pushing on me to, “press charges”...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
February 12th, 2015
My Rape Story
As a child, I was raped multiply times by my own uncle. Just this past summer, something happened to me and I finally decided I should tell someone about it. It was scary. I always thought that it was my fault and I still blame myself till this day. But,...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
I had met this guy through my brother in law. Since I had met him he sexually assaulted me before but I ended up liking him & went on a date with him. We were at a party & I had a few glasses of wine. The same night I...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
May 26th, 2017
I am a survivor and got over...
Hi my name is Sienna, I’m 14. I was raped about two years ago. My brothers best friends little brother, he was my crush for so long. Finally he talked to me and then we started talking to each other. We met up at the Rec center next to me....
November 16th, 2014
He Was My Best Friend
I have a hard time accepting the fact that what happened to me happened to ME. I always told myself that I would never let anyone treat me the way that he had. He was my best friend for three years before we started dating. He had been through some...
December 20th, 2017
Date rape
The beginning of my last relationship was amazing… It all started when we first meet my freshman year… I really liked him and we have known each other our whole lives. One day, we were hanging out and he’s like, “Would you like to go on a date with me?”...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
March 12th, 2016
Siblings
I was 10 when my mom got married her and my dad were together for 15 years then all of a sudden broke up when I was about 6. I was there only child and my mom was pregnant by my step dad who had an older son that came...
December 27th, 2014
Twice
The first time I was sexually assaulted I was 17. I went to my friends house because that was where the people I hung out with usually were on an average day. There were several children that lived In the house so I was friends with a female and a...
March 6th, 2014
In Denial of My Rape
When I was fifteen and sixteen, I was in an abusive relationship. He raped me four times, and had me convinced that it wasn’t rape because we were together. He would tell me things like, “I love you so much. I just couldn’t help it.” and “Don’t you love me?...
November 2nd, 2016
Scared Like Crazy
I have never been raped but, I’ve been scared of being raped since I was 14. That’s 7 years of living in fear. My college’s campus is pretty safe but whenever I hangout with my guy friends outside of baseball practice (I’m the team’s #1 fan and photographer) or the...
July 28th, 2014
הטרידו אותי
היי לינור קודם כל אני חייבת להגיד שראיתי את הסרט שלך אולי מאות פעמים וכל פעם אני מתרגשת מחדש. אני בת 13 ולפני כמה ימים הטרידו אותי וזה לא יוצא לי מהראש זה הלך ככה הלכתי עם חברה שלי לקניון ואז איש מבוגר פנה אלי ואמר לי שיש לי יופי...
December 18th, 2014
You Must Acknowledge
For some reason I still can’t come out and say that what happened to me was rape even if everything in me says it was. I often refer to it as a “passive sexual assault” even though friends I’ve told about it have all said that it was rape. I...
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
May 29th, 2017
The Friendship I Always Never Wanted
Denny* and I had a turbulent relationship. We had fun, so much fun – until 2009 began to unfold. Surviving Black Saturday traumatized Denny. His uncle had committed suicide a month earlier. He was experiencing his first hardships as an adult, and I was too young and naïve to see...
March 1st, 2018
Someday Soon
Sometimes the people you should trust are the ones to fear. I grew up in a family full of emotional and physical abuse. As a child I would be stripped naked in winter to lay on tiled floors, have wooden spoons and hair brushes broken through beatings, be tied in...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
November 28th, 2017
Surpris à la Maison
A week after my marriage, I had moved into Pantin, outside Paris, with his mother and son. I had my premier day at new occupation. I remove my stockings, and wanted food. My stepson grappled me to my knees. After a fight, I felt him enter inside me. He only...
January 3rd, 2014
Drugged and Raped at Age 14
I was something of a “wild child” in my teenage years. I grew up in the Los Angeles area and fell in love with live music at a very young age. My mom wouldn’t allow me to go out to any concerts, and we had a venue with lots of...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
October 16th, 2016
My Sister, My Best Friend & Me
I grew up very aware of the consequences of teenage girls, alcohol, and teenage boys. My parents adopted my older sisters Hayleigh and Vanessa from Spain. They were told they couldn’t have kids, but 14 years after they adopted the girls, they had me. When Vanessa was sixteen she was...
July 8th, 2014
I Still Blame Myself
It goes back to November 2013. I cheated on my long-term boyfriend. He didn’t find out until February of 2014. However, one of the first people I told was a male I met on my Birthright trip to Israel. I feel because I told him I cheated, he thought I...
November 29th, 2015
Justice Didn’t Help Me
I am 19 years old, when I was raped I was 16. This year in may the man was found, it was a long process but two weeks ago after a week long court case he was sentenced to 16 years in jail, it was unanimous from the jury and...
February 13th, 2014
Impact of Screening
Last night, I along with a couple of friends, went to the screening Brave Miss World. I had actually seen it in Ventura but totally shut down because I was in the middle of the criminal investigation for my rape. My story, briefly, is I am a psychotherapist and as...
December 10th, 2013
יש חיים אחרי אונס
שלום לכולן, אני בחורה חוזרת בתשובה מזה ארבע שנים .. בגיל 15 בערך עברתי אונס ע”י מציל .. שהיה באמצע שנות העשרים שלו.. לא הצלחתי לדבר שלוש עשרה שנים .. לא הצלחתי להגדיר לעצמי .. עברת עכשיו אונס .. אז שתקתי.. אבל הפצע לא מוכן להישאר בנפש ובגוף .. הוא...
September 30th, 2017
My Best Friend’s Brother
A few months ago, back in February, I went through something I can’t ever forget. A little backstory, about a year ago in October, my boyfriend of a little over a year left me after telling me he wanted to marry me. I obviously was devastated and didn’t handle it...
June 2nd, 2023
He Was Saving Me From Me
I thought I wasn’t worth it Suicide I kept escaping it Depression, the shadow i hid in Screaming:: When will this mental illness end Couldn’t find someone to truly call a friend Felt like i lost my wind I was self destructing, didn’t know what it was like to be...
May 19th, 2016
He Was My Friend
At 13, I was already drinking, smoking cigarettes and weed, which isn’t uncommon where I’m from. Also, at age 13 I became friends with a 22 year old stoner through a mutual friend. He’d ask me to come over to his house to smoke and I’d say yes, but I...
September 26th, 2018
Being weak or stupid
It’s almost 2 years since I last sent my story here about me being ADHD and dyslexic, my horrific mom and my grandpa and his friends who did those things but this is not about them. This is another experience. Another hi to abuse So as stated above I have...
January 23rd, 2015
So Now What?
Upon finding this site, all I have to say is I believe that in this world there is only one solution to rape, pedophiles, and all that nasty shit that goes on, and that is death. Those filthy rats that are human cannot be forgiven, and for those who oppose...
April 2nd, 2017
A Letter To The Man Who Stole...
o the man who stole my life: If I knew the day that I met you what kind of person you really were, I would have never acknowledged your presence. We grew up in church together and I admired you for years from afar. I always wondered what it would...
April 21st, 2016
I Didn’t Even Know Him
A couple of years ago back when I was in my senior year of high school some of my friends convinced me to go to this party. It was the last and first party I will ever go to. I didn’t plan to have any drinks at this party. All...
October 20th, 2015
Made in America
My name is Ciaran. I was raped when I was 16 while at the concert made in america, a boy who was friends with my ex boyfriend took advantage of me. I was upset since me and my boyfriend had just broken up that day so I took to the...
December 16th, 2016
Confused by Rape
I would like to start by saying the recent rape is indeed all of my fault and i now feel completely disgusting and hate myself. And please try to understand where I’m coming from before judging me too badly…. I had a hard time with love and figuring it out....
June 13th, 2018
Today, I Let It All Go
My rapist- is what I called him. But I refuse to take ownership of him. I refuse to take the blame for actions. I refuse to hold on to the guilt. Today, I let it all go. My story begins in a high school biology class. A seemingly harmless flirtation,...
September 21st, 2017
I don’t know who I am
25 years old and have been in and out of therapy for the past 10 years. I am diagnosed with CPTSD, Dissociative identity disorder, and severe major depressive disorder with suicidal tendencies. I grew up in a broken home where my mom would beat me every night and leave me...
October 31st, 2014
Bringing the Stories to Light
I am so grateful for the bravery and commitment to change that Linor has demonstrated. When watching Brave Miss World I was moved by her courage. I have been in contact with Linor and the Brave Miss World team because I am also working toward ending the silence of rape...
April 15th, 2017
Exposing Rapists – A Poem
You will never be free Dark is your secret Whatever you do Whoever you become However you dress That secret will turn acidy Drown it with beer Bury it in anger Throw yourself into work Grow your beard Marry the best Protect your daughters Still it will eat your insides...
December 18th, 2015
Growing Past Just Surviving
I grew up in an abusive household with an alcoholic father. Our daytime seemed the perfect middle class, church going family where all was polite, well and peaceful. Our night times where a living nightmare. My father became a different man drunk. I grew up physically and sexually abused, although...
June 17th, 2015
I Was Only a Child
I was only a child. I was 10 years old, at a New Years party, with my friend and dad. Out of nowhere a man approached me. He started talking like we were old friends. He knew my name. He said he was a partner of a kid at my...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
March 24th, 2014
Domestic Rape is Real
For many a couple of decades I have denied to myself that a husband can rape his wife but I’ve always known that is exactly what happened. He was angry that I’d been a “bitch” and that was all the excuse that he needed. I am not sure I will...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
December 4th, 2017
Verbal Abuse and Attempted Rape – A...
You think you’ve found one of the most charming men you’ve ever met. He’s handsome and his initial personality will melt you. He wants to spend every single day with you, is very affectionate, gets you little gifts, sends you an adorable quote first thing every single morning along with...
September 5th, 2010
גבר אלים וחולני
לקראת גיל 15 התחלתי לצאת עם בחור שהיה גדול ממני בשנה, לאחר חודשיים בערך ביחד הייתה בנינו מריבה מטופשת במהלך המריבה הוא נהייה אלים כלפי זאת הפעם הראשונה בעצם שהוא הרים עליי יד, הביא לי סטירה שהפילה אותי על הריצפה וכשאני שוכבת על הרצפה הביא לי מכה חזרה בבטן עם...
March 16th, 2018
I lost myself before I even knew...
I was six years old the first time I ever felt as if my body was no longer mine. Six years old, I lost the pure innocence you often see in young children playing in playgrounds. At six years old, you don’t understand what this means or what he’s doing....
August 9th, 2016
The Night My Life Changed
I felt so lost and alone. It was so scary. My “friends” we’re having a party in one of the dorms so I thought I would go to hang out. It was cool in the beginning no pressure. Just drinking and eating and having a good time. Until things turned...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
August 3rd, 2017
Did I ask for it?
I am 22 and I am a survivor of 2 sexual assaults. The first takes place when I was young, perhaps around 5 or 6. My mum had gone out for the evening with a friend and so she had asked another of her friends to babysit for her. I...
September 14th, 2016
So Many Times
I was always told how kind I was. Since a young age everyone told me that I had a kind heart. I feel like that’s the reason I have been taken advantage of so many times in my life. My kind heart made me vulnerable and naive to people who...
April 9th, 2018
Two Times
I have been raped 2 times in total, both in the same place, both by strangers. The first time was hang rape, they chased after me pinned me down and took turns with me. They told me it was my fault for wearing a skirt that showed some of my...
September 15th, 2017
Online dating
I have been raped three times in my life. Once was with a boyfriend in high school when I was 17. His sexual preferences changed as ours all do, but mine stayed the same and we didn’t like the same things anymore. But that didn’t stop him from getting what...
September 1st, 2014
Remember November
November 1st of 2013, my two friends were having a Halloween birthday party. Halloween is/was my favorite holiday but now it only brings bad memories to the surface. I was 19 years old and at my friends’ party only holding a solo cup full of water. I did not drink...
June 23rd, 2014
When I Was 8 Years Old
It is a miracle I am alive. I come from a family in which my step mother and father molested, raped and raised me behind closed doors with the secret of rape… Among the dinner parties with friends and family around.. my brother and I suffered in silence. We had...
April 15th, 2014
A Journal of a Wayward Child
I have a long history of abuse and rape in my family and myself (44 years for me) and would like to have the opportunity to share my story with women around the world. Forgiveness has been the first step in healing and am now in a woman’s shelter beginning...
October 21st, 2017
My experience as an intern in highschool
I was a senior at Towson High School in 1970. I was allowed to be an intern for half the day in my chosen interest. I was a member of DECCA, and did well, so I spent half the school day at the Towson Times, a member at the time...
January 23rd, 2017
Co-worker
This happened recently and I’m not sure if it was rape or not. But I want to share this. I was mad at a guy I’m seeing for dumb reasons. I ignored him all day at work. Our coworker asked me for a ride home. I complied. As I’m driving...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
July 11th, 2016
A Ruined Life
I was 12 yrs old walking home from a friends house at night I was 2 blocks from my home when a man approached me and asked for a cigarette, I said I dont have one and started to walk a little faster, he then asked if I had a...
February 14th, 2017
I Thought I Was Safe
It was sophomore year of college and I was so happy to move back on campus. It had never occurred to me that with the independence and freedom I found in college, there also came many things I needed to be aware of that could compromise my safety. I was...
July 27th, 2016
Lightening Does Strike Twice
I’ve been raped twice. One left left me bruised, one didn’t leave a mark. Both hurt the same. When I was 16 I got a boyfriend. He was older, and cool, and in a band. He took me to parties, and gave me weed, and made me feel cool, too....
January 24th, 2016
I Feel So Betrayed
February 20, 2015 for days before my 17th birthday. I got picked up by my cousins boyfriend to babysit their one year old. They drank and smoked marijuana and he had made mix me a drink. Their taxi came and got them and I was then left alone staying up...
November 26th, 2017
Amusement Park
I’m sharing this today because it’s something I’ve told to only three people in my entire life. It feels liberating, knowing that I will be able to get it all out without people knowing who I am. It was at an amusement park, I know that. But I don’t remember...
I climbed onto the tall charter bus, juggling my backpack and suitcase. I realized that I must have been running late; all the seats around my best friends were full. My eyes quickly darted around for an empty seat. He smiled at me from the middle of the bus –...
July 18th, 2014
The Elevator Man
He knew me. I was a passenger in his elevator frequently, as my best friend lived in the building that was just a few blocks away from mine on the upper west side of New York City. That day, en route to my best friend’s apartment, he closed the elevator...
November 21st, 2016
Exploitation Was My Lifestyle
When I was 14, my parents got a divorce because my mom had an affair. her boyfriend moved in with us and I just wanted to be away from home. always. i had older sisters but they had moved out to college. i was alone. my mother was too busy...
March 30th, 2016
From Scared Girl to Strong Mother
Though I’m sure I experienced some type of sexual abuse as a child younger than 6, I cannot recount those memories. I do recall being overly sexual by the time I was 6 years old. I do, also, recall hating being around my aunts boyfriend (who I later found out...
March 8th, 2016
Girl Raped By a Girl
Hi Linor, hi everybody, I was looking for a movie to watch tonight on Netflix and I found Linor’s documentary by coincidence (does coincidence exist? Linor would say that’s it’s God path, she is maybe right). I have been very touched by her project, her story, what she made with...
July 31st, 2015
Life of Trauma
When I was 5 I was adopted with my brother and sister. That’s when the abuse started. There are a lot of memories that I have blacked out but I can’t get rid of everything. The abuse started with me since I was the oldest. At that time I just...
I just saw the documentary and can’t stop crying… I was molested as a child by a driver who worked for my family. He would run errands for my grandmother and I would come along (I was 6 or 7) because I loved the car ride. One night he parked...
December 18th, 2015
My Story
I was raped when I was sixteen at a party. The party was hosted by my best friends boyfriend at his aunts home. Everyone was drinking heavily. After some hours of drinking I attempted to take myself to a safe place to rest. I was very drunk but my brain...
May 8th, 2017
I called him my friend
It was a dated function. This guy was my friend. I showed up, and was given lots of vodka. Thats all I remember. I woke up. 4am. I’m in his bed, with his clothes on. I turned over and saw him there, staring at me. He climbed on top of...
November 22nd, 2014
Supporting Sisters
This film has touched me so profoundly. My older sister was raped when I was 18 and she was 20. I know realize I need to open the door to her talking about it if she chooses to do so. So many layers to be explored. Thank you, thank you,...
June 8th, 2016
#IStandWithHer
May 7th, 2013. A day that will forever stick in my mind as the worst day of my life. I was a junior at the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign. I had completed my last final of junior year and was excited to see what senior year had to offer. These...
October 25th, 2014
Date Rape Drug
I am 67 now. In 1984 my younger sister met a man and he drugged her with a date rape drug. Her story was like so many I have heard. She woke up naked and didn’t know how she had gotten there. She was horrified. She knew she had been...
August 28th, 2016
Bleeding Through My Tears
When I was four years of age, my maternal grandfather orally raped me. I have taken many years to remember the trauma and many more years to heal. It is an ongoing process, I am winning, however not without Gods help. He, walks this journey with me and comforts me...
August 30th, 2017
High School Orientation
I was at freshman orientation of high school and I was a little lost, the only other person in the hall was a senior who was wearing a Hoodie and he seemed kinda nice, I always give everyone the benefit of the doubt so I didn’t think anything about him....
March 1st, 2015
He Was My Dad
I have 17 years old and I was raped by my dad, this happen just a few months ago before new year. Please forgive me if my English is bad I am from Costa Rica that means that I speak Spanish so this is my story. He is not my...
Last year was really hard for me.. I was into a lot of drugs due to my past and I was living in a group home at the time and this girl I lived with told me her boyfriend was picking us up and we were going to go drink...
March 25th, 2016
Tormented
I lost my virginity when I was 14, I was with my best friend at the time, we met up with one of her friends who was 21. he had problems I even think he was on drugs I’m not entirely sure. Anyways they both decided that it was my...
May 17th, 2015
Incapacitated Still
When I was about 6 or 7 years old one me and my oldest first cousin male who is 7 years older then me was play wrestling. Then he said let me do something… At this point he started hunching me from behind. It went on for a little while...
May 3rd, 2016
Working Through It
I am currently going through counseling at the and think that it would be helpful to tell my story. I was on a night out, and I was drunk. I was talking to this guy and he seemed cute and nice. We ended up at a house party and I...
March 15th, 2018
My Interview
On the way to any job interview, how many of you thought through every Nightmare Scenario you could on the way there, Raise your Hands! The ones with their hands down are called Liars! On this day, I went, early of course. Went into the Ladies, to check makeup, use...
June 9th, 2016
School Does Not Care
When I was in 8th grade there was this kid who i sat next to in my English class. He would always constantly touch me and it would happen every single day. I would feel sick to my stomach whenever he would touch me and I remember writing in my...
July 2nd, 2014
A Man I Looked To As A...
I have never told anyone the details or the fact I was molested and my husband knows any a few facts. I remember bits and pieces because either I wanted to block it out or the fact I was young around 4th grade. The pieces I can remember are laying...
April 22nd, 2016
A Beautiful Trap
When you start dating someone you think you like it feels amazing. I still remember the first time I thought I was in love with my ex. He picked me up and said “It’s me and you tonight, what would you like to do KaylaMay?” I thought he was so...
This happened to me last year (2016). At the time I was going through a messy divorce (I had been married for 11 years) and met a guy. At first he was very sweet, funny, and charming. He saw how much I was hurting over my divorce and cheered me...
December 18th, 2015
My Rape Story
When I was eight my older brother began touching me inappropriately. At first I thought it was ok, normal, so I thought I wanted him to. Sometimes I would ask him to but I was 8 so I didn’t know what it’s was we where doing. He should have said...
October 1st, 2016
My Not So Happy Birthday
I have ADHD and dyslexia.. Too bad of a combination.. As what those people who did it to me would say who would believe me when I’m not normal I was really hard to raise because well I’m not normal that’s why mom keeps hitting me..I could not forget it...
February 17th, 2017
Hated Myself
I was 15 years old when I came from school waiting for a taxi to go home. Normally that taxi spot is always busy but that specific day there was a witness with no one in site when suddenly 3 guys came from across the road making as if they...
April 11th, 2017
Childhood Trauma
When I was 5 to 7 years old some one I don’t know who touched me hit me and just plain abused me I know it was a guy and now I’m scared of guys and don’t know what to do. — Janae, age 12
November 27th, 2014
Use and Throw
I was in love with a man whom I thought had the most purest soul on earth. His initial hesitation to propose me or even kiss me made me fall for him over and over again. We worked in the same office so it was quite natural for us to...
August 30th, 2016
Losing My Virginity to a Campus Rape
My first night out at the bars in college was one that began with much excitement and anticipation. It was a freedom that I had never felt before. I felt old. I was in a new place with people who had absolutely no opinions of me. I was ready to...
October 14th, 2016
Assault, Battery, and Rape
I am a 72-year-old woman, an RN for about 50 of those years Army Nurse Corps vet. I was/am not so beautiful nor smart, nor sexy/seductive. In my life I have been the victim of simple assault, sexual assault, simple battery, and sexual battery. Two of those were attempts. Two...
October 19th, 2015
College Campus Rape
I was a freshman in college. I was attending a college and living at home, but a friend of mine went to a school out of town and lived on campus. I decided to visit with her for one night. She took me to a party where I met a...
September 18th, 2016
Abused By My Cousin and Uncle
I think growing up, I was sexually assaulted by my my cousin as well as my uncle, but sometimes I often ask myself if it was really sexual abuse OR not. When I was younger, about 7-8 I lived in a house with my mom, aunt, uncle, and cousins. I...
June 14th, 2017
Molested by Cousin
It’s starting to get hard to remember, but I’ll do my best to piece the story together. When I was young, maybe 6-8, I was very close with my second cousin who is two years younger. We would go up to his room, and I remember always being impressed because...
June 22nd, 2018
The same guy
To describe this experience in words is probably one of the hardest things someone could ask of me. How am I suppose to describe to people what I felt and make them understand it when I don’t even know that for myself. With that being said I will state the...
When my siblings and I were little, we were molested by a man that forced himself into our lives. My oldest brother was 9, other brother was 5 my sister was 3 and I was two. This man was a guy my mom knew from the bar down the street...
May 15th, 2018
Someone so close to me
This only happened a year ago. My uncle who always would make sexual comments to me from age 6-still today raped me. We had this cookout where we invited our family and my uncle came. About halfway through I went to go use the bathroom and he cornered me and...
July 1st, 2014
7th Grade Assault
I am in 10th grade. 15 years old. It has been 3 years since my rape. I was 13, in 7th grade, still figuring myself out. During this time, I was going to a new school, a high school and middle school combined. I had recently been fitted for hearing...
It was the first day of my job interview. I had gotten an early scholarship for college when I was 15 and I finished it by 20. I’m now 25 and still can’t forget my rape story. It was terrifying. The guy who was the interviewer told me that getting...
November 6th, 2016
Alcohol Convinced Me It Was My Fault,...
‘ve never spoke out about this to anyone. I have been raped twice. During the summer of 2016, I went on holiday to my parents house in Spain with a few of my girlfriends. It was my first major holiday without my parents but I knew the place very well...
October 2nd, 2015
My Story
I need to tell you guys about something significant that happened in my life. I hope you all will read this. What happen to me happen to a lot more people than we think because what happens to me happens to four-fifths of the population has experienced the same thing...
October 4th, 2017
I thought he was a friend
This year I started my first year of uni and there was this guy in one of my classes he was an exchange student, and we became study partners, and I was helping him understand Aussie culture. After the mid-tri break second day back he asked to come over to...
May 27th, 2015
My Religious Teacher
I was in the third grade almost 9-10 years old. Just like normal children I played outside – football, dodge ball, swimming, riding. I lived in an army area in Gujranwala, a city in Pakistan. Since its traditional and important for Muslim children to learn arabic my parents had hired...
July 7th, 2014
We All Have a Voice
This is very hard for me to write this but after just watching this movie it brought me to tears and I realize now that more people need to speak out about this. When I was in grade 9, 13 years old, I was brutally raped by 2 men that...
December 22nd, 2016
Police Officer/Date Rape
I was wondering what is the point of living anymore? Where to go and what to do when the police, lawyers, and judges are protecting a rapist because his daddy knows them all? They tell you to move on, talk to somebody, blah blah blah like I have not done...
June 25th, 2014
The Pastor of My Church
I was 16 years old and still a virgin. He did not rape me – but he tried to. He engineered being alone with me by dropping other members of our church group off before me. He knew my father had just died & that mother was now an alcoholic...
April 10th, 2018
A person to trust became my worst...
It was supposed to be one of the most exiting weeks of my life, a step into adult-hood i had dreamed about all of summer. Freshers week. The week everyone is supposed to let go of all inhibitions and have an amazing time with new friends and people who you...
March 15th, 2017
It’s still happening
This past December I was raped by a guy from my school. I went to his place and he raped me on his couch 4 separate times. I didn’t know where I was and neither was I able to use my phone because it had died. 2 months later, my...
August 7th, 2014
I Am Beautiful Now
It all transpired the summer that I turned 16. This was a rough summer for me already, as it was also the summer that I had started menstruating. That’s a hard time even without having experienced such ugly things. I was a late bloomer, and embarrassed at how late a...
November 19th, 2017
Junior Prom
Asked out to Junior Prom is supposed to be Great, am I wrong? This guy was not my choice, and I mainly went to, basically Go. I was in a new dress, hair, and lots of make-up. We had a dismal time there. He said a lot of creepy things....
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
October 4th, 2016
It Happened More Than Once
I was a rape victim for 4 years for two different people, here is my story. When I was 10 years old my mom had a good friend named Pearl, was like an aunt to my younger sister and I and like a sister to my mom so we called...
October 22nd, 2014
After 14 Years
I wasn’t stabbed, beaten, or even hurt. There were no marks on my body. Two and a half years after it happened, the police officer, detective, and lawyer to whom I told my story all believed me and were respectful and empowering. In so many ways, I have been lucky....
February 10th, 2018
Is Healing Possible?
I don’t know why I’m writing this here, I probably should have written it in my diary like I use to. I was sexually assaulted when I was a child, molestations most times, attempted gang rapes sometimes. I succeeded in blocking out the memories throughout my teenage years but the...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
August 27th, 2014
He Was My Boyfriend
Sometimes I have a hard time saying that what happened to me was rape. I feel like it takes away from legitimate experiences of it and that I’m just being stupid. But what better place to talk about it than here, right? I was 20 years old and he was...
February 3rd, 2018
It was not my fault
While I sit here trying to find the words to my story it is still difficult to talk and think about it. I am now 23 years old, and everything happened when I was 15, actually around the same time of the year as I am writing this. It took...
July 8th, 2014
Impacted Forever
I was a private duty nurse taking care of a very critical patient. I was very foolish and trusted the Son that lived in the home. He was very kind and caring. I had been working there for over 6.5 months. One day the Son and 2 friends came in...
February 8th, 2018
But what really happened?
Last week I had decided to go on a night out with a few of my friends. Being 19, clubbing and alcohol is a hobby of mine, I did what I usually do and just go with the flow of the night. We had started off at the pub, I...
December 7th, 2017
Youth Sexual Harrassment
Everybody always talks about how when they got to their 16, 17, 18, and 19 years, and how they faced sexual harassment almost daily, but no one ever talks about how it starts much sooner. I’ve been experiencing sexual harassment since at least fourth grade. In fourth grade (I went...
April 14th, 2017
Memories
My life have been a real roller coaster ride that I wish would end but I’m starting to deal with the pain. When I was about 3 or 4 I can remember my uncle sexually touching me and kissing me I don’t remember him penetrating me, though I can remember...
January 6th, 2015
An Intruder
I haven’t spoken about this since my trial 22 years ago. My husband doesn’t know the details and after watching Brave Miss World today, I knew by the tears streaming down my face that it was time. I was with my friend one night at a bar, we met a...
August 1st, 2015
Childhood Abuse
I don’t know how to say this. But I’ve just started to have memory’s come back to me bits and pieces. I am 14 years old and a girl. My step sister would come over to visit,she is a year older than me. She would always wanna play games like...
January 27th, 2018
Set Up
This is crazy because this is the first time I’ve ever publicly talked about it. Not even many of my friends know. I always say “something transpired in college.” It’s my way of not dealing with it. Well, by the subject I’m sure you’re wondering what I mean by set...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
November 28th, 2014
Naive and Vulnerable
I was working in a hotel in a remote holiday village where he was the bouncer on the nights that the night club attached to the hotel was open. He was not the stereotypical bouncer. He was relatively small, average build and not threatening-looking. It was obvious he was there...
July 26th, 2015
That Night
This is my story. I have never told anybody about this so specific as I´m about to now. Because of a very turbulent and sad years when I was teenager this episode has always been put away in my mind. Until I saw the documentary “Brave Miss World”. I am...
March 15th, 2017
It’s still happening
This past December I was raped by a guy from my school. I went to his place and he raped me on his couch 4 separate times. I didn’t know where I was and neither was I able to use my phone because it had died. 2 months later, my...
May 28th, 2015
The First Time
I don’t remember being a virgin, that was stolen from me before I knew what it was or meant. My first experience with sexual violence was at the age of four, by the son of the Minister of our Church. When I appeared sobbing and screaming in front of my...
April 27th, 2015
An Uber Driver Raped Me
Four months ago I was raped by an Uber driver. I went to a party with my friends and decided to go home so I asked a friend to call an Uber for me, since I didn’t had the app, and when I saw a car stop in front of...
December 5th, 2017
I should’ve tried harder to stop it
It was a year and 4 months ago, on my 16th birthday. I was at a house party of one of my good friends at the time and I was very, very drunk (how cliché of me)! When we first got there, our bags were put in a bedroom, so...
April 22nd, 2018
My cousins friend
Back in 2013 probably end of summer, hard to recall because it’s all a blur, I was raped. I haven’t told the police nor my family about it as I was so ashamed and felt it was my fault. That night I was heavily drinking with my cousin for her...
August 16th, 2015
Raped At 15
I was raped at 15, I used to be friends with this boy on Facebook. We talked at school a lot and he always told me I was pretty. One day he asked me to come over his house. I said “sure” he wouldn’t hurt me. So, when I arrived...
January 25th, 2018
Too drunk to respond
I was living in a university dorm. I was 18. I had had too much to drink and my older next door neighbor had said that he would help me as I had cut my hand on glass. He took me into his room. He started to kiss me and...
March 21st, 2014
I Was Raped By My Dad
WHEN I WAS 7 YEARS OLD MY FATHER COME TO VISIT ME AND PSYCHICALLY HARASSED ME IN FRONT OF ALL THE NEIGHBORS AND MY MOTHER HE TOOK HIS 2 FINGERS AND PUT THEM INTO MY UNDERPANTS. I WAS STANDING WITH MY BECK TO HIM AND DIDNT UNDERSTAND what was happening...
February 28th, 2017
Hostage
For almost four years we were held hostage by two perpetrators, with my kids in Nevada. We learned first hand the meaning of torture, mental abuse, verbal abuse and sexual physical abuse. When you escape you think it’s over. The then DA didn’t show up for his job. So in...
June 22nd, 2014
Over 40 years Ago
I have been raped both by a stranger and on a date, both in my teen years. The stranger was giving me a ride and took a side road out into the woods. I was helpless to fight physically, so I just acted like it was ok and tried to...
As a young boy I was a very innocent, kind and caring person. I was always open to sharing myself with others. I was not raised by my mother and father, and my great aunt and uncle who raised me raised my mother when she was a little girl. So,...
October 1st, 2015
I Barely Knew Them
When I was 15, I went to the parade for my local fire department with my best friend. I was in good spirits, and the day seemed to be going well. As it was getting dark, my friend and I met this group of 4 guys in the park, and...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
April 6th, 2018
Was it rape if he’s my boyfriend?
In retrospect, we are a happy, normal couple. My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years, what feel like less. I love him and he adores me. He loves me. He respects me. I think? So I may have had too much to drink one night when the...
September 9th, 2014
Doctor Nightmares
I was 25 years old, in love with my boyfriend and living with him in an apartment. He was an artist, a sweet and wonderful man. I had moved to this new city with him, thinking that when he finished school we would get married and start a family as...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
December 6th, 2017
What now…?
Even as I write this I’m not sure what to do. Last spring I think I was sexually assaulted by my boyfriend of almost three years… We came back to my apartment after a party (he was sober and I was drunk), and went to bed pretty soon after that....
March 30th, 2010
Rape inside marriage is still rape…
I was married. I had a child. My husband was going through some midlife crisis of sorts. He drank more and more frequently in greater quantities. When he drank he wanted sex. I knew he didn’t want me because my weight repulsed him. And yet when he drank he wanted...
June 8th, 2016
#IStandWithHer
May 7th, 2013. A day that will forever stick in my mind as the worst day of my life. I was a junior at the University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign. I had completed my last final of junior year and was excited to see what senior year had to offer. These...
May 28th, 2015
The First Time
I don’t remember being a virgin, that was stolen from me before I knew what it was or meant. My first experience with sexual violence was at the age of four, by the son of the Minister of our Church. When I appeared sobbing and screaming in front of my...
August 16th, 2015
Never Wanted to Believe
My name is Jessica, i’m living in Belgium. I was 16 years old. He was my boyfriend for almost 1 year. I had a vaginal infection and my doctor prescribed also a cream for him, because she said that sometimes men could have like an infection which is not declared...
February 16th, 2017
Someone I Thought I Could Trust
It was summer 2016, I was 17 at the time almost 18. I was in karate for 7 years, I had quit when I was 13 or 14. By this time my mom was still going and I decided to go with her to watch. I saw a few people...
February 14th, 2018
Grandpa
I cant say how old i was when it started for sure. Ive been having nightmares alot lately about it. I have spoken to anyone professionally about it but I am considering it more and more these days. I can remember being really young and him licking my privates. Or...
November 21st, 2014
No Title Will Stop How I Feel
After watching Brave Miss World, I saw how strong victims have been. They’ve been able to share without feeling embarrassment and shame, which is what this movement has been about. I am not so brave as you all. I was molested as a child and stayed away from any human...
September 27th, 2018
Sexual assualt causes you not to be...
I meet this guy in 5th grade in summer school, I thought he was cool, awesome and amazing until the very last day he smackes my butt and I had to tell the teacher but the teacher wasn’t available, the assistant however I told her and the assistant went to...
February 5th, 2017
He’s Your Husband, It’s Not Rape
I was married and had 2 children. It was 1974, our children were 3 1/2 and 1 year old and we were both 24 when we separated and began divorce proceedings. I asked for $200 a month for child support no alimony. I was to keep all household items and...
June 20th, 2014
My Horrific Nightmare
Three years ago I was raped. I met a man who was a marine and had mutual friends. We hit it off and began dating. After two months he got out of the marine corp and moved back to his home of Reno, NV. Truthfully, I knew he had issues....
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 años. Viví una situación muy confusa cuando era niña casi 9 o 10 años. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentían con golosinas, ver televisión y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
September 27th, 2017
Stress
I have a peculiar form of anxiety paralysis. This started shortly after I started school, as I would stress over an upcoming placement test, I froze in place, unable to move or speak, though fully aware. It ends in about 20 minutes, and I am fine. I was transferred to...
I am a 23 y/o male. For the longest time, the memory of my rape remained untouched in the corners of my mind. I can’t quite remember the age that I was, but based on the context clues of my memory I would put myself around age 10. I had...
August 24th, 2009
חיה בשני עולמות מקבילים
מאיפה בכלל מתחילים לרשום את הסיפור שלי כשמרגישה שלא משנה כמה אני ירשום- זה פשוט לא יהיה מספיק. אני חיה בתוך הסוד הזה כבר שנים רבות- רבות מדי. אני בת 25, לאחרונה סיימתי את התואר הראשון שלי. למרות הכאב שאני חייה בחיי- לאורך השנים תמיד וידאתי שאת כל הכוחות שלי...
I was raped for two years. And that was only the first person. During that two years there were others who tried and one who succeeded. All of this happened before my 18th birthday. My first relationship began when I was 16, it only took him a week into it...
November 30th, 2016
My First Time Speaking Up
My mom met a man from Iran when I was about 6 years old. He was kind and funny and had a son my age. Everything went smoothly and I trusted this man with my life. My father was basically very much on the sideline and always had been so...
June 23rd, 2014
Virgin Rape
In 1971, I was groomed/tricked by a male student from Chicago’s south side who was at a community college located in southeastern Washington State on a football scholarship. I was 18. I came from an abusive home: my mother mentally, emotionally and physically abused me from my age of 2...
May 9th, 2018
Why does this keep happening to me?
I was about…6 I think. The first time it happened. My uncle was living with us after he came back from the islands. The first time he molested me was in our living room. It was in the middle of the night and I was watching a show, everyone were...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
August 23rd, 2015
Way Back in 1973
I was young and rebellious, and trying to find my way in a world where men didn’t love you. My father had left the family, but dutifully picked up my sisters and me every Saturday for 1.5 hours, as per the divorce court order. AT age 13 he beat me...
July 8th, 2016
Stranger Rape
When I was 19 years old, I was abducted at gun point by a stranger – forced into a car and raped. It was many many years ago and raped as I felt the gun against my temple. The car was impounded and dusted for fingerprints. Finally, I was able...
January 2nd, 2016
It Was Too Late
I had just turned 19 the first time it happened but that’s not the story that I want to talk about. The next day on Sunday night at 10 pm, after I checked my phone to see if my mom had texted me. I was raped by a friend that...
May 15th, 2017
Don’t Know What to Call What Happened
A couple months ago I was at a party with my friend. I didn’t expect to get as drunk as I did. I remember everything pretty clearly until I threw up. I do remember throwing up then heading to someone’s room to sleep because I was exhausted. I was just...
You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
February 1st, 2018
One in Four
I came into college knowing the horrifying statistics of rape, but I never thought that I would be the one in four. My night started like any other night of drinking and hanging out with my roommate, only this time our “friend” asked if he could come join us. We...
July 27th, 2015
Raped By My Therapist
I am a survivor of childhood abuse including sexual abuse by my father. In 1995, when I was 40 yrs of age, I started talking about the abuse to a social worker in my doctor’s office. He told me that he was the ex partner and father of the children...
April 14th, 2016
Letter to My Rapist
To you, You don’t know me, I don’t know you. No idea what you look like, but still, there you are. In my thoughts, in my dreams, in my life. A stranger, yet so close to me. Every day, every night. Especially at night, actually. I don’t even know your...
April 9th, 2016
Memories Are Back
It has not been a year since my father raped me, and everything changed since that day I did not return to be the same person I was before, I thought that maybe could get over act as if nothing had ever happened but I could, my mother took me...
March 21st, 2016
Freshman on Campus
It was my freshman year on campus. I was always shy and quiet but I always attracted guys. The wrong guys. I wanted that fairytale love. After my first big rivalry game on campus I said goodnight to my friends and started my walk back to my dorm. I met...
Although I was not raped until the age of 23 I need to start my story much earlier. When I was about 7 or 8, my older cousin, who was only one year older than me began touching me. At that age I don’t think I really understood what was...